#but the tickets were extremely expensive so I can't skip it

[boyapologist]

my day was super shitty but a lady on the bus randomly paid for my ticket cause she had a free pass? so I guess there's still good in the world

[mang0tang00]

hi, if alright, can u maybe do a viktor scenario where his s/o always says "yes" to everything and Viktor finds it concerning sooner or later?And they tell him that their feelings aren't valid and that's why!Ty!(I just rlly love angst, but u don't have to do this if u don't want to!)

Scenario: You have a hard time saying no to anyone.

Viktor x Nb!Reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warning: description of panicking, panic attacks, description of anxiety, angst

God, your week has been stressful. All these projects decided to take up your free time as well as skipping nights of sleep for Research. You finally have time to relax-

You hear one of your friends come and walk up to you with Tickets in their hands.

“Y/n!! I got some Tickets to one of those fancy plays!”

“Aren’t those extremely expensive?…”

“Yeah but, I was able to Save up for us to go!”

“Let me Check if I have anything planned…”

As you dig through your bag for your calendar. You begin to tense. You didn’t want to go because all you wanted to do was rest and take a bath and spend the night with Viktor, if possible. But he might not even be back tonight so it wouldn’t hurt to go. You haven’t given yourself attention though, you had a talk with Viktor about taking care of yourself already. You don’t want to anger or worry him again, but this can be a nice night. You hated plays though, it was too boring and most of the catastrophes can be revealed in the First Act. But they had been saving up for both of you to go, you can't say no to them. Taking your calendar out of your bag you look through the pages and check if anything is happening and as you suspected, Nothing.

“Oh! Would you look at that… I'm Free!…”

“Great! Dress nice and I’ll Come get you so we can head over. I heard there’s supposed to be a really cute actor playing one of the main roles” you smile softly. They were so excited, no way you could say no to them. You’ll just have to push off your self care day to another weekend. Now you just have to tell Viktor. Walking home with the ticket in your hand, you begin to regret the decision you just made. You finally had a weekend to yourself and to spend time with Viktor. Getting home you collapsed onto the couch and grabbed the pillow and yelled. As you were yelling into the pillow you felt a hand on your shoulder. You quickly turn around and smack the person with a pillow and yelp. You hear a thump and look at who you hit, it was Viktor.

“Oh my god, I’m sorry Vik!” You hear him groan as he rubs the side of his face.

“You’re stronger than you look…” He mumbles.

“You scared me! Did I hit you hard?”

“I’m okay but why were you screaming into a pillow?”

“Oh um… no reason but I didn’t expect you to be home…”

“Well I started taking the weekends off to spend more time with you.”

“Aw thats sweet-” you remembered you agreed to go to the dumb play,” we can hang out tonight if you’re still awake my friends wants to go to a play with me tonight.”

“But- I thought you hated plays?...”

“I do but they're my friend and it's super expensive and I don’t want them to go to waste!” You smile nervously hoping he doesn’t over analyze you after the last incident.

“Alright, I’ll be up when you get back.” You nod and go to get ready.

That was a few months ago when things were easier and more manageable. You hadn’t been able to say no to everyone and now you dug yourself your own grave. You wanted to help Heimerdinger with his projects that he was so excited about. He gave you so many opportunities and chances at a better life, you couldn’t turn him down even if that meant fewer moments to spend with Viktor. Then your friend needed help on their assignments and projects even though you had your own to work on. You couldn’t say no to them, they have been there for you for so long. They helped you so much and it didn’t feel right saying no. Here you are now opening the door to yours and Viktor's apartment on the verge of collapsing. Your mind was exhausted from everything you agreed to do. You drop your bag to the floor and hold onto the door frame to take your shoes off. You started to feel your eyes become heavy standing there, you then realized you hadn’t even started your own project. You mentally decided to take a small nap before doing anything else. Then there was a knock at the door.

“Who is it?”

“It’s me (friends name)!”

You mentally groan and take a deep breath. Opening the door you smile and look at them.

“What are you doing here?...”

“Oh, I was wondering if you could help me?”

“With what?”

You didn’t realize Viktor was behind you listening to the conversation. Your exhaustion is evident on your face and the awareness of your surroundings was not good at the moment.

“Oh with my project!”

“But didn’t we just work on it?”

“Yes but you agreed to helping again for a few more hours”

“Oh yeah- sorry I forgot, let me just get my things.”

Viktor decides to cut in,

“Actually me and Y/n are busy tonight, they promised me it was a date night.”

“Oh-” your friend looked startled by his interruption, “ sorry I'll come back another night then.”

Your friend leaves and once they are out of ear shot, Y/n looks at Viktor.

“Why’d you do that they needed my help-”

“You’ve been saying yes to everyone who needs your help.”

“No I haven’t”

“You have and it's concerning that you can't put your foot down.”

“I can-”

“No, my dear. You can’t, you were just about to agree to go help your friend even when you're exhausted! You didn’t even notice me when I was right in front of you.”

“So, I'm tired because I just have a lot to do.”

“And you have a lot to do because you didn't say no to your friend and heimerdinger!”

You go to respond to his remark but you stop yourself. He’s right. You just feel so bad saying no because of how much everyone's helped you, you feel the need to repay them or to feel useful in some way to them. Everytime you wanted to say no you couldn’t. The words would get caught in your throat, you’d begin to tense up whilst your body temperature began to rise. Shame took over you after realizing you were too scared to say no. Everytime you said no to the person they would get mad, you didn’t want to lose the only people in your life because of saying no too much. Viktor saw you begin to fidget with the bottom of your shirt. Your shoulders rose trying to hide yourself from his eyes. The silence wasn’t bearable anymore so you confessed all your feelings,

“You’re right Viktor, I don’t say no because I want to feel useful to the people in my life. They have always helped me and have always been there for me. I can’t just not help them, that would be selfish and mean. Plus it’s just a few things I’m helping with. I want to say no but I feel ashamed for even thinking of denying someone help. I’d do anything for anyone in my life to be happy even if I have to forfeit my own happiness. It’s how it's always been… with my friends at least… “

The words were spewing out like vomit. You feel yourself breathing heavier and the shame rises in your throat. The bile forms a lump as you stare at the floor.

“I’m exhausted Vik but if I can push my exhaustion out further to see my friends happy even if they’ll replace me- I’m at least useful to them in some way… “

Your eyes slowly trail up from Viktors feet to his face. You looked at his expression, he looked shocked, sad, concerned, and mad all at once. His anger wasn’t at you but at the people who were using you. He walks closer and hugs you tightly. Your body weight leaning onto him as exhaustion takes over. You both gently sit on the floor as you hide from him in his arms.

“Y/n, you are worth so much more than you think. You are one of the kindest people I have ever encountered in Piltover. Saying no should always be an option for you no matter the person or circumstance. You are worth more than just the help you can provide and shouldn’t feel obligated to say yes to everything. People are vile and would use your niceness to their advantage. I mean look at you now, you’re exhausted to the point you couldn’t even stand. You are exhausting yourself and it's worrying. I know you want to help people but you need to take care of yourself as well. There are also no if, and’s, or but’s to this because you’re my partner and I need you. I love you for who you are Y/n not what you could provide or give me or help me with, my love for you runs much deeper than that.”

You sigh but it comes out shaky. A tear rolls down your cheek. The shame you had been feeling subsided as you lay in his arms. Sometimes Viktor could be a bit harsh and blunt but it helps you see reality much clearer than when your mind is clouded by your emotions. He is the person that you needed to help ground you. You couldn’t ask for anyone better than the one who's willing to stick through these rough weeks with you.