#but i won't sugarcoat when i am a complete layman which is why i think you should reach out

[shalom-iamcominghome]

Hey, feel free to ignore this, but I need to rant and maybe get some advice, if you have any? I have always been very proud of my Jewish heritage, but my family hasn't practiced it for generations. For the past five years, I've been thinking of converting. Been learning more about the religion, privately tracking Jewish holidays, that sort of thing, and at this point, I just feel... ready. I looked up shuls in my country, and I found one near where I live that just spoke to me so much, I actually got tears in my eyes at the thought of attending it. I want to do this so bad, but at the same time... I'm already a part of a minority religion, and I hate the thought of abandoning that. I just don't know what to do.

I think the best advice I have would be to reach out to the shul and perhaps try talking to the rabbi. You really shouldn't be going at this alone, I think, and I for one don't think I'm able to give you personal advice. I'm not entitled to knowing your situation, but you're welcome here no matter what stage you're at right now.

I will say that a lot of the fear you might feel could be... unfounded, if that makes sense. I was so afraid of going to shul that I didn't let myself even try until I couldn't take it. But once I went to shul? You can't pry it away from me if you tried. You'll more than likely be given more kindness than you think you will, maybe more than you think you deserve (though you will deserve kindness). All of this is to say that you deserve to give yourself the chance to know