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blackidyll · 8 years ago

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ramblings ramblings ramblings

work: some kind of crazy reorganization again, motivation in the office is at an all-time low apartment: getting a lot of irritating owners who make really dumb comments or requests (can you guys... please freaking read before commenting... and actually know what your legal rights are versus what are unreasonable whining... we in the management committee are doing this voluntarily can you folks not be stupid for one day) life: they say that the two constants in life are death and taxes. Do you know who is involved with both? the government. do you know who uses the most amount of forms for even the simplest of claims/processes? the government. someone save us from all the paperwork..........

meanwhile, however, i'm mostly sitting here banging my head over how to end my YOI reverse bang fic. Is this what escaping from reality means LOL

#*#no but seriously it has been a delight working on the YOI RB #i have a really great partner!#their artwork is absolutely gorgeous!!!!#but i kind of disappeared for a month helping my mom handle my aunty's funeral + the subsequent paperwork + mentally dealing with things #so i've had to catch up and have been writing like a crazy person the past 2.5 weeks and quietly panicking LOL #a morbid part of me wants to write a mildly AU fic where 00Q are long-term undercover agents living as a couple #and they are actually romantically attached even though that probably raises all sorts of questionable flags for MI6 #but 007 and the quartermaster are their best employees in their respective fields so #and bond gets into some kind of trouble or whatever and they have to kill his cover #but MI6 can't just pull Q out of there they have to maintain the fiction for a little while #and then conveniently having him move out to get a fresh start #so Q has to go through the motions of holding a funeral and dealing with neighbours and maintain this fiction of a 'normal' person grieving #and meanwhile there's this very nebulous feeling because Q knows Bond is probably fine but he doesn't know that 100%#so there's always this creeping feeling of 'what if he's really gone? What if this is for real'#but because this is fiction and real life is depressing enough ofc bond is alive and sneaks in to see Q after all the funeral stuff is over #but sometimes Q can't shake that heavy somber feeling off his shoulders even when he finally sees and can confirm that bond is indeed alive #because in their line of work it's really only a matter of time isn't it?#any-fucking-way this is morbid as fuck and i don't actually want to write it #but maybe it's a bit carthartic to think about it as a way to process my aunty's death #... and now i'm going to go back and write more fluffy adorable romantic victuuri interactions kthzbai

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