#but i didn't bc midterms 💀

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[beamtori]

𝟓-𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰

nonidol!jacob bae x afab!reader

you've heard plenty of things about certified campus crush jacob bae, but when you finally meet him, you decide to find out if the rumors are true.

6.0k words (ITS ONLY THIS LONG BC OF THE PLOT), strangers 2 lovers, tutor!jacob, mentions of physics (yuck), swearing (not from jacob 💀), SMUT (minors dni), penetrative sex, oral sex (f.receiving)/face riding (m.receiving), cum eating, fingering, kind of sweet..., kissing, this was kind of tame ngl, pet names (smart girl, angel, baby, beautiful), barely proofread i am up past my bedtime 🤣

a/n: there is hope for me yet o7 @winterchimez here's the thing 💀, @zzoguri @snowflakewhispers to the jacob stans...

“OH MY GOD, YN!”

Your friend Ronnie's voice drew you out of your bubble, and you ripped the earbud out from your ear without looking up from your laptop screen. “Yeah, babe.”

“Jacob Bae just walked in—” Her hushed squealing was paired by an insistent tapping on your arm from across the table inside the café.

You made a face, taking the other earbud out. “Who?”

Ronnie's face flattened into incredulity. “The guy I have literally been talking your ear off about for the past month.”

Jacob… Jacob Bae… ah, Jacob. The name echoed something familiar in your near-empty noggin. Sometimes names just didn't stick when you were busy with other things like the torque and force mechanics you were trying to nail for your physics midterm in two weeks. “Oh right.”

“Damn,” she swore, twisting over her shoulder toward the entrance. She turned back to face you with a pout. “He just left.”

“He didn't get anything?”

“No,” Ronnie sighed. She twirled her pen around between her fingers, then tapped the top edge of your laptop screen. That was what pulled your eyes away from it. “I feel like I haven't seen your eyes in the last ninety minutes, Yn.”

You huffed a laugh, scribbling a note on your scratch notepad about how you performed the last exercise incorrectly. Just like the last one. “We are here to study, Ron.”

Ronnie gave a small smile, but the edges were down turned. “Yeah, I know we said that, but it was kind of an excuse for me to get you out of your apartment.”

“I go out of my apartment,” you protested.

Her eyebrow lifted as she reached for her iced coffee. “Besides for food or class.”

You opened your mouth, then snapped it closed after giving it more than a moment's thought. “Listen,” you ended up with as a response.

Ronnie snorted. “See? I haven't hung out with you ever since your last physics midterm, Yn. It's normal to worry about your friends, you know?” She nudged you teasingly from across the table.

You finally set your pen down to massage the pulsing headache beginning to form between your eyes. You wrinkled your nose up. “I guess you're right.”

“I know I am,” she mused. “Hey, if physics is overwhelming you, then you should totally go check out their tutoring center. I'm sure they have one.”

Your shoulders immediately slumped. Just the thought of the physics student center sent a queasy churn to your stomach. It wasn't that the people there weren't nice, it was just the fact that you hadn't had the best track record with tutors. No matter how hard they tried, no matter what method was used, you could never seem to get it down. Most of the time, you just forced yourself to buckle down until some miracle got you to get the correct answer. (Awful learning strategy, but you would take luck over skill at this point. Your GPA needed the luck.)

“You're probably right,” was what you said to her anyway. You knew she was just trying to help.

Shaking the negative thoughts away, you lowered your laptop screen to swap your pen for your untouched beverage. “Tell me about this Jacob guy again. How do you know him?”

Ronnie's eyes lit up, and you found yourself slowly relaxing again. “I'm pretty sure he's everybody's campus crush or something. Every time I bring him up with my other girl friends, they also seem to know about him? Which is crazy.”

You nodded. “Yeah, this is a pretty big uni.”

“Right? But—” Ronnie groaned, slumping back in her seat. “He's so hot, Yn-ie. I swear to god, his smile makes my fucking panties melt.”

You nearly snorted your drink up and out of your nose, and your friend slapped a hand over her mouth when you realized she said that out loud. “Please,” you wheezed, swiping your thumb at the corner of your lips. “So he's that attractive? Is he a good guy though? Like does his physical traits overcompensate for a… uh, an awful personality or something?”

