#but in these two pics her left eye in the shadow looks more hazel/gray i can't omg

[prentissluvr]

OH MY GOD GUYSSSSS i was looking closer at the screencaps i posted of jess earlier AND OMGGG

at a certain angle when her eyes are in different lighting they look like two different colors i'm sobbing

[rina-writes]

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Summary:  Grayson sees Ethan’s girlfriend, Y/N, out with another man, but when he tells Ethan, he learns that his twin’s relationship isn’t what meets the eye.

Warnings: Mentions of sex, a little angsty

“Ay yo, E!” Grayson yelled from the kitchen.  He glanced at Ryan who looked at him helplessly.  “Maybe you should go.” Grayson said in a softer voice to Ryan.  “I think I want to tell him alone.”

“Yeah,” Ryan nodded sadly.  “Yeah that makes sense.  Let me know, okay?”

He claps Grayson on the back before going out the side door.  Grayson took a deep breath as he held the edge of the kitchen table so tightly that his knuckles turned white.  He heard Ethan coming and he took a sharp breath.  God, he needed his inhaler. This was the hardest thing he was going to have to do in awhile and he felt his throat closing up as a response.

“You alright, Gray?” Ethan asked, running over to his brother.  “Do you need your inhaler? You’re wheezing.”

Grayson nodded and Ethan ran to their (currently shared) room to retrieve his twin’s inhaler.  He handed it to Grayson and watched as the life seemed to flow through him again. 

“For a second, you were so pale we actually looked like twins again.” Ethan joked.

“God,” Grayson shook his head sputtering a laugh.  “Now, all I need is playing Fortnite for 12 hours straight every day in order to be as pasty as Casper over here.”

Grayson smirked and Ethan returned it.

“So,” Ethan jumped up on one of the chairs by the counter.  “What’s up?”

“Yeah...” Grayson’s voice trailed off for a moment.  His chest was contracting again and he clutched his inhaler.  This time, he knew it wasn’t asthma, it was fear.  He had seen Ethan hurt before and he didn’t want to see it again.  While Grayson knew it wasn’t his fault, he still felt guilty for causing his brother pain.

“Bro...” Ethan met Grayson’s matching hazel eyes with his own.  “You’re scaring me, what’s up?”

“I saw Y/N today...” Grayson said, his heart clenching when a smile immediately tugged at Ethan’s lips at the sound of your name.

“Yeah?” Ethan smirked.  “She didn’t leave here too long ago. Surprised you didn’t ask why I am up so early.”

“Ethan, it’s 11am.” Grayson glared.  “That’s not early.”

“Early for me.” Ethan winked.  “Well if that’s all, I’m going to make some breakfast...”

Ethan hopped off the stool and walked toward the cupboard to pull out a cutting board.

“She was with a guy, Ethan.” Grayson said, making Ethan freeze.  Ethan didn’t turn around and Grayson sighed as he continued speaking. His hands outstretched as he gestured while he spoke. “They were holding hands and kissing and stuff.  I’m pretty sure they’re together.  Ryan was with me and I’m sure it was her.”

“Xander?” Ethan said, his voice cracking a bit.  He cleared his throat and went back to preparing his avocado toast.  He was in the process of pulling out a knife to cut the avocado.

“What?” Grayson asked, coming around the kitchen table to stand closer to Ethan. 

“Was it Xander?” Ethan asked, his voice returning to it’s normal, casual pitch.

“How would I know?” Grayson asked.  “I didn’t go up and interview the guy.”

“Tall, slim guy with dark hair and hipster glasses?” Ethan asked, gesturing on his body as he described Xander’s features.  “Looks like he should be the keyboardist of a boy band?”

“Yeah, kinda...I guess?” Grayson shook his head.  “Wait you know this guy?”

“Uh huh...” Ethan said, trying to make it sound like a normal experience.  “I mean it sounds like it was a date so it had to be him.  She only goes out with him.  That’s Y/N’s husband after all.

Grayson took two pumps of his inhaler as he gripped the counter for balance.  “Her WHAT?” Grayson yelled.

“Inside voice, Gray.” Ethan admonished his brother as he scooped out the avocado.

Grayson wasn’t sure to be angry or depressed at how Ethan continued to make his breakfast as if this was a completely normal conversation.

“You’re the other man?” Grayson asked.

“Eh, not exactly.” Ethan danced his head from side to side. “Xander and I know of each other’s existence.  They are kinda in an open relationship.”

