#but i feel the immense need to speak in hypotheticals and with distanced pronouns as if it's not Me but it is | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vallytines · 3 months ago

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i feel bad talking about dimitri like hes just another fictional character but i also dont want people to think im fucking crazy. idk. like no i dont headcanon anything about him thats just how he is. like you wouldnt headcanon just some guy. thats weird.

#when i say i miss him im not like being silly because i havent seen a picture of him in a little while its like #idk. he should be here with me and he's not. he's somewhere else and i physically miss him #i know this is like pretty common in yume spaces i guess but i still feel weird talking about it. idk #i guess im just not used to it yet and i just feel embarrassing #i want to talk about us in like first person and talk about us doing things in the moment #but i feel the immense need to speak in hypotheticals and with distanced pronouns as if it's not Me but it is #it makes my heart feel bad a little bit. idk. i miss him i miss my husband #i also call him my wife a lot of the time mostly just because it sounds less serious and i feel like it's more acceptable... lol #but uhm. yea. anyways. im trying to make myself feel better. i wish he were holding me. he would if he could be right now #he'd wrap me in his arms and use his cape to keep me warm and rest his chin on me and kiss the top of my head and #make sure i knew he was there. little sighs... little soft hums... i love yous and hushed reassurances #i love u dimitri #mine #didi

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