#but my brain isn't really functioning on the higher levels right now

[survivingsusac]

What do you know about hyperchloremia?

It’s latin for high chloride in the blood.

Jumping right in today because I'm too tired for my typical rambles. Unusual, I know. And borderline concerning.

I got a complete blood panel workup done this week. It's a typical lab ordered for people who are on intravenous or subcutaneous immunoglobulins. I was on intravenous and now I do my own subcutaneous. A complete blood panel is used to make sure that the somewhat heavy medication isn't taking a negative toll on your body's organs, focusing on the kidney and liver function. As those are the organs that filter things out of the circulatory system.

Pretty much everything was in normal levels which is great. I like being “healthy."

That was ironic humor for those of you who may have missed it. Aurora is not “healthy,” but she finds it ironically funny that her levels are in the ”healthy” range.

Interestingly, there was one metric that was on the tippy top high end of the normal range. My chloride levels.

What is chloride?

Chloride is a mineral electrolyte in your blood which helps maintain the acid base balance in your blood. Chloride is measured on a spectrum called the pH scale, which ranges from zero to 14. 7, being smack dab in the middle, is true neutral. Healthy pH of blood is normally slightly basic with a pH range of about 7.35 to 7.45. Usually, the body maintains the pH of blood close to 7.40. Blood tests, like my full blood panel work up, measure the acid base balance by measuring the pH and levels of carbon dioxide-a gas which makes your blood more acidic-and bicarbonate-a base, present in antacids like Alka seltzer-in the blood.

Electrolytes help control nerve and muscle function.

*This information immediately connected little dots in my brain between spasticity and chloride*

The amount of chloride in your blood is often measured with other electrolytes to monitor kidney disease heart failure liver disease and high blood pressure.

What part of your body makes chloride?

High cortisol levels play a part in chloride increases. Cortisol, often called the stress hormone, is produced by the adrenal glands. The adrenal glands sit like tiny little berets on the top of each kidney.

Higher chloride levels in brain region weakens synaptic transmission in the cortex. High chloride = slow brain neuron firing, like you’re sleeping.

What does a high chloride level really mean? Explain it like I’m five, please.

High chloride can indicate that you are dehydrated, that you have kidney disease, that you have metabolic acidosis or respiratory alkalosis. Metabolic acidosis is when your blood is too acidic (low on the pH scale). Respiratory alkalosis is when you breathe excessively or hyperventilate so you have too much carbon dioxide in your blood so it’s more basic (high on the pH scale).

The most common culprit for elevated chloride is dehydration. And your girl Aurora is chronically dehydrated. So while I have my theories of why my adrenal glands began over-producing cortisol, I also recognize that I have a serious problem with keeping myself hydrated.

Side bar:

If you can’t connect the dots to how I would have experienced an increase in cortisol-the stress hormone-would play a role in a physiological response in my body, all I can say is have you read the blog? Not trying to be rude. But here’s the bullet point Spark Notes style version:

Fight or flight response active for entirety of marriage

Adrenal glands on, increase in cortisol and apparently chloride

Habitual issue with hydration (not helping the chloride processing situation)

That’s it. That’s my Spark Notes version.

Aurora is verbose by nature, but she can break things down into the short and sweet. But you’ll need the contextual knowledge for what is contained in those bullets points for it to mean much to you intrinsically.

So, just…read the blog.

Surviving Susac,

Aurora

[birdofmay]

hi i hope you r doing well I hope it’s ok to ask but i don’t know what support need/level I fit into could u help give any advice/insight?. I read over everything in your pinned but I’m still stuck bc I’m worried to label myself wrongly. can u help at all? I am open to any thoughts u have.. can u relate to my experience at all as a higher support autistic?

