#but then i'd have to include obi-wan and padme and obi-wan and ahsoka to be fair

[tennessoui]

emerging from a fugue state just in time for wip wednesday

Vokara Che sits down across the desk from him with a pinched expression on her face. “I was under the impression that Master Kenobi called for this appointment, Master Skywalker.”

He did. Or, more precisely, his healing portal account did. Which Anakin accessed and then used to type out a missive in his master’s voice requesting to meet as soon as possible.

“Right, well,” Anakin says, shifting in his seat. “Something came up.”

Che does not look impressed. “Be that as it may,” she says delicately, “I am unable to discuss a patient’s medical history with a third party if the third party is neither present at the time nor has given me direct permission to do so.”

Anakin stares, feeling the first flickerings of real, dangerous fury well up in his gut. “But,” he says carefully. “He’s still sick. He, uh. Told me about it. And then we found a solution. To the problem.”

“The problem,” Che repeats, tilting her head and looking at Anakin as if she’s intent on studying him. 

“The hanahaki,” he spits. It’s a disgusting word. It’s one of the worst words he’s ever learned, and he can’t believe she’s making him say it. He can’t believe she’s being so—so cold when he’s telling her that Obi-Wan is still ill, that Obi-Wan is still dying, that Obi-Wan needs to be here to see her and he’s not. “Look,” he adds, leaning forward in his chair, “a few months ago a series of files were uploaded accidentally to my healing portal, but they were notes from one of Obi-Wan’s appointments. They were your notes from Obi-Wan’s visit. I know you know I know.”

Vokara Che looks at him and then looks down at the datapaad in front of her, lips thinned and lekku twitching. “I must apologize then,” she says, swiping through the files in front of her until she finds something that she lingers on. Her fingers dance across the screen of the datapaad, then it goes dark. “For the breach in ethicacy that you and Master Kenobi both experienced because of the Halls of Healing. Thank you for bringing it to my attention, Master Skywalker. All files that were incorrectly uploaded have been deleted from your healing portal.”

Anakin looks at her and bites his cheek hard enough to bleed so that he doesn’t start screaming instead.

[phoenixyfriend]

* here defined as 'can be and possibly is shipped with the widest variety of other characters'

** originated in the prequels era, not necessarily shipped during the prequels era

this is a joke poll do not take it too seriously, I'd have included Mace and Kit and Shaak etc. but I ran out of slots

EDIT: I AM BEGGING YOU TO STOP USING THE WORD WH*RE ON THIS POST IT'S A SLUR AND I AM REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH HOW EASILY YOU PEOPLE ARE SLINGING IT AROUND

[virahaus]

The Hesitant Fiancée by August Toulmouche (1866).

Usually don't go there but this painting made me think of this so much I just couldn't shake the idea.

Thinking of Anakin as the girl in white (come on they have the same unsettling stare!), with Padme (or even Shimi could fit I think) kissing his brow and Obi-Wan on his knees caressing his hand. And if we want to include the fourth girl, I'd say to add Ahsoka as she severs her padawan braid 👀

I just feel good about this idea, it feels so fitting. If any artist want to take it off my hands, please do!

[mydarllinglover]

Stars Collided || Twenty

Previous

Lovisa, dressed in a new and clean pale pink dress, with a skirt that was puffy, but still kept her frame visible, it had no sleeves, and so she had paired it with a pair of matching gloves. She wore her hair in a half up, half down, braided bun, style, with two small braids flowing down it, leaving the rest of her curls to air dry, a tiara sat on top of her hair, for the first time in a week.

"I'll make sure to speak to Obi-Wan, soon enough, Snips" Lovisa told Ahsoka, as she stared into her mirror, running her hands down her dress.

"Lovey, there is no need to, I will stay here, as your handmaiden, and then we do not have to be separated from one another."

"Nonsense, you are to be a Jedi, you have the gift, there is no use of it here, or at least, untrained." She took her friends hands in hers. "Ahsoka, you have so much potential, and I believe in you, I will miss you terribly, but knowing what I know about you, and holding you back from it, I would hate myself, and I care more about you and what you can offer the universe, than what you can offer my image."

"Lovey." Ahsoka groaned, wrapping her arms around the Princess's neck, hugging her tightly, and Lovisa followed suit, hugging the girl back, tightly.

Eventually, Lovisa and Ahsoka had made it down to the lunch room, with Threepio walking alongside them both, where everyone had been waiting for her, including Obi-Wan, and Anakin.

"Lovisa, are you done throwing your tantrum?" Her mother asked, linking her fingers together, and resting her chin on them. “There are also to be no dogs, in the dining room.”

"Jobal, my love." Ruwee sighed.

Lovisa didn't reply, as she headed towards her seat, choosing the one next to Anakin.

He got up quickly, to pull it out for her, just as Colo had stepped forward.

But Anakin had been quicker, with a little help from the force, due to only having one arm, but he made sure to look smugly, at the Palace guard, as he pushed her chair back in.

"Thank you, Ani." Lovisa smiled kindly, at the boy, as he sat back down, Threepio had decided to lay down, underneath his owners chair, taking a nap, during their meal.

"Well, it is divine, to have our family united, again, and with two special guests, who helped save my daughter." Ruwee raised his glass, at the two Jedi, and Lovisa's brows had deepened.

"Thank you, your highness, but I fear I could not take any credit, on that, as it was the Princess, who fought bravely, in the arena, and took a stand, during the battle, for she had bested us all, with her skill, and even helped Miss Tano, from danger."

"Ahsoka, is this true?" Jobal faced the handmaiden, that was stationed to the wall, with the two others, waiting to be needed.

"It is, your majesty, if it weren't for Lovisa, I fear I would have been turned into beast chow." Ahsoka bowed her head, taking a step back, after addressing the queen.

"That is wonderful news, Lovey!" Ruwee applauded.

"That was very brave of you, my darling, and I am proud of you, I hope you know that." Jobal told her, earnestly. 

Lovisa ignored both her parents, choosing to look away, her arms folded over her chest.

"Master Kenobi, I was hoping to speak to you about a matter of importance, when you have a moment." Lovisa turned to the man.

"Uhm... of course, your highness, perhaps after lunch?" He offered.

"Yes, that will work."

"What's this about, Lovey?" Ruwee asked.

"Hm? Oh, nothing, don't you worry about it, maybe I'll let it slip in the future, but for now, I'd rather keep it from you." She took a sip from her glass.

"Lovisa, you are acting ridiculously childish, there was no ill intention, when we kept Padme and Senator Clovis's blossoming relationship, from you. You're dramatic, you get it from your father, but, being queen won't be awful, I do it, and you don't see me complaining, you will do a wonderful job."

"Except for the small fact, that my parents and sister lied to me! I am not dramatic, and I don't want to be queen!"

"Honey, we're not going anywhere, you won't be queen for a long time, and by then, you may be married, and have your own family, you'll grow mature, and things will change."

"Eurgh, poke my eye out with a fork." Lovisa rolled her eyes, taking another sip from her glass. "Padme, where is your drab of a fiancé?"

"If you must know, he's gone back home, to tell his own family the good news." Padme tried to keep her positive attitude, in front of the guests, instead of snapping at her younger sister, like she wished to.

"What, that they're finally becoming relevant." Lovisa scoffed.

"That's enough." Jobal told her.

"Finally, the food." Ruwee clapped his hands together, as the kitchen staff walked around the table, loading up their plates.

Anakin held his knife in his hand, attempting to cut up his food, with just the one utensil, but had ran into some trouble, though he tried to do it without anyone seeing or noticing.

But of course, Lovisa did.

"Here, let me." She said, in a soft voice, compared to how she had been speaking to her family, since she'd seen them.

"Thank you, Princess." He smiled, as she began to cut up his food.

She smiled back at him, and just the sight of him, seemed to calm down her terrible mood, as she refused to break contact with his eyes, the eyes she could get lost in, for all eternity.

When she had stabbed a piece of steak, he tilted his head, as she fed him, never once looking away from each other.

"The boy can feed himself." Ruwee told his daughter, breaking their silence.

Lovisa dropped her fork, and they both looked away from each other.

The door opened and one of the messengers stormed in.

"I'm sorry to interrupt your lunch, your majesty's." He bowed. "But I was told to bring this to you, as soon as it came."

"Oh, good, bring them here." Jobal, gestured for him to come over, with a hand full of envelopes.

"Whats that, Mother?" Padme asked.

"Just some RSVP's that have been returned, seems it'll be quite the turnout." Jobal said, giddily.

"You're throwing a ball, Jo..." Ruwee asked. "This isn't exactly a time to be throwing a ball, we're in the beginning of a war."