“Kinda?” Grayson asked. “Isn’t that usually pretty explicit?”

“Well, Xander isn’t interested in dating anyone.  You see, they were high school sweethearts.” Ethan explained. “They were each other’s first.  They waited for marriage and everything.  Turns out, Xander wasn’t a huge fan of sex, but Y/N was.  At first, it was fine.  They didn’t want kids and Y/N bought a bunch of toys and whatnot to play with herself. After long discussions about their needs, Xander told her that she should find a sexual partner who would do all the sexual stuff that he wasn’t into. Y/N felt guilty about it so she promised to only keep it about sex.”

“And how do you get involved?” Grayson asked.  “You met her like three months ago.”

“Yeah, well once I broke up with---”

“The one who shall not be named.” Grayson chimed in.

“Right,” Ethan smiled softly.  “I was at a low point.  I didn’t want to do the relationship thing for awhile, so I decided the hook up thing would be good.  However, Tinder was too risky. Setting up an account is easy.  We can use our real pics and everyone thinks you’re fake.  But, once they show up and they realize it’s you, it’s all over. So, I chose a site made for people who want to lay low and keep it casual.”

“Basically a cheating husband site.” Grayson nodded.  “So, you’re the f-ck boy now.”

“My story...no more cut ins.” Ethan reminded Grayson to which Grayson put both his hands up in defense.  “So, anyway, I saw Y/N’s story on the site.  She was so innocent looking.  She was wearing a little lavender baby doll and she looked nervous as she tried to look sexy.  You could see Xander’s freaking shadow in the picture.  She was a little older than us and I dunno, it just felt right.  So, I invited her over. It was easy. She didn’t even recognize me from YouTube. We just have sex appointments.”

Grayson narrowed his eyes. “Ethan...I’m your brother.  Your twin brother...”  

“You are...” Ethan confirmed, sarcastically.

“I know that it’s not just about sex.” Grayson shook his head.  “She doesn’t know because she’s only slept with two people in her life.  She doesn’t know that making someone breakfast in bed...” 

Grayson gestured at the dirty plates in the sink, “...sending them flowers and expensive lingerie on the SHARED account with your twin, and lighting up when you hear their name, isn’t a sex thing.  What Y/N doesn’t know is that two people she’s had sex with in her life, are both in love with her.”

For the first time since the conversation started, Ethan’s process of making toast halted.  

“I don’t love her.” Ethan said, his voice deep and dark.  “I can’t love her.”

“Those are different things, E.” Grayson said, his voice getting soft.  He reached over to touch Ethan, but Ethan shoved him away.

“I promised Xander. I promised Y/N.” Ethan’s voice cracked.  “I wouldn’t make things complicated for them.”

“You’re human, E.” Grayson said, reaching out to hug his brother, this time his hug accepted.  “Despite what people say, it’s hard to be balls deep in someone and not care about them.”

“She such a good f-ck too, Gray.” Ethan groaned into his brother’s shoulder. “She learns so quickly and is eager to please.  She’s also sensitive as hell and...”

“No more details, thanks.” Grayson said, breaking the hug with an eye roll.

Ethan pulled away to reveal misty eyes.  “It’s only been three months. I think...I think I can forget this crush.”

“Not with your sex appointments!” Grayson argued, making air quotes around “sex appointments”.  “You have to get out now before you’re in too deep.”

Ethan scoffed. “I think it’s too late for that. It’s fine I can share.”

“Once again! I’m you’re twin brother, I know you can’t share.” Grayson rolled his eyes at Ethan.

“Yes, I can!” Ethan argued. “You’re literally bigger than me because I share too much.  Can’t I get the bigger share for once in my life and mess around with a beautiful girl with no strings attached?”

A silence enveloped them as Grayson met Ethan’s eyes intensely.

“Do you really think that’s the bigger share?” Grayson asked.

“No,” Ethan shook his head, taking his toast out of the toaster and smearing avocado on it. “But, that’s what I’ve always told myself. Why should anything change now?”

What could Grayson say to that? Nothing, so they sat there in silence while Ethan made his avocado toast and Grayson made a protein shake.  The silence was eventually filled with nonsense conversation, anything to pretend that their conversation never happened.

“I just want you to be happy, E.” Grayson said, suddenly referring to their previous conversation. 

“Me too.” Ethan smiled, trying to stop the tears from falling.

That’s what you said to him this morning before you left and he whispered I love you as you walked through the door.