#but i don't think i have it unlocked on Mira

[astrcthesiai-archived]

Trying to see when is a good day to start marathoning T.rigun. I've been on a Fi.nal F.antasy XIV kick lately. I'm currently crafting an airship in my fc to take on expeditions. My pirates are leveling up slowly but surely, but I'm gonna do msq first before i do endgame stuffs.

Determined to get the horsies at some point. :u I think they're cool.

As for rereading F.airy T.ail, I am neck-length deep in the L.axus arc.

Also, I'm a giant whimp when it comes to P.hasmophobia, but I will call a ghost a nerd and wind up the first to die in-game.

[didishawn]

Make sure he hears you are taken (Pedri x Reader) smut

Warnings: jealous Pedri, basically he answers your phone to make sure a guy getting too close to you hears how well he fucks you, smut, exhibitionism of some kind I guess, lots of Spanish

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The whole trouble starts with Pedri on his car driving Gavi home after training.

He has been quite busy lately, not having enough attention for you lately so he feels as if he has to make it up to you, taking chance of tomorrow's free day to dine you out then fuck you well into the morning hours.

"Oye, coge mi móvil y llama a y/n, porfa, que quiero confirmar para hoy a la noche" he tells Gavi, the younger boy nodding, unlocking his friend's phone - your birthday the password, and pressing call on your contact, a picture of the two of you, rolling his eyes at how obsessively in love Pedri is. (hey, take my phone and call y/n, please, that I want to check for tonight)

The phone rings twice before your voice sounds on the other side, putting an instant smile on Pedri's face.

"Hola, amor, ¿como estás?" you greet him. (hey love, how are you?)

"Bien bien, solo quería confirmar si todo sigue en pie para hoy a la noche" you hum in agreement, and he grins widely. (good, good, just wanted to check if everything is still good for tonight)

Then he hears it, male voice in the background, your voice responding to whoever it was, Gavi's eyes widen, wanting to know what is about to come down.

"¿Con quien estás, amor?" (who are you with, love?)

You voice is lowered as you speak next "Un pesado de la uni, diciéndome algo de que quería quedar conmigo esta noche" (some loser from college, telling me something about wanting to hang out with me tonight)

Gavi's mouth is wide open as he side eyes his friend.

"¿Es tonto o que?" (is he stupid or what?)

You hum again at your boyfriend's question "Es muy pesado. Pero mejor lo hablamos luego, que no me quiero ni imaginar la cara de Gavi escuchando el chisme" (he is so annoying. But we better talk later I can't even imagine Gavi's face listening to the gossip)

The younger boy scoffs "¡No estoy chismoseando!" (I am not gossiping!)

"Ajá, si claro, haré que me lo creo. Bueno amor, nos vemos luego, te amo" Pedri says it back and indicates Gavi to hang up. (aha, yeah right, I will do as if I believe that. Well love, see you later, love you)

Pedri's knuckles are white as he grips the steering wheel.

"Tú sabes que ella ni siquiera mira hacia otro hombre" (you know she doesn't even look another man's way)

"Claro que lo se, pero no sé de qué va ese puto payaso, no es que nuestra relación sea secreta ni nada, todo el mundo sabe que estamos juntos" (of course I know that, what I don't know is what that fucking clown is about, it's not like our relationship is a secret, everyone knows we are together)

"No le des muchas vueltas, tú piensa que simplemente es un gilipollas que ya se cansará" (don't think too much about it, just think that he simply is an asshole that will eventually get tired)

But not even Gavi's unusually rational words can keep Pedri's mind away from whoever that fucking asshole is.

Pedri doesn't let his fleeting thoughts ruin your night together, though, even if his mind is full of jealousy.

You know he is jealous, he might be one of the best footballers out there, but acting is not a talent of his.

His fans go wild at how many stories and pictures he has posted tonight, some of them simply showing you off, one of the two of you kissing, another of the fancy restaurant he has taken you to, all photos accompanied by romantic quotes that almost has your eyes full of tears because of how happy they make you.

You know lay on your comfortable couch, a bottle of wine shared between you as you cuddle into his chest, him placing kisses on your head, both of you just happy with each other's company. He looks down at you with so much love in his eyes, a dumb smile on his face as you ramble about your day, your eyes as full of love as his.

Then your phone dings.

You both ignore it, but the sound repeats, once, twice, thrice.

You sigh, picking up the phone, a frown on your face as you see who the messages' sender is.

"¿Pasa algo?" your boyfriend asks you, his face full of concern. (is something wrong?)

You puff and show him the screen, the name of a boy on the notifications, asking you about what you are doing, telling you you would have had so much more fun with him than with 'that football player you are dating', there is a image attached to that Pedri can only guess is a dick pic, another message telling you all about how hot you are - as if you even needed a reminder of that, and how horny you make him.

"Supongo este es el gilipollas, ¿no?" you nod, he scoffs "Maldito cabron de mierda, ¿de que puto va? Asqueroso" (I suppose this is the idiot, right? Fucking, shitty asshole, what the fuck is he going about? Disgusting)

He drops the phone on the couch, his face hidden behind his hands, you approach him, you head in his neck "Lo siento" (you apologise)

He shakes his head "¿De que te disculpas? No es tu culpa sea un baboso" (what are you apologising for? It's not your fault he is a slob)

"Debería haberte dicho antes que no me dejaba en paz" (I should have told you before that he doesn't stop bothering me)

"No es tu culpa, se que he estado ocupado últimamente" (it's not you fault, I know I have been busy lately)

"No es excusa" you say, then lean forward placing a kiss on his neck "Déjame pagártelo" (it's no excuse. Let me make it up to you)

A handsome smile takes over his face, your mouths meeting in a passionate kiss, he cups your face, the kiss leaving you breathless.

He separates, his kisses going lower and sucking your neck, leaving a mark behind, his hands go lower too, gripping the hem of your dress, pushing it up.

"Venga bonita, dejame quitarte este vestido, dejame verte entera" (come on pretty one, let me take this dress off you, yet me see all of you)

You are left only in your panties, having chosen to not wear a bra tonight, his mouth salivating at the sight of you breasts, the cold air gardening your nipples. He leans forward, making you completely lay down as he showers over you, he kisses both breasts, his hips are grinding into yours, he already has you moaning, your hands buried in his hair, pulling on its strands, making it messy.

You are pulling on his shirt, wanting to see more of him, he kisses your check and takes it off, letting you see his strong upper part, your eyes stuck on the signs of the happy trail leading to the bulge his pants struggle to contain. You mouth attaches to his neck, he now lays on the couch, gazing up at you, getting comfortable as you lips go lower, hands unbuckling his belt, you push his pants down, the same with his underwear, his cock bouncing against his stomach, red tip, the veins looking about to explode, there is precum coming out and his balls look heavy.

"¿No vas a chuparla?" he teasingly asks, you roll your eyes. (are you not going to suck it?)

"Todo un caballero. Ni un por favor ni nada" (such a gentleman. Not even a please)

"Por favor, mi diosa a la que amo más que nada en el mundo, chupame la polla. ¿Así mejor?" (please, my goddess who I love more than anything in this world, suck my dick. Is that better?)

You hum, mouth wide open as you struggle to take him down your throat, your hand stimulating what you can't fit, his head goes back, his hands on your hair as you go up and down.

"Joder, pareces un experta y todo" (shit, you feel like an expert and all)

You let go, hand still working up and down "Mi novio me ha ayudado a practicar" (my boyfriend has helped me practice)

"Joder" he moans, hoarse voice high pitched "Suena a que es muy suertudo" (fuck. He sounds like a lucky man)

You kiss his tip, his heart is about to explode at how cute you look "Yo soy la suertuda" (I am the lucky one)

"Debatible" (debatable)

His hands pull on your hair, making you drop his cock as he once more pushes you to lay on the couch, he hovers over you, lips meeting yours as one hand grasps your cheek, the other reaches down to pull off your panties. Once they are gone, that same hand pushes your legs open, a finger starts teasing your clit, all of this without letting go of your lips.

"Dios, como te quiero" he says as you need a breather, he is looking at you as if you had hung the stars on the sky, in his mind you probably have. (god, I love you so much)

There are only inches in between you as he pushes a finger into you, fucking you with it slowly, you basically moaning into his mouth.

"Tan apretada y solo llevo un dedo. ¿Como se va a sentir cuando sea mi polla la que esté dentro?" (so tight and it's only one finger. How will it feel when it's my cock inside?)

You can't respond, now concentrated on the feeling of two fingers inside of you and another rubbing circles on your clit. Breaking eye contact is not a possibility, his eyes call yours, you can only see him, only the two of you left in a world that could be burning down for all you cared, his lips may be kissing your breasts, but his eyes stay on yours.

That is, until the loud ring of your phone, making you groan as you reach to toss it away. Pedri is faster and picks it up, disgust taking over his expression as he sees who the caller is.

"De verdad, que no se puede ser más subnormal" he is about to hung up, when an idea strucks his mind "¿Qué te parece si le dejamos escuchar lo bien que te follo, amor? Así se le queda bien claro que tú solamente eres mía" (seriously, you can't be more stupid. How about we let him hear how well I fuck you, love? So he can understand that you are only mine)

You think it over for a second, then slowly nod making him grin widely before planting along kiss on your lips and picking up the call, placing the phone right next to your head.

You are sure the guy is talking, but you can't really understand what he is saying - something about it you are there, Pedri is on his knees in between your legs, face on your center as he licks a long stripe up, lips wrapping around your clit, you let out a loud moan that they guy on the other side of the phone surely didn't miss.

Pedri is devouring you as if you were his last meal, there fingers now inside of you pumping in and out restlessly, his mouth doesn't leave your clit until he feels you about to cum by the high pitch on your whines and moans. He lets go, leaving you just about to reach the extasis that you long so much for.

He picks you up and turns you around, on all fours you feel him on your entrance, his tip teasing you.

"Recuerda dejarle bien claro que solo hay una persona que te puede tener así" (remember to make it clear there is only one person that can have you like this)

"Pedri!" you whine when he sticks only his tip inside of you, you are breathless, a whining mess as you hide your face in the pillow your boyfriend made sure to be avaible so you aren't as uncomfy.

"Dios, estas ya así cuando ni siquiera he hecho nada todavía. ¿Como vas a aguantar cuando te esté follando como te mereces?" (god, you are like this without me doing anything still. How will you manage when I fuck you like you deserve?)

His tip does playful taps against you, until finally he is entirely in you in one harsh thrust, a loud moan escaping your mouth and into the phone's microphone.

"¿Eso se sintió bien, amor?" you desperately nod and he laughs. (did that feel good, love?)

The pace of his hips is hard and fast, unforgiving, the noise of skin against skin is loud, not as much as you moans and whines, his groans are lower, hoarser. He leans down, biting into your neck, his strong chest against your back as he desperately ruts into you, heavy balls hitting you, his heat enveloping you.

"Deja que escuche lo bien que te follo, déjale claro de quién eres" (let him hear how well I fuck you, make it clear who you belong to)

"Pedri!" you whine, you are close, about to come as you tighten even more around him, trapping him inside you, your sound get hight pitched, so do his groans.

His hips stutter a bit, his pace faltering as he reaches down to you phone, speaking into it "Payaso, ¿te pensabas te iba a dar el placer de escuchar lo linda que se escucha al correr se para mi? Vete a la mierda, déjala en paz" (clown, did you really think I would let you the pleasure of hearing how pretty she sound when she comes for me? Go to hell, leave her alone)

He hangs up and tosses the phone aside, fully concentrating on you and how good you feel, picking you up and setting you on his lap, moving you up and down, thrusting, harshly into you, one hand playing with your clit, his lips attached to your neck.

