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flocon-tourne-en-rond · 6 months ago

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(I felt like I had to call your brother because something told me he wasn't doing alright, and I was right, and I don't have this feeling about you but I figured I'd call you anyway.

Sweet and hurtful at the same time, thanks Mam'. I'll play the part, I won't worry you.)

#but i've not been sleeping well tha'k you for not asking #but i'm worried about you about dad about the people i love too much and the ones i can't seem to love enough thank you for not asking #but i'm feeling inadequate more often than i'd like thank you for not asking #but I'm tired of feeling like being the second child means i'm the second thought thank you for not asking #but i'm frustrated of feeling this way because you love me so much and i know so thank you for not asking #i know you're not doing it on purpose i know you've just always been more attuned to him i just wish it wasn't so obvious #and i worry that he feels that way about dad being closer to me #i think it shows less but maybe it's just because i'm on the good side of it?#anyway #i'll be fine i just need to sleep i'm not doing really well on so little sleep #it's easier for the sad to catch me when i'm tired #parenthèse

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