“That's the best part—”

Your eyes narrowed. “No way.”

“He's literally the nicest person on Planet Earth, I swear to god, Yn.”

“You've talked to him?”

She paused. “No…”

You sent her a pointed look. “Then you can't say that unless you've talked to him, Ronnie. That's just how it works.”

Ronnie pursed her lips, gesturing vaguely with her hands. “It's just something you have to trust me on! Everybody knows he's super cool and handsome and just a top notch, cream-of-the-crop—”

“Not me,” you pointed out with a laugh.

“That's because your head is where your calculator is.”

You gasped, pressing your beloved scientific calculator to your chest as if hiding it from your friend's words. “You take that back! She's been more loyal than any man, thank you very much.”

Ronnie rolled her eyes. “Okay, that's probably true, but Jacob's gotten five-star reviews from everybody!”

“On what account?” You scoffed.

“You just have to trust me,” Ronnie repeated, emphasizing her words with a cheeky smile.

Your face contorted into one that clearly gave away your disbelief. “Okay, sure.”

Despite your reluctance to go in the first place, you found yourself walking down the hallway of the physics department building toward the student center. There were usually TA office hours held here throughout the week, and a couple of the physics professors even came here to hold their own help sessions, but the hour you chose was none of those. Frankly, you had zero faith you were going to be able to learn this from someone else successfully; there was just something weird about how your brain worked.

Nonetheless, you were desperate.

The room was rather bustling when you arrived with nearly all of the group tables filled up with students helping each other work through the problems. Anxiety settled in your gut like a parasite, and you meandered toward the side of the room where there was an open single desk. Maybe if you just sat here and worked on your problems by yourself, you could technically still say you came to the student center like a coward.

With a sigh, you began pulling your materials out from your bag to get to work. Immediately, you realized that you had last stopped working on an awful problem you didn't even know how to start.

“Hi!”

You startled, head whipping upward fast enough to give you whiplash. Heat swarmed up to your neck and ears.

There was a guy standing in front of you with a boyish smile and wearing a deep purple Laker's hoodie. With a sweater paw, he gave a wave, repeating his greeting. “Hi, I'm sorry I snuck up on you. I was wondering if I could be of any assistance?”

The way his dark brown hair curled over his forehead and the way his molten brown eyes shone so warmly in the fluorescent lights was throwing you off your mark. And that was only when you weren't already stunned by the absolute beautiful smile adorning his—you snapped out of it.

A sheepish smile wormed its way onto your face, and you cupped the back of your neck. “Oh, that's okay, I tend to get kind of oblivious with my surroundings,” you laughed nervously. Why was the way he looked at you making you so clumsy with your words? “Uhm, I guess maybe? I've kind of been stuck on this torque problem for a while.”

You swallowed, spinning your laptop around to show him the practice problem on the screen. His eyes skimmed over the words, tongue jamming into the side of his cheek.

“Oh, I see,” he said kindly. “This problem is notoriously awful, but I have a trick for getting through these ones if you'd like.”

“Oh, really?” You couldn't help the hopeful tilt in pitch at the end of your question, and you watched him drag over a spare chair to sit adjacent to you.

He settled next to you, his knees knocking against yours, and you both blurted out apologies to each other. “Sorry,” he murmured. “May I?” He gestured to your writing utensil and notepad.

“Yeah, of course.”

He twirled the pen between his fingers. “Ooh, these ones are nice to write with. Super smooth.”

You nodded. “Yeah, for sure! They also last really long, too.”

There was an interesting gleam in his eyes as he peered over at you. “That's also true.” He shook his head, a sheepish chuckle falling from his mouth. “I'm sorry, I just realized I completely butted into your study session, and didn't even introduce myself.”

You couldn't help the small flutter in your chest. Oh, the bare minimum of chivalry, and yet, here you were feeling so woozy from it. “It's no worries,” you assured him, “I really would have just stared at this thing before giving up, so.”

He brushed a hand through his hair. “I totally get that. Physics isn't for the faint of heart, so you're already doing great by coming here for help in the first place. I'm Jacob, by the way.” He accompanied the latter with an outstretched hand toward yours.