"It's not for a ball, that'll be in a few months, when we announce Lovey as the next heir-"

"Hold on, what?" Lovisa looked back up.

"I'll talk about it, later, when a certain someone, isn't around" She nodded at the obvious.

"I'll figure it out, soon enough." Lovisa raised a brow, poking her food.

After the terrible lunch had finally come to an end, Lovisa had asked Obi-Wan to accompany her on a walk, around the palace gardens.

"What was it that you wanted to discuss, Princess?" Obi-Wan asked, his hands clasped behind his back.

"Well, Master Kenobi, during my "travels" I made a discovery, and I would like to remind you, that one day, I will be your queen, so please keep that in mind, for what I'm about to ask you."

"Will do" He chuckled.

"Uhm... So, I know, typically the Jedi do not recruit anyone over the age of four, in most cases, obviously, Anakin Skywalker was a very different situation. But I have reason to believe that my handmaiden, Ahsoka Tano is strong with the force, and Ani-Anakin supported my claims."

"Hmm, that is curious." He stroked his beard.

"Yes. And I strongly encourage that you take her on, to join the Jedi, or at the very least, train her in the ways, she has all the potential, and I would hate to see it go to waste."

"You care a lot about, Lady Tano, Don't you?"

"I do, Master Kenobi, she's the longest friend I’ve had, and I feel the guilt of her being my handmaiden, a lot, so please."

"I will do what I can, to persuade the council, I promise, your highness" Obi-Wan nodded to her. "Even though you disagree, so openly, I know in time, you will make a wonderful Queen, and leader, I sense it, in the force."

"Just like Anakin is supposed to bring balance to the force." Lovisa joked, side eying him.

"That's what the prophecy says." He sighed, sounding as though he didn't believe it, all too much.

Next

[sokayisaidiot]

Star Wars Rebels and Ezrabine

Since I'm an amateur writer making an uneducated guess, I'd like to discuss relationships in the Star Wars universe. It's probably one of the touchiest subjects in this community, right after the debate over which trilogy was better (prequel or sequel), whether Jar Jar Binks was necessary, or if the politics are actually garbage.

To be more specific, I want to delve into the relationship between Ezra and Sabine from Star Wars Rebels. You might know them as Ezrabine or Sabezra. They're one of the hottest topics in pairings, right up there with Rey and Ben/Kylo. While the latter pair is something I deeply disapprove of, I'm neutrally conflicted about Sabezra.

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Before I dissect the relationship itself, I'd like to touch on three points that people often criticize or discuss. Please bear with me; I'm a bit sleep-deprived.

Ages:

Quoting from Quora: "Han's official year of birth is 'ca. 32 BBY,' which means he's anywhere from ten to thirteen years older than Leia." This suggests that the most iconic couple in Star Wars had a notably significant age gap. "Padmé was born in 46 BBY (Before the Battle of Yavin), and Anakin's miraculous Force-created birth came in 41 BBY, so Padmé is five years older than him." Yet another iconic couple, with a substantial age difference. Hera and Kanan are yet another example, with Hera being four years older.

Headcanons:

I understand that people want Sabine to be a lesbian, and I can empathize with that desire. As a queer Star Wars fan myself, I comprehend the need for characters with similar journeys and identities. However, while having headcanons, it's crucial to remember that they are personal interpretations. They don't become canon for everyone just because you envision them that way. You're free to explore your own headcanons, and if others agree, that's even better. But ultimately, headcanon remains just that—headcanon.

For instance, my personal headcanon includes Ahsoka being aroace, or at the very least, completely asexual bisexual. And I believe Luke Skywalker isn't straight at all. I mean, have you seen the boots he wore for his own execution? Come on!

Relationships in Star Wars:

When we examine relationships in the Star Wars universe, we discover a wide array. These range from parent-child relationships, sibling bonds, adopted families, found families, to romantic love in various forms, ages, and situations. Tragedy often follows these relationships:

Ashoka and Anakin: Master and Padawan, Brother and Sister, Tragedy.

Obi-Wan and Satine: Jedi and Senator, Lovers, Tragedy.

Padme and Anakin: Senator and Jedi, Tragedy.

Kanan and Hera: Jedi and Rebel, Tragedy.

Yoda and Dooku: Master and Padawan, Tragedy.

This list goes on endlessly, and it's filled with sorrow.

Most of the significant Star Wars relationships are fraught with tragedy.

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The relationship within the Ghost crew can be described as follows: "The crew of the Ghost in Star Wars Rebels has always been a family. They aren't related by blood, and they didn't come from the same homeworlds, but they are bound together by a common cause, respect, trust, and love." This is how Amy Richau described them in an article on StarWars.com.

From what I've gathered, the found family dynamic within the Ghost crew evolves with each member. 

Take Kanan, for example. While Hera is his girlfriend and wife, Chopper is a quirky, psychopathic pet, and Sabine is like a surrogate daughter, Kanan's relationship with Ezra is that of a Padawan and Master to the highest degree. A master plays a role akin to that of a father but maintains the mentorship for training and respect, which involves clear emotions but also a deeper line.

Hera takes on the role of a self-proclaimed mom, offering kindness in the harsh times of rebellion. Zeb is mostly like the older brother who spotted you as a newbie at school and decided to lend a helping hand, providing support and having your back.

What I'm trying to convey is that while the Ghost crew is undoubtedly a family under any circumstances, the relationship between Ezra and Sabine doesn't fit the sibling mold, especially not from Season 3 onward. There's a reason I believe Ezra still has feelings for Sabine, at least until the Ahsoka Episode 4 standpoint. 

From Season 3 onward, we witness Ezra's transformation. He matures, learns, and fully embraces his role as a future Jedi. He's no longer the kid the crew rescued on that planet, nor does he try to flirt with Sabine like some awkward neighbor kid. He's become an integral part of their close-knit community.

He and Sabine are equals, and he's no longer the young person Sabine takes under her wing in an older sisterly manner. They fight as rebels together, as comrades in the same community. Perhaps they sense a familial bond through the crew, but no dialogue from either of them implies a sibling relationship. They haven't been written with sibling energy, unlike the dynamic between Ahsoka and Anakin or Leia and Luke in the 6th movie.

In Season 3, there are moments that could have established them as siblings to emphasize the family connection. Take, for instance, when Ezra meets Sabine's family during the Mandalorian arc, and he talks to Sabine's brother for the first time. Instead of introducing himself as Sabine's brother, it comes off more like a boy meeting his Gfs family.

There might be counterarguments, as in Season 4's beginning when Ezra and the other Mandalorians rescue Sabine's father. Ezra doesn't claim to be family; he implies that he isn’t in a romantic relationship with Sabine. However, the fact that Ezra never alludes to a sibling relationship is intriguing. The end of Rebels, where it's just between Ezra and Sabine, further adds complexity to the situation, with how he decides to confide in him and him only.

There may have been something in the works discussed in the directing room, but then why is there a sudden shift to a sibling relationship in Ahsoka? It's hard to believe that after not allowing Ezra to introduce himself as Sabine's brother, they now suddenly introduce that element again. There are some theories out there that could explain why Sabine scoffs instead of reacting fondly when he says he's her brother. It's all quite frustrating.

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While there's undoubtedly a sense of familial connection within the Ghost crew, the relationship between Sabine and Ezra has taken on a different dimension. It doesn't necessarily have to be romantic, as there are moments missing for that kind of build-up. Some scenes, the way they're animated, shot, or the dialogue they share, indicate a different dynamic. 

But there's also no clear groundwork for a sibling relationship, and considering Star Wars' storytelling and penchant for twists, it wouldn't be surprising if it turned out to be a setup.

The divide within the fandom over the years has also made it challenging to establish this relationship. And keeping it ambiguous didn't help as we know how fandoms like to rip each other apart.

But in the end, it's a story. Let's stay calm, take a deep breath, and see how it unfolds. Let's keep the discussions civil and respect each other's viewpoints as we argue like pros!

[ooops-i-arted]

I'll start by saying that I have a rather basic understanding of Ashoka as a character, the only think I know is that she was Anakin's padawan.

And like... Where did Ashoka come from? In the Prequel Trilogy The Jedi Order doesn't want to make Anakin a master, so why would they give him a padawan? It just doesn't make sense and makes me kinda frustrated because I love the film and the PT and the way it shows how Anakin falls into the darkness and how he feels rejected by the Jedi. I love how his relationship with Padme developed, the way Obi-Wan tried to teach him to the best of his abilities.

And being completely honest, there just isn't a place in Anakin's story for Ashoka or any other padawan. He wasn't ready and the Jedi master wouldn't give him a student.