"Venga bonita, vente para mi, necesito sentirte a mi alrededor" (come on pretty one, cum for me, I need to feel you around me)

You can't really think straight but nod desperately, cumming at once when you feel his tip kissing your cervix, all his cum filling you up to the brim.

It's not enough, you both know that, and by the time you are done, his cum is seeping out from you and it's early morning hours.

Needless to say, the boy never dares to even look you to the eye again.

[inthegardenpraying]

"It is not possible to walk away from such things unscarred, to keep living when the universe dies around you..." it's my single favorite quote from Sion and I think it's because it made me realize the motif of trauma. Most major characters in KOTOR II experience an extremely traumatic event in their lifetime. Hanharr can't handle owing a lifedebt to Mira and goes insane. Bao-Dur still feels immense guilt over his activation of the Mass Shadow Generator. Same with Atton and his guilt over being an assassin. Sion was defeated in battle, literally dying. Visas had her planet destroyed by Nihilus, who in turn was murdered by the Mass Shadow Generator. Kreia was exiled and eventually betrayed by her sith apprentices. Even though G0-T0 is a droid, his purpose is to fix the mass trauma of an entire civilization. Lastly, Meetra Surik (or just the exile) cut off from the force to survive the stress of the Mass Shadow Generator. As an exception, I'd say Disciple and Handmaiden don't necessarily have personal trauma but this is because they are introduced to the exile as a novice and will grow alongside you and reflect your decisions. The entire galaxy underwent trauma in the Mandalorian wars, and the story of KOTOR II is how react to your own trauma, the trauma of your companions, and ultimately the trauma of the republic.

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I see the light side and dark side choices in game as the way you dealt with your trauma and how you help others through theirs, rather than explicit rejections or embraces of Jedi/Sith teachings. After all, you aren't even a member of the Jedi Order anymore and you left a long time ago because you didn't agree with them. Think about it like the restoration project on Telos, but with the emotional and mental health of every character in the game. When Sion tells you that nobody could walk away from such things "unscarred" its up to you whether or not that's even true. Do you walk the path of the light side and find redemption/healing through community, altruism, and self sacrifice? Or do you walk the path of the dark side: hardening yourself for protection and seeking power at the expense of others' wellbeing? Sion and Nihilus chose the latter and take take the idea to its apex. Neither can survive without the force and they are restricted by their relationship to it. Kreia makes a point to say that Nihilus does not know true power as he cannot control himself, or his abilities. He is completely beholden to a primal urge to feed. Sion loses to you in the very clip because you have the stronger will. While they survived their trauma, they are weaker because they never healed. They are "scarred" as Sion says.

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Kreia offers a third way, based off your own survival at Malachor. Reliance upon the self, upon willpower and strength of mind is the only way to survive. After all, you did survive Malachor not because of your connection to the force, but because you were strong without it. It is the synthesis of Sith and Jedi ideas, which she combined after spending time as a great master of both orders. But is this a true way to heal from trauma? It may never be possible to heal from trauma, but look at how far your companions come and only after YOU took the time to influence them. They are strong on their own, surviving years on dangerous planets or designing weapons that bring armies to their knees, but through their connection to YOU, to a community, they unlock their true potential.

(I added more in the comments of what he said)

[beneathsilverstars]

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oh my god i love isabeau

the correct reaction to an incredibly mediocre pun:

when i talked to odile i said i was gonna make isabeau sleep on the floor but that is NOT true

i was about to say i love all the sparkly stars aesthetic but... the game is literally named after them.... i shoulda known

omg isabeau what were you about to confess 😳👉👈

rock paper scissors is being explained to me in such painstaking depth... but the dialogue is cute, so it's ok

wtf i looped back to the town specifically in order to ask the cook about the openphrase for the one door but there's no option to ask!!

it was the shopkeeper 🤦🏼

so curious about siffrin's touch thing... it makes sense other people might be more conscious of a subconscious reaction to touch than he is, but he's so avoidant of the train of thought, i feel like it must be something a bit less.. subtle...?

damn... tryna give mirabelle the fan mail for the second time.... yikes :( so sorry mira........ is that what happened to the island to the north...? something about it got so retconned that it makes people sick to focus on the exact change?

oh.. siffrin's major memory problems.....

this game is sooo good

siffrin seems upset in the observatory.. at first i thought they were just getting tired/grouchy, but the game sure is named after stars... maybe stars had to do with their past trauma..??

i'm starting to wonder if this isn't their first set of loops and the bone-deep burden of all that (along with the practicalities of your memories constantly not matching reality) is why they forget words and shit....

went and looked at the castle again this loop bc i felt bad that sif never gets to sit down...

king asked if sif remembers REMEMBERS WHAT??? i just knowww after i terribly lose this fight im gonna have to go back through the whole game unlocking new rooms that like unlock my memories or smth

"not when i still can't say it" ofc the king is from the northern island... sif is obviously from there too, and that's why he can't remember most of his past... so that's the thing they both don't remember?

defeated him but like. there's still so many locked doors. i bet like sif is gonna go to sleep and they wake up from the nap like WHAT DO YOU MEAN I'M STILL IN THE LOOP?? WE WON?? but they didn't win correctly yet, they didn't actually solve everything that needs solved...

head handmaiden ma'am 😳

is odile's research genealogy??

i thought the reference to "colors" being an esoteric/irrelevant topic was a one-off gag about the art style, but it's plot relevant?? fuck yeah

what if odile is trying to figure out the northern island..??

OHHHHHH

BWAHHH the bonnie quest 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

first time redoing the mira quest.... siffrin!!! be brave!!!!! not only is your new idea good, even if it was bad you could just say oops oh well and switch the script back next loop!!!!!

is siffrin gonna have to learn how to be brave and normal in order to break the loop jdhshdjf (normal here meaning "not a loop-brained convomaxxer")

i hope siffrin can just ask the baker's daughter directly for the book this time hdhdjfj i don't really think the whole goose chase is necessary for the emotional convo.....

oh thank god

ugh i can't wait till sif tells his friends about the loop. is that gonna be sif's quest

HANG OUT QUEST!! YES!!!

hm.. is loop the deity of the northern island..? if stars and astronomy are like their whole thing....

INTERRUPTED AGAIN!!!!!!! AGHHGH!!!!! i know isa can't actually confess till the very end bc it would suck having to go through more loops knowing he likes you but he hasn't actually told you / if you go through a loop post-confession surely that would change quite a bit of dialogue

but AHHHHHH!!!!

oh my god siffrin is going beast mode on the tutorial sadness?? i had to choose "attack" bc it seemed the most different and thus interesting but also omg... there goes the warm friendship glow 😭😭

but ofc that glow would die a horrible sudden death anyway the moment siffrin is confronted with the fact that he is back on that damn loop grind :(

poor thing 😭😭😭😭😭😭

INSTANT REPLAY??????????

the loop power is getting stronger.. u~u;;

I KNEW IT WOULD EVENTUALLY GET WEIRD THAT SIF'S SUCH A HIGH LEVEL... just a couple loops ago i was like damn when is everyone else gonna notice that sif has like multiple crafts that they didn't yesterday

also i noticed a loop or so ago that their battle portrait is frowning and.. i don't think it always was.....?

oh my god the memory of sadness is kinda fucked up but. so useful jdhshfj im tired of avoiding them in the hallway,,

ok but also how do my teammates not notice that they have new equipment, and sometimes a new craft..... in the case of like a hair bow that's easy to gloss over but how does isabeau not go "wtf i'm dealing paper damage?" ??

the problem w telling your friends you're in a time loop is it must be such a fucking relief. and then you loop again

aw, sif.. tell them about the universe...

lol how funny would it be if i died to the rock this time

oops... i'm doing a big check-everything run, but i absolutely didn't do all the village stuff bc i was too excited to help isa... oh well,

i did idly connect that the "weird sadnesses" smell like sugar same as the king's time magic which makes, but i finally just actually thought about it and realized they're also star shaped....

siffrin having this time loop power... is it anything at all like mirabelle's time-resistance power, blessed upon her by the high priestess? did siffrin escape from their fucked up time island, sent out with the power to eventually save it?

odile is sooo close to figuring it out... she just said "verRrRy interesting"

BWAHH new post-level-2 convos!! so cute!!!!! love bonnie's new siffrin-patting routine..... and odile has it SO figured out, when is she gonna say something!!!

siffrin was afraid that he smells like timecraft? bc of looping or bc of repressed reasons.... probably bc of looping,

time for siffy's daily bathroom stall breakdown!!

they even went in happy this time and still managed to psych themself all the way out hdgshsjf

GHOST SIF??? GHOST SIF ON THE WAY TO THE KEYKNIFE??????

BWAHHH ODILE RUFFLING SIF'S HAIR!!! I WAS WAITING AND WAITING FOR MORE PEOPLE TO PICK UP ON IT BEING OK TO TOUCH THEM!!!

"in this moment, you are loved" god it is going to be so hard waking up next loop 😭

HAIR BRUSHING!!! THIS IS SO PEAK

i'm worried that the king's "isn't this the best moment of your lives" rhetoric is going to slowly gain appeal as sif goes through more and more loops... like. they crafted the perfect loop with their found family. they *can't* change it any more, make it any better. ...

EHAT DO U MEAN "NVM" ISA!!!!!! oh my god i can't believe you won't confess until siffrin is like more emotionally centered and open and ready to handle that kind of thing... why r u sooo considerate -_- ur killin them isa

oh my god why is it even worse why is the end of the loop even worse this time oh my GOD sif is gonna be inconsolable I'M inconsolable not isabeau reaching out im sobbing on da couch

ngl i kinda hope this time siffrin is just defeated and doesn't banter about shit and everyone is worried as fuck. sorry sif i just think it would be interesting. that flash of him slaughtering the tutorial sadness was so sick. esp the unique auto-rewind. more of that shit

they did the first convo w mira fine.. nvm i guess.... if that never happens that's gonna be my first fanfiction

another ghost siffrin... after i looped to unlocked floor one to look for articles....... :o

not beau saying "normally i'd be worried about this, but sif doesn't seem worried at all!" when i'm about to touch the tear specifically in order to die...

did the king used to hang out in the observatory... did he write that word (the country's name?) on the papers, and wear out the spot on the globe....... he did find a new home here in vougarde such that he's decided that he can't lose this one too, at all, ever...

i got to loop 30 and i was surprised bc i figured i was at like 25 tops. and now im at 37? i don't think it's been 7 loops since then...???

i've started dreaming about the tick of a clock.. i'm kinda worried i've started wracking up too many loops... i did just zip back and forth across the house a half dozen times checking various items and dead ends....