You licked your lips, managing a small smile and clasping his hand in a shake. “Nice to meet you, Jacob—” That name sounded familiar, “—I’m Yn.”

But there were probably hundreds of Jacobs who went to this school. There was no way that the one time you happened to come to the student help center, the Jacob Bae that Ronnie gushed to you about just happened to be the guy to help you.

It was ridiculous.

“Yn,” he repeated, as if trying the way your name tasted on his tongue. “Nice to meet you, too,” he beamed. You realized how your heart stuttered every time he smiled.

His eye contact lingered, and then he cleared his throat. “Sorry, shall we?” He motioned to the problem, and you nodded eagerly.

“Yeah, let's do it,” you said. You subtly brought your hand up against your cheek and felt your skin. It definitely was hot to the touch; why did this guy have to be so attractive? If you weren't going to learn anything because of your weird learning quirk, you weren't going to learn jackshit because the man teaching you was just that distracting.

It turned out miracles did exist.

“You would not believe what happened to me this afternoon.”

You paced about the bedroom in your apartment with your phone on speaker and broadcasting Ronnie's voice. You had just gotten home from the physics student center, your heart rate still over the speed limit and your skin warm. There was a giddiness and adrenaline making your fingers twitch, and frankly, you couldn't sit down for this.

“Why? What happened?” Your friend asked in earnest.

You massaged your lips together. “Okay, you know the other day when you were telling me about that Jacob Bae guy?”

You could hear the excitement creeping into her voice. “Yes…”

“Do you know what his major is?”

“I'm pretty sure it's physics...”

You had to stop and slap your hands to your face. The sound was loud enough for Ronnie to hear on the other side, and she began barking out the standard “What happened? What happened? Tell me what happened!”

“Okay, so I went to the physics student center to try and get help, right?” When you heard Ronnie's hum of acknowledgment, you continued on, “And there's this one problem I've been stuck on for an illegal amount of time. And this guy comes up to me and asks if he can help me, and Ronnie—Ronnie, he was so—”

“Hot! Panty-meltingly attractive?”

You nearly bursted into laughter at how ridiculous all of this sounded. “He was just so cute. Like fine-cute. And he actually helped me, dude. You know my weird schtick about people teaching me—”

“Oh my gosh, for real? He was actually able to help you out?”

You flopped onto your bed, grinning at the ceiling in pure relief and accomplishment. “Yes! If he's the Jacob Bae you were talking about…” You sighed, shaking your head, “He gets my stamp of approval.”

Rather than coming back to your apartment defeated as you thought you would, you left with a newfound confidence in your abilities to understand physics, new tips and tricks from Jacob, and… you were probably going to frame the little “You did well today, Yn! Super lovely meeting you. x, Jacob” note he left for you in the corner of one of the notepad leaflets. It was his faith in you and unrelenting patience that got you through your practice problems today.

Maybe you weren't a lost cause after all? Crazy.

“I told you!” Ronnie exclaimed.

You drew an arm over your eyes. “Yeah, yeah. Gloat all you want.” You were still proud of yourself, and way too satisfied with how the day went.

“Well, hello hello,” Jacob chuckled as he sidled up by your desk with a white lollipop stick hanging out from his lips. His eyes were crinkled in amusement as he peered down at you with his hands shoved into his pockets, hair tucked beneath a black baseball cap.

“Hey,” you chirped. “How're you?”

He smiled around the sweet in his mouth, stepping over to drag a chair beside you as he always did. It had been about a week since you first met him, and you had yet to fail to come to the tutoring center once. “I'm great. How about you? Ready for the exam tomorrow?”

Your hand met your forehead, and your expression coaxed a chuckle from him. “I definitely feel more prepared than a week ago, but it's still nerve-racking. The horror stories I've heard, Cobie…”

Something appeared in your view. You blinked, surprised, when you realized Jacob was holding out a little lollipop in front of you bundled in a standard paper wrapper.

“Encouragement,” he said simply, giggling at your doe-eyed expression.