I'm just frustrated because it feels like Disney is taking this wonderful story and spiting on it just to place a badass girl boss in it. And they don't even need to do that, because the PT has Padme! She is cool and smart even if she doesn't have Jedi powers.

Thank you for reading this rant, I hope you have a good day/night

You are absolutely right. The MCU-ification of Star Wars is fast reaching that ridiculous point where you need to watch ten other things to get one thing, and that's BAD. You want to include your deep lore audience AND your casual fans. My mom (who watches all the live action shows but not the cartoons) said the same thing - "Who are these people?"

And you're absolutely right that there is no room or narrative need for Ahsoka and never has been. Anakin's attachment and issues are perfectly demonstrated through the more fleshed out female characters Shmi and Padme, not to mention Obi-Wan Kenobi. We even see it in the OT with his actions toward Luke. Ahsoka is completely unnecessary. (Even more egregious because "show following Jedi Master and Padawan and their clones through the Clone Wars" is a great premise imo that didn't need Anakin in it either.)

I'd also like to once again bring up that at 12 years old I couldn't wait for Episode III so I wrote my own, and in my Very First Big Girl Story there was Lia Skye, a super badass Padawan who was super good at combat and had special Jedi skills and was a prodigy and sooooooo important to my favorite character (Obi-Wan, also even at 12 I knew Anakin had no business around children) who then died tragically and was still The Most Important even in death because she was Anakin's first victim and generally took over the whole story. Filoni is writing the same fanfiction as a 12-year-old girl. Disney start paying your writers fairly, you clearly need them.

[shadowsong26fic]

Coming Attractions!

Yes, I'm aware it's Tuesday not Monday but shhhhh XD

Just a quick one this month. Not even going to split it up by fandom as I usually do, just kinda blitz through.

So I ended up...essentially taking January off from writing, apart from a scattered few sentences here and there. Which on the one hand was probably good for me but on the other hand I'm behind on projects lol. Ah well.

Priorities for this month: 1. SWBB I'm picking up the project I had to step away from last year. Anakin was not found at age nine and never became a Jedi; we're handwaving that TPM ended roughly the same way anyway because Padme and Obi-Wan are very good at what they do and one of the other pilots got lucky on the droid control ship. Fast-forward to like a year and a half/two years into the Clone Wars, Ahsoka ends up briefly stranded on a planet that's neutral mostly because it's a black market hub. They click pretty quickly, hang out for a while, stumble into a Separatist plot to test a chemical weapon and blame a limnic eruption for the deaths, and Deal With It. Hondo and Bo-Katan are briefly involved because I said so XD 2. P&J We're getting to the part where Ari actually finds stuff out, lol. Getting to Europe and talking with other researchers, etc. There's some interesting stuff in Marseille, and Calais is important. And Ari and Phil continue to be cute in the background. 3. The Other Battlestar Baltar ends up on Pegasus; there's a bunch of stuff built up around the two OCs who fill the plotholes he left behind...I need to get more text down in general, lol. And also figure out how I want to structure it? Like...I do need to establish the new people (including a few on Pegasus, like the senior medical officer, a marine officer, there will also be a Four who gets pulled from the civilian fleet...) and also clarify why Baltar ends up in a different position (and why Helo doesn't because he and Athena still need to meet). And it would probably make the most sense to just go linearly and handle all the miniseries exposition in order. But then again would that actually be Interesting; or would it be better to pick up later and jump back and forth in time...yeah, you see my problem lol. 4. Acheron Javert Groundhog Day fic; looping the last 36ish hours of his life. (from right before he heads to the barricade to his death). 5. Maybe get back into Precipice or write some origfic if I have time/brain.

Longer-range projects: 1. Percussive Maintenance is still hanging out in my head, so I'm tentatively planning on that for GBB (aka the one where the at least two concussions Sam gets during Downloaded unlock Enough of his memories) 2. Or maybe I'll jump back to The Blood of Angry Men, we'll see. (aka a Zarek character study; looking back on his life (and the allies/friends/tools that he's led to their deaths) from the night before his execution) 3. What I'm definitely not doing is any of the crossovers floating around in my head; either the Star Wars ones or the WoT ones. (the one I talked about the other night; and a fusion is actually sort of building in my head because of course it is. Mostly because of the Kara-as-Mat thing I pinged onto the other night; but also Baltar would be an interesting Logain; possibly Zarek as Taim? I think I'd leave Rand as Rand and just fill in the roles around him. Lee also lines up really well with Perrin...and since this would derail pretty early on I feel a little more Flexible about love interests/etc. lol. For reasons of Tuon, Moiraine, and Lan, mostly. Also Faile. Also I'd still want Caprica as a sul'dam, I think, but Logain doesn't have a canon love interest IIRC sooooo that's easier to sort out XD ...although now that I think about it, Athena as Nynaeve and Helo as Lan could work...) 4. Incinctus/other Castlevania things. 5. I'm doing pod_together again once signups open. I need to refine my fandoms list, haha. Not that I haven't had interesting times the last couple years, but it'd be nice to get matched based on something that Isn't a very secondary/tertiary fandom for me again. 6. AtLA may come floating back into my head enough to pick up some of the projects I wandered away from there, we'll see.

Not writing, strictly speaking, but there's some admin/modding stuff for this year's GBB that I should get a move on, especially since the event is moving to May-October, plus helping out with SWBB the way I do every year.

...yeah, that's pretty much where things stand. Hopefully I'll hit a nice groove this month!

What about you guys, what are you working on?

[jedi-enthusiast]

Ok, I'm busy writing the next chapter of mitptt and re-writing the outline for another fic, so I'm not gonna be able to respond to this super in depth atm---so I might respond again later---but I do want to go ahead and respond now

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You say that I'm wrong about the Jedi being perfectly happy without romance, but I'm not.

Firstly, the only Jedi we hear about romance for are Anakin and Obi-Wan in TCW- (Ahsoka has a crush for two episodes, but a crush is different than actual romance) -and that's it. Legends content isn't canon and, as such, I generally disregard it in conversations like this---especially given my limited knowledge of it---so I'll be ignoring the other romances you listed.

First, let's talk about Obi-Wan.

Throughout the PT and TCW, Obi-Wan is actually shown to be very happy and fulfilled as a Jedi and he doesn't show any inclination towards actually pursuing a relationship. The only time that's shown is in the Mandalore arc with Satine and, ignoring the fact that that entire arc goes completely against Obi-Wan's character- (@antianakin has a really good breakdown of it on their blog), in that arc it's made clear that Obi-Wan's relationship with Satine happened in their teens and Obi-Wan still ends up choosing the Order over Satine at the end of it, even though Satine literally just confessed her feelings to him.

Obi-Wan chooses the Jedi, not romance.

And the thing is, the Jedi can't have both, which brings us to Anakin---the guy who tried to have both.

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Anakin was "in love" with Padme- (I use quotes bc I personally disagree, but that's not what this is about) -and, because he was selfish and didn't want to give up either romance or being a Jedi, he decided to just...have both and ignore any issues that that caused. As a result, these things happened:

- A shit ton of clones died as a result of both Anakin and Padme making selfish decisions because of this "love"

- Anakin genocided the Jedi, including literal children

- The clones were enslaved and forced to murder their friends, including children, against their will

- The Republic fell and the galaxy went into a dark age perpetuated by the fascist dictatorship Anakin helped build

- Many other species were genocided by said fascist dictatorship Anakin helped build

- Padme died because of Anakin, and Anakin literally choked her out so 🤷‍♀️

and I could go on.

The fact of the matter is that when a Jedi refuses to pick whether they want to pursue romance or if they want to continue to be a Jedi, terrible things happen---which is exactly why they can't have both. You say that the Jedi "shouldn't have to choose," but we're literally shown what happens when they don't---which is an integral part of the world building and the story.

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Finally, I personally find it a pretty closed-minded view to say that the Jedi "weren't happy" simply because they couldn't get married. Let's use my life as an example:

I'm single and, personally, I would really like to have a girlfriend, to have romance in my life---however, I am still very happy with my life.

Do I want more? Yes.

Does the lack of it mean that I'm any less happy? No.

And to perpetuate the idea that people, even fictional characters, can't be truly happy or fulfilled without a romantic relationship is a slap in the face to the many people who choose to forgo romantic aspirations for whatever reason.

Romance isn't the end-all be-all of what makes people happy, and it's ridiculous to pretend that it is.