AHH AUTO REWIND FROM KING ASKING WHERE SIF IS FROM???? followed by "you do not answer" which. implies that wasn't the case before the rewind.?? maybe more like "you do not think about it" l o l oh sif 😭😭😭

i was about to complain that it won't let me zone out of the dying-and-bonnie-running scene but um. different this time. thank you for not letting me zone out,

YEAH IT'S LOOP 40 NOW!! this is right after loop 37 (with a small auto-rewind between)

😭😭😭😭😭😭 isabeau pleeeeease:

hanging out with loop and - we saw the kings first attack?? but how would the rest of the party even get that far without sif?? they'd die to the first rock trap????

oh good sif noticed too. "who was the king attacking".... did a siffrin remnant help the party, has he looped so many times that he can be in multiple places at once???

was the king kmsing??? who tf would he be attackinggg

does the loop end when siffrin loses hope?? but no, then the very first time they defeat the boss they wouldn't have looped... but no, if the handmaiden is just talking shit unrelated to the looping then that coulda still made sif think the loop was fucked, which fucked the loop?

it's kinda heavy how many times you have to k your s in this game... esp when you don't actually have to but it's, like, more convenient than 5-30 extra minutes of running around

siffrin tripping so they don't seem so creepily overpowered is SO sad 😭

fsr it's sadder than going through the motions of a conversation, or tripping bc you tripped last time... it's a whole new lie to offset a whole new problem...

oh yeah my other loop theory was that it ends when siffrin gets too reminded of the northern island..? the memory of the future or whatever the fuck from the big attack idk

siffrin rewinded after his friends saw the ghost.... kinda matches my "when he loses hope" theory. when he feels alone? when he's utterly lost with no clue what to do next..? (lol sif restarting every loop just bc he doesn't have plans for what to do after winning)

NOOO I WAS SO EXCITED TO NOT HAVE TO GO GET THE KNIFEKEY EVERY TIME BUT I DO HAVE TO... BOOOOO...... where's the consistency, loop!!!

i can use a memory to equip it for the boss fight but idc as much about that.... i just wanted to be able to check out the dead end rooms more often instead of having to use the crest to get the knifekey every time....

memory of ghosts, no effect??

oh, the vision of the future happens on the first attack always.. not when the king kills you always...

having the knifekey for the fight kinda isn't worth it.. siffrin only has one measly paper attack anyway, so i usually have them on potions and items duty.... gotta keep mira brothed up so she can cast the super duper shield every single turn

"it's fine. she isn't real to you right now either" god siffrin is gonna be so fucked up when they get out. siffrin is gonna have "everyone else is an NPC" brain

finished doing all four quests together for the second time, and sif's commentary at the end is reeally hitting my "eventually sif will understand the king's pov of wanting to freeze one perfect moment forever instead of going forward to inevitably worse shit" theory :(

"you've noticed you're starting to forget whole loops" AHA...... i'm so curious tho what was sif doing in those skipped loops. ig presumably it'd be whatever they did in the next loop that they actually remember? sticking to the plan several times in a row till it sticks,

does loop remember the skipped loops??

hm. whenever the loop ends early Not due to death (the little auto-reverses) maybe sif just.. forgot everything after that moment? till the normal king attack moment ....? or whatever death they find?

i wonder if the headache of not being able to say/read/think about the northern island is caused by many tiny loops, sending you back to the moment before you said/read/thought it, happening however many times it takes for the rapid time travel to make you so sick you just don't

i teach kid's music classes, and sometimes i'll practice one or two dozen verse variations, then i get to actual class and when i actually do that song i can't remember which variations i've already done? and it gets worse with each class i teach from that lesson plan. so dw siffrin i get it,

ok but wtf is up with the head handmaiden. what's she got to do with this. she's obviously more involved than she seems, she knows Something about the end. and imo it's sus that she was able to bless mirabelle to be impervious to the curse, how's she able to do that.

assuming that the king used to live in the house (spending lots of time in the observatory), euphrasie would've gotten to know him... perhaps seen the beginnings of him getting fucked up powerful...? thought she could handle it on her own but she couldn't?

are the mini auto-loops a meta "reload from last save"? i think it's the same quick rewind sound as actually reloading... i don't do it super often bc why not just loop back and keep my silly little mistake in, but i've done it 2 or maybe 3 times....

this game does such a good job starting in medias res. level 45!! i'm past 70 now. i feel like there's a definite chance i'll hit 90 which means siffrin will have done as much fighting in these loops as they did with their friends through months of travel and adventure.

choosing all the emo answers to the loop convo about how using your dagger would be faster than finding a tear to kill you. sorry frin not my fault you are depressed as fuck

LOOP GOT POSSESSED IN ORDER TO ALLOW ME TO K MY S MANUALLY??????? ??????? damn i had something actually important to talk about this loop too

I HATE PICKING CONVERSATION CHOICES WITH LOOOOOP I WANT TO SEE THE OUTCOME OF BOTH OPTIONS IM SO SPOILED!!!!

AHHHH FRIN FIGURED OUT THAT IT's THEIR COJNTRY! THEY TALKED ABt JT! THEY TRIED TO SAY IT!! BWAHHHHHHHH that was so fucking sadddd oh my godddddddd sif's poor clueless friends trying to stop whatever the fuck was happenin 😭😭

is the king's 9999 attack just saying the country's name, lol

wish craft . . .

oh my god oh my god he's gonna torture my friends to death in front of me oh my god holy shit oh my god oh no oh no oh no oh no

say the name siffrin!!! think the name!!!!!!! it'll fuck you up bad enough that you loop!

oh... sif is repeating their wish over and over..... like when they carve

well. finally a loop where sif wakes up freaking out so bad that their script with mirabelle gets way way off track. lol. just like i wanted. haha. shit

I CAN READ THE ISLAND BOOKS NOW???????? damn worth it fr sorry bonbon

i forget if i mentioned that i was thinking about how siffrin doesn't rly have much to look forward to, like his friends are about to disband...?

i was chatting w ari about it lol when she helped me defeat the king earlier, she was very concerned about how sif didn't have a home to return to, all his friends were talking about going back to their homes but where would sif go, isn't that sad

speaking of ari. very four year old raised by lesbians quote: "i like isabeau's name but i don't like his gender..."

siffrin dont get emo about how they don't hug you that first evening you literally already know why, they think you don't like it

damn. forgot about the rock

i had been thinking that the way the island was erased must be similar to the way the loops work, but couldn't fathom how time manip could erase a whole island. the magic being more general makes more sense. did someone wish away color as well....

i love magic systems where belief in a thing makes it more real but jeez this is scary

i was pretty on track with guessing that non-death loops happen when siffrin loses hope. it's whenever he goes oh fuck oh god i wish that hadn't happened

gotta say. i'm getting soo sick of running around unlocking doors so that i can go down a tear dead end for the nth time. plssss let me loop to "some doors unlocked; tear crest not used" 😭

i'm also starting to get low on loop-forward sparkles...

oh wow. siffrin had a really bad dream this tear-touch loop-back. i really can't ever use the dagger he would get plagued by the horrors. not that he isn't already, but,

i love to draw characters with horrifiedly blank expressions and very very tired eyes i can't wait to draw siffrin. lol

this game was made in a lab for me

every time i accidentally get into a fight with a sadness i'm like "siffrin is so fucked up at this point he should be able to just glare at them and scare them the fuck off" and then i remember that i literally currently have that mode equipped, me and the sadness just dodged in the same direction

can i at least get a memory that lets me one-hit KO the sadness crests- wait holy shit i just opened my craft menu and i literally have a new scissor craft called (just attack) when tf did i get that

.... was siffron's island erased specifically because they got gud at wish craft, and that's a power that the world shouldn't be able to harness...?

OH FUCK THE "remembering the name" STAR WAS SO SYMBOLICALLY STRIKING THAT I DIDN'T RVEN REALIZE THAT IT WAS ACTUAL COLOR...

nooo.. no one even reacted to being poked in the gardening room squeeze? right when sif needs it the most? let's make this set of the loops the worst set ever 🤗

what the Fuck is up with croissants though

i can't believe loop got siffrin to admit to themself that beau was planning to confess and siffrin is just using it to beat themself up. "poor isabeau, he probably can't help having a crush on shitty ol me".

i wish i could give siff a good loop but doing the missions makes them sad now 😭

wow. earlier i was like "what if the king is actually siffrin, weird-magic-shenanigans style". bc sif does have some similar thought patterns. but i was like no that's silly. but now this sad diary is talking abt making another self to talk to????

i also wondered if loop is some kinda shade of siffy??

i am writing this tweet while i let siffrin look through the big window in the observatory for a while. as a treat :(

OH THANK GOD.. ISABEAU IS TELLING SIF A NEW JOKE...: that's a much better treat 😭😭😭😭

oh no nvm their second thought was "i'll need to remember to laugh next time"

why don't siff's friends react anymore when he pokes them in the gardening room. it doesn't make sense.....

finally.. my "sif is quiet and moody and everyone notices" loop.......

sif has been super hungry in the commentary lately... more than normal i think... all those wish loops taking a lot of fuel?

have ppl not been reacting to sif's pokes bc they don't want to bother him when he's already obviously having a rough day...

i liked when they sat on the floor after bumping into the table. so real

finally got that death talk with bonnie.... i wonder when i'll get talk #2 with the other characters... odile has been quite sus of me for ages when's she gonna come out with ittt

ISABEAU PUSHING SIFFRIN AWAY.... probably bc siffrin was being very... sudden and depressed and desperate about it...?

did the daydreaming one's sister move to the northern island or something...

THE LIST IN EUPHRASIE's OFFICE!! it's who wished to save vougarde, and who wished for something else!!

bwuh. thinking about the strength behind the wish "i wish i hadn't fucking done that" when you reach out to someone and they push you away

loop confirmed/unified my theories about why siffrin loops back without death sometimes heheh... the specific wording of "something that feels like the world is ending" or whatever also seems in line with my theory that siffrin is scared of leaving their friends tomorrow

they've got croissant trauma. they've got banana trauma. a cheap continental breakfast is siffrin's worst nightmare

poetic that euphrasie finally heard and replied to me on loop 99. waking up on the big double O more hopeless than ever! ☺️

gotta say it so funny that siffrin is forcing themself to try to get everyone's skills in order to beat the king faster when i beat him easily in probably less than half a dozen rounds last time. forgot to even equip the keyknife! these half-assed quests are taking longer than that...

fucked up house??????

i keep accidentally walking right back out of the door i walked into, lol. this is fun though!

also. ghost ✨???

oh.. the ghost ✨ figure i saw was siffrin, with a black hat..?

maybe.. this is the universe's way of granting both wishes...... vougarde is saved, but stuck in time forever. looping the same day of salvation.

i had wondered what would happen if (once?) siffrin totally lost hope, sure that there was no chance of ever, ever getting out. bc when they lose hope they restart. so they'd just. restart immediately. constant loop. with no chance to do anything to regain that hope.

ghost sif time :3c

mal du pays means homesickness...

SIFFRIN TRIPPED AND IZA CAUGHT HIM.. they're touching !

i've been playing at work but i have to stop and actually do some work now.... ty for taking good naps today baby :')

i can't believe mirabelle and siffrin are canonically moirails now

BUT... BUT WHY DOES SIFFRIN HATE CROISSANTS???

also i saw something on a map i was using about a starry hat?? i never got a new hat...

i also never managed to find the book with the tree on the cover again, now that i could read it...

i'm gonna have to find a full 100%ed playthrough to watch on youtube 🫡

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reading through ISAT socmed... the first time i saw one of the in-world swears in the game i was like "lol stormlight archive vibes" so it's very funny that one of the first posts i see is "my world building advice is to learn from brandon sanderson" i was sooo right. so true

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makes no sense to me that mirabelle asked siffrin to not spoil her on their convo topics... not spoil on where the convos *went* sure, but how does she not want to know the basic facts that siffrin now knows about her 😭 so wild

if one of my friends was in a time loop i would be like. please sit down and summarize everything we ever talked about so i can be caught up. but thats just me

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found some youtube video compilations of missable dialogue/events we are so back

AGHH why does this person not show the full cutscenes 😭😭😭 pls i don't want to have to do a whole ass entire top to bottom loop w like 20 object interactions...... maybe i'll just do it at work tomorrow while the baby naps 😩

at least it was pretty easy getting the initial croissant scene ☺️ but i am NOT redoing the entire last two acts to get the related final loop scene or whatever it is -_-

yayy that one's big enough that i found a video of it ☺️ i do wish i'd been able to do it in game myself instead, but. not redoing half the blinding game rn

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i Am doing a full loop to get the odile thing though... and in doing so i realized apparently i didn't go through the friend quests manually enough times, sif just had a bit of a mental breakdown abt odile's. which does lead up to the last-loop breakdown better!