You broke out into a smile and accepted the lollipop from him, eagerly twisting the wrapper off to pop the treat into your mouth. “Thanks, man.”

“Yeah, no worries. I had extras and thought you might need the extra boost.”

“That's really sweet of you,” you said in earnest. “I haven't had a lollipop in forever.” Your lips pursed around the head as you took the strawberry flavored pop out of your mouth to look at the glistening surface in the tutoring center lights.

You licked your lips of the juices, not catching how his eyes darted to watch you do so.

He cleared his throat, shifting his lollipop from one cheek to the other. “So, what did you wanna go over today?”

It had been a little over a week since you first met Jacob and came under his tutelage. It seemed the chemistry-turned-physics major always happened to be free to cater to your needs every time you walked in for help. Everything Ronnie had told you that day in the café had been true—not only was Jacob an absolute stud, he was also a perfect angel. You couldn't believe such a divine human being even existed, let alone continued to find your company amusing enough to still tutor you one on one without payment.

(And you couldn't believe you were even able to focus around him. There were always gentle brushes of his hand against yours, lingering glances that made your neck heat, and the like. Your heart cartwheeled in your chest with more agility and frequency than your physical body could.)

By the time the physics midterm exam rolled around, you were feeling much more prepared for the material you would be tested on. The exam flew by in the blink of an eye, and before you knew it, you were breaking out of the examination hall and into the cool autumn evening. Your stomach growled as you wandered down the street toward the university district to find dinner.

Adrenaline still pumped through your veins from the exam, but your mood was substantially higher than it was after the first exam.

You stood outside one of the ramen shops in the district, head cocked to the side as you contemplated the menu plastered on one of the windows.

“Yn?”

You broke out from your food-searching daze, your lips pulling into a smile as you greeted Jacob coming down the sidewalk toward you. “Hey, Cobie. What's good?”

Jacob grinned as he sidled up beside you, one of his hands carding through his hair before sticking itself back into the pocket of his dark bomber jacket. “I'm just looking for dinner," he chuckled. “Did you just come from the exam?”

“I did,” you confirmed with a bob of your head.

“And? How'd it go?”

Your smile widened, and you ducked your head for a second. “I think it went pretty alright,” you admitted. “I don't wanna jinx myself though. But I think I do deserve a reward for making it through, don't you think?”

Jacob nodded. “Oh, for sure. You've been so good for m—I mean,” he coughed, amending his words, “You've worked really hard these past couple weeks and so it deserves a little celebration. Are you… are you here with anyone?”

“Definitely not,” you winced sheepishly, “since I just got out of the exam and all—I don't usually make plans right after tests.”

“I see; I get that.” He rubbed the back of his head, tongue ghosting over his bottom lip. “Well, I'm not really here with anyone either. Would you mind some company?”

You met his eyes and your heart did the little hop-n-skip it always did when you made eye contact with him. “Yeah, I'd love some company, actually. I'd love to repay you for all the help you've given me recently.”

He chuckled, swinging the door to the shop open for you. “Trust me, it was my pleasure, Yn.”

If there was one thing you knew for sure, Jacob was a gentleman through and through. If chivalry was dead, then Jacob Bae was dead—okay, maybe that was a little morbid to think about on your way home, especially when the man in question walked right beside you, hands tucked into his jacket pockets with a wistful little smile on his face.

Dinner had gone splendidly—except for the fact he had a feeling you would want to pay for his meal and subtly slipped the waiter his card before you could. The cherry on top was his offer to walk you home—only if you were comfortable—and though you knew that definitely wouldn't even on the ledger, you accepted his offer. More time with him? Yes, please.

“This is my building here,” you murmured, worrying your bottom lip between your teeth as reluctance for this evening to end worked its way up your throat. You inclined your chin to the apartment complex coming up just a few hundred feet ahead.

“Ah,” he said under his breath.

The two of you stopped in front of the entrance to the lobby, facing one another. “Thanks for dinner,” you said for what seemed like the fifth night.

He beamed. “Anytime, Yn. I loved hanging out with you.”

If you wore a heart rate monitor, it probably would have been screaming at you right about now. “Uhm… would you… like to continue hanging out with me? I mean, like, coming up?” You nudged your thumb behind you in the direction of the doors. Was that too forward of you?