I feel like my sensory issue are severe and interfere w my ability to wear most clothes and just daily life stuff, I feel very overwhelmed and broken by change, struggle so much with driving that it’s dangerous, can struggle to process things and do it slowly, I am verbal but have loss episodes and in general barely talk bc social/communication issues,

very difficult to maintain and make relationships, I don’t know if I mask or not bc I feel like even if I were to try to I still seem autistic and mess it up despite some people telling they think I’m high functioning(but then turn around and tell me I’m r slur bc of my autism behaviors), I struggle with hygiene and eating drinking bc I don’t feel the cues or bc of executive dysfunction pain fatigue or sensory issues,

I have motor/pain/muscular issues (mobility worsening and affecting my ability to do things like go up stairs and walk) and I do occupational therapy and it does cause me to not be able to do certain things myself like wash/do my hair and Its a struggle to shower my body too, cannot exercise either bc of POTS

I can go in public but I do it with people bc the surroundings seem overwhelming, I do not have a job currently and I know it would be so hard on me but I am going to college and eventually will be forced to get one, struggle to use utensils to eat and struggle with tasks/instructions when not done right in front of me 1on1 like a million times, I have a lot of stims and a lot of harmful to myself ones, often info dumping about special interest

I can’t handle/fully understand money/taxes/bills, it’s hard for me to prepare meals, struggle to eat much bc of GI issues and jaw fatigue, do laundry, and manage chores, and manage medications, extreme issue with organization, learning disabled, get overwhelmed/meltdown/shutdown very easily

I’m not sure what else to add to take into consideration (can u give ideas) or how to tell which level and support need this fits as .. like I guess I’m not low support bc I do need help with BADLS as I mentioned but I I don’t know if it’s wrong of me to say I’m high support or medium support or a flux of both?.. and have no idea with “levels” I was dx with a level but feel like it’s incorrect .. and based on what I said which BADLS and IADLS do I need help with and how many is that? It’s confusing :(

Here's the relevant section of my FAQ post

"I don't know what support needs I'd be considered!"

Do you have care needs? No? Then you're not high support needs, you're most likely low or low-to-mid support needs.

My country re-assesses my support needs regularly; if you're medium or high support needs and weren't medically neglected your whole life, you'd normally know that you're medium or high support needs already, because that's tested (if you're not sure, check the documents). But testing is different from country to country.

Unless, of course, something happened recently that you now suddenly need a lot of help, definitely more than before. In this case there likely wasn't any testing yet. But in that case I can't help you either, because I don't test you.

Note because this still is a common misunderstanding: The DSM-5 says for example "Autism level 1: Requires support", but the support that's meant there has nothing to do with the support needs we're talking about in this and in the linked post. It's a little unfortunate that both say "support" because people always think it's the same when it really really isn't ☝🏼

I feel like you're mixing up autism levels and support needs still, because the first part of what you wrote (sensory issues, social stuff) is relevant for your level, but not for a support needs/care level assessment.

Maybe read the linked post and the support needs post (linked within the linked post) again but pay attention to the "Who determines if you're low, medium or high support needs (if you have support needs)?" post this time 🤔

Autism levels are given to you by professionals and not to be "guessed" - that's why I don't know what level I'd be considered (we don't have levels), and don't even further think about what level I'd be because I simply don't have a level. You can disagree with the level of course, but when talking about levels you then don't say "I'm level [guessed level]", but "I was diagnosed level [diagnosed level] but think I'm actually higher/lower".

Same goes for support needs. Not "I'm [guessed support needs]" but "I'm [assessed support needs]" or "I think I'm somewhat [guessed support needs]".

It's not a handy personality test self-categorization thing. It's something that's tested. By professionals. Only.

[lancrewizzard]

Another trans person here, and I think you (OP) have fallen into a line of thinking I often see in the City Watch sub-series, which is taking the allegories too literally. Obviously this is one guy's opinion, etc, etc, but I also hope this more circuitous reply will make it clear that this is a more general thing about ways of reading the text than a "defending my position" style internet debate, if that makes sense.

So to actually make the point I'm trying to, I'm going to go way back to Men At Arms and Reaper Man, the two books I've seen most often read as a very basic "guns bad" and "technological progress bad" message respectively. Now this is obviously dumb, but it's just easier to explain the flaws in the line of thinking when it's the more obvious examples, so bear with me. Those of us with functional brain cells can clearly see that Men At Arms is fundamentally about power, privilege, and the abuse thereof. The gonne isn't meant to be read literally as a Roundworld gun, but as a tool of unrestricted power behoven to no higher authority. It is the corruption that authority and power bring, distilled into a physical form for the narrative. Likewise, Reaper Man is about how capitalism and unthinking Progress TM dehumanises people. It's about how important it is for public servants (Death) to be servants not rulers. Corn is not just corn, and the crown was the symbol of everything wrong with New Death, because it wanted to rule, not responsibly fulfil its duty.

