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#but looking at academical workfields its all brainless mechanical robotish monotone jobs. whatever it is
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#its been a while kiddos. honestly ive been lowkey intimidated by doing these random babble posts bcz of how big this blog has gotten. but..
#...at the end of the day it shouldn't really matter how big the audience gets bcz my content will still be pure self indulgence
#hahahhaa. bet u thought that was going to get deep for a sec. :P okay but have a random deep ramble now:
#well i dont know how many of you were here last summer or heck...how many even remembers
#but I talked about how I was entering med school with mixed feelings. and i thought a year later those feelings would have settled. but nop
#ive always been that kid who enjoyed all subjects in school and were good at all of them. ive also been a highly artsy and creative one
#pursuing arts (of any type) would drain away the freedom and fun of it. it would become an economical burden to do art...
#...to somehow fit public taste and it just wasnt ever something i liked
#but looking at academical workfields its all brainless mechanical robotish monotone jobs. whatever it is
#so logically in my head ive always wanted to be able to do my academical nerdy stuff bcz i really love that shit
#but at the same time have the room to express my creativity and design and just have my fingers itch in artsy content
#and somehow balancing those two sides have always been leading me to one conclusion. architecture.
#im studying medicine right now tho. and i know of the economical comfort that doctors enjoy
#im aware of the job opportunities
#i know how well regarded and encouraged it is from a social perspective... and i see it all. and i see how happy everyone is about it
#but at the end of the day...my academic geniality doesn't automatically mean i need an academically challenging workfield
#its not like i hate medicine. i enjoy it to some extent. but i also see the negatives. and how its going to effect me mentally to not be..
#...be given the room to enjoy my creative freedom. as well as all the stress and be unhappiness of studying
#and i genuinely am just turning a blind eye to it in hopes of getting to terms with it. but then im terrified...
#..that i will grow up to hate my workfield and regret my decision as well as hate everyone encouraging this decision based on social standa
#but changing to architecture now is going to raise so much problems. first of all I need to move 2h (by plane) away from here...
#....and only that will be a mess to deal with. i will have to fight my job and my family and prbs cut contact with them to do it.
#and well. imagine if i dont find the happiness i hoped for? ughh....scary
#maybe experiencing a mid career life crisis during university is normal?? who knows but i know that the next rambling post will def be...
#....less messy
#thank u for reading~ no im not in need of comforting words and im not super sad im really smiling irl right now at my phone lol
#it was a fun ramble thnx and bye~
#(thinking about it...maybe i was terrified of making these posts again bcz people always perceive them in such a serious way...
#..yes im grateful that u care and worry. but i promise u if i was feeling sad/bad/whatever i wouldnt be doing this on a public platform)
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