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@short-wooloo @gffa @david-talks-sw - I'm sure I missed some points and didn't articulate this very well, so if you guys had stuff to add, I'd really appreciate it <3

Call me crazy, but I know for a fact that I would not want a romantic relationship if I was a Jedi.

If I lived somewhere where I was a part of a community of people that I considered my mentors, my friends, my family; if I lived somewhere where I was encouraged to learn, to travel, to help people, to enjoy life as it is, and better myself; if I lived somewhere where I was supported and loved and cared for by the community, and I did the supporting, the loving, the caring for other people in the community as well; if I lived somewhere where it wasn't constantly implied, or sometimes outright stated, that my worth was tied to me marrying a man, popping out children, and making money...

...if I was a Jedi, I can honestly say that the thought of pursuing a romantic relationship probably wouldn't cross my mind at all---not unless I met someone specific whom I felt that sort of connection with, but even then, I probably wouldn't give up being a Jedi to be with them because I'd feel more fulfilled as a Jedi than I would in a romantic relationship.

I honestly don't understand the assumption that the Jedi are miserable because they can't get married, I really don't.

If you feel like you wouldn't be able to be fulfilled without a romantic partner, then that's fine! Everyone's different! We all have different wants and needs! But just accept that you wouldn't be fulfilled without a romantic relationship and stop acting like it's impossible for anyone else to feel differently.

The Jedi all seem perfectly happy as they are.

[ravenheartxvi]

So I've had this Tumbler for a while now, long time lurker and rarely posting. Just thought I'd give a little better introduction of myself than what my bio says.

I mostly prefer to keep to myself so excuse my sparse social interactions, haha. You can call me Charlie and I am definitely female. I was born the year Dr. Robert Ballard discovered the remains of the Titanic and for some inexplicable reason, I feel a connection to the “unsinkable” ocean liner. I had a minor obsession with the ship as a teen, and tend to enjoy reading about it, or watching documentaries or youtube videos of it. I am also a lover of Tudor history. 

My main interest here on Tumbler surrounds the Sims and fanfiction. I’ve been an avid simmer since the original Sims came out. I don’t know about anyone else, but for some reason I can get a kind of god complex when I play the sims, lol. I discovered mods during the Sims 3 and have been hooked ever since. My two favorite mods are MC command center and Wicked Whims. I’ve also used the extreme violence mod before and some of the sims storylines I created with these mods are rather, ahem, interesting. I would be willing to share if anyone is interested, just fair warning, these interesting sims stories are NSFW. 

My other love includes fanfiction. I first got involved in 2001 and was introduced in a now defunct Harry Potter site. My earliest fics are now lost. I later became prolific on fanfiction.net and you can still see my works there through the link in my profile. In 2005 I switched from Harry Potter over to Star Wars. For a brief time I had drifted into Gilmore Girls before drifting back to Harry Potter and back to Star Wars where I am currently firmly based. I have grown annoyed with fanfiction.net and decided to switch over to Archive of Our Own where all my current fics are being posted. 

My favorite fic trope is time travel/ time travel fix-its. 

I enjoy a variety of AU’s Such as: Anakin doesn’t fall, Darth Vader/Padme Amidala fics where Anakin was raised as a Sith, Character X doesn’t die, Luke and Leia were raised by at least one of their parents, and a multitude of variations of these tropes. In recent months I’ve gotten into modern au anidala fics, a trope that I’ve avoided for a while. 

My ships include:

Harry Potter/Hermione Granger

Rory Gilmore/Logan Huntzberger

Anakin Skywalker(Darth Vader)/Padme Amidala

Luke Skywalker/Mara Jade

Leia Organa/Han Solo

Ships that give me the willies but I wont judge those who enjoy them:

Anakin Skywalker/Obi-Wan Kenobi * Because they literally equate each other as brothers/family and have both said so more than once. 

Anakin Skywalker/Ahsoka Tano * These two have a big brother/little sister dynamic and nothing anyone says can dissuade me. 

Hermione Granger/ anyone who is a Death Eater. * Because, WTF? You know what I’m talking about, don’t lie.

Psychology is an interest of mine and I enjoy incorporating it into my works in recent years. If I could pass math and had the finances, I would pursue a degree in the subject. Mental Illness is a subject that is very important to me and I like to consider myself an advocate for the support of mental illness and fully believe in the benefits of therapy. So I do not, under any circumstances, tolerate the use of words like crazy and all its synonyms as a form of insult. Everyone struggles with something so a little kindness and understanding, compassion, is something we should extend to everyone around us, including those who have wronged us. I am very open with talking about my own struggles, in the hopes that I can help someone else struggling in whatever way I can. Sometimes, it helps to know that you are not alone in your struggles. 

I am not perfect, in any way, but I try to be a decent person with integrity. I make mistakes and often struggle in how to fix those mistakes. Often, I need people to come to me and tell me if I have hurt or offended them due to my own lack of a filter and impulsivity. I am very open to listening to grievances and to finding a way to work through those grievances. However, what I will never do is blast those grievances or work through them in a public forum. I prefer not to stir drama on the internet. It is preferable, IMHO, to work through any issues privately rather than air it all publicly. I have seen a lot of examples when grievances are aired online and it only ever invites people outside the situation to insert themselves into the situation and stir the drama even further. I have no interest in participating in such situations, it is way too stressful. This is why I have distanced myself from facebook. I would much rather save this account for stress relief fun. 

And here, I feel that I should reiterate another point I made in my profile. I very rarely, if ever, check my messages here on tumbler. When I first joined and for quite a while, the only messages I would receive was porn spam. So I found myself avoiding my messages here. I have zero interest in accepting porn spam. No, I will not check out your webcam. No, I am not interested in watching hot women or connecting with hot women. While I appreciate the female form and have had some celebrity girl crushes, I am very interested in men. And no, I am also not interested in unsolicited penis pictures either. Why do I appear to be interested in this shit? 

Back to a fun topic. My love for history, sims, fanfiction and geeky stuff is also accompanied by my love for music. My two favorite genres of music are Rock and Classical. I have a wide variety of music tastes but I can’t stand country music and disco. Ick…lol! I was exposed to a wide variety growing up so of course I love music. I listen to music during a majority of everyday tasks and while I read and write. My music library is absolutely huge! 

If Interested, I have compiled a personal playlist that expresses my life through song. You can check it out here:

[merrysithmas]

If you could write your own or even rewrite a SW story or character arc and have then be canon which or who would it be and how would you do it?

OH OH OH I have SUCH a good idea for an original Star Wars storyline that I honestly am going to keep it to myself because I might want to turn it into an original novel one day.

I think SW has the dad-and-kid trope (so many characters), the Cliched Love Story trope (many characters), the Classic Monster trope (Vader), the Man and his Dog trope (Chewie and Han... yes, Han is the dog)... but what it is missing is another pivotal trope which appeals to a subset of the audience that they have yet to tap into and seem to have trouble tapping into.

So... DLF if you're listening, hire me! haha

But otherwise I think one thing I really would have liked, although I understand why they did it in RotJ, is to alter Anakin's helmet-less Vader design. Like I really would have liked to see Luke burn Anakin's body in a different part-Jedi, part-Sith costume, rather than inside the shell of Vader. I think it would've been a great opportunity for them to visualize this "Third Body" ... not the Angel Anakin, or the Demon Vader... but the soul inside who is balanced, both, and finally at peace. I definitely would've made some cool costume adjustments there. Maybe when they reshoot some RotJ scenes (heard they were doing that) for the Ahsoka series, they will do some adjustments.

There is a lot of great art out there of "reformed Vader" on the internet which I think would be a great starting point. This, for instance, is one of my favorites from the artist Monsieur Charles Design:

I'd also rewrite the entirely of the subplot of RotJ ... it was utterly awful although I LOVE Ewoks, give Leia something to actually do in RotJ, and alter the slave!Leia storyline and the "wise master" Luke on Tatooine at Jabba's palace storyline... because it is super hokey and honestly silly. It does nothing for Luke's character imo. Leia also deserved to speak to Vader while knowing he was her father - or have some kind of scene showing her reaction to this.

I'd also give Ben Solo/Knights of Ren/Kylo Ren way more backstory, give him scenes with Leia, plant evidence of Rey being a Palpatine all throughout the sequels (or keep her a Nobody), allow Finn to have his own plotline of freeing and liberating the stormtroopers.. there's a lot I would change. I'd also put more Obi/Ani moments in the prequels (something the TCW went and did) and expand upon Obi-wan's insecurity on screen. And lastly, of course, I'd include almost all of Padme's deleted scenes, and give her WAY more screentime with her fellow rebel conspirator Senators, to give her agency away from Anakin's storyline.

