#but prayers will often keep him up past then. or he��ll get up at 4 for similar reasons

[rennyji]

July 3rd tweets...

July 3rd tweets...

There is a Biblical saying that says “A prophet is never accepted in his own home town…” - what this means for everyday people like ourselves is that sometimes those close to us don’t recognize our value. It could be from seeing us everyday, knowing our past and viewing us through that mental filter, or something of that nature. It could be why Jesus didn’t work or practice His ministry in His hometown, where He grew up. In His hometown, Jesus would be seen as Mary and Joseph’s son, or if Joseph was a carpenter: Jesus (or “ Yeshua Bar Joseph” <-I believe His Jewish name, or I think Joshua) would also be referred to as the carpenter’s Son. Jesus moved from where people knew Him and started fresh and established Himself as a Holy Individual. Now back to me. When I give my parents advice, they never listen. If you ask them one of Renny’s ideas or advice, they can’t remember even one thing-they don’t pay attention to me. They need someone else, literally anyone else, other than their children to push them in one direction or the other- the sad thing is, the other people may say exactly what I would’ve said. Please don’t be like my parents. Listen to those in your life, value what they say. It’s one of the reasons I need to make sure my life partner is someone I can regularly talk to. I mean I may sound nice to you, but when I buy something for my goals or go to a different Church, my parents get critical. They Can’t understand my reasons even with me being in the most bizarre and time consuming or “situations/phenomena.” I’ll go out of my way to explain myself, but there is some demonic mental block in their heads where they don’t listen. Never. It’s like an extraordinary disease, because I end up saying the same thing to them over and over. And truthfully, at my age, after all these years, I don’t care to, nor have the patience to, explain myself to anyone about anything. It’s ur bizarre disease to read into every detail of a strangers life, not mine.  But my father…he lacks the common sense to pray for my happiness and goes so far as to pray aloud that “the demons making me misbehave in his perception or do what he doesn’t approve, be gone.” He prays that I find someone from his culture and birthplace to take as my wife. Insult to injury, he says this out loud daily, never considering what I want. I mean you want to say get a hobby (literally) rather than obsessing on some idealistic future from 30 years ago and from another country.   I see him as the ultimate con man in terms of being manipulative with me. He makes retarded smart a*s moves to make me hear certain things, thinking it will get me to act in a particular way. He plays on emotion. These actions are so primitive and childish, it’s enraging. He’s from a village, but even then, I find myself wondering, how the h*ll does this man see me? A father and son dream in this country of being friends and like brothers. Not my dad. Never sees me as an equal. May mindlessly say in passing, sure we’re equal. But it’s without thinking through what it truly means. If I were him, I’d take time to talk to my son and value every word. But my dad is from another time and place: he thinks since I’m fed and housed, then his Christian obligation is fulfilled. My body may be taken care of, but what do you do to nurture my mind? Anything? How do you “convert” or change such time practiced learned behavior? It’s not stubbornness of heart, but like his genetic programming is incapable of being reprogrammed: or in other words, he doesn’t have an open mind. I think I can learn new things, accept differences where I see them, and change accordingly. But not my mom or dad- plain old school types. Think their ideal Christians based on how they grew up, not realizing the lack of heart in their actions, or my ability to teach better. Living with them at this age to avoid rent payments and to use the ton of space available at my house, takes a toll on the mind. Simply because of the nonsense I face. I mean I want my mom and dad to listen to what I have to share. If and when they read this, they’ll miss that point and be busy taking all of this as an insult, as random as that may be amidst all their random yelling and criticism. Never had parents I could talk to, and for the past 11+ years, people keep a distance from me as part of the “situation” or “phenomena.” Parents: listen to your kids. Do what my parents never did, and believe in your kids, when they struggle to believe in themselves. They’ll remember and appreciate it for a lifetime. I wish I had a dad I could get a beer with, when I’m taking a break from fitness goals, as beer affects such goals negatively. I wish my mom and dad supported my endeavors, however crazy in appearance or stereotype, rather than judging me. Food? a maid can cook. No ones going to remember that after someone passes on, if they have recipes. Cleaning can be done by house services. Money can come from a job. My parents don’t listen and just compound my own fears. Some families leave their kids with the house they grew up in. When I spent Christmas Eve with my friend Nicole and her family while lying to my parents, she shared that her parents gave their house to the kids AND THEIR GIRL FRIENDS, WHILE THEY MOVED TO APARTMENTS IN THEIR OLD AGE. My parents? For one reason or another, maybe to make me like a stereotypical American, want to sell our house, not help me with job hunting, and leave me in debt. I believe they have a hand in the situation they partake in, in terms of getting me involved. Who begs for their sons hate like this? Are they so guilt ridden that they just want to give me h*ll for some self consoling hatred towards them?! I lose patience with the simple mindedness and stupidity of people. Innocence can be beautiful, but then not so much with stupidity. A parent shines in the way Martha Kent of Smallville is with Superman or Clark Kent: always there, always supportive, always listening. Parent, friend, sibling: that’s what you aim to be for those close to you. Be better. Words from a man in his very early thirties.

-But moving on to other things...

Yesterday I said that prayer can be a tool 4 mindfulness or 2 remind us of ourGoals & get us 2 focus &progress towards them. But it needs 2 be done daily, at least once inTheMorning &/or inThe Evening, right when U wake up, right b4 sleeping-those 2 instances, the mind is clear.-

- Today I introduce the concept of the "self fulfilling prophecy." You can see it as an exotic way of see positive thinking. With the self fulfilling prophecy, while believing what you say, you proclaim out loud: you succeeding in attaining something desired. -

-You can raise ur hands or keep them folded. Probably better to stand.-

- so lets say in the 11th grade, you want to get into a particular college. Say as often as you can "I will get into Harvard or Columbia or whatever." It helps tune your mind. It puts your desire at the forefront of your mind. Being alert to ur own proclamation, you will &should-

- be on the lookout to what will accomplish your goal. Believing and declaring your goal will help you get the grades you need in school and on the SAT's/ACT's. It gets you in the practice of accessing your divine potential in the same way the age old disciples -

- declared in doubt free belief that their followers would be healed of disease. But you need to believe everyday what you proclaim. The first time, maybe you won't get what you want. But with persistence, your mind will see you as relentless, and give into your belief. -

- sometimes, instead of getting what you aimed for, life will reward you with something better or more appropriate for your life. I knew someone that wanted to get into a particular fellowship program after their residency and medical school. This person got in elsewhere.-

- but as it turned out life "needed" his caring presence elsewhere. He managed to live in an area where he could get a fancy apartment and affordable furniture. He's living in style. -

- u need 2 orient ur actions towards what ur proclamation is. If u, as a parent, believe ur stuck in a situation where u have no choice but 2 betray ur child, & U hate urself 4 it, & believe ur son will hate u, "ur actions & tone of voice & content of words will reflect that."-

- that is the self fulfilling prophecy working negatively. If it can work negatively, make it work positively 4 u. Orient ur actions &speech towards ur goal or theFuture u want. Never let this world stand in ur way. U are not just this world, ur body, or mind, & its limitations.-

- you, a human being with an immortal insides or soul, are destined for greatness, to be a giant on this earth and maybe elsewhere. Never let anything keep you small  or without a voice.-

- in life, when you try for something, you will get that or something better. Believe, live in the moment, make the best of what life gives u, orient ur actions/speech/thinking toward what you want and need, proclaim it - let the self fulfilling prophecy work for u positively.