#but i'm back to doing math for hours upon hours everyday

[slightlymad]

i meant to send this ask days ago but !!! NEW THEME !!! THE VIBES ARE IMMACULATE 🖤🖤🖤

OH SIM MY LOVE THIS MEANS THE WORLD TO MEEE :”)))) you know me and how long i take, as well as how much thought goes into the whole thing when i'm making new themes, so this felt like theee biggest hug mwah ilyyyy <3333

[tartagliaxx]

god, i just absolutely loathed going to school at that time. and my class was also rlly competitive, especially with ppl that have higher grades. i was someone who had higher grades in some particular subjects (maths and english), and they always asked me what result i got. they never rlly topped my grade since i was ahead of them at that time, but now whenever i see someone with a higher grade than me, that competitive instinct flares up again. if i can't get higher than them, i feel disappointed and frustrated with myself. i suppose in a way, i've become dependent upon results to prove my worth? hence why i hate even getting less than an A. idk, it's just a rlly toxic thing that i continue to divulge in.

and i wish i could've had your school hours. i spent most of my time studying when i was younger that now i'm just gaming/reading 90% of the day bc i want to escape reality for a while.

thank you for your insight, almighty one :D i'll keep it in mind and try to apply it into my next work! and i don't think i have a solid writing style that is mine yet, which is fine i think, since i'm still exploring and writing. it's always fun to get someone's input since it reveals smth abt the other person, especially if that other person is more experienced :DD

i think the next work is gonna be your birthday writing, i dunno if you're gonna like it much, but i'll try bc i feel like it's gonna be a long one. i wanna try and explore more of ch*lde's soft side with his family, but he's simultaneously such a complex and easy character to pin down??? actually, him and albedo are hard to write for. i want them to stay as close to their canon selves as possible, but whenever i read back whatever i wrote, i feel like it's more fanon based than canon

— r. anon

the first paragraph is literally me like two years ago lmfaoo. nowadays i lost motivation to study so im just ‘whatever goes, comes ig’. i do my best but im not as hung up on my grades as much. altho, i still have the desire to punch that one guy who keeps challenging me as if we’re in an anime or smth.

i still dont have a concrete style either and i dont think i will ever have one lol. my interests change, the writing i like change, i change everyday and it reflects so much on whatever i write. its always fun to look back and see how different your writing became. still, i hope that my insights only revealed good things lol. also wont say im more experienced bc trust me im not

as you can see i have a type. my type is ‘complex characters that i cant read through’ aka ‘borderline pure evil but not really.’ no one can blame anyone if the content is leaning towards fanon bc the canon info is still pretty limited. i alr appreciate your efforts so dw too much abt it :))