Now coming back to Monstrous Regiment, there is the surface level literal scene of a trans man outing afab people to other afab people and threatening to fully out them. Okay. But taking this scene in isolation and not holistically is, imo, the same type of thinking as seeing literal guns as the "villain" of Men At Arms.

Monstrous Regiment is about how patriarchy is upheld by men and women alike, how corrupt systems are upheld, and again about power and responsibility. The climatic scene marks the end of the unquestioned corrupt system and the start of change. The High Command are hypocrites using their power against people like them but with less privilege and security. Jackrum is doing functionally the same thing as them, but in order to protect the people he feels he has a duty of care towards. Everyone in the high command lied about themselves, even Strappi who posed as a lower rank. The institution is rotten and that's the point.

I hadn't really thought about it until now, but it's actually so important that Jackrum, one of the old guard, protects the squad in the way that has been the norm in Borogravia - threats, secrets, and blackmail over broken rules. Everyone breaks Nugganic law all the time, that's another part of the point. Jackrum's era of "my country right or wrong" has had its day, as he said. The end of the book works in my opinion because Polly stepped up to fill the space Jackrum left, but as herself. You see at the end that she's breaking the cycle of silence that old Jackrum couldn't.

We each make things better for the next generation as we can with the tools we have, and honestly I don't think it would have worked the same if Jackrum hadn't been a bastard. We see him shoot a man in cold blood, it's not like the scene was out of character. Jackrum's on our side and we love him, but my gods he's not a good person, and that's also part of the point.

I'd argue that Jackrum couldn't have let the women in the army know that they weren't alone because Jack Jackrum as he is, as the person he was shaped into by his life, isn't a person who could do that. But he helped to shape Polly Perks, who is a person who can and does do what he couldn't and didn't.

Monstrous Regiment (spoilers ahead) is funny and delightful and generally amazing representation and I will love it and Terry Pratchett til my dying day, AND:

Monstrous Regiment has super-questionable takes on how to handle closeted queerness and outing folks. I personally didn't realize til seeing a stage adaptation.

(Disclaimer before I support this thesis: I'm cis and should not be the last word in this conversation. I just want to start it. Please, folks with lived experience, I want to hear y'all. Also TW for mention of sex assault).

Let's start with: the climactic scene of Monstrous Regiment is an older trans man deadnaming and outing other trans/gender nonconforming folks, from a safe position of power in the closet himself. 

And like, there's context that softens that brutal take, right? He makes all the cis dudes leave the room. He tells everyone the things that are desperately important for queer folks to know: that they're not alone, that they deserve better, that there's hope and community and hope in community. He's not just doing it for his job, he's doing it to advocate for the Monstrous Regiment, because the guys he's outing are enacting the same sexism that had them chopping their hair and relocating their socks. 

But Jackrum could have had a quiet chat with each of his little lads when he handed them the socks. He could have told them they weren't alone, offered to connect them with others who gave permission, let them build a quiet and safe community on their own terms. He could have planted the "potatoes of defiance." 

Instead, he hoarded dozens of confessions and secrets until he could throw them back like a bomb. "About half of the officers" and "More'n a third of the country's high command" believed they were alone, for years, because he let them, and it benefitted him. Maybe he wasn't intending it to feel like blackmail, but wouldn't Major "Janet" Derbi or even General "Mildred" Froc think twice about challenging him, knowing that he could end their careers? I don't even think want to get into how enormous the political fallout from that meeting must have been (not everyone would have kept each others' secrets to the guys outside, and not everyone held equal rank in that meeting room). 

And there's the way he he taunts them through the book. I'm talking about the running bit where Jackrum will walk right up to the line ("The thing you don't know about Private Perks...") and we all think he's about to say, is that he's actually a girl!, before he redirects to something innocuous — but then you find out he really has known the whole time. Again, I don't know if I just...missed it in the books? but onstage it's clear Polly is terrified. She is not having fun. Is she worried about having to go back to the inn, or is she remembering Heinrich, thinking about what soldiers could do to vagina-owners in their presence? Either way, Polly is so, so scared, and Jackrum is having fun toying with her, and it's uncomfortable.