His eyes widened a smidge, and his smile softened at the corners. “I'd love to.”

A giddy sort of feeling bubbled up in your chest as you and he shared wide grins, and you led him up to your apartment. Your hands shook slightly as you arrived at your door, your keys jingling against one another as you sorted through them for the right one.

“I wasn't expecting company, so I hope you don't mind the mess,” you laughed nervously, fingers pinching the right key to insert into the lock.

He gave a kind smile. “Oh, it's no worries at all. Actually, can I—I should probably say something before we go in.”

Your movements stopped short and you turned to face him, wide-eyed. “Uh oh,” you mused half-heartedly, “this is the moment you tell me you're a serial killer.” Please don't be a serial killer…

That coaxed a bright laugh from his mouth, and your heart melted a little bit. He shook his head, “No, no. Nothing of that sort, I swear! I just…” His lips pressed into a smile again and he confessed, “I'm attracted to you, Yn. Ah, there it is; I said it.”

He released a nervous giggle, cupping the back of his neck.

Starstruck, you lost the key in your hand. “Me?” You stammered. Were your ears deceiving you? “Like… in a not-just-friends way?”

Jacob nodded. “Yeah, in a not-just-friends way.” Then quickly added, “I mean, if that makes you uncomfortable, I can totally leave. We can be just friends, too, if you're okay with that. I just think you're gorgeous, and smart, and—”

“Can I kiss you?” You blurted.

“Please do—I need to shut up.”

And you gladly shut him up.

You stepped forward and closed the gap between you, his hands coming up to cup your face as your lips met. He tasted like spearmint from the gum he offered right after tonight's meal—always thinking of everything, this one. His mouth was soft against yours, something tender and gentle, giving you enough space to pull away if you wished.

But you didn't. Good lord, you wanted more.

Your eyes fluttered open just as he did, his nose bumping against yours.

“Inside?” He murmured.

You nodded. “Yeah, inside.”

You fumbled with the keys into your apartment, hand blindly flipping the light switch on as Jacob found your lips again, hands grappling onto your waist. His foot kicked the front door shut behind you both as shoes came off.

Your back met the wall just as you slid a hand into his curls. The sound of keys hitting the floor echoed in your ears, but your other senses were far too overwhelmed with Jacob right now—the smell of the cologne clinging to his clothes, the soft earnestness of his mouth against yours, his hard body pressed up—

“So sweet,” he groaned, squeezing your sides. “Could eat you up.”

You whimpered at his words, his mouth breaking away from yours so you could both shove your jackets off your shoulders. “You shouldn't say things like that,” you breathed, pressing your hands against his chest.

The corners of his lips curled upward. “Actually,” he drawled, dropping his mouth near your ear, “that's not a bad idea.”

Your knees nearly buckled. “Huh?”

Your mind went fuzzy as he attached his lips to the side of your neck, suckling sweetly against your pulse, your skin, your collarbone.

“You're a smart girl,” he chuckled warmly, the vibrations sending something just as warm to your panties. “You can figure it out.”

He smiled against your throat, feeling your pulse skip. “There you go,” he purred.

You knocked your head back against the wall at the thought of what he was insinuating—planning—to do to you. When you turned your gaze down, you nearly whimpered again at the sight of him sinking down to his knees before you with a wicked grin on his face.

Forget angelic—this man could be the Devil if he so wished.

“I have a bedroom, you know,” you attempted to joke, but you were also dead serious. Was he seriously about to…?

His hands—large, warm, veiny, and studded with rings—smoothed over the fabric of your skirt, not daring to venture under until you gave him the go-ahead. “We'll get to that,” he promised. “May I?”

You wrestled down a swallow, blood hammering in your ears. “Yeah,” you croaked.

Jacob licked his lips, then pressed a featherweight kiss to the side of your knee. He glanced up at you in silent question. Was that okay?

You nodded in approval, moving your hands into his hair and to cup the back of his head.

He continued on, kissing his way up your inner thighs, until his head dipped beneath the hem of your skirt and you could feel his hot breath fan over your clothed cunt.

