#but im trying to step out of my comfort zone more cause like...... they're also cute outfits!!!!

[bunnyboy-juice]

styled this old dress ive got with this sweater i found in my closet (WHICH HAS A HOOD BTW!!!) and i am so in love with this combo i cant believe i didn't think of this sooner

[our-lesboy-experience]

I found your blog and thought the term lesboy might fit me because I'm genderfluid and I like women. I brought it up to my friends, just like "hey I heard about this thing, have you ever heard of it?" And most of them basically just laughed. I thought they would get it because they're all queer, but they were all really confused. I explained more that it could be for multigender people, transmasc lesbians, etc. and my friend (trans guy) said that trans men can't be lesbians. I said that if someone has a label that feels right to them, and they're not hurting anyone, then we shouldn't judge. Eventually my friends said that like whatever, people can call themselves lesboys if they want, but I'm pretty sure they still think it's weird and maybe not real. What do I do? I love these friends and I know they would never try to hurt me or anything, and I get why they're confused. Should I just not bring it up again?

Well, from personal experience, I have tried really hard to cover up my identity to stay friends with people who wouldn't accept me before. And it ended up making me more miserable than I even realized at the time. I was trying to hide this whole other part of myself, and ended up avoiding answering questions regarding orientation or ended up being confused for a gay dude. When I made new friends I hesitantly came out to, stepped out of my comfort zone to openly call myself a lesbian, I felt much happier being around people who would actually respect me and didn't treat me like shit for it

but your friends aren't those friends who I tried to hide myself from, so im gonna go ahead and assume the best and say they're probably not as hateful, as you said they'd never try to hurt you. and I guess it also depends on how much it means to you. If you feel genuinely hurt and distressed by it, then I'd try to bring it up again, but if they continue not to accept and make fun then I wouldn't say they're good friends. if they take back their comments and open their minds for you, actually listen and show respect, even if they're confused, then it's worth it

it's really your decision at the end of the day. if you feel like you can continue on without it being upsetting and continue being friends just fine, then whatever you choose. but personally it put a huge damper on my relationships and caused me anxiety and fear of abandonment (bpd did not help), so if it's like that for you then by all means address it. if you really want to have a conversation with them then I'd do more research on the identity just so you can have them on hand (this carrd has some historical stuff in it)

wish you the best and good luck!!!! ^^

[gnarly-charlie]

ok cool i can do that

this is gonna be long so brace yourselves

you've probably heard all of this before, the typical hc where she has a bunch of piercings and stuff, but...

shes actually terrified of needles. Like really scared of them. Or well, was

she gets either mizole or namida (or maybe kikura too cause I love kikuryan so much) to do it for her and she makes sure it's not rusted and that they clean it really well cause they dont want to get the area infected (if that makes sense)

she also has at least one tattoo from when she was first able to get tatted, they were sooooo in love with namida that they decided to get a tattoo with her name in a heart (also I know I know the ink would probably come off after a while since she's an inkling but I like to think there's some cream you could put on it to preserve it)

shes a few months older than mizole, so they try to act like theyre cooler than him (she's not) (she's such a loser)

her birthday is on January 2nd, meanwhile his is September 30th (very exact dates ik) (I like making up character birthdays) (it's synesthesia)

she's so neurodivergent they will go on and on about her favourite bands and mizole would be forced to listen to their ramblings about why squid squad is the most revolutionary band for the music scene and why they're her favourite (which further fuels his need to separate himself from being compared to them, if that makes sense)

namida was ryan's first girlfriend ever, her highschool sweetheart or whatever those people say in those documentaries. ryan's also her biggest supporter and is extremely good at cheering her up when shes down

they dated up until their first year of college and then broke up for a bit to focus more on school, then ryan met kikura and they were the punk girlfriends ever. kikura made her step out of her comfort zone and do things they never thought they'd be doing ever

kikura met namida through ryan and now all three of them are dating each other. and they're all happy. boooooo scary three fem-aligned people in love, how terrifying

ok back to ryan and mizole

her goal for being in wet floor was to have the same impact as ichiya did with squid squad, meanwhile mizole wants to have a similar impact, but not be compared to squid squad. they fight over this a lot

they actually argue over small things like siblings do. theyre so sibling-coded. need I say more

she's really supportive of the other members' hobbies and stuff. like. REALLY supportive

hardcore ally type beat

they encouraged tsumabushi to keep crocheting and knitting things even if he was not content with the final product.

also yes I hc him to crochet things what about it (im projecting)

ok time for some general ryan stuff

she/they pronouns (though mostly uses she)

sapphic and gnc

polyam

if squid squad superfan was a title she'd rock it

extroverted introvert

got that autism and adhd swag

tldr; she's ryan. why do you even need a tldr I put my heart and soul into, this just read the whole thing

[punch-love]

conflict anon here again and im SO GLAD you agree man. i think what really gets me about it is that i was specifically searching for conflict-packed fic and that's why i was so let down. i also feel like authors are entitled to write whatever they want forever but it just FEELS to me when im reading their fics like they would be happier writing something more domestic, and i want to find something where they're more feral.

i want the ID reveal and the relationship-confirming to cause MORE problems, hell i want them to get together and blow out into a massive argument and breakup then have breakup sex and get back together and then realize the sex didn't actually fix anything and then break up again but they can't stop being obnoxiously in each others space either way

but it feels like fic im trying to find like this fights the very concept of conflict so hard and wants one singular plot point to fix everything as quickly as possible without even walking me through the characters' insight as to HOW that fixed anything other than "problem over, let's be together forever now!" let alone the level of conflict that'd be so engaging like that with a million curveballs

im so aware its a personal taste thing its just been frustrating reading fic after fic after fic and finding so little of it. its no ones fault i can't find fic perfectly tailored to my tastes specifically, i just tend to ramble about my frustration. you and oprime and sci and a couple other authors are my favorite for writing it the way you do, she's not gonna die today will always be one of my favorite fics of all time because it gave me that ever persisting conflict driven by their obsessive need to stick together even when they're fighting every step of the way. i just always get into a longwinded ramble when this comes up and i was hoping youd like to share your thoughts so thank you for answering 🙏

