#but she couldn't have taken the 3+ seconds to check the screenshot before she posted it?

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What do you Mean that Léa accidentally leaked Quackity's personal information leading to him being completely doxxed on the Internet. What do you Mean she's saying that she's only a human and she makes mistakes too; that's a pretty damn big mistake. What do you Mean that she's saying that QuackityStudios have still broken ten more laws or whatever the number was so that somehow makes her less guilty. Yeah, she made a mistake: she got the payment information and proceeded to accidentally dox Quackity to the world, oh my absolute lord. I am so sorry, I am at an absolute loss for words. This is so insane to me.

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I have been. So. FUCKING. ANGRY. The last several days.

On Friday, while I was working at my job that I have that I work at at my fucking job, I received an email with the subject line "December Time Sheets Not Received" that a sanction was recommended against me for my food stamps because I "didn't submit my time sheets" (I did. On time. And I sent a follow up message asking to confirm that my time sheets were received). So what that means is that they would take away my food stamps for a month or sometimes 3 months. I would be banned from reapplying for them until the 30 days or 90 days were over.

Yeah. Fucking terrifying.

The email had very strong wording and strongly implied I was just on the cusp of losing my food stamps, fucking AGAIN. I would love to share a screenshot of that email here to show just how shitty and terrifying it was, but I could have my food stamps taken away if I share their emails to me. Probably so they can get away with as much as they want (oh, it's to protect your information! No, it isn't. Why are they punishing me for sharing MY OWN information? Exactly.). But the MOMENT I am off food stamps I am sharing all these fucking bullshit emails. It is fucking INSANE.

So after I read this fucking email immediately after clocking off for a stressful day at work where two of my coworkers were obnoxious assholes to me and one of them directly bullied me TWICE, I went to the bathroom and called the help line. They didn't pick up. I left a very angry and shaky and teary voicemail. I forgot to leave my number because I was so angry and fucking scared. I went outside where my mom was waiting for me because we had planned to hang out after I got off work. Before I went to the car I started drafting this email, which I never sent, but which I will post here:

My mom saw me standing in the entrance and walked up to me and started trying to make conversation. I asked her to give me a moment to draft an important email about food stamps. She waited impatiently and kept trying to talk to me. I tried not to cry or scream. She started being obnoxious and "why don't you just"-ing (ALWAYS unhelpful things I'd already thought of and can't do or won't work), and I told her (very loudly) what was going on and that I was very upset. I continued drafting this first email in the car on the way to her house where she let me use her computer to resubmit my Time Sheets and send a million emails. She told me I was lucky to live in a place that even had a program like food stamps. I told her that I can be lucky and also be upset at how shitty the program is. I can be glad a program exists and also angry that it isn't better. I am ALLOWED to ask for more. She kept downplaying my situation. I just wanted her to listen to me vent. I was so fucking angry. About the email, about my coworkers, about that one entitled customer who took up so much of my time, about my mom not supporting me in the ways I needed let alone wanted, and poking me further when I was already clearly agitated (well, less agitated and more in the middle of a panic attack).

Then I cut and pasted that angry email draft to my Memos app and drafted and sent this one instead (my first angry email is always too angry, so I write it all out, then delete it and write a second one):

I resubmitted my Time Sheets over and over in different ways. Then I sent a similar email to my "Job Coach" who isn't actually a job coach but rather a check-in Food Stamps Police Informer/bootlicker. I basically quoted the offending email in the first two paragraphs, so you can get a sense of what it said here.

And then I sent a follow-up email.

I kept sending emails after this, basically spamming them so they couldn't ignore me. I let them know I would continue spamming them until they both confirmed that they had received my Time Sheets and had un-recommended or removed the sanction. It was very "I will not stop sending you emails until you fucking listen. This is a threat." My mom gave me some homemade chili and took a nap on the couch while I did this. I called the help line again and left a less shaky and more professional but still furious voicemail. I remembered to leave my number. I asked them to call me back. (They never did.)

Then I ate some chili and calmed down a little and my mom and I got in the car to go shopping as we had planned.

A couple hours later my "Job Coach" emailed me "thank you for your time sheet" and I asked her if the sanction has been removed and reminded her that I complied fucking perfectly. She didn't respond on Friday. The weekend happened. I waited.

And then today. I wake up from stress dreams to see an email from her. She fucking told me that no sanction had been "recommended or requested" against me. At all. And that I would have had until Wednesday to turn in my Time Sheets anyway, and that the fucking TERRIFYING, STRONGLY WORDED email I received was just a little warning uwu.

I am so Fucking Angry. So I sent her this email.

And she responded:

(My response to her is on the bottom here.)

I'm so FUCKING ANGRY. This is SO FUCKING STRESSFUL.

I HATE having food stamps in Idaho. But without them, I'd have to use the food bank, which is all food you have to MAKE and nothing quick to eat that I enjoy, and I know from fucking experience that if I don't enjoy the food I'm eating and/or if it takes too long or too much effort to make I just don't eat at all. I CAN'T have my food stamps removed. It is SO FUCKING SCARY. And they didn't even recommend a sanction against me. They LITERALLY SAID "we are recommending a SNAP sanction at this time." And then they didn't. AND I had more time to resubmit my already submitted time sheets. I am so FUCKING angry. I want to find out who all are responsible for this mess and make sure they know firsthand how fucking stressful this is. What elitist entitled fuckwads. I am so FUCKING angry. I CRIED and YELLED when I saw that email. I was SHAKING. I wanted to SCREAM and PUNCH and WRITHE and KILL. I was so fucking outside the window of tolerance. They SENT ME THERE. Their email MADE ME go into fight or flight response.

I am so. FUCKING. ANGRY.