NOOO I WAS 3/4 OF THE WAY THRU THIS LOOP TO GET A CERTAIN SCENE AND i was on autopilot and meant to use a crest on the tears but i didn't have the crest yet so selecting "yes" meant touching them and dying fuck meee

i hadn't saved at each floor bc i didn't want to touch my save files w this new offshoot canon...

i'm not actually quite sure what info gets carried over from the previous loop when you loop back to the same floor instead of the beginning or forwards? i'm just gonna try and do floor 3 again and see if it works....

either relooping level 3 messed it up or i wasn't able to get enough suspicion points bc the plantain chips didn't make me sick. gonna go slip on the banana five times and try again

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... i just used the dagger for the second time and now i'm stuck on a plain black screen and i legitimately can't tell if the game is broken or if the game is making me sit and wait for sif to bleed out

ok it's definitely a bug. wow this is so poignant it really does feel like i fucked around and found out

this is so funny i can open my pockets but i can't use the dagger or call loop.

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I DID IT I GOT THE SCENE!! it was good i'm glad i saw it. wish i hadn't fucked up and had to do it all twice but i DID IT

[weirdrtvscomments]

I don't know where else to say this but if I don't say it somewhere it may kill me.

Unplanned naps are always when I have my strangest dreams. I laid down this afternoon to rest my eyes and back for just a moment, and drifted off, as a tired guy like I am known to do. And I had a dream- or nightmare, I guess.

I was on the grounds of an old grand manor. There was a cliff near the main house, and in that cliff was a secret room. And within the secret room was the RTVS Crew. Or, Wayne, Scorpy, Mira, and maybe Baaulp and Holly. They were having a movie night and I was invited in to watch the film, but when I entered the door was locked and I was tied to a chair with two locks which would open only under certain conditions. One when the film was over, one when I had fun. Scorpy was in charge of ensuring I remained trapped. We watched the film, but by the end I still wasn't having fun, so the RTVS crew attempted to make me laugh, telling jokes and doing weird and wacky stuff, until finally the lock unlocked and I was able to stumble out of the secret room, disoriented, and try and get away. Mira began to follow me, and I remember being terrified of being caught. I woke up before I could get away or be caught. None of them stopped smiling the entire time.

It was very unpleasant and I was terrified. Do you think this is a premonition or perhaps a sick manifestation of a sick and twisted mind? Important context: I had watched the entire fan cut of the HLVRAI commentary streams immediately beforehand.

What the fuck

[skyfallscotland]

hello,

I am coming over here to respectfully yell at you and this entire godforsaken fandom for making me have brain rot of Drake and Mira. Your most recent fic has unlocked Pandora's box and now I can't stop thinking about them 😭 I think I've re-read it like 5 times at this rate. They have officially taken over Vi and X place which is crazy to me. I have all these ideas of what Drake and Mira would be like but I'm too scared to write them down so I'm over here complaining to tumblr friends

respectfully,

a tired FW fan who can't stop thinking about side characters who don't have enough screen time

ps.

Now I have questions about fliers and their dynamic with gryphons??? like are they as sassy and snarky as dragons??? I HAVE TOO MANY QUESTIONS AND NO GODAMN ANSWERS

Please, please write them?????

And like, here’s the thing, I’d love to write a 150k word epic of them, but we just know NOTHING. And it would drive me crazy trying to think of what the hell they’re doing and where the hell they’re going and it’s all just a lot, you know?

It’s one thing to flesh out characters who don’t get a lot of screen time and quite another to have to build a whole world to house them in, because the worldbuilding so far has been so lacking (iron flame wise anyway), all hints and no substance as of yet.

Who is Maraya? Where is she? Why is she leaving the failing defence of her nation to her stuck up cousin? Nobody knows

Why do half the gryphons have names ending in -air but a bunch don’t??? We don’t know??? It’s too much, my friend 😭

I definitely think they’re snarky as fuck though.

[aria0fgold]

Of gems and pages au in the brain again. I was thinking like: It's an au, I don't have to think much bout the friendquests and act 5 happenings when my au is set in a new loop+ scenario and then I remembered... That new loop+ relies on the act 5's loop a bit so now I got to thinkin more about the thing.

Like, with the friendquests, it'll turn out a liiil differently in that it'd be Odile's suggestion for Siffrin to check up on the others considering that the Siff in this au has no recollection of practically anything with the many loops that had occurred. Odile figures out that the others needed help with something and considering how the timeloop appears to be connected with Siff, thinks that it's important for them to be helping the others instead of her. So the friendquests goes like this now:

Odile suggests Siff check up on the others then asks Siff about it afterwards to figure out the next step. She finds out about Mira's bonding proposals and the fact that Siff needed to know Bonbon's favourite foods (for that one, instead of the focus being on Siff choosing, it'd be Odile). After finding that out during loops, Odile drops it as a hint like "I think I saw Mira looking over some bonding proposals, although, don't tell her I said that." and "I should stock up for Boniface's favourite foods. I have a list here, but I don't really need it anymore. You can have it." Meanwhile for her friendquest, she'll be the one to outright ask Siff for help instead of the other way around.

Also, the Euphrasie sequence still has Siff be the one to talk to her, that's also the biggest hint that Odile got about the timeloops being connected to Siffrin (Odile might also try to be the one to talk to Euphrasie too thinking it'd help, but... it didn't). So yea, those are the possible changes to the friendquests. Now for Act 5... Since Odile doesn't really benefit much to the spells the others unlock during the friendquests, I think there's no reason for her to seek them out and try to speedrun it the way that Siff did in canon. So the Act 5 sequence in this au is just directed at Siff. Odile reaching her breaking point and just confronts Siff about it, but horribly...

During that moment, Siff Will loop several times but he won't even remember much of it and it just upsets Odile more and more cuz it's clear as day! It's so crystal clear that the timeloop is connected to Siffrin and their emotions and their wish! SO WHAT IS HIS WISH?! But the more Odile pushes them for the answer in such an aggressive manner, the more Siffrin doesn't wanna speak with how horrified he is. And then Odile notices that, notices just how horrible she went about it and finally just lets go, and takes a step back away from Siff to cool off (and take the orbs in the clocktower while everyone isn't around).

She waits until everyone goes in the clocktower to go to the House. Maybe she can get an answer out of the King instead, maybe if she kills him herself, Something would happen cuz clearly she's-- whatever being is responsible for this's-- "Chosen One" of handling the timeloops being controled by her family member. The way the House warps in Act 5 warps in a manner that "keeps her away," it wants to stall her basically. Courtesy of the theory by someone else about the House during Act 5 warps according to Siffrin's desire of getting to the King faster. So here, it warps to the desire of keeping Odile out cuz as hurt as Siffrin was during that whole argument, when she didn't arrive in the clocktower, he fears that she might be doing something dangerous. And he's right.

Also, during the battle with the King, Odile wasn't being frozen in time the way that Siffrin was in canon. In this au, Odile fights that back and for a split second her lvl reached 100 during then. That has repercussions... which will be: Her body cracking aka getting turned into stone for not only using up all of her craft power but Nearly breaking the limit of which the body can handle. I say Nearly, cuz before Odile can blast the King away with a force of a thousand suns, the family members got to her in time, which broke her focus on the attack and she collapsed from it but it still doesn't change the fact that she Did nearly went past the limit there. And now she's Dying-- But wait! We have new loop+ for that :D

[raiiryuu]

HEADCANON: Home

Building off of this, the apartment Laxus is currently staying in isn't exactly something that he'd meant to stay in this long. Things have just kinda...kept happening and he hasn't had a chance to look into anything else.

Since it's been a while now since everything Happened and things have calmed down, Laxus has gotten settled in a house on the outskirts of Magnolia. The place is big enough for him + the Raijinshuu and has a spare bedroom besides, and a few of the guild (namely Cana, Gray, Mira, and Erza) know where it is. It's usually unlocked if he or any of the Raijinshuu are home (because walk in, he dares you), but when no one is home it's locked up and the aforementioned friends know where a spare key is if needed (the location changes every few months but with MCLs being commonplace, it's easy to notify everyone).

He was probably one of the ones least affected by the seven-year gap, as he'd already cleaned his place out prior to that when he was kicked out of the guild. What he'd arrived on the island with was basically all he'd kept, the rest either being sold/put in storage or given to Makarov if it had 'sentimental value'. (His ever-present coat was likely in his bag, I don't think he let that out of his sight for a second, but the area he'd been in before heading to Tenrou was too warm for it.)

He's never been one to keep a lot of stuff lying around, generally, except a home gym that he did end up losing during the gap. It sucked, but he at least had some jewel with him when he got back (and his accounts had been transferred to Ivan while he was gone, who gave them back upon hearing of their return). Between getting back and the GMG he really didn't bother with it, as they were leaving town for the three months before the Games to train regardless, and once they got back things were sorta hectic but he did find the small apartment he'd keep until shortly after the war with Alvarez. After Fairy Tail disbanded, he wasn't really sure what to make of things, and had kept up with the rent/going to the apartment once a month to take care of things but was about to give it up before Gajeel and the others kicked down the door and pulled him and his team back. (They also had an apartment they probably shared closer to Blue Pegasus, for the time they were there.)

Now that Fairy Tail's back in action and he's officially staying in/near Magnolia again, he let himself splurge and get a new set of gym equipment, but the stuff at the guild is a bit...sturdier for what he's looking for out of it. He can usually be found at the guild early in the mornings working out, and keeps his equipment at home for if he's not feeling like making the trip out or needs to think and doesn't want to be bothered.

[daidonzo]

Chapter 25: Well baby, I surrender to the strawberry ice cream [Chishiya x Reader]

You wanted to leave this ridiculous game and be done with it, once and for all.

That didn't mean you were pro-torturing someone.

Just as Chishiya had first guessed, Matsushita was the Jack. It had been quite easy to discover - you all had just remained in your cells for a few more minutes after you had said your suits (all of you correctly except for poor Kotoko) and the door had been unlocked. He had proceed to exclaim things such as "I win!", thinking the sound of the office woman's head being blown off came from more than once cell and laugh like a truly demented person would.

Was there no one mentally sane anymore when it came to face cards?

First there was Mira, who should be admitted into a psychiatric hospital immediately. Not only for participating as a sort of game master in this games, but for being part of The Beach for as long as she did, acting like an undercover agent of sorts, and still go forward, when she had seen so many people die and suffer. Then, the King of Spades, who was completely nuts and seemed to think the Borderlands was the perfect scenario for a retelling of the Texas Chainsaw Massacre only with anti-tank rifles and who knows what other weapons, and last but not least, Matsushita, who just seemed to not be in his right mind.

And, to be honest, just the fact that someone didn't care about other people literally losing their lives was very telling. At least for you.

Anyway, Chishiya had been the one to leave the prison cells first and had told the man his little speech, about how he had discovered he was the Jack of Hearts. You had also left your cell, but were silent, just screaming "Go, Chishiya go!" in your head and, maybe a little bit, enjoying the feeling of outsmarting someone else.

What you didn't love so much was the fact that then, Banda and Yaba had decided they were going to torture Matsushita to get information about this world, and about how to become part of it. That's the reason why the former hadn't killed him in the last round.

"Bunch of nutcases." You had declared, back in the snack room, Chishiya eating his cookies seating down by a bench as if nothing was happening, you taking up the task of filling the silence to try and avoid hearing any screams. He deserved it. But you didn't approve, couldn't approve, who would? "Who would want to stay here? I mean, Banda, sure, he is a murderer after all but I thought the Yaba guy was nothing more than a businessman!" You were walking around the room, gesticulating dramatically to emphasize your words.

"Some people haven't lived a blessed life."

Your eyes focused on him, wondering if what he said was just a mere comment or if there was something else to be implied with those words.