I love Terry, and I am patient and forgiving with his work because he's doing the best he can — he fucking nailed it in so many areas. He was a better trans ally in the 90's and aughts than a good chunk of writers out there today in 2023, but I think the way he wrote Jackrum's actions feels like what a cishet person thinks peak allyship should be. I want to be clear that I still love Jackrum too: his sneaky wordplay and his respect for Polly's brain and his militant decency. He's a damn good character, and we're spoiled for them in Discworld.

Mostly, I'm a little embarrassed that I didn't notice the implied narrative blessing of "it's ok to out people if it's to other queer folks, and also if they're being sexist or antagonists" until I saw the physical tension in the bodies of the actors onstage, many of whom proudly identified as nonbinary or gender-nonconforming in their playbill bios. Those folks knew how dread-filled and terrifying it would be, and they played it. And I realized that that bit wasn't funny.

TLDR: Jackrum is a fantastic, well-written character, and I'm fine with him being a war criminal but the way he handles other peoples' gender is Too Far.

Again, I want to start that conversation but I don't want to be the only voice, so please feel free to add points of view I'm missing

[marshmallow-the-vampire-slayer]

"Time to pray to the God of ____" "You mean me?"

THIS GAME IS OVER

[takuyakistall]

I recently re-read his Dorm SSR personal story here! A few questions and thoughts lingered inside my head as I read it and it collectively got worse when @poisonepel​ started questioning things too. Which ultimately led to me writing this down while running on half a brain cell and a spoonful of rice for lunch. This isn’t necessarily an analysis but more of just me questioning a lot of stuff. I already pointed out things that are already obvious so it might get repetitive. Placed under the cut since it’s a bit lengthy! I tried my best to be coherent in the very least.

Rook’s Nickname for Jade - Rook calls Jade “Monsieur Mastermind” and perhaps you’re already telling me right now that I shouldn’t look deeper into this since it doesn’t look like it matters anyway but let me tell you right now that I tend to overanalyze things when it comes to Jade. I find it a bit odd how Rook calls Jade the mastermind, presuming that we’re talking about the Octavinelle trio, when it’s often Azul that’s shown to be as such. Of course, it’s been revealed that Rook analyzes or stalks nearly everything that happens to catch his interest (Jade’s Gym Personal). So it’s safe to presume that his judgement is, if not entirely correct, accurate. “Your staple food, your habits, your walking speed, when you sleep, your heart rate, how many times you blink… those and many others I have recorded perfectly.” Just by reading this line alone I became pretty sure that he observed something deeper than that--which is his personality.

       The question is, why is Jade the mastermind instead of Azul? Why is Azul’s nickname “Roi du Fort” instead of being the mastermind? Well, it might be common knowledge but Jade, in a way, controls Azul despite what it looks like to the public which is Azul controlling Jade since he, as the higher authority, has power over him. I read a popular post explaining why Jade probably undertakes the role of a servant rather than taking the position for himself knowing that he has the full capabilities to do so. This will be explained further later in a different note.

What I’m trying to imply is that behind the scenes, Azul isn’t really the mastermind behind everything despite what it seems. It’s Jade who’s really in control of things, by picking up the act of a servant or butler. 

“If the entire hierarchy collapses just due to the absence of a single person, then that proves that they aren’t all as great as they seem.” - I just had the need to point this particular line out since it just seemed so… Jade. Everything about this line just screams out the same vibes he radiates, cold and severe. I know he’s faking the whole thing about having a falling out with Azul and wanting to join Pomefiore but I think it is true that without him, Octavinelle won’t nearly be as great from when he was still there.

First of all, He’s Octavinelle’s vice-dorm leader. Surely, being in such a high position, he carries a lot of duties that only he can do as the acting vice leader. There’s also the fact that he does it superbly than other people which is why Octavinelle is the way it is right now, it would be hard to replace him. They would have to look for someone who’s on par with Jade, in the very least.

Secondly, he’s somewhat an emotional pillar to Azul. Judging from their childhood and current relationship as of now, I like to think that a big reason why Azul is the way he is right now, is because of Jade and Floyd acting as his emotional support or whatever even though they insist that their relationship is purely just for business and will drop it if it’s no longer beneficiary to them. The main reason why I think that way is because of the Octavinelle CM which has a scene of Azul holding a bubble in between his hands. Inside the bubble were the twins in their eel forms. The next thing that happened--the bubble popped and disappeared, along with the tweels inside it. We could see the horror on Azul’s face when it happened in that scene and slowly led to the overblot scene which says a lot about how Azul views the twins. Have a more detailed explanation regarding their relationship here! Summary, Azul will lose his shit if Jade were to disappear. Now, where is Octavinelle in all of this? Probably a mess in the corner right there with their dorm leader not in his right state of mind. In short, Octavinelle will probably crumble under the absence of Jade. The reason why Octavinelle is still functioning under Azul’s command during this whole stunt Jade is making is precisely because Azul knew that it was all an act.

