#but if my bsf ever got into a relationship or started seeing someone then i'd be like. ok i need to do this as well. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

writtenmemxries · 7 months ago

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I was talking to a girl on bumble and she asked me out and now I'm panicking. I mean. it was to be expected tbh, but I'm not sure I want to meet her? not because of her, but because I have terrible commitment issues and I just know it wouldn't lead anywhere and it would only add to my anxiety, but. idk. maybe I'd be missing out on something potentially nice?

#the thing is - and it's insane to say - it feels like i'm cheating on my best friend.#i don't even know how to explain it it's just. idk.#don't say it's because i'm in love with her because i know i'm not #i just. i don't want us to get into relationships or even go out with anyone? i just want it to be me and her #not in a romantic way #just. god it's complicated.#i feel like i'm getting myself into something bigger than me and i don't know what to do #because i always complain i've never been in an actual relationship and i want to know what it feels like but #do i? because i don't think so. i think i like complaining about it but at the end of the day i don't care that much #and i'm okay with things being the way they are i think #but if my bsf ever got into a relationship or started seeing someone then i'd be like. ok i need to do this as well.#and it's an insane thing to say like??? why???#elena rants

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