"What about you?" You asked, directly.

"Tell me a memory you have about your father."

You frowned, not because he was not answering your question - it was something he did often and you knew better by then. But because, what did you father have to do with any of this?

"I don't know. He always buys me blueberries because he knows I like them the most, so every time he goes to get groceries, I know there is a box of them waiting for me by the kitchen's table." You made a conscious effort to speak about him in the present tense.

"And one thing you like to do together?"

"We both like to eat. We would go try out new restaurants or make home-cooked meals together, for example."

"My most prominent memory about my father is seeing the back of his head."

A small smile had been appearing in your lips while speaking about your dad, but it vanished when you heard the blonde man say those words.

"We rarely talk, even now. He is always with the computer, surrounded by medical books. His marriage to my mother wasn't due to love, either, nothing but a formality. This meant she was not happy. That led to a difficult childhood."

You didn't know what to say. You were just staring. He simply lifted his shoulders up and down. He looked unaffected by what he was telling you. Maybe so much time had passed that now he simply accepted it.

You sat down next to him, and grabbed his hand, holding it between both of yours.

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine."

"No, it's not. I'm really sorry. I don't know what else to say…"

"It is in the past."

"Yeah, but…" You were biting the inside of your cheek, trying to find the words. There were none. He was right, it was in the past, and nothing you could say would make him feel better about it. "Oh, your dad just did that so that you could have a nice life." "I'm sure your mother was hurt because of the unhappy marriage, but I'm sure she still loves you very much!" No. That was bullshit. There was no point. You could only look forward. To the future.

"What's your favorite fruit?"

"Hm? Maybe strawberries. Why?"

"When we are back in the real world…" You started, smiling at him, leaning your head to one side. "I will buy you strawberries every time I go to the grocery store. I'll try really, really hard that my roommate doesn't get to them before you, maybe I'll have to hide them somewhere. But then, every time you come to visit me, you will have strawberries."

He smiled back, openly, sincerely.

"Will you also make me home-cooked meals?" There he was. Back to messing with you.

"No. I am horrible at cooking, I might burn the house down and I'm renting. I can make you like, spaghetti maybe, but they may get stuck to the pot. But we can order takeaway!"

You kept talking, making plans for an uncertain future until the round ended.

Matsushita killed himself, the torture inflicted by Yaba and Banda too much to withstand for another hour.

You won the game, but it really didn't feel good. Almost like cheating.

What felt great was Chishiya's hand in yours while you were leaving the penitentiary center.

Just as you crossed the door, the massive zeppelin looming over it started to blow up and burn.

"Is that going to happen every single time we clear one of those games!?" You asked after an initial scream of surprise. Your blonde companion was as undisturbed as always.

"I guess so."

"I hope nobody was standing right below it."

He chuckled. "I first meant what I said about you being the white knight of this place as a joke, but now…"

"Would that make you my sweet damsel in distress?"

You could almost hear the lifted eyebrow.

"Do I look like one?"

"Blonde, pretty, dressed in white to symbolize your purity… Yes, you do."

"No."

"Yes." You were pretending to be serious, but almost couldn't hold your laughter any longer. "Now, let's get out of here before my princess gets burned to death by the remains of an airship falling on her… It would be a very anticlimatic ending, wouldn't it?"

[angelsvoice1love]

From a far (pt1)

Jungkook pov

She stood smiling from a far, laughing at something one of her friends said. Suddenly her boyfriend came towards her hugging her from behind, as he kissed her.

Boyfriend: I've missed you. I heard him say, as I sat closer.

Y/n: I've missed you too, Jung. She replied, with a smile as he held her in his arms.

Her friend/Mira: Jung, what are you doing here? I thought you were going to Italy today.

Jung: I was, but my flight was delayed until tomorrow evening...so I figured I'd spend some time with my girl. He replied to Mira, as he looked over at Y/n.

Other friend/Luna: Hey, isn't that Jeon Jungkook, the singer, dancer and artist in our team.

Y/n: O yes, let's invite him over. I heard y/n say as I pretended to read my book. Jeon Jungkook?

Jungkook: Yes?

Y/n: Would you like to join us for dinner? Seeing as your alone, I think it'll be better for you to join us...and seeing as your new to our team in the arts program, it'll be fun to get to know you. What do you say?

Jungkook: That'll be nice. He agreed, as he walked over with you to your table.

During dinner your boyfriend had to leave for an important event. Your friends left after a while, leaving you alone with Jungkook.

Jungkook: Do you have a ride home? Jungkook asked, as you both stood outside the restaurant.

Y/n: No. I'll just call for a taxi. You replied as you, pushed some hair behind your ear.

Jungkook: I...I could take you home if you'd like.

Y/n: I don't want to be a burden.

Jungkook: No, it won't be a problem at all. I live past the dorms, and you live there don't you?

Y/n: Yes. But are you sure?

Jungkook: Yes. It won't be a problem at all. He gave you a smile, as you followed him to the car.

Once you stopped at the dorms, you smiled at Jungkook as he opened the car door for you.

Y/n: Thank you. Your, such a gentleman.

Jungkook: My mother raised a gentleman.

Y/n: I'm glad she did. You said, as you still held his hand that helped you out of the car.

Jungkook: I guess i'll see you around.

Y/n: Listen, could I get your number? We can stay in touch, and i'd really like to be friends with you.

Jungkook: I'd like that.

After you both exchanged numbers, you stood in front of him not really knowing what to do.

Y/n: Guess I'll see you soon?

Jungkook: See you. He waved, as you walked into your dorm.

~4 Months Later~

You and Jungkook became very close in just 4 months, and to say he was your best male friend would be true. You didn't have any male friends here anymore, since all your friends already graduated collage.

Now you had a new best friend, Jungkook who kept you company if your boyfriend Jung wasn't around. You arrived at Jung's apartment, as you8 took out the spare key unlocking it to surprise him with dinner you made.

Once you entered you saw, Jung making out with a girl on his couch. The worst part being it was you best friend Mira.

Y/n: Jung?

Jung and Mira broke apart, looking at you just stood by the door.

Jung: Y/n? What are you doing here? He questioned, as he stood up approaching you.

With one swift motion, you slapped Jung across the face.

Y/n: Don't. You said, running out of the apartment building. You ran for so long to Jungkook's home. Yes, he still lived with his parents, since he lived only a few short minutes from the collage.

Once you got there, you knocked frantically on the door, waiting for him to open. Knowing his parents were out of town of vacation, you just had to go to him. As he opened the door, your arms wrapped around his waist as your face was buried in his chest.

Jungkook: Y/n? What's wrong? He asked, as he held you in his arms.

Y/n: J...Jung...I caught him cheating on me with Mira.

Jungkook didnt say anything, as he lifted you in his arms as he carried you to the couch.

Jungkook: I can't believe what he did to you. He said, as he wiped away the tears on your face.

Y/n: Can I stay here tonight? I don't want to be where he could find me. What if he tries to come over o...or if-

Jungkook: Of course. I won't let you anywhere near him. And if he tries to come here, I'll kick his ass. He said, making you smile. He leaned in and gently placed a kiss on your forehead. Jungkook, you can take my bedroom, I'll take the couch.

Y/n: No, it's fine I'll take the couch.

Jungkook: No. A gentleman never allows a woman to sleep on the couch.

After a while, Jungkook gave you an oversized shirt and some sweats to sleep in. After you got dressed he walked you to his room, tucking you in and sat next to you until you fell asleep before leaving the room.

As he sat on the couch he couldn't believe Jung hurting you so much. It wasn't right towards you, you were the best person he knew. And her so called best friend Mira, going behind her back and hanging around with Jung doing things that wasn't innocent at all.

Jungkook: Don't worry y/n, I'll never let anyone hurt you again.

[wolfyender690]

I swear this game is so interesting, the new interactions after doing the hangouts omg

Odile making a comment about Siffrin trying to wink when he only has one eye only for Bonnie to then clearly feel bad, the first snack time Isa little saying their friends and Odile not denying their friends, Bonnie before saying they don't know who Sif would be to now saying they'd see Sif as the cousin of the group, Mira talking about all the classes she took now thinking it might have been a waste of time cause some of what she learned she hasn't used yet only for the others to encourage her that learning stuff just cause you want to is fine too plus what she's learning still might come in handy someday!

God these characters are so well written, mad respect to who wrote them omg I'm literally attached to all of them

Also I've made it to floor 2 again and this time literally without using any items, I feel very proud that I haven't used any yet. Been noticing I've been encountering more moments that are raising suspicion I think judging by the sound effect, good I need to get the gang to notice Sif is not ok >:[

Best part of all though

After all my efforts......

Of talking to barrels so much.......

Wondering if it exists.......

I UNLOCKED MEMORIES OF BARRELS!!!!

Literally I was starting to think it didn't exist but it does! I KNEW WE COULD FIND ITEMS IN THEM MY HUNCH WAS RIGHT!!!!

I AM NOW THE MASTER OF PILLARS AND BARRELS!!! >:D

•.°★ Me rambling about In Stars And Time! Possible spoilers ahead!★ °.•

So I've recently started playing In Stars And Time and it's already become my new hyperfixation. I wish I posted about it sooner and documented my playthrough so far but I think I'm still early game, I'm still on act 2 but like it's getting good!

I am however scared about the foreshadowing here, they all keep saying to "Protect Bonnie at all costs"

Guys

G u y s

What do you mean by that?

That's foreshadowing I know it is WTF is gonna happen to Bonnie!? DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH THE WARNING ABOUT "Children in peril" ON THE STEAM PAGE!?

No one tell me NO SPOILERS!!!

I'm already doing a side quest to get a memory and they already started saying they hate Siffrin so that got me thinking, IS THAT GONNA HAPPEN WITH THE OTHERS AT SOME POINT!? I swear if that happens

Idk but I gotta keep playing the game so might update this as I go

[husbandhannie]

later

pairing: scoups x reader

word count: 1360

genre: angst (the breakup kind), fluff (eh...there's a happy ending, sort of)

warnings: break-up mentions, resolving of arguments (sort of), reader thinks someone is trying to break into their house

a/n: angst is not something i'm good at, this is something self-indulgent i'm writing.

taglist: @itsveronicaxxx @zurikyo @husbandhoshi @starlightjoong.

"who's there?"

your question is met with a momentary silence, before the tapping on your door resumes. not a good sign.

the tapping on your front door had woken you up a few minutes ago, and you had padded to the entrance in the hope that it was just someone playing a prank, that maybe you'll get an introduction if you ask. you didn't, and you're starting to freak out.

what if it's a criminal, trying to get through your door by getting you to open up out of curiosity? there are probably other less malicious possibilities, but none of them cross your anxious mind. before you can second-guess yourself, you're unlocking your phone and scrolling to find the contact of someone who you know will pick up, despite the time.

despite the less-than-great terms the two of you broke up on.

"y/n?", seungcheol picks up after two rings, "hey".

this is a very inconvenient time to realize just how much you've missed his voice.

"cheol", you whisper, hearing his sharp intake at the nickname, "there's someone tapping at my door".

"oh?", the sound of muffled footsteps comes through the phone, followed by an oddly-familiar bell, "did you ask who it is?"

"yeah. no response", the mysterious being scratches your door, and your breath hitches, "can you come over? i know it's late - "

"already on my way, baby"

baby. it's been five months since you've heard that petname. it makes you feel safer, bringing back memories of being wrapped up in seungcheol's arms after long days at work.

"aren't you driving here?", you ask, noticing his heavy breathing.

"no, i was at the creamery", there's a shy note in his voice, "was craving butterscotch. i'll be there in two, tops".

"okay", you breathe, "there wasn't a store near the dorm that had butterscotch?"

