#but it SHOULD be serious y'all should be shipping Morph with everyone

[yallemagne]

Me: "Can we please start shipping Morph with more characters than just Wolverine, people? Morph is hot, they can pull."

People: *ship themselves with Morph*

Me: "I MEAN. YEAH FINE THAT COUNTS."

[theworldaccordingtodee]

Ready to Fight (Life Post OQ Fiasco)

Hey y'all! I'm still here, still alive and kicking after everything that's happened. I just wanted to first say thank you guys so so much for how nice you've been to me since this shit started. So I'm day 4 post OQ fallout and... I'm still processing; the feelings come and go like waves on a shore. There are moments when I just wanna throw my hands up and walk away. There are times when I get so angry that I wanna sit back and watch the whole OQ ship burn in flames right with this shit show. But more than anything, I wanna keep fighting. For full disclosure; I'm an emotional train wreck. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks, I have serious bouts of depression and I've had a nasty issue with self harm and suicidal thought since like 8; I don't attempt self harm but those thoughts tend to hit me from time to time. On top of all that I have all the makings of a binge eating disorder. So this crap is really grating on my emotions. It's hard not to give into all of those feelings that say I should just quit social media altogether. I live with a fear that this shit will bleed over into my real life (I'm part of two OUAT groups on Facebook), and I also never want to write again; I got a fanfic review today and while I was nice and supportive, I felt that dread in my stomach that I was going to be attacked again. But still I wanna fight; something just won't let me quit. My mom really wishes I wouldn't engage (sidenote: she's told Jesus on everyone who's hurt me. I'd be careful if I were y'all because when she prays, things happen) in this anymore but I can't not, It's sorta my calling...yeah I'm about to get religious for a second. This shit had drained me emotionally so yesterday I prayed about it and I got this calm feeling come over me and God spoke to me and said "Didn't you say you wanted to have an impact and be a voice for people? You can't do that if you're running scared" I went to church today and there was a whole lesson on breaking barriers. This thing that happened has made people stop and listen. It's made people aware of things they never bothered to pay attention to or notice. Y'all it's called out people's privilege and it scares them. And that's what I want it to do. I want people to live consciously, to be aware of certain privileges that inadvertently cause them to harm and oppress other people. In sociology we learned how things like racism and bigotry become this huge systems of oppression. It starts with one small action that spreads through other micro interactions that magnify and morph into this huge problem. Do I think I have the power to end racism? Hell no, I'm not THAT stupid, but I do have the power to share my experience and make people aware of this thing that's literally destroying our fandom. So that's what I'm gonna do, I'm not gonna talk about this particular thing, but I do wanna keep the conversation going. And I'm not always gonna be kind about it. It's gonna get harsh and I'm gonna say things you don't like, but at the end of the day, I'd rather make you feel bad with my harsh words than to let you walk around in ignorance and let you continue to hurt me and other people. So, I'm digging my heels in the ground and I'm fighting back. I'm gonna put my degree to use and critically examine OUAT and fandom culture. I'm gonna talk about other shit too, things that affect us real world people,but I'm gonna do me. And I'm gonna do it boldly and honestly and if people take it, they take it and if they don't it's their loss. No harm no foul, right? Anywho I gotta head to work. My inbox is open for folks who wanna talk, and learn about shit. My ask box is also open for questions, kind words, whatever is on your heart. I'm just a strong Black Queer Girl who loves Jesus and is passionate about making the world a better place and making sure people don't remain ignorant, ya dig? So if I tell you some shit and ya ass don't listen, it's no longer on me yo! Xx