"Jade’s excellence in everything he does is renowned even among the Dorm Leaders. He might be a super secretary or something to be able to answer Azul's difficult requests." - Vil's words to Rook during their little talk about letting Jade into Pomefiore. This stuck out to me because back then I didn't really give this much thought but now that I'm re-reading this, it makes me wonder how good is Jade at his job as a Vice Dorm Leader? These words coming from Vil hold a certain weight I can't describe, for him to say that his excellence is renowned even among the Dorm Leaders and to be described as a Super Secretary.

For Jade to have earned this kind of reputation despite being in the land for only two years so far is quite a feat! I would've expected less from someone else but this is Jade we're talking about so, ignoring his terrible weakness in flying, I can assume that Jade worked hard for him to have reached this kind of performance level in such a short time. To be recognized by almost all of the Dorm Leaders isn't an easy feat.

Jade as an attendant - During his first day as Vil's attendant, Vil mentioned how off-putting he is from the fact that Jade was almost too good for someone on their first day. "You managed to get on such friendly terms with the stuffy and straight-laced people of the industry in such little time; and you were also perfect when it came to helping out with the shooting. You've worked much harder than I thought you would." His words. I think this is due to the nature of Jade's silver tongue, which is being able to speak in a way that makes other people do or believe what you want them to do or believe. It seems very fitting for a character like Jade.

Because of the recent personals that got released for Jade, namely the Birthday SSR, they talked about family there and it got me thinking quite a bit as to how Jade can speak so eloquently especially now that I've read that he managed to get on the good side of people who are probably way older than he is and straight-laced, no less. He vaguely mentioned their family background when he was telling a story from his childhood and said how different people would come over to their party and offer them presents. I'm assuming that these people are possibly older than he is, judging from the fact that one of them attempted to give the twins liquor despite them being at a young age, and I thought that maybe Jade grew up used to being surrounded by adults to the point where he picks up a lot of speech patterns and habits. Which inevitably leads to what he is right now. Nothing is confirmed yet, this is a mere thought I had.

Jade's past with Azul - It's briefly mentioned here in the story. Jade mentioned how there weren't as many mer-folk as there are humans so they were all basically put in the same class together during elementary school. Azul didn't catch his interest back then, it seems. He mentioned not being able to remember the very reason why the three of them—Jade, Floyd, and Azul—ended up together currently in Night Raven College.

I am genuinely curious as to what actually made the twins interested in someone like Azul. Correct me if I'm wrong but they did mention it in Chapter 3, right? Was it the growing interest when they finally took notice of Azul using his unique magic on basically everyone who fell into his trap? Someone tell me the details if it was ever mentioned, my memory is failing me.

“Tenebres” - The shoe brand Vil wanted to get his hands on but unfortunately did not obtain, particularly, the Mirror Shoe. "Tenebres" apparently only sells their products to people who they deem worthy for designs, even the designer themselves has yet to make a public appearance as they are shrouded in mystery. Vil didn't have enough time to acquire it but, surprise! Jade Leech has somehow managed to get his perfect hands on the pair of red shoes Vil wanted so much. Frankly enough, Vil was impressed he managed to obtain something he could not—alone, no less.

This is just me pondering but this particular line made me wonder, "Heh, they did some at the cost of a bit of trouble. No matter, how about you try these on instead of dwelling on the matter?", to what lengths did he actually have to go through to obtain just a pair of shoes? Or rather, what connections does he have to be able to obtain this so easily and brush it off with a mere, "cost of a bit of trouble" when clearly Vil already expressed the difficulty in obtaining these?

Another note I have to make but not completely sure if it's relevant is his family. As I've said before, they mentioned that they deal with a lot of people due to the nature of their business and that made me wonder if the designer/owner of this certain shoe brand is one of them? Perhaps Jade was able to easily contact them because of connections his family has although Floyd's wish in the event Stars & Wishes contradicts this possibility.