Your breath hitched when you felt him blow cool air at the wet spot that collected at the bottom of your underwear.

Jacob's warm laugh met your ears. “You're so cute,” he murmured. His nose nudged you through the damp fabric, and he marveled, “You're so wet for me—can’t wait to taste you.”

Your fingers tightened in his hair. “Please, Cobie.”

“Almost there, angel. You've been so good for me.”

A whine fell from your lips at that, and you slapped a palm against your mouth. God, you sounded so desperate, and maybe you were.

He slowly tugged your underwear down, and you stepped out of them. With the barrier out of the way, Jacob went right to work, licking a broad stripe up your slit and sending you careening against his face.

“Shit,” you swore, one hand grappling onto his shoulder.

Jacob held you upright with one of his arms looped under your thigh to anchor you into place. His nose bumped against your clit as he wormed his tongue through your folds.

You grounded your hips against his tongue, his mouth, his face, begging for more.

His lips latched onto your puffed up clit next, and your head knocked back against the wall again. “Jacob, please—”

He teased your opening with one of his fingers, then dipped it into your weeping cunt. The metal ring was cool against your pussy lips, the sting delicious, as he thrusted his fingers in and out of you as his mouth sucked on your clit mercilessly.

“Jacob, right there—please, please, please—” You tugged the strands of his hair and he groaned into your pussy, the vibrations going straight to your sensitive nub. You rocked your hips against him, desperately chasing after your own high.

You felt a second finger enter you, and the two digits curled and jammed against the soft, gummy spot inside you.

He licked your clit, replacing his tongue with his thumb for a second. “Close, angel?”

“Mhm,” you bit your lip. “Please, I'm so close.”

You moaned as he reattached his lips to your clit, vigorously suckling it until it was bruised, his fingers ramming up into you in tandem. His arm tightened around you as you cried out, your fingers clawing into the meat of his shoulder—your knees buckled, your vision went white for a split second, and fire erupted in your belly as you went over the edge.

Jacob's tongue lapped up all of the slick that had collected, and you sucked in a breath when his tongue dove through your folds and made you clench around the appendage.

When his head came out from under your skirt, his hair was a ruffled mess (thanks to you), and his face gleamed in your arousal and his sweat. He met your eyes, sticking his two fingers in his mouth to clean them.

You nearly went over again at the sight. “Fucking hell,” you exhaled, curling an arm around him as he clambered up to his feet.

Jacob smiled, swooping in to kiss you again so you could taste yourself on him. His hands smoothed down the sides of your body before coming down to cup the backs of your thighs. “You feeling okay?” He murmured into you, coaxing you to wrap your legs around his waist, thumb grazing the skin on your leg.

“Mmh,” you hummed against him, breath hitching when your bare pussy brushed against the rough hardness in his jeans. “Definitely better than okay. What about you?”

“Same here.” He cradled your head with one hand, and held you up with his other. “Do you want more?” He asked you breathlessly, pulling away.

His hand smoothed over the top of your head fondly. You nodded. He seemed to always be wanting to give. “Only if you want more.”

“Yeah, baby. Where's your bedroom?”

He had scooped you up and laid you out over your bed sheets like his own personal feast—and to be so very honest, you wouldn't mind being his meal every single day.

“This is cute,” he said cheekily with his knee pressed into the mattress as he climbed over you onto the bed.

You cupped the side of his face to draw him down to you. “You didn't even look at the room,” you mused into his mouth.

He hummed deeply, maneuvering your head back to deepen the kiss. He pressed his tongue into your mouth, the rough surface massaging against your own and making you forget your own name. “Anything you—” he said at last, “—I find unabashedly cute.”

“Unabashedly, you say?” You teased.

Jacob broke away only to tear his shirt over his head and to give you space to do the same. You pulled your shirt over your head and swiftly undid the clasp of your bra, your eyes fixing on the carved muscle flexing on his stomach as he settled back over you.

His tongue darted out of his lips. “Like what you see?”

You couldn't deny it; who were you trying to fool anyways? “I do.”

Maybe he was surprised by your forwardness. A bit of pink brushed his cheekbones and he leaned over you to press a kiss to your lips. “I can say the same about you, beautiful.”