I think this pairing kind of presents a unique challenge to writers (at least it did for me) that action and conflict is such a huge, borderline essential part of their canonical dynamic. If you're not used to writing/utilizing both physical and emotional conflict, your stories can often fall so, so flat for these two, specifically because that's the fuel that makes the engine run. The first true action scene I ever wrote was chapter two of love-punch, and I like, now I'm an action writer for life now (editing an action sequence as we speak) but I had to get out of my comfort zone because I realized that type of stories I wanted to write about them required them to beat the shit out of each other to work.

These two are definitely not problem solvers so much as shit starters. I feel like for them, the problems they actually have to solve are the ways they perceive each other (because both of them heavily project onto the other) and what that means long-term for their relationship - every other form of conflict, to me, is up for grabs forever when it comes to their relationship. The shit talking, ass kicking, and fire starting is what makes them, them.

I've said this before, but a lot of people write fanfiction as an exploration of their own ideal relationships. (which is absolutely fine) I think spideypool is a difficult sell though, for that specific fantasy, because their relationship operates on instability and violence primarily. I think most people aren't looking for a relationship where your communication consists of name-calling, beat downs, and moral differences so severe it makes you almost kill each other a lot. That, does not make a good, a good or healthy real world relationship but SUCH a fun fictional one. People are going to write their fantasies out, though, and that fantasy is that one kiss/one fuck/one confession creates relationship fueled bliss forever because many people, hate conflict - both experiencing and reading it. It sucks, if you're a reader who likes problems. I also always say this, but I encourage you to channel that energy into writing your own work. It's what I did, and it paid off so great for me because now I have 12 works specifically catered to my own personal needs exclusively. Fandom is always going to suck, but you can be the change! (and if you don't want to write, that's cool too, sometimes it's good just to get your qualms out into the world and find people who agree)

tagging @primewritessmut again so she can read your praise straight from the source.

It's a tough fandom if you really like their canonical dynamic more than their fanon one, I feel you man. I am always holding a prayer circle that more writers who like problems more than they like easy resolutions joins in and starts writing some real fucked up shit.

[potatopossums]

i feel like my therapist is looking for some kind of reason to make my relationships all romantic. i know it's not some kind of ulterior agenda, i know she's not the type to try and secretly undermine me or "prove me wrong" somehow. I've been firm and honest about how i feel and what motivates me in my pursuit of relationships. but it still feels weird to have someone asking me that all the time.

it's already something i worry about anyway, freaking people out or getting freaked out myself about "romantic-seeming" relationships. i don't personally care for even using romantic as a label because it just doesn't really fit for me. it's not like you couldn't look at my life and apply the label, i mean sure, especially when it comes to my writing, it can be a bit romantic, but not in the ways people might expect. I've always been a very unromantic romantic.

i was struggling with a friend of mine, having a lot of anxiety and feelings of resentment and fear surrounding them, and we got into a scuff about some things. i had the feeling that it would be best for me to just step away for a while and take a break from whatever was stressing me out.

after a few weeks, we reconvened, talked a little bit about what happened, we seem to have come to an agreement, tied up some loose ends from our struggle, and are back to talking. i still get feelings of anxiety and such, but that's just part of how my brain works right now. it's looking a very strange and unusual person in the eye — not strange in a bad way, just not at all what I'm used to, not very familiar, and lots of differing values — and it's trying to establish safety in the midst of all that.

that's difficult to do. I've never done that before.

my therapist asked me what my motivation was here, trying to keep this relationship going when it caused me so much stress.

first of all, i think im getting much better at knowing what my limits are and taking breaks when i need them. there are things i could improve on, like the way i talk to myself, and i could work on asking for what i need more openly and clearly and often. but I'm doing so much better than i used to.

i told her — despite my fear that she was going to try and suggest my feelings were romantic and pointless and blind — that i remembered the good old days of our friendship, and i was holding onto that. i know that's true. i remember the golden days we had together and i miss those. and there are also good moments now. there are still things i struggle with. but i just like having someone to talk to and spend little bits of my time with. another friend is nice. some of it is me trying to stretch my comfort zone. some of it is curiosity — my friend operates so differently than i do, and it's so captivating to my brain sometimes. some parts of me want to be like my friend, hoping that if i hang around, some parts of them will rub off on me, like their confidence, their entire lack of people pleasing. the fact that they're pretty helps. they feel safe in some areas, and i learned a lot from them. life is complicated and i don't have some perfect succinct answer. i just know that i want to keep people in my life. no one is going to be the center of my life. i just like people being there. and maybe, i can learn to be more grounded in myself and, when it happens, i can show courage when i tell someone close to me that i didn't like something, or when asking for something new.

it's scary to ask my friends for physical comfort. it's scary to allow that in even though it's something i kind of want sometimes. it's scary to imagine having sexual and sensual interest in others and not being reciprocated, even rejected. i hate feeling abandoned and rejected. it scares me and activates a horrible place in my mind that tears me apart from the inside out, esteem and body alike. i want that part of me to learn to slow down, even when other people around me don't treat me the way i hope.

the only way to learn is to keep making mistakes. the only way to grow is to keep trying my best. the only way to get through it all is to keep reminding myself that i have all the tools i need to do my best, and next time, I'll be able to look back upon this time and do even better. my best right now is good enough.