And I'd include the awesome OG storyline of her going to Mustafar to slit Anakin's throat, but being unable to because she loved him so much.

I just LOVE how every person with the ability to actually kill Anakin/Vader couldn't. Padme because she loved him, Obi-wan because he loved him, Luke because he loved him, and Sidious because he needed a slave.

Ahhhh... the agony of it.

[alligatorpie1945]

Hello there! I saw that you need questions, so I thought I'd drop by.

1: how do the Batch know Cody and Obi-Wan?

2: what's the situation with the Skywalker family and Ahsoka in your universe?

And 3: how did the boys meet 99?

Thank, you, and have a great day!

Obi Wan was volunteering at a local food drive when he met Anakin. Obi-wan was in high school at the time. He noticed Anakin would always come alone and run off as soon as he had food. Slowly Obi-wan befriended the boy. He discovered that Anakin and his mother were living out of a small one bedroom apartment on the wrong side of town. Obi wan and his family did everything to help the two. Helping Shmi find a more stable job, inviting them over for holidays, and making sure Anakin got into a decent school. Obi Wan quickly became sort of a surrogate big brother to Anakin.

During college, Obi-wan met Satine and a relationship was soon formed. They ended up getting married, and were a happy couple while they both went through law school. Satine ended up getting sick, and after a long battle with cancer, ended up passing. Obi wan was heart broken, and poured his soul into his work. Trying to take cases that would make Satine proud.

So when Anakin reached out about a favor for a struggling family trying to get custody over their sister, Obi Wan jumped right in to help. Throughout the trial, Obi wan ended up meeting a lot of the Fett's, including Cody. A close friendship was started from there...

(Cody is a cousin to the Batch and Echo)

As for the skywalkers.

Happy ending for all.

Anakin is married to Padme and they have the twins, Luke and Leia. Anakin and Ahsoka are teachers at the middle school, and co-coaches of the soccer team. Ahsoka used to be Anakin's student teacher but now is teaching classes on her own.

And 99.

99 helped the boys alot during their teenage years. When they were homeless, he was one of the only people that tried to help. He was social worker and discovered the batch at a homeless shelter, he tried to get them into some sort of foster care. But as soon as they realized there was possibility of being split apart, they ran away.

99 managed to track them down once again, and decided to help them a little more "under the radar". He used his connections with other homeless to find the boys safer areas to live in. He would often bring them food, and much needed supplies, and provide shelter when the weather got bad.

And he even helped them enroll in a local high school. He was as close to a father figure the boys would ever get. He was making plans to adopt them, when he was unfortunately in the wrong place at the wrong time. He was killed in a mugging gone wrong. The batch had no idea of his passing until several weeks later, when they stumbled upon his obituary in a newspaper.

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For the most part, any death that happened during pre-Order 66 will be reflected in the Modern AU.

[binaryeclipse]

It’s missing anakin and obi wan hours! So if you had to pick 5 (or more 😏) moments when these guys looked their most glorious (or badass) what would they be?? 🤔

Okay Okay Okay I can definitely do this! YEEE HAW! 🤠

Sorry this turned into glorious = handsome. After I found some screencaps I realized where I ended up. I apologize but here we are 😅

Let's do Anakin first, in descending order:

5. Season 7 Episode 9 of The Clone Wars: Rescuing Obi-Wan

That whole part where he's kneeling on the tank talking down to Obi-Wan while carnage is happening all around him? He's simultaneously the glorious chosen one and also such a brat I love him.

I also just have such a soft spot for animated Anakin (and Matt Latner voicing him), even the jankier versions from the earlier seasons (shut up, his nose is fucking adorable) but this glow-up is everything I could have wanted for him and it really drives home how powerful Anakin already is and, honestly, makes the transformation into Darth Vader all the more terrifying and heartbreaking.

4. Revenge of the Sith: Rematch with Dooku

BAD! ASS! BITCH!

The cool collected expression when he catches Dooku's sabre after cutting off his hands like it's nothing? Yes, work it! He's so blasé about it (right before Palpatine interjects and starts being a creep about killing Dooku like the Skeevy Sheev he is) and it's such a glow up from the disastrous first duel. Anakin got his revenge and then some. You take my arm? I take your hands and your head.

3. Revenge of the Sith: Post Nightmare

The open robe, the low-slung pants, the exposed mechanical arm, the brooding... Hayden Christensen's face and low brow were designed perfectly for two things: being a pretty sad boy and the Kubrick stare. It's kinda sad how dark this scene is without editing but the way the city glimmers and catches on Anakin's brass curls? 😩 Perfection!

2. Revenge of the Sith: Don't even know what to call it I just want to look at him

Love looks so good on him, the way it absolutely consumes him to his core. It's both his most beloved and cursed trait and he wears it like a crown in this scene. It's both dark and warm at the same time, the way he stares at Padmé like she is his whole universe and she carries his future with her.

I'd say get you an SO who does the same but I don't think anyone wants to be put on a pedestal like that. And we all know how it goes down. But his loyalty and love do shine bright here in his gaze as well as his obsession and it makes him very handsome.

1. Revenge of the Sith: Unhinged Anakin

Anakin at his most glorious. As if it could be any other bastard but this one. He's at his hottest when he's high on the dark side and off his rabid ass mind, dreaming of ruling the galaxy with the love of his life. This basically includes the entirety of his conversation with padme and the "I have brought peace, freedom, justice, and security to my new Empire" villain speech. He's perfect, he's evil, he's Darth Vader at his most glorious before Obi-Wan cuts him down to size 😭

Now for the handsome devil himself, Obi-Wan:

5. Season 7 Episode 9 of The Clone Wars: Confronting Bo-Katan and Ahsoka

He. Is. So. Soft. Here.

Soft but stern and so wholly good. He's a Jedi, and you can see it in every line of his body, in his compassion, in how heavy the weight of the decisions of war rest on his shoulders. The grey in his hair, the crows feet... they so lovingly animated him and I love him so so so much in this scene because it shows just how much he loves but is bound by duty to the greater good.

4. Revenge of the Sith: Utapau

Get yourself a man who can be a ✨Disney Princess ✨

The hood! Boga! A desperate last mission to end the war!

I love him with his hood up, being a sneaky mysterious Jedi. He's basically here to kick ass and be hot. Grievous doesn't know what's coming.

There's something about how good he is with animals that speaks to the quiet gentleness that's deep in Obi-Wan's soul. He may have little patience, and be a sass master, and as snippy as Ahsoka on her worst days but at his core he's a Jedi.

3. Attack of the Clones: Battle of Geonosis

YES, BITCH, WORK IT!

The badass snarly stab scene from Attack of the Clones lives in my head rent-free, 24/7, 365 days a year.

He's peak badass Obi-Wan here, tapping into that energy and viciousness which makes him a cunning warrior and general the Separatists learn to fear. This is the Sith Slayer in action and I love it.

The sex appeal is strong and it comes from the danger factor 💯💯💯

2. Attack of the Clones: Lost A Planet

This may actually be Obi-Wan's prettiest scene. Period. The screencap doesn't do it justice, go find one of the many pretty gifs of this scene to appreciate it's full majesty.

I don't even like mullets! How has he done this to me?

The planets floating around him like sparkles and stars just highlight how gorgeous Ewan McGregor is. How dare they film this scene like this, like he belongs in the cosmos and is home amongst planets and nebula like its second nature?

Anakin may be the son of the Force, but Obi-Wan is the Force's blorbo (that it loves to torment).

1. ROTS: Post Invisible Hand Crash

"This is how gays flirt." - my girlfriend

She's right. The cocked hip, the hand on it, the lean and the devilish smirk? He's never been hotter. What a ho!

He's bantering with Anakin, they just had a major victory they somehow bumbled into like a pair of disasters that they are and the war looks like it might be turning in their favour! He's just managed to dodge dealing with politicians by making Anakin do it. He's cheeky and sassy and having a good time. I love that for him.

Everything about this is so gorgeous and glorious. He's happy, do you know how rare that is in star wars? This man was made to suffer and his joy and love just shine all the brighter for it.

[fanfictasia]

I really enjoy the stories you write so I thought I'd ask for some suggestions :)

Do you know any good fanfics in the PT/OT era that have focus on Anakin/Vader without Ahsoka as his Padawan or Leia as his daughter? Or even if these relationships are present, they are more in the background (eg. Leia's heritage is still secret or Ahsoka is still gone).

I just find it very hard to see movie Anakin with Ahsoka since he's not her skyguy. His personality gets muddled with Tcw Anakin in a lot of fanfics. As for Leia, I prefer stories where the focus is the father son relationship with Luke.