He trailed one of his knuckles down the valley between your breasts, your chest rising and falling with your every breath. Goosebumps rose upon your flesh as he went, and you were itching to feel his mouth on your skin again.

“Can I touch you some more?” He murmured, eyes darting up to yours.

You nodded earnestly.

Jacob bracketed his arms next to your body and lowered his mouth over one of your nipples. Your fingers found his hair again with a gasp, arching yourself into his mouth and relishing the feeling of his skilled tongue swirling around your perked nub. His other hand gently massaged your other breast, squeezing the mound affectionately.

You covered his hand with yours, urging him to fondle you harder, rougher. The way his skin felt against yours was heavenly.

You sighed his name, wrapping one of your legs around his waist to grind your pelvis against his hardness.

He groaned around you, “Ugh, Yn.” He popped his mouth off your breast, lips trailing down to your belly, all while he grinded into you to chase some form of relief.

“Jacob, please,” you rasped, urging him with a harsh thrust. “Wanna feel you.”

You were tugging your skirt down your legs next, accompanied to the sound of his belt buckle clinking and the denim falling to the floor beside your bed. His erection tented his boxers, and his face looked flushed, but he dug around in his wallet for a spare condom before coming back to you.

When he yanked his boxers down, his heavy cock sprung up and slapped against his stomach. You pushed yourself up onto your elbows to watch him tear the condom packet open with his teeth before sliding the rubber over his throbbing cock.

He groaned softly under his breath, a muscle in his jaw feathering as he wrapped his fist around the head and squeezed himself lightly.

“You're really hot,” you said then, catching him off guard and making him grin boyishly.

He laughed, leaning down to find your lips in a sweet kiss. “Yeah?” He murmured. “You walked into the tutoring center and I knew I was gone, I thought you were so pretty.”

Your chuckle was muffled against him. “Trying to one-up me, Jacob?” Your mirth sobered slightly as he rubbed the tip of his cock between your slickened folds.

Jacob nipped at your bottom lip. “You’ve always been a fast learner.”

As he pushed himself into you, stretching you out inch by inch, you melted into him, fingers digging into his shoulders and his face burying itself into the hollow of your neck.

Your stomach rose and fell with your quick breaths. “Holy shit,” you moaned, mouth falling open as you clung onto him. You could feel him filling you up, the condom doing nearly nothing to hide the ridges of the veins along his shaft. They rubbed against your walls, and you clenched desperately around him.

Jacob moaned loudly, his hips twitching against yours. “Baby, please," he choked out. “You're so—god, you're so tight.”

“You can move now,” you told him softly, cupping the back of his head.

You felt him nod, and with a groan, he pulled his hips back and pushed them into you again. The first thrust was delicious, the second and all the rest were sublime. With every drag of his cock against your walls, you could feel your stomach clench, the pressure building inside you.

His hips slammed against yours desperately, the bed rocking with your movements beneath you and knocking against the wall—thunk, think, thunk—a steady rhythm. He seemed to be consistent in everything he did.

Jacob pressed his body weight against yours as he moved against you. The room filled with the sounds of both of your bliss, and the lewd squelching noises every time he fucked himseld in you. You could feel the wetness and sweat dribbled to your thighs and your ass; barely comprehending just how messy this would be.

“You feel so good, angel,” he groaned, reaching down between your bodies to flick his thumb over your clit.

You yelped, the sensation nearly tipping you over. “Jacob, oh my god—”

“So good for me,” he murmured, sweat dripping down the curve of his sculpted nose. “Gonna come again for me? Nice and pretty as always?”

Your head nodded vigorously, your hips rising to meet his, pelvic bones smashing against each other, his balls slapping against your ass. “Shit, I'm so close!”

You could feel yourself being cranked and wound up like a jack in the box—the precipice was in sight and just in your reach.

Jacob's thrusts grew sloppy, but rougher as he reached his own high. He grunted against your skin, and you both came at once, his hips stilling inside you as you clenched down hard around him.

“Jacob,” you cried out for what seemed like the thousandth time tonight, while his own voice hoarsely grunