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piratadelamor · 23 hours ago

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its a bit weird that i know both of my boyfriend's exes personally and even weirder that we all look like each other because he really has a type and there's the fact that his first ex shows up all the time on my instagram and his second ex is weirdly obsessed with trying to keep contact with him even though she was the one who left him for someone else (on december 23rd !!) and she stalked me on ig and she's friends with my roommate and like. this is my first time not being my partner's first gf so it's my first time dealing with ex gfs and it's all just super weird to me

#idk how to explain there's a bit of jealousy yes but mostly its just a weird feeling that i cant really explain #why are they both so close to me this is so unnecessary kfndkf #i think its a big green flag that they're both pretty and both very interesting people #and i cant say if them looking a lot like me makes me feel more or less insecure #bc yeah i sure am his type but am i enough like am i more or less than them (type of shit i think when im feeling insecure)#but in the end they both broke his heart and left him for someone else #i think what makes me mad is that they really did break him and i found him in pieces and watched as he picked himself up little by little #as we started dating and falling in love with each other but i know and he acknowledges that there are parts of him that broke forever #and the fact that they had these parts that i will never have because of them is what fucks me up sometimes #but at the same time he's grown and changed a lot and there are new parts of him now that they never saw and never will...#its not a competition i know but its really hard not to compare myself sometimes specially when theyre already so similar to me like #the comparison is already there its automatic kfndkdn u cant look at the three of us and not realize that we look like each other a lot #anyway #i think its more about my desire or my fantasy of having him all for myself #or of wanting to feel like im special and unique and not just another one??#its so dumb because its obvious that i am and he makes it very clear to me all the time #but thats it. i'm dumbbbb #im not even feeling bad rn i just saw his first ex again (she goes to the same hairdresser as me lol) and these thoughts came back again #so i wanted to vent #i think i deal with all of this pretty well but knowing how to deal with these feelings and thoughs doesnt mean they dont occur at all #ok im doneeee

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