But most of regularly updated and better stories always tend to have Ahsoka and Leia featured. Do you have any recs?

Yeah, I've read a number of fanfics that focus on Anakin/Vader or on him, Padme, Obi-Wan, and/or Luke, without including much with Ahsoka or Ahsoka. :)

I haven't read that one yet, but I heard that Ahsoka is only around briefly. It focuses primarily on Anakin/Vader in a universe where the Jedi send him back to Tatooine and he ends up joining a slave revolution.

That's a duology which is, in my opinion, one of the best fanfics ever written. It focuses primarily on Anakin/Vader and Obi-Wan in a universe where all Force-sensitives (if I remember right) see a vision of the future towards the beginning of ROTS. Ahsoka is around very briefly as a cameo, but Anakin and Obi-Wan is the main focus.

This is very Vader-Luke centric, even if Leia is around a little bit in the background. Luke grows up on the streets of Tatooine, and Vader finds him when he's 15. It's a very long series, but it's definitely well worth the read.

(PS. It's not done yet. :)

[silverwings22]

Caught in the Crosshairs: Chapter 22 Bad Blood: Taylor Swift

Series warnings: Smut, mind control, canon typical violence, childhood trauma, language, chronic illness

Chapter warnings: reference to abortion, mild medical procedure

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Miria was sitting comfortably in the cockpit of the Maurader, taking her turn on watch.  They were heading to Felucia, and the guys were all asleep.  Even Crosshair, sideways in the chair beside her with his head resting on the wall behind him. Their six week rest on Coruscant had been much needed,  and she'd even managed to come to terms with her frankly appalling behavior in 79s. With a few jokes from the guys,  of course.  

But Anakin rarely commed like this,  so she pulled up the holo. "Not really.  Keep your voice down,  though.  Cross is asleep."

"I need advice.  Mom advice,  not Jedi advice." Anakin looked pale,  even through the blue tinge of the holo. It concerned her.  

"What's the matter,  dear?"

Anakin took a deep breath. "Remember when you called me drunk and crying and I found you in that alley?"

"Unfortunately. Did you just call to make fun of me?"

"No.  I… I was with Padme that night,  and she was really impressed with me dropping everything to go help a friend,  and one thing led to another,  and…."

"I hardly think your sex life is my business,  Anakin."

"Miri,  she's pregnant.  I think that's when it happened." He blurted out in a rush.  

Miria froze.  "Pregnant… oh Force, Anakin…"

"Yeah.  I'm super happy and so is she,  but holy kriffing shit what do we do?"

Miria smiled.  "The fact that you're both happy means I won't have to discuss anything as unpleasant as termination… I always thought you two would have children, but I did think it would be after the war ended."

"Yeah… not great timing on my part."

"You're hardly the only involved party. All that Senate money and no one could afford an implant?" She teased.

"She had one… I guess it expired."

"You could have gotten one."

"I don't handle doctors as well as you do."

Miria made a face. "Rude. You're lucky we're friends."

"I know. Otherwise I'd have no one to call.  I can't exactly tell Obi-wan about this."

"You know I think you should. He loves you and he'd help too. Besides,  he's going to find out eventually.  He could pick Skywalker shenanigans out of a crowd the size of Coruscants population."

"I know,  I know." He sighed.  "Just… what do we do?"

"I'll come by and check on her when I return.  Otherwise… get ready.  This will change your life.  There's talk of the Order's rules changing after the war,  but if the council digs their heels in you must be prepared to leave the Jedi.  Your family needs you."

He nodded resolutely.  "Wait… why would they change?"

Miria chuckled.  "I'm hardly the only general in bed with a trooper."

"Oooh. Oh shit, you think Obi-wan and Cody?"

"If they haven't,  they want to." She smiled.  "Maybe they'll get their happy ending too. And who knows?  I could teach a school for children of Jedi.  My own included…"

"So you'd stay if they changed everything?"

"I love the Order.  I don't agree with everything they do by a bloody long shot. But… if it could be better,  and I could still be with Crosshair? I'd stay and serve,  to make it better. If not,  though,  I'm ready.  My future lies with him." She smiled a little more softly.  "As yours lies with your child."

He chuckled faintly.  "Thanks,  Miri… that means a lot.  Sometimes I don't know where to go anymore.  With Ahsoka gone,  and all the secrets between me and Obi-wan… no one gets it like you do.  Padme tries,  she really does,  but she's never been in the Order, or on a battlefield.  She can listen,  but… it's not the same."

"I'm always here for you,  Anakin." Miria murmured.  "As long as we both live.  Order or not."

"I needed to hear that.  How are you,  by the way?" He said, grateful to have her there.  He'd be going mad without her.  

"Mostly the same. The boys have been relentless since that business in the bar.  My goodness they think it's hilarious." She huffed. "I'm never drinking again."

"Aww. And here I was going to invite you over for wine." He snickered.  

"Well… maybe one glass.  I just can't get that kind of drunk.  I'm not in control like that,  and it was bothersome." She shook her head.  "I really didn't recognize myself,  Anakin.  I've never been so angry,  even in much worse situations. I shudder to think what I might have done if I'd actually gotten to that girl."

"You're only human, Miri.  We all do things we're not proud of.  You're privy to a few of my mistakes." He admitted. 

Miria nodded.  "I suppose you're right. It's good I have friends to temper those impulses.  Or drag me bodily from the situation,  as that case was." She chuckled. "I expect we'll see that temper in your little one,  and you'll really pay for your raising "

He groaned.  "Please let them turn out like Padme…"

"That might be worse.  She's a politician,  they'll know exactly how to play you to get what they want." She chuckled.  

"Not helping."

Miria laughed softly. "By the way,  have you had any luck getting that arm for Echo? Poor man's running and climbing with the best of us with one hand."

"Yeah, I'll have it ready when you get back from Felucia."

"Excellent.  I can't stand to see my friends struggle."

"I'm glad you're looking out for him now.  How's he doing?"

"He's finally the right color,  and putting on weight correctly. I'm hoping his hair will come back,  it really seems to bother him."

"Aww. I feel bad now for teasing him about it." He chuckled. 

Miria smiled.  "Anakin?"

"Hmm?"

"Congratulations, my friend. A new life is a miracle, and I'm grateful you shared it with me."

Miria took a deep breath as she and the batch slogged through the jungles of Felucia.  "Sometimes I really cannot believe the places we end up." she finally sighed,  trying to shoo away the massive army of mosquitos the size of her thumbnail trying to light on any exposed skin.  "How is this not driving you all mad?"

Echo chuckled.  "You need a helmet. We're covered head to toe."

She sighed.  "I'm going to need a blood transfusion by the time we get through here.  And Master Che is going to force me through another round of bloody oatmeal…"

"I actually have an experiment I'd like to try for you when we return to the ship,  General." Tech nodded her direction. "If you'll indulge my curiosity."

She smiled. "Alright. As soon as we take care of whatever they're doing out here in this ancient Sith temple.  The Separatists haven't been out here since that failed kidnapping of Jabba the Hutts son during the first year of the war…"

"Nothing we can't handle,  General." Wrecker cracked his knuckles.  "How'd we even get this mission?"

"Master Yoda sensed something… stirring in the Force here.  Something I hardly understand myself. It could even be nothing more than a lost Force sensitive,  or it could be Sith trouble afoot. So be alert."

Four hands and a scomp link saluted, and they pushed on.  Miria tried to ignore the mosquitoes.  They were just creatures,  doing what they did to survive,  and that was the will of the Force. But if the Maker had seen fit not to make these things,  she'd have been perfectly happy about it. They were eating her alive!

When they finally reached the stone temple, it offered blessed respite from the insects even if it felt like harsh darkness in the Force.  Mirias face and neck were blotchy with bites.  

"You could have swatted them." Crosshair muttered.  

"I don't kill things that are unarmed and unknowing." She said firmly.  "Even if they are dreadful little vampires eating my face."

"We'll put some bacta on the bites when we get back to the ship." He sighed. Stubborn woman.  

They crept carefully through the temple, the stone walls singing sorrow and fury to Miria.  But when they reached the innermost sanctum,  it felt almost…. Peaceful.  There were two cloaked figures standing together,  holding hands.  

"Do you actually think it'll work,  Quin?" Whispered a female voice Miria knew. 

She waved for her team to stand down and took a step into the echoing room.  "Ventress?"

The two figures spun around, both reaching for their belts until they recognized her.  "Halcyon?" Ventress went impossibly paler.  

"Easy, dear. There's no need for a fight unless you want one." Miria kept her hands up.  Something was different about the other women,  something she couldn't quite place.  "What are you doing?"

