#but i think i'm getting the hang of it with rollerskating!!! i can almost stop properly LMAO its so fun thooooo

[lilacbokeh]

me & my gf went to an indoor rollerskating place today bc we got super cute skates last summer but are very much still newbies learning how to rollerksate so we thought an indoor place would be best to practice & omgggg it was so fun the vibes were so good and it was such a cute place 😭 i wanna go back again!!! 🛼

[readymades2002]

maybe i should talk this through a bit idk there's a lot on my mind right now. maybe it would help. mostly i am stressing about work. i'm also stressing for That Boy, he very bravely and coolly stood up for himself today and asked to step down as department head despite being more nervous about it than i've ever seen him, and it worked out well and it's gonna be alright but MAN he has been so miserable in this position for so long <///3 happy for him and mad it came to this in the first place, you know. god i love him. have i said that before. i fucking adore this guy

im also stressed for my+my department's sake, we've got a MASSIVE fucking exclusive sale coming up next week and the way corporate's talking about it is so so so scary. this job is already so grueling and our store is super high volume and this sale is a biiiiiig event theyre pushing. ive been doing this job for over a year now and i feel like a frog that doesn't know it's being boiled. this department is growing super fast and being pushed very hard and still is not treated like a valuable department in its own right and its very frustrating. i adore my three coworkers though. love them to BITS i have no idea what i'd do without them. i want to arrange a movie night or something to hang out sometime but i have no idea how that would work with us literally being scheduled to work alternately all the time. like a department. whatever...OH i have another coworker i want to take to lunch sometime too. god reaching out to people is so hard im trying to get better at it but its so scary and i cant imagine doing it EEP ! anyway

my financial straits are dire. need i say more...theyre not AS bad as they could be but i've been putting money aside to save for some things and then dealing with what i have left and god it is not a lot especially if you are also helping other people with their financial circumstances. phwew ! i love the economy

ummmmmm i want to ask Boy if he wants to go to a concert with me soon. we are going to a different concert in august but he hasn't been to one in ages and he is a Music Enjoyer (try not to swoon all at once) and he's been working too hard to do it recently and he Needs It. but: i am shy. and also we are both broke. stay tuned. no harm in bringing it up </3 i have to keep reminding myself we do enjoy each others company mutually and i need to stop waiting for him to make the first move all the time to Prove that im not weird for wanting to hang out lol

my birthday is. oh fuck my birthday is in almost one week now. ive been trying not to think about it but its also hard not to. a quarter of a century...the cybersale starts on the same day so at least that takes the pressure off celebrating a bit but i honestly don't know if i want to do anything for it. bad last few birthdays+unceasing guilt over being alive is a bad combo for celebrating birthday. but also last year i didnt do either of the things i wanted because i wanted to put others' schedules and wants and desires ahead of mine and that felt awful and so maybe even if its not something big ill treat myself to something. not sure what yet. maybe multiple things if i can swing it financially. im thinking like...some kind of piercing+stuff for getting into rollerskating? itd be nice to have a hobby since im so burnt out on art. i love being outside and i could get places so much easier...its hard not to go "what if im bad and get embarrassed or hurt and lose interest" but ive wanted to skate for so long and it would be so nice...

oh i still want a spine tattoo so bad. my body hurts so much and i know thats the most painful a tattoo gets but id be so hot

ummm idk i think thats where im at right now generally. not very interesting but much to ponder. there's a lot happening in my brain.......very distracting. anyhoo thanks for your time

hrmmmmm feeling restless </3

[jaeyooniverse]

Fantasy friend here! How's it going? 💖

Omg that sounds like so much fun! And you got to see DAY6 I am so jealous 😔 I almost went to see them when they were on tour a few years ago but no one was available to go with me so I decided to go the next time they had a tour... then covid happened and then Jae and Sungjin went on hiatus and then Sungjin enlisted so I'm not going to get to see them all together for at least a couple of years 😭

Huh I never really thought about the linguistics side of stuff like speech-to-text and AI chatbots... I guess I always just considered it part of computer programming. It makes a lot of sense to have people skilled in linguistics working on that though, and I bet that's a super interesting field of study! Math is really cool too, though I don't think I could ever have it as my main focus 😖 I wasn't that interested in it as a kid and then by the time I started to actually appreciate it I didn't have the basics drilled into me to be able to do it well 😩 I love logic though and studying Euclid was one of my favorite things lol

A nature walk in a rainforest? That must have been so amazing oh my goodness... now I really want to go to Puerto Rico haha, I would love to see a rainforest 😍

Oh yeah it's super warm here - I live near the coast so it's not as bad in my area as it is inland but it's still pretty miserable. We've mostly been staying inside where there's air conditioning and opening the windows when it cools off during the night, there are other tricks to keep cool too so if you decide to come here you can ask about it and I'll offer you my wisdom lol

There are actually a lot of really fun things to do in California, we have cool museums and zoos and aquariums and other sightseeing stuff as well as some super pretty and interesting places! Maybe it's just because I live here so I'm biased but I think it's pretty awesome ☺️ there are downsides of course, like the wildfires, earthquakes, etc, but overall I really like it and I'd like to keep living here for as long as I can 😌

Man the comeback is super soon, I'm really excited 😄 what do you look forward to most about comebacks?

Hope you have a great day!

Hiii it's going pretty good! I just got home from work a while ago and might go to the park to rollerskate a bit if it doesn't rain 😅

i hope you're having a nice day as well 🥰❤

omggg noooo 😭😭😭 I hope you get to see them soon tho yeah it'd be a while before they're all together :') I've also missed concerts bc of not having someone to go with but I'm never letting that stop me again 😭 I could've seen exo,,, im still so sad abt that 😭

right?? i've been enjoying seeing how the linguistics and computer science tie together. i'm about to start this little summer side project/practice with a professor and some others at my school so I'm looking forward to learning more from that! i don't have a lot of programming experience and i've kinda been slacking on practicing 💀 but im slowly getting back into the groove of things.

yeah it sucks how if you don't have the best foundations out can be really hard to grasp other concepts which can make it hard to enjoy learning new things. but i enjoy doing math especially algebra and discrete math and such ^^; part of me wanted to do my masters in math instead (not that I couldn't get another masters later but uhh let's take it one step at a time 😅) but I really wanted to try this linguistics program bc linguistics has always interested me so I wanted to take this chance to explore it.

it was!! let me see if i still have any pics on my phone..

ok I think most of them are on my laptop but i have this one !

to get to this part of the rainforest we had to walk up/down some steep hills with rocks and there was like this little cave/tunnel?? i wish I had pics 😂 but this was at the end of the tunnel and leads towards a waterfall if i remember correctly. it was really fun id love to go again or even to any other forest really, I haven't been on any nature walks recently

ok yeah stay inside as much as possible please 😂 and I'd love for you to share your cooling wisdom with me 😆 it's not nearly as hot here and i still can't tolerate it sometimes 🥵

aah there's sooo many cool spots id like to check out in cali i really do hope i can go sometime 🥺 i think I'd need like a whole month at least to get around to everything and hang out with everyone 😂

i think as a kid i was scared of cali bc i always associated it with earthquakes 💀💀💀💀 but im glad you like it I hope you can stay there as long as you'd like 🥰

aaah it is so soon!!! I can't wait!! the thing I'm most excited for is the new music, definitely!! I can't wait to hear the new songs 🤩🤩 what about you??