#but it's better for my mental health y'know i wouldn't be able to deal with that but if i had no choice then i would have to take them

[thatoneguy031]

Are you in good health?

I...

...I'm not truly sure.

Physically, most likely. I probably have frostbite at this point, and I can't feel my right arm, but as long as I can still fight, I'm fine... I'll find a way to deal.

Mentally? ...I haven't had a panic attack or whatever in some time, if that's a good metric. But I haven't been around that many humans either... But beyond that, I'm just worried. About... everything. Halloween, the whole adventuring thing, and just making sure my friends are alright in general. If I'm dragging them with me, the least I can do is defend them with everything I can muster, y'know? This is the first time in years I've had actual friends, and I'm not letting them die. As long as my heart's still beating, I have the energy to fight on their behalf. I can't screw this up again... I can't...

The problems I had earlier are still there, but they're not as... prominent, I guess, now. My fur's is its original color again, my tail's back to normal too, and my beard isn't as weird feeling. Even that red thing on my horn is mostly gone. The aura or whatever it is, that's weaker too, but I still feel... muggy. I don't know what's wrong with me, and it really sucks. Nothing hurts, but it feels like I'm only partly awake. If it really is as bad as everyone else is making it out to be...

I'll have to leave.

Cherry, Suicune, everyone. Heck, visiting my friends in other regions would have to be out of the question. What if I lash out and hurt them? And, with how things are going, I'd never be able to apologize for it, since I wouldn't remember any of it.

Like... I can't have friends if I'm just going to turn around and literally stab them in the back. Maybe it would've been better if Cherry didn't look for me... She wouldn't have to deal with this if she didn't find me.

Are there any other Pokemon that had to deal with this kind of thing? Seriously. I really want to know if this is normal. Maybe I'm just being really sensitive. Maybe I have nothing to worry about. What if I'm really just being a big crybaby about this whole deal?

[parkjiminer]

sooo guess who’s officially done with her semi-hiatus 👀