Ventress squirmed,  glancing back at the man behind her,  who seemed to make a decision before pulling his hood off. 

"Master Halcyon,  I can explain-"

She froze. "Quinlan Voss? What are you doing here? This is a Sith temple!" Her friend Ayala's master,  in a place like this? 

"I know,  I know. Just hear me out?" He pleaded.  

She sighed.  "Alright.  What's going on?"

Ventress stepped in front of him,  putting herself between him and Miria.  Protecting him.  "It's my fault he's here.  I asked him to come with me."

Miria nodded.  "Okay.  Why?"

"I… you said,  every time we've fought… that there was a way back to the light if I wanted it.  Didn't you?" Ventress looked so suddenly small,  looking at her feet.  Nothing like the arrogant Sith Miria had come to blows with often enough to be considered her rival.  

"Yes… Ventress,  dear.  Did you finally find it?" She asked hopefully. 

"I found him." Ventress whispered, finally lowering her hood.  There was a tuft of white hair where she'd been bald before,  and the eyes that looked up at Miria were softer.  Pleading.  "Don't get him into trouble on my account. Please…"

Miria took a step forward, reaching out carefully.  "I wouldn't dream of it,  dear.  And… your hair does look lovely.  I mean that this time."

Quinlan laughed.  "I told you it was a good look,  Asajj."

Ventress looked up as Miria finally stopped right in front of her.  "I'm trying to… fix my sabers.  Trying to undo the bleeding.  I thought if I could start there,  I could… be better." She whispered.  "I can't go into your temples,  but this place is strong with the Force…"

Miria smiled and offered her hands.  "Then let me help you."

"You'd do that?  For me? I stabbed you." Ventress murmured. 

"You're hardly the first,  dear.  And doubtfully the last." Miria chuckled.  "Besides… what are friends for?"

"I didn't think you'd want to be my friend…" 

From behind Miria,  the five clones poked their heads around.  "She wants to be everyone's friend!" Wrecker yelled.  

"Against my better judgement. " Crosshair huffed.  

Miria laughed softly.  "They're right,  you know. Now… may I?"

Asajj Ventress had no idea how to react to this.  But Mirias eyes were sincere and kind in a way she didn't understand,  so she glanced at Quinlan for guidance.  He just nodded.  "I told you she was a good one."

"You did." That bolstered her,  and she took her twin sabers off her belt and put them in Mirias hands.  

The Jedi took a moment before opening them up and taking the two red kyber crystals out,  holding them in one palm.  She could feel the agony and fury in them. "When you hurt someone,  you apologize." Miria mused.  "Here… if bleeding them is to pour your pain into them,  then apologize.  Ask their forgiveness." She lay the stones back in Ventress' hand.  

"What if they don't give it?"

"I did." Miria smiled.  "I think they'll surprise you."

Ventress nodded,  sitting cross legged on the floor. Quinlan sat beside her,  and Miria knelt on the other side.  With one stone in each hand,  Ventress closed her eyes. Miria put her hand over the stone in the former Siths palm,  and Quinlan followed suit with the other side. 

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me.  Let me make this right….

There was a series of beeping as the filters in the clones helmets activated against a sudden influx of bright white light. Miria felt it burn behind her closed eyes,  but she held firm and projected all she had to give. 

Forgiveness.  Acceptance.  Peace.  Love. Kindness.  Compassion. 

When the light receded,  she felt woozy but opened her eyes.  

Ventress flopped over into Quinlans lap and he fondly stroked her short hair.  "Hey… you okay?"

She blinked up at him and brought her clenched fists up,  opening them like it was the most difficult thing in the galaxy.  Sitting in her pale hands were two glittering crystals in the most vibrant, pure white any of them had ever seen.  

"I think… they forgive you." Miria smiled tiredly.  "Oh Ventress,  they're lovely."

"Asajj… you can call me Asajj." Ventress smiled weakly.  "I think we're friends now."

"Then you can call me Miri." The Jedi smiled back,  eyes bright. 

The three of them helped each other up carefully. 

"Are you going to tell the Order about us?" Asajj murmured as she put her sabers back together and clipped them to her hip. "Quin could get in a lot of trouble…"

Miria shook her head.  "It's not my story to tell,  dear.  Besides,  you're hardly the first person to find purpose from love."

Quinlan smirked.  "You're telling me you got a boyfriend? You?"

Miria grinned.  "Boyfriend?  I'm engaged,  Voss!"

He choked. "What?!"

Miria giggled helplessly at his absolute bafflement.  "Force, I can't wait to do that to the council!"

"Are you quite done airing our secrets?" Crosshair huffed from the door.

"They won't tell on us, my darling. Don't be grumpy about it." She chuckled.  

"Oh Maker,  the grouchy one is soft for the sunshine one." Quinlan gasped.

"Remind you of anyone?" Asajj slipped her arm around his waist with a smile.  

He booped her nose.  "You were real grouchy when we met."

She made a face.  Wrecker shook his head.  "So that's it?  We're all friends now?"

Miria nodded.  "Sometimes that's all it takes."

"I still can't believe you let her hug you." Crosshair grumbled, dabbing bacta on Miria's now very swollen face. "She tried to kill you.  More than once."

"I hug all my friends." She chuckled. "Ow."

"Sorry, I know it stings.  But she was a Sith!"

"It's not your fault,  darling.  And she's not a Sith anymore!"

"Could you two pick a conversation to have?  You're giving me a headache." Hunter groaned. 

"Sorry,  dear." Miria smiled sheepishly,  eyes disappearing in her puffy cheeks in the motion. "Oh dear. It's gone dark."

"It's a histamine reaction,  General.  It appears you are allergic to Felucian mosquito bites." Tech shook his head disparagingly. 

"Good thing I wore armor and gloves. I hate to imagine the state my hands would be in,  if my face looks like I think it does." She murmured. 

"The bacta should reduce the swelling soon." He patted her shoulder.  "I would stay away from the fresher mirror until then.  You are… you look different."

"Is it that bad,  Cross?" She looked at him. 

"Baby girl,  I'm not answering that.  Just stay away from the mirror." He planted a kiss on her ballooned cheek,  grimacing at the taste of bacta.  

"Oh dear…"

"Come with me,  General.  My little experiment might help." Tech offered,  so she got up and followed him. 

"So what exactly is this you've been working on?"

"Cellular replication booster. It won't work as quickly as Jedi healing,  but a couple treatments will keep you on your feet.  If we were ever unable to get to Coruscant,  you wouldn't just die on us."

"That's a relieving thought." She chuckled.  

He sat her down on a cargo crate and helped her pull off her chest plate.  "Sorry,  General.  Can you pull your dress down?" His face was red. 

She nodded,  opening it up so he could access her chest.  "Don't worry,  dear.  I've been in medical situations many times."

He nodded,  affixing a little palm sized device to her chest with sticky cups. "This tattoo is quite well placed.  It just goes right here,  in the bullseye,  and-"

Miria squeaked when a lancet shot out,  sticking shallowly into her chest.  He set a cuff around her wrist,  another needle sinking in, and connected them both with tubes.  "There.  It'll take about an hour for one treatment,  and we'll check in then."  Tech murmured,  putting a blanket over her shoulders. 

"You're brilliant,  but we need to work on your bedside manner.  You might have warned me it was going to stab me." She chuckled,  leaning against the wall.  

"I'm sorry.  I was… excited to try it out. It won't be a perfect cure,  but I've got time to keep working."

She nodded.  Time.  Yes,  they had time… she was never leaving them,  the rest of her life.  They had all the time they could give her. 

[jessicas-pi]

hey! so i took your quiz and got jaden sa'al (he sounds perfect for me btw) and i was wondering if he is one of your oc's? i'd love to know more about him :)

Thank you for asking!!! Yes he is my OC! :)

Now, fair warning... I love talking about my OCs. So I miiiight have gotten a little carried away here.

Jadan is from my Problem Children AU, an everybody-lives post-Clone-War AU where everyone is happy and anakin is still trying to keep his relationship with Padme secret. ("I don't know what you mean, Master Windu, I'm just babysitting Luke and Leia for my good friend Senator Amidala!")

Jadan is one of my favorite OCs because he's just a sweetheart. He's friends with Ahsoka and they get into so much trouble together.

One time, when they were young (12-14ish), Jadan and a bunch of other initiates got together to watch this holofilm that just came out that the initiates were banned from watching because of Several Reasons but especially one scene with a Twi'lek dancing girl. Ahsoka has a video of Jadan doing the dance in perfect synchronization with the Twi'lek character as the movie plays in the background. She thinks it's hilarious but he's so embarrassed by it.