"doesn't taste the same".

ofcourse. despite it being your idea, you thought seungcheol would fare better after the separation, given how he was generally busier than you were. it appears that's not true, he's had a hard time letting things go - just like you. just like how you show up to the convenience store near his dorm once a week to sit on flimsy plastic chairs and have the ramen you used to share with him.

"entering your building now", he huffs, his footsteps on the staircase echoing through the phone, "i'll see what it is, okay?"

"yeah", you gulp, "be careful".

"i will, baby", he promises, "don't worry".

the line goes silent and you hold your breath, listening intently for any sign of movement. after a few minutes (probably a few seconds), there's a purposeful knock on the door, followed by seungcheol's muffled voice.

"opening!", you work through the lock and pull the handle, your eyes meeting your ex's amused ones, "what - oh".

at his feet is a black cat, languidly stretching.

"mira", you exclaim, bending down and lifting her up, "how did you get out?"

"i take it you know the lovely lady?", seungcheol teases.

"yes, oh god", you step out, moving past seungcheol to walk to your neighbor's door, "it's sana's mom's cat, she's catsitting. do you mind if i - ?"

"no, it's okay", he waves, "i'll wait here".

"you can go inside, seungcheol. it's okay".

you walk down the hallway before he can answer, your heart beating faster as you ring sana's door. her sleepy form opens the door before the cat in your arms jerks her wide-awake, and you wave away her apologies before handing her the animal. for a nefarious creature who you thought was a criminal coming to invade your home, mira is quite docile.

"thanks for coming", you say after you've entered your home, locking your door out of habit, "sorry it was for nothing".

it's been five months since seungcheol was in your home. he's sitting on the couch, at the spot where he kissed you for the first time. the last time he took that seat, you were arguing - well, you were complaining and he was defending himself, confused out of his mind at your outbursts.

he had cancelled four dates in a row - four times when you had made time for him and he had to cancel because of last-minute changes in his schedule. it wouldn't bother you usually; you did know what you were signing up for by being an idol's partner - but the last occasion was one where you were going to tell him about a research grant you had received at work. the resentment from all the cancellations and rescheduling built up, and you had broken up with him when he came by that night, asking him not to contact you. he wanted to protest, wanted to give it time, wanted to talk it out - but you were relentless, done feeling like you were being taken for granted.

in the weeks that followed, it became quickly apparent to you how badly you had handled things - for one, that day was the first time you even mentioned your resentment to seungcheol. you used to just put on a smile and pretend it was fine, thinking that was the mature thing to do. it so wasn't.

you also realized just how much his presence affected your life. even when he was tired out of his mind, he would call you every night - checking up on you and asking about your day, always making sure to tell you how much he loved you. no matter how busy he was, he never failed to show up at your place when he could - even if it was just to hold you for a couple of hours while you slept.

so why haven't you reached out to him? why haven't you begged him to take you back, to tell him you realize how wrong you were?

pride. stupid, stupid pride.

pride that is quickly dissipating at the sight of seungcheol sitting in your living room. looking like home.

"that's okay", he shrugs, smiling slightly before adding, "i was in the neighborhood".

you both chuckle, exchanging a glance that says a thousand unsaid words.

apologize, your mind screams, say you still love him.

"well, i should be going", he stands, "nice meeting again".

"yeah", you nod, "same".

there's a moment of silence as the two of you look at each other, and you wonder if he's holding himself back too. your eyes wander to his twisting fingers - a nervous tick. you look up to see his eyes on your hands patting the side of your thighs - also a nervous tick. both of you chuckle.

"i'm sorry - "

"i was wrong - "

both of you pause, grinning nervously.

"you first", he offers.

"okay", you start, "i'm sorry for being a bitch when we broke up. no, let me finish", you caution when he opens his mouth to interrupt, "you didn't know what i was feeling, i just dumped it all on you and didn't give you a chance to respond. i'm sorry", you inhale, "i'm so sorry".

"no, it's not your fault", he shakes his head, "i should've seen it coming. there's only so many times you can blow someone off before they snap", he runs a hand through his hair, "i'm sorry. your time is important, i shouldn't have taken it for granted".

"you didn't take it for granted, though", you protest, "you understood when i had to cancel, too. i should've said -".

"and i shouldn't have been a dumbass about how i was making you feel", he interrupts, raising a finger when you open you mouth, "point is. we both fucked up. truce?"

"fine", you answer grudgingly, reluctantly matching his winning smile, "only because i hate arguing with you".

seungcheol's face twists into a reminiscent expression, his ringtone echoing through your living room before he can speak.

"it's jihoon", he says after looking at the screen, his expression apologetic, "i have to go. we're scheduled to - i -"

"i know", you offer a smile, "i get it, really. later?"

please say yes.

"later", he promises with a returning smile.

he walks past you to the door, unlocking it with experienced motions, murmuring a soft "bye" before turning to leave.

"wait", seungcheol turns around when he's two feet away from your threshold, "come over for ramen tomorrow? i promise i won't cancel this time".

a/n: hi i wrote a part 2

[nonsensical-pixels]

Luvly Llamas: A Llama-Themed CC Pack for The Sims 2!

Shortly before my original simblr went down, I was browsing through the debug mode of the Cottage Living pack and discovered a debug llama just chilling there. Simple enough to convert, right? But then I got dared to convert not just that, but pretty much every llama-themed object from the base game. Only that I went very off-track and ended up with a whole pack on my hands. So, yeah. Consider this a new simblr gift!

All in all, there are 15 items, mostly converted straight from TS4 or my own edits. But enough rambling. On with the post... at least under the cut!

Buy and Build Mode

First up: the sculptures! These are the original Debug Llama from Cottage Living in 3 different sizes; the Flying Llama and Ultimate Freezer Bunny Award that are unlockable objects; and the Llama Mama statue, accompanied by a smaller Llama Llama (yes, it's literally called just that) that I wanted. Because it's cute. Duh.

Everything is pretty high-poly. I think that the Flying Llama itself is 4k polys, but the real monster is the debug llamas. 7k polys. Yep, 7132 polys of debug sculptures. You have been warned!

Download 4t2 Llama Themed Sculptures - SFS | MF

Next, we have my self-proclaimed 'Lotsa Llama' paintings! These come on frames that I converted myself from the base game, so they don't require external meshes or whatever. Also, don't be fooled. The ivy will, in fact, intersect them when they're actually against the wall.

These use images from Freepik that I found from Freepik, and a few from creators on Pixabay ❤

Download 4t2 Llama Themed Paintings - SFS | MF

Lastly for the BB section, we have my personal favourite: the Lotta Llama Topiary, also from the base game! It can be found under the Shrubs section and is not seasonal, since I'm not too experienced with that just yet.

Download 4t2 Llama Topiary - SFS | MF

( @sims4t2bb )

CAS

IMO, this is the star of the whole show, and the conversion I'm most proud of. Introducing: my very first earrings conversion!

These are the EP11 (ignore the preview) 'Llama' earrings from the Cottage Living pack. They are available for young adults through elders, are found under the 'glasses' category, and are just under 1k polys. Compressed, tooltipped, and all useless ages removed!

Download 4t2 EP11 Llama Earrings - SFS | MF

Hood Decorations

Lastly, we have the very first conversions that I attempted for this pack. These are the debug llamas from the Cottage Living pack... as hood decorations! I found the idea of this way to charming, so I just had to try. So far, I'm really loving them!

Download 4t2 EP11 Debug Llamas as Hood Deco - SFS | MF

🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙🦙

If you're lazy like me, you can just

Download the entire Luvly Llamas Pack - SFS | MF

If there are any issues, please let me know! I playtested this as much as I could, but there are always mistakes at some point...

credits: the awesome members of the simscord for partially inspiring this, ea/maxis for the original meshes, the creators of the pics i used for the llama paintings (found on freepik and pixabay), the creators of sims4studio, mira/crystalvu for the accessory conversion tutorial, and anyone else i missed!

[abbatoirablaze]

The Avenger's Initiative, Chapter 5

Word Count:  3.5k

Warnings:  basement wife, abduction, dark Marvel, Dark! Bucky, manipulation, violence, mentions of broken bones, illegal drugs, being drugged, slight somnophilia mention, attempted seduction, dubcon. 

Sam’s POV

"I can't believe you did that," I groaned from my spot at the kitchen. Bucky gave me a sideways glance but didn't respond, "did you really have to drug her and beat the shit out of the other one?"

"I didn't beat the shit out of her."

"You gave the girl a black eye, and damn near broke her leg when she was running away from you," I replied, not wanting to hear the story again, "All you had to do was play it cool, enjoy your date, and probably end it getting some head so that she could go back.  Could have rubbed it in Steve’s face and gotten the girl, because you know he woulda backed off then. But no, what do you do, Sergeant dumbass, you go and drug the girl's wine and when the friend comes over you try to do the same to her. Party girls don't do drinks they can't see until they are plastered. Fucking idiot."

"Listen bird brain," he growled, stopping his duty of making breakfast for the girls. He poked my chest, "maybe you should have done your part and helped me subdue her instead of spending all your time with your girl…maybe if that little cunt was with her other friend, I wouldn’t have had to deal with her interrupting my time with my girl.”

"Yeah, well now my girl is in the basement in the holding area with two very freaked out ones," I yelled, poking him back, "how you think that's gonna fair for me? Hell, I could have convinced her to come to the city with me by New Years. Without the training...but no. Barnes just has to go and make shit difficult for everyone.  You fucked my relationship, Buck…thanks a lot bud!"

Bucky sucked in his cheeks and stared at me for a minute. When I didn't say anything else he licked his lips, "you done?"

"You fucked up, Buck," I growled, "and not just for you. This is on all three of us. Imagine how pissed Steve is gonna be when he comes back and finds out you decided to take these girls.  When he sees the girl he liked down there and she’s wondering why captain America let sergeant fuckhead do this shit to her."

"I don't care what Steve wants," he roared, "you think I give a fuck about how pissed he's gonna be? I had an opening. I made the call. Simple as that. If Steve is pissed off, oh well."

"Oh, he's gonna be pissed off," I replied, nodding my head. I grabbed one of the granola bars off the tray and he glared at me, "I'm taking this while I watch upstairs. You think you can handle a few girls?"

"I'll be fine," he growled, grabbing the tray and pushing away from me. He opened the basement door and I slammed it behind him, then made my way up to the watch room. Looking at the screens I felt like an asshole, seeing Brittany tied up with her two friends. I found myself reaching out to the screen even though I knew she couldn't see me.

Things were going so well with her.

She was feeling me for who I was.  Not because of this bullshit.  Not because of me being an Avenger.  She had gotten to know me in only a few days, and it flipped my world upside down.  She was my girl.  For sure.

But because of Bucky, I had to push those thoughts aside.  It killed the trust between the two of us, and for what?  Because he couldn’t wait.  I growled to myself as I glared at the other screens.

When Bucky got to the door, I pressed the unlock button and he went in. Brittany and Danielle looked at him through fearful eyes. Bucky's girl was looking at him through shocked ones.  While she'd tried to ask a million and one questions when we finished tying her up, it seemed like the situation still hadn't clicked in her head.

My eyes scanned the room.

"Why are you doing this?" Danielle asked. He glared at her and looked towards my girl and his girl. Bucky looked to Mira with emotionless eyes.

"Shit man," I whispered to myself, "I can't with this guy."

"You don't have to do this," she pleaded. Bucky looked away from her and licked his lips, “please…we’re people.  You can’t-

"I brought you girls breakfast and vitamins," he said in a gruff tone as he cut her off, "I'll be back later to get you so you can exercise."

"I'm not taking anything you give me, you psycho."

His nostrils flared as he glanced at Danielle. That's when I noticed Mira had untied herself from the rope. I pressed the button for the intercom "BUCK SHE'S OUT!"