In Floyd's wish, he mentioned wanting a pair of shoes and Idia immediately asked him why he couldn't just buy them. Floyd answered with a simple, "I can't usually get them." Because of the price. Which, again, contradicts my theory about the Leech family being connected to the shoe brand. Although! Vil did mention how the shoe brand only sells it to people they deem worthy. Perhaps, Floyd isn't…? No—it still wouldn't explain how easily Jade got the shoes and had the brand get Vil a job there as an ambassador. Surely, that isn't due to just any normal connections anymore. Definitely shady, I want to know more.

Jade is in control - As I've said earlier, Jade is somewhat in control despite playing the role of a servant. Prime example is when Vil told him his throat was parched, Jade immediately acted upon it fully knowing what his original intentions were. He gave Vil a drink that the Mostro Lounge was apparently serving without having Vil question it further and even went as far as to let Jade take a picture and post it—even he decided the caption for the post! With a simple flow of events just like that, Jade has managed to manipulate Vil without him knowing. He did it all while taking in the role of a servant and that in itself says a lot about how he does things

I think it's worth it to take note of the fact that Jade does not like bringing attention to himself and merely brushes it off as mere shyness of some sorts when really, all he wants to do is lay low and draw as little attention to himself. It makes his job easier that way—perhaps that's the reason why he lets Azul take the spotlight all the damn time.

Another thing to take note of is something I saw from a post in Tumblr which basically sums up the whole reason why Jade is always adopting the butler persona wherever he goes. It's because he likes to be in control that way—you'd let down your guard around him and let him serve you. You want a drink? He'll serve you a drink but-! He is in control over what you will get. That's exactly what happened in this exact scene, Vil waltzed right into the center of Jade's palms.

Vil never noticed - I'm not saying Vil is dumb, because he is most definitely not. Although through the very end, I don't know if it's just because Vil got carried away with the feeling of achievement taking over him due to recent events but he did just brush away the reason why Jade was in Pomefiore in the first place and let him go away peacefully, "So long as he doesn't bare his fangs at us." In other words, Jade managed to outsmart Vil and possibly, Rook.

This is probably one of the reasons why I am confident enough to say that Jade truly is one of the most cunning bitches in the entire game because this whole ordeal just pretty much proved it.

Aftermath - There we go! We got an explanation about how Jade managed to manipulate and use Vil for his own gains err, in this context, probably Azul's. When Jade took a picture of Vil with the drink and posted it, he did it with the intention of taking advantage of Vil's popularity and viewer reach. Jade expressed his thankfulness when he mentioned how Vil saw him as "useful" perhaps his reputation prior helped him reach his goal? 

Azul praised Jade with something along the lines of "As expected of you, Jade. You're the best Night Raven's College has to offer when it comes to sneaking into another's pockets after all." Which really just backs up some of the statements I made earlier about how Jade manipulates people by letting people let their guard down around him while thinking they're the ones who have power over Jade when clearly it's not as simple as it seems. Azul mentioning that only Jade could pull off something like this just puts me off for some reason but I'll leave it be for the time being.

After that, Jade and Azul had a conversation that started with Azul asking him if he had any difficulties during his stay in Pomefiore and if he had any troubles keeping up with Vil. Jade, jokingly(?), responded that it was nothing compared to Azul's demands and orders and his time at Pomefiore was actually a vacation of some sorts for him. Which really makes me wonder what jobs does Azul usually give him if this one was somewhat of a break for Jade? A task that seemed impossible to Floyd, Jade said it was a vacation. It's a bit frightening but I guess that's his charm? Hard-working is one way to put it. 

That's the end of my Dorm SSR mini-analysis, I guess! Thank you for sticking with me till the end even though a lot of these might be repetitive. I'll probably add more depending on future brainrot but for now, this is fine. Feel free to tell me what you think about this!

[chemicalxwings]

I have officially written the last exam of my degree. It's over. It's done. I'm sure I will have something poignant and elegant to say about it later. Probably around June when I officially turn the page on this chapter. But until then all I have to say is this: my heart hurts, my soul is dead, and my brain is burning. To quote a brilliant woman, my brain isn't really functioning on the higher levels right now, it's basically 'fire bad, tree pretty.'