Jadan is slightly psychometric as part of a running gag I made up about psychometric jedi and nightsisters inevitably becoming friends. (It's happened twice in canon!)

He eventually starts dating Esme, another OC of mine, who was the apprentice of Asajj Ventress. It took Jadan several (long, painful, exasperating) years to get the courage to tell Esme he liked her. Ahsoka got so fed up with him that she wrote a full-length musical, mostly to raise funds for post-war rebuilding efforts but also to get Jadan and Esme to play the romantic leads. (This was after multiple other attempts including disastrous romcom skits on Jedi Theater Night, having them go undercover as a couple, and locking them in a closet for two hours. none of that worked.)

Mirialans are supposed to be trained by Mirialan masters, but because of the war, there wasn't anyone available to teach him. So he became Obi-Wan's padawan, and he learned about Mirialan culture from Luminara Unduli. He and Barriss have an inside joke about being step-siblings and Luminara having "weekend custody."

Um... that's all I can think of off the top of my head. Thank you again for the ask, it was super fun to answer!!! :D

(I've talked more about Jadan (and Esme) here if you're still interested in him after my little rant 😂😂)

[the-obiwan-for-me]

firstly, congrats on finishing She Said the Word!!! I've enjoyed it from start to finish and I've been reading it since almost the very beginning so it's been super fun to see it come to an end!!! Would you ever consider writing that "emotional" obi-wan and satine reunion after their respective stints in jail?? I can't find it at the moment but I feel like I remember you writing something about that??? :eyes emoji: anyway!! just thought I'd ask :)) hope you have a great day!!!

Thank you for this inspiration! And sorry it took a bit of time. I definitely had wanted to include this scene in the story itself, but sometimes you have to leave stuff out for the sake of pacing and mood. So, essentially, it’s a “deleted scene” (even if I wrote it after the fact).

If anyone else wants to offer up a prompt, either from this AU or one more aligning with canon, just send it my way! I will admit, I am not always fabulous with prompts, but if I think I can wrangle it, I will.

This contains spoilers up through chapter 65, Aftermath, of “She Said the Word,” so I will put the story below the break. Hope you enjoy!

Home

Any other time, it would seem like a fairly normal visit, Satine thought as she was bustled through the Senate building, surrounded by Coruscanti Guard. But this time the guards weren’t protecting her; they were guarding her, like some criminal mastermind or fearsome warlord.

In a strange way, Satine thought wryly to herself, she supposed she was some sort of warlord now.

 Beside Satine rushed her longtime aide, Kayla, who had finally bullied her way onto a transport from Mandalore, bringing with her endless apologies on Lily getting away from her, clothes appropriate for the family to wear in the Senate, and news from home, which she now hurriedly half whispered to Satine in an odd mix of Mando'a dialects in case of eavesdroppers. The petite woman had more than made up for Lily's escape, though Satine hardly blamed her for the girl's delinquency. Somehow, through sheer force of determination and grit, Kayla had kept the government from imploding or following its duchess and Mand'alor into a foolhardy rescue attempt. 

The troopers stopped at a door, and Satine had to reach out and grab Kayla's arm to keep her from running straight into the trooper, distracted as she was as she shared nearly two weeks' worth of news and relayed, from memory, messages from clan leaders and house heads. 

The door slid open, and troopers moved to allow Satine to pass. Kayla went to follow, but was stopped. "Prisoners only."

Kayla pushed against the soldier. "But I need to speak with the Duchess. I have more news to-" 

"Prisoners only," he said again, stepping more solidly in her path. She looked up at Satine, who had stopped beside her.

"Your grace…"

"It will be alright, Kayla. You have done good work thus far, and I have no doubt you will continue to do so." She squeezed the woman's hand when she saw her eyes well with tears. "K'oyacyi, my dear friend. Mandalore will persevere. We will persevere."

Kayla pressed her lips together, clearly willing herself from letting her tears fall. She squeezed Satine's hand then bowed her head. "Yes, your grace. Oya manda," she whispered, then stepped back, letting the party cross the threshold into the room beyond.

Satine crossed through the antechamber of the conference room turned holding cell and stopped short in the archway, relief sweeping over her at the sight in front of her. Korkie and Ahsoka sat in a corner, heads close together, speaking in hushed tones, while Anakin stood near the floor to ceiling window, speaking with Fenn Rau, Greer Eldar, and Ursa Wren. At the expansive table sat Obi-Wan, methodically fixing tea for he and Lily, who sat beside him, watching him work.

At some point in her relationship with Qui-Gon Jinn, probably on one of her many heartsick nights, her mind clouded and stormy with grief and uncertainty, he had set about making them all tea, in his quiet, methodical way. He offhandedly mentioned that making tea could almost be a form of meditation. She knew Obi-Wan often thought about that, as did she. She wondered, as their daughter watched him carefully, if he had told her the same thing, to ease her fragile heart and still her frantic mind.

Satine watched them all quietly for a long moment, everyone too caught up in their own worries to notice her. That was fine. She wanted to take them all in for a heartbeat; her beautiful, strong children and her kind, brave husband. She just needed that beat to drink them in before the world crashed back down around her and she had to remember they were criminals in the mind of the Republic.

The moment paused for her, just enough, and then ended when Obi-Wan happened to glance up and caught sight of her standing there. His face passed from quiet contemplation to delighted surprise to joyous relief, and he leapt from his seat, bounding across the distance between them, and swept her into his arms. For the first time in over ten days, Satine felt like she was home. Though they were hundreds of lightyears from their physical home, locked in a conference room, treated like war criminals and treacherous beasts, this man was the living embodiment of home.

“Stars, Satine,” he breathed into her hair, and she was caught by the silly thought that she was glad Kayla had been unable to fit her normal headdress within her tight packing guidelines. “Master Windu told me time and time again that you were alright, but I’m just so glad to see it for myself.”

His arms were warm and strong, and she wished for him never to let go. She buried her head into the crook of his neck more, breathing deep. His skin smelled of the same industrial soap she had used to shower in the detention center, but the tunic Kayla had seen to him getting still held traces of the subtle warm scent of his preferred cologne. He smelled like home. 

She tried to speak, but found that no words would come, only a quiet sob of relief and fear and uncertainty that she hadn’t known she had been holding for days. “You are alright, aren’t you?” he whispered into her ear when her body trembled against him with the silent sob.

She didn’t trust her voice, so she merely nodded against his shoulder. “Good,” he said again, tightening his hold on her, rocking her gently. In turn, she wrapped her arms about his neck, holding onto him as if he could float away at any moment. 

She wasn't sure how much time passed as they stood like that, gently swaying, but he stirred her back to the present when he finally spoke again. "Everything will work out, my love. Be brave. Yes?"

She nodded against him again. "Yes," she agreed, finally managing to find her voice. She allowed herself to pull loose of his embrace, and found Lily standing beside her. She pulled the girl into her arms, hugging her tight, kissing the top of her head. "Are you well, little warrior?" she asked. Lily nodded, sinking into Satine's embrace.

"I missed you," Lily said. 

"And I missed you. But now we're together again." 

"All of us."

Satine looked up to find the other three had come over. She opened her arms and they entered the circle of her arms, trapping Lily against her. She hugged them all as best she could, her little warrior, her kind little jetii girl, and her two big Mando'ade boys. It wasn't just Obi-Wan who was home. This was home. These children. Her husband. Their love. This was her safe harbor. Her rest. Her joy.

Obi-Wan approached, and she felt the soothing weight of his warm hand against her back. "We must all be brave, now," he said softly. "There will be those who will see us fall, but we must be strong against them. Trust in the Force, my darlings. We will see this through."

Someone cleared their throat behind them, and Satine reluctantly let her children go. She turned, hand reaching out for Obi-Wan's and finding it, to find Bail Organa waiting, Padme brushing past him to come to Anakin. 

"It is time, my friends," he said, his voice somber. 

"Thank you, Bail," Obi-Wan said, straightening his back, as if preparing for a battle. Satine supposed that this was just one more battle for them. He looped her hand in the crook of his elbow, and went to lead their family toward the door, when Lily stopped them. 

Reaching up, the girl pushed a loose pin back into Satine's hair, trapping a wayward curl back where it belonged. She smoothed her hand across Satine's hair.

"That's better. Now you're ready," Lily said quietly, smiling softly. Satine kissed the top of her girl's forehead, running her hand through her long hair, left loose and brushed smooth by Padme. 

"Thank you, verd'ika. Now I am ready for anything."

With that, she allowed Obi-Wan to lead her out, holding her head high, ready to fight for her home.