But nothing came across. Pressing the button a few more times there was buzzing.

"F.R.I.D.A.Y, Notify Bucky to get out of the room."

"Sorry Mr. Wilson, all communication's signals have been jammed."

When I looked back up Bucky had been pushed to the ground and Mira was actively working her way towards the door. Launching myself up from my spot in the watch room I ran towards the stairs.

Fuck.

God damn it Bucky why'd you have to fuck with a smart woman.

Fuck.

I wretched open the basement door, not bothering to close it and raced towards the end of the hall. In a second, I had the door opened. Brittany and Danielle were looking at Bucky in complete and utter terror. He was reattaching his arm.

"Thanks for the warning," he groaned, rubbing his jaw with his flesh hand, "came in real good use."

"She blocked the communications," I replied, shaking my head, "I-I don't know how she-where is she?"

Bucky nodded off to his left, directly behind the door. She'd had numerous scrapes and scratches on her hands and legs. But what really caught me was the immediate swelling on her jaw and along the left side of her face.

"I knocked her out," he replied, "What else could I do?"

"Did you break her face?"

"Maybe," he shrugged. He looked at his girl and suddenly there wasn't the same emotions on his face. It was a look that he'd given to Danielle. Anger, "she shouldn't have tried to run."

"Is she dead?"

I looked over to the two other girls. My girl was looking at me like I was the one that had done this to her friend. I reached over to Mira's neck. She had a pulse. Without a word I picked her up and took her out of the room.

She needed medical attention.  I heard the door slamming behind me.

"Where are you taking her?"

"Upstairs," I growled, "to the watch room. Clearly you can't manage to keep an eye on your girl without beating the shit out of her."

I felt him grab my arm, stopping me from going up the stairs, "put her in a separate room. From the other girls. They probably encouraged her to do this. I can keep an eye on her when it’s just us…she just needs to be trained properly."

"When she wakes up, Buck, she's gonna be fucking terrified of you!" I scolded him.

"No, she won't," he said dismissively, "she needed to learn that you don't run. Lesson learned."

"How much you know about your girl man?" I asked.

"Sam-"

"Naw man," I growled at him, "how much you know about your girl? You know she's a virgin? You know that she's terrified of relationships to begin with because her ex used to beat the shit out of her? You know that she thought you were the first decent guy she's ever met?"

"How the hell do you know all this about her?"

"Brittany told me," I said quickly, feeling my rage build as I thought about how Bucky had yet again fucked the trust in my relationship by grabbing these girls, "the first night, Danielle made fun of her for being a virgin after you left. She also made some choice comments about her choices in men that beat the daylights out of her. The other night when you told us to make ourselves scarce upstairs, Brittany told me that she'd been texting Mira about you, and she was thinking she finally did something right. She thought you were a great guy...but no man. You're just beating the shit out of her like her exes did."

Bucky looked between me and Mira. His jaw was set and it ticked.

"What?" I asked, "You ain't got nothing to say now, do you?"

I saw his jaw twitch as I turned back towards the stairs.

"Tell-tell her I'm sorry."

"I ain't telling your girl shit, Buck," I growled, carrying her up the stairs, "just stay the fuck away from her til she's healed, and Steve gets back." 

Dani’s POV

"She didn't come back, so I'm guessing she's spending the night here?"

Bucky smiled at me. He licked his lips, staring me up and down, and I smiled. "She uh-she's in the living room. She got drunk and passed out before we even had dinner."

"She was really nervous," I laughed as he led me through the house. As we passed the kitchen, I smelled something really good and my stomach growled.

"You hungry?"

"I'll eat when I get home," I smiled softly. He chuckled, but led me into the kitchen, "I wouldn't mind some wine though. If you're offering."

"You know...you're a lot nicer when your other friends aren't around."

"I wanted to check on her," she shrugged, "it's the least I could do."

I eyed up the food he'd prepared that was cooling on the stove. "It's ossobuco."

"Looks good."

"Yeah," he laughed. He reached across the counter and opened the bottle of wine. He took his time pouring the two glasses, "kind of sad I couldn't impress anyone with my cooking skills tonight."

"I'm sure you'll get another chance," I smiled. I took a few steps closer, "you know she's attracted to you."

"Well, what if I like someone that can hold their alcohol a bit more?" he asked, turning to me, handing me the wine glass, "you think she could learn to do that?"

"Are you saying you aren't planning on asking her out again?"

"Maybe," he shrugged, sending me a devious smile. He leaned up against the counter as he took a drink from his wine glass, "know of anyone that's looking to date a superhero?"

My eyes flicked up to his and I bit my bottom lip, "I could think of someone."

"Yeah?"

I nodded, putting my wine glass down. He copied my actions as I leaned in closer, "yeah."

He chuckled to himself and picked his wine glass up, taking another drink.

"You're dangerous for me," he admitted with a sigh, "shouldn't be tempting me like this."

I giggled, following him through the house. Finally, we landed on the study, directly across the hall from the living room. Taking a small sip, I noticed there was some weird residue settling on the top of my drink.

Deciding not to drink anymore, I placed it on a desk.

"Don't like it?" he asked.

"I think I want something a little stronger," I said with a wink. He looked at me, almost trying to decide if I was tricking him or not before he wrapped an arm around my waist, "think you got what it takes, soldier?"

"Oh, I know I do," he smirked, pressing our lips together. I could taste the sweetness of the wine from his lips, and that's when I knew something was messed up. My wine hadn't tasted that sweet. As his tongue guided itself along my lower lip, I pulled away. "Everything okay, doll?"

"I'm sorry," I muttered, pulling myself out of his grip. I gave him the most innocent expression I could muster, "Mira...she likes you...I shouldn't...oh god."

"Hey, hey, hey," he said in a calming tone as he pulled me back to his chest, "it's okay. I'm sure she'd understand if we talked to her."

"I-I can't," I lied, "I've been such a bad friend to her...I just-"

"It's fine," he sighed. He pursed his lips and let me out of his grasp, "If you want to put the wine glasses back in the kitchen, I'll wake her up and you can take her home."

"Thank you," I sighed, softly touching his chest. He smiled at me, and I made my way to the kitchen to put down his wine glasses. When I went back down the hall and to the living room what I saw made me sick.

He was hovering over her. One hand lightly pressed to her neck, while his right was beneath the skirt of her dress. He hadn't heard me sneaking up on them since his face was right next to her mouth, her wanton moans meeting his ears first.

"What are you doing to her, you pervert!"

"This isn't what it looks like," he said nervously, backing away from Mira. He held his hands up in the air as if he were claiming some false innocence. I put my wine down, not bothering to listen to him try and charm me anymore "I swear. She just had too much wine. She fell asleep."

"So you're hovering over her like some sicko?"

"I'm not some sicko," he growled, taking a step towards me. I pulled the pepper spray out of my bag and held it out at arms length. He laughed, "I'm a super soldier, doll. You really think some pepper spray is going to slow me down?"

"I don't know," I gulped, "but it's worth a try."

He watched as I stepped back, and there was a smirk playing across his lips, "you really think you can get to the door and to someone that can hear you before I get to you?"

I felt nervous. My legs began to shake, "just stay away from me."

"What?" he chuckled, taking another step forward, "you don't care about your friend anymore? What a selfish bitch."

"You can go straight to hell," I growled. I pressed down on the button, releasing the pepper spray right at him. He hissed for a second, hunching over, and I took that as my opportunity to run.

"You little bitch," he seethed. I didn't dare look back as I rounded the corner into the hallway. But I didn't need to. Suddenly, he rounded the corner in front of me, and before I knew it, I was being slammed into the hallway. I dropped my purse and pepper spray as he slammed my face against the wall, "you think you can just do whatever you want? You think you can burst into someone's house and assume that they're taking advantage of someone? Then shoot them with pepper spray? What if I was a nice guy, huh?"

I felt his hand tighten on the hair on the nape of my neck as he pulled me back. My neck bared to him at a painful angle. My nose burned at the smell of the pepper spray, and I wasn't sure if it was from that or the angle of my neck, but it drew tears to my eyes.

"ANSWER ME!"

"I-I don't know."

"Don't worry, you'll know soon enough doll."

XX

"You don't understand," I cried, "they're a bunch of fucking psychos."

"No," Mira said, not wanting to believe me, "Brittany, tell her that she's wrong. Sam's been treating you right...right?"

"Yeah," she nodded, agreeing with Mira. Then she began shaking her head, "it has to be Bucky. He was a weapon for HYDRA before...right? Maybe he's gone off the deep end and Sam doesn't know how to stop him."

"I have to talk to Steve," Mira said nervously, "F.R.I.D.A.Y. Override code: Cap. Charlie. Alpha. Papa."

"Voice unrecognized," the AI replied, "should I contact Mr. Rogers as his override code is used?"

"YES!" she said quickly. Brittany and I looked around the room trying to figure out what was going on, "F.R.I.D.A.Y. Look up dated logs from override code: Cap. Use voice recognition for this voice to train."

"Voice recognition verified," the AI replied after a moment, "what are your needs 'Bunny.' "

Only the word 'Bunny' was said in Steve's voice.

"What the hell did you do?" I asked.

"Last week Steve had me pull a prank on the guys before he left," she admitted, "he put me into F.R.I.D.A.Y's system so she'd recognize me."

"So, you can tap into the house!" Brittany asked. She nodded, "where's Sam?"

"It doesn't work like that," she sighed, shaking her head, "F.R.I.D.A.Y?"

"Yes 'Bunny.' What is it that you require?"

"Emergency contact Steve Rogers. S.O.S to basement location," she said quickly, looking to the door, "Sam and Bucky AWOL. Hotel. Echo. Lima. Papa. Spam all of his communication networks ASAP, then backtrack and jam all form of communications within the house, then strike all requests from logs."

"Password."

"Bravo. Uniform. November."

"Password accepted!"

The house went silent, and I looked at Brittany and Mira, "did it work?"

"I-I don't know," she admitted, "but we can't just sit here and wait to find out, can we?"

"What can we do?"

"We have to make a plan to get out off here," she said quickly, "I-I don't know what time of day it is...or when it is. They haven't brought us food yet, so it has to be under two days...right?"

"He took you guys’ last night," Brittany admitted, "He made Sam put me down here with you guys after he tied you up."

"We were both out cold?"

Brittany nodded, "yeah."

Mira smiled.

"Why are you smiling? Some psycho has us tied up in his basement," I cried, "why are you happy?"

"If we were knocked out, chances are he didn't worry about how tight the knots were," she smiled. She began to maneuver herself so that her arms were behind her instead of in front of her, "Britt. I can't turn around, but I can feel pipes with my back. Where is the next seam?"

"Seam?"

"An edge!"

"Two inches over towards me," I smiled. She sent me a smile then moved her back towards the wall, just as Bucky came in. He had a tray in his hands, and he put it between the three of us.

"What happened to your hands?"

"I don't know," she said angrily towards him, "I woke up like this."

"Why are you doing this to us?" I asked, trying to change the subject. He glared at me for a second, not bothering to give me a response. But it was enough time for Mira to shrink away from him. He noticed that and his eyes went from Brittany to her.

"You don't have to do this," Mira pleaded, shrinking back against the wall again. Bucky looked away form her and focused his eyes on me. He licked his lips.

"I brought you girls breakfast and vitamins," he growled, "I'll be back later to get you so you can exercise."

"I can't eat by myself," Mira said nervously. She made a gesture to move, but it looked like she couldn't. Bucky sighed as he picked up a granola bar and started unwrapping it.

"I'm not taking anything you give me, you psycho," I spat at him. His nostrils flared and he looked at me with anger in his eyes. I didn't dare break eye contact as Mira pushed herself towards him. Looking at the ropes I could see that they had been cut open. The seam had a few bits of it entwined in it still.

