#but i'm worried that i have unnoticed and untreated heart damage ngl

[zhooniyaa-waagosh]

I am very much haunted by the possibility that my chronic pain is not actually fibromyalgia or a similar illness, but instead something very dangerous that is only getting worse as I ignore it. Not to say that fibro and the like aren't serious, because they are, but I'm scared that there's something going on that could cause dangerous or even fatal issues.

I don't know. It could just be the anxiety or the psychosis, but I also know that there's a very real chance that I'm living with an illness that I've brushed off as fibro or CFS or RA and that I'll never know until it's too late. Multiple forms of cancer run in my family. Heart attacks and strokes too. And diabetes.

I know that it'd be best to go see a doctor try to get a real checkup but I'm uninsured and already so deep in medical debt.

I'm just scared, I guess. And in so much pain right now. I know it's nothing compared to what a lot of other people are going through but that doesn't make it any easier for me to handle.