Mira launching herself at him was enough to push him to the ground, and stun him for a second, but not enough time. He grabbed her leg as she went to scramble away, pulling her back to the ground. As he flipped her around and tried to get on top of her, she began screaming and kicking at him. He pulled her up into his arms and she began pushing and slapping on his left arm in some weird combination.

With a small glow that went through his arm, it went black, and fell off. He looked at her in shock as she picked it up and swung as hard as she could with it. Dropping the arm, she ran to the door.

"MIRA!"

But we couldn't warn her quick enough.

Bucky had grabbed her and threw her to the side of the door. And then in one fail swoop he scooped up his arm and whipped her across the face with it.

The sickening crack that followed made me nauseated as she fell to the floor. Then Sam burst into the room. He looked between Bucky, Brittany, and myself. Then he saw Mira behind the door, her jaw already turning purple and swelling.

"What the hell did you do?"

"I knocked her out," he replied, "What else could I do?"

"Did you break her face?"

"Maybe," he shrugged. He looked down at her and there was a snarl across his face, "she shouldn't have tried to run."

"Is she dead?"

Bucky looked at me as Sam carried her out of the room.  

Chapter 6

[wikluk]

conversationalist—Mira, pre/during-movie ranting about not having a Gift, feeling useless, and genuinely being alright with that :)

Have Isa be the one to take care of her, and her for once being thrown off-guard at her sister's blatant thoughts of herself :D (no villainising, I swear, just caught off guard angst/(twisted??)humour)

(sorry... it spiralled out of control a little. I hope you enjoy it anyway :P)

conversationalist: [character] rambles in their sick state.   

it's hard to stay true

Mirabel woke up to the feeling of someone shaking her shoulder. "Stop," she mumbled. "I wanna sleep."

"No sleeping," replied a flat voice. "I have your medicine from mamá. Get up."

Mirabel opened her eyes, blinking in confusion. "Isa?"

"Of course it's me," Isabela huffed, brushing her hair away from her face and reaching with her hand towards a bedtable. "Who were you expecting, el Mohán?"

"What are you doing here? Where's mamá?"

"Mamá's busy."

"Papá?"

"He's helping tío Félix."

"Luisa–"

Isabela shot her a sharp look, a mug with something steaming held between her hands. "Nobody's here but me. Is there something wrong with it?"

Mirabel didn't answer. Having Isabela near, when Mirabel felt so weak and vulnerable, wasn't the best thing ever but she suspected it was better than having Abuela hover over her. At least Mirabel and Isabela talked sometimes, and as Antonio's gift ceremony was getting closer, Abuela seemed even more distant than ever, barely acknowledging Mirabel's presence most often.

So Mirabel really wasn't going to complain. It was fine. Isabela was her older sister, after all.

"Like the old times, hmm?" she mumbled while sitting up.

Isabela gave her a look as she handed her a mug. "What exactly?"

"You here, taking care of me," Mirabel shrugged, taking a sip. She couldn't recognise the taste or the smell, her nose was stuffy and her taste buds were probably not functioning as well at the moment, so she could only rely on her eyes, which wasn't possible now as well, since her glasses remained on the bed table and without them... She was quite helpless. "Like the old times," she repeated, inhaling the steamy mixture in hopes to unlock her nose a little. "When we were still kids and sisters, you know."

Isabela was silent.

Mirabel continued. "Isn't it weird?"

Once again, Isabela didn't say a word.

"We were once so close," Mirabel mumbled, taking another sip. "Hermanas, best amigas, I loved your flower crowns and our sleepovers with Lu were my favourite time. Don't tell Milo that," she added quickly, shooting Isabela, what she thought, was a stern look. "He'd never let it go."

"Sure."

Mirabel sipped on her tea (because she thought it might have been tea, though with her mamá... nothing was sure) and as the warmth spread all over her body, filling her every fibre, a pleasant feeling turned into an uncomfortable overbearing heat. She put the cup down on the bed table and laid back down, wincing.

There was a rustle of material. "Okay, so–"

"You know, I didn't mean to not get a gift."

"What?" Isabela sounded... weird.

Mirabel furrowed her eyebrows, staring at the ceiling. "I never meant to not get a gift. I wanted to be blessed as you all were. Sometimes, I still want a gift but aside from that, I'm okay. I accepted that I'm giftless and I'm fine with that, I really am," she coughed, massaging her chest with her hand. "But sometimes I wonder if things would be different if my door stayed where it was."

"Come on," Isabela replied sharply. "There's no point in thinking about it ten years later. Don't you have better things to worry about?"

"I'm not worried about it," Mirabel looked at her, confused. "Why would I be?"

There was a tilt of the head and Isabela crossed her arms over her chest. "You sound worried to me."

"I'm not."

"I don't believe you."

"You don't have to," Mirabel chuckled bitterly. "I'm telling the truth."

A scoff. "Of course."

Another short pause.

"Don't you have to be somewhere else?" Mirabel's voice cracked a little and she cleared her throat. "In town... Making flowers... Being useful in Abuela's eyes?"

"I was tasked with bringing you that tea," she replied simply.

"Yeah, and you did it."

"Yeah."

Another silence.

A deep breath. "I need to go," Isabela announced, her dress rustling with her movements. "Flower business."

"Gift business. Nothing I'm knowledgeable about."

"Mirabel..."

"Yeah?"

"Go to sleep, mamá will check on you before dinner."

Mirabel hummed, closing her eyes. "Gracias Isa," she whispered and Isabela stopped at the door. "For tea."

Isabela glanced over her shoulder. "De nada... Mira."

And with that, the oldest Madrigal grandchild left the room. And Mirabel stayed in her bed, still sick, her eyes slowly closing, her eyelids getting heavier.

She suspected the next time she woke up, it would be Luisa or her mamá next to her bed instead. And it was fine. It really was.

[larentsaloud]

episode 12 thoughts

MOMMY IS MAD

sorry I was indisposed mentally yesterday. I have regained some mental stability so I am ready to talk about the show. buckle up I am about to go wild.

the episode opens where we left off, and as predicted Gorya remembers the reason why she can't be the official girlfriend, hello? Lita exists. our Lil Tiger forgot, though, which is equally funny and also concerning. did he not beg her to become his few episodes ago?boi is that amnesia setting in early? LOL. they have a cute moment of holding hands and Gorya admitting his puppy eyes are getting to her.

yeah. welcome to the club gurl. we have all been screaming! finally she is struggling to restrain herself. they stumble their way to the bed, which is kind of cute, when the BEST monologue occurs, Thyme uses the words virginity, foreplay and conception in one sentence and abuses the language to the point where he appears to be a sexual predator. lord I wish I knew Thai because I bet it was epic monologue that we missed out massive jokes in. nevertheless, Gorya wrestles him, breaks a vase all that jazz and auntie maid roots for Gorya in the Lita x Thyme showdown and crowns our queen Thyme's personal maid. applause ma'am well played.

things I loved:

the dynamic between auntie maid and Gorya, how Gorya was basically prepped for inhabiting the house and married life indirectly by learning the workings of the domestic side and how she was being indoctrinated to the household. the bridal vibes it gave me. trust me on this!

Kavin x Kanning story mirroring Ren x Gorya x Mira dynamic.

MJ x Ren visiting the house while Gorya is in her little maid outfit and MJ sitting next to Thyme on the sofa. y'all the bisexual energy radiating from MJ. OUCHIE.

Ren blushing at the supermarket. hard swoon.

THE FUCKING GARLAND IS BEAUTIFUL. new obsession unlocked.

Lita's scene with Thyme and her parents and Thyme

some symbolism:

the outfit Thyme wore to meet Lita's parents it reminded me of 'have your back covered' or when you say 'I've got your back' and Lita truly had his back in the fight. she was dressed in what appeared like a combat bulletproof vest. she was wearing armour, she was the one protecting him! amazing costume choice.

the maid plot she gets to see him in his natural habitat, he finally loses the air of mystery, is no longer a mythical enemy, friend or lost lover she never had. he becomes a real person and I think the maid arc sort of allows that to happen. she sees his life behind the scenes, develops trusts and understanding. Gorya also discovers the shirt her was wearing, and it is unwashed, he left it dirty, which is HUGE. imagine Thyme's state of mind when it happened. he was just humiliated in front of everyone, but despite that, he ket it, preserved her footprint, because it signified disruption, point of no return. a seismic shift. it's like he already knew her importance. if those little things don't seal the deal, then I don't know what else. her seeing him half undressed and all cute with his cat. all of those moments matter to her seeing him through a new lens and falling for him deeper, now that he has become worthy of her.

the fall / the fighting mirroring how Lita met Thyme and Gorya both of their interactions with Lita ended as they started and have thus complete a full orbit, circle whatever you call it.

things I am mad about:

1. no kiss between Gorya & Thyme *

2. whatever the fuck that kiss was between 2K

3. the MJ kfc ad... sigh

*as I have mentioned already, I know why it could not happen, I explained that in my preamble to this post.

now for the unhinged part...

so I was wondering why

they decided to lock them in the car,

why both MJ and Thyme are wearing chain bracelets,

why did Kavin carry Gorya to the car same way as he carried Gorya for Thyme's birthday.

Kavin was giving out kisses...

this show loves to mirror to show the development. it made sense to end Lita arc how it began, which tallies with carrying Gorya (thanks Kavin for being my favourite boi with MJ). also made sense to add Thyme as all tied up, because the restraint was constructed through Lita, with her gone, there is no reason to hold back. or is there?

well. I wondered about the car a lot. but like it got me thinking about how most of their previous reunions have happened through abductions, she was kidnaped twice and tied up to Thyme's house LOL, and it was his turn to be tied up. Also, in terms of privacy the car is literally the only option I guess.

plus it can signify beginning of a journey. like our ship finally sailing.

further to this...

I am still thinking about the bracelet MJ and Thyme shared and hmm. I am wondering. but I don't have anything sold, so I'll be back.

as for Kavin dispensing those kisses to customers. I think it demonstrates how easy it is for him to give physical kisses, but his heart - not so much.

overall. this episode had me hooked, I was on a cusp of tears and then cried when I saw Lita surrender. this was very much done out of not wanting to lose face. this was not a simple act of love, she plays the game until the end. she doesn't want to face Gorya, she sends her a video. I will fight you all on this, Lita decided to give-up Thyme, because she realised she lost him to Gorya and the only way she could release him was to be the one to break the engagement. everyone could see she was acting, putting on a show. she has earned Thyme's respect, and yes all the reasons she listed as the ones for not loving him, were the reasons why she loved him, but this version Thyme 2.0 was all credits to Gorya.

I am little disappointed how short the series are, as there is so much I would have loved to see them do, I believe they could even do the romance justice if they aired for more episodes.

people are saying things like 'oh I don't mind the lack of romance because there is so much symbolism'. bitch. this is romance drama. the metaphors are hallmark of quality of writing. we do not settle for crumbs in my household. we don't settle for GMMTV selling godamn cookies and necklaces.

listen.

I know Tu is pissed off. you go and watch her live. when she threw the necklace around before it went on sale? you all did not see hoe fake her acting was? are YOU BLIND?

are you??? because she is an amazing actress but the way she acted FAKE AF when it comes to the necklace during her live. please. wake up.

you think they don't see us get mad at GMMTV?

they saw the blind theory, she mentioned it for a reason.

they post behind the scenes images BETTER than we get from GMMTV.

sooo, before you go and call me crazy, delusional, or think I am making a big deal out of this for nothing.

I SEE THROUGH THIS BULLSHIT. OK?

you are welcome.

now shoo. as you were.

this weeks highlights

Lita x Thyme break up x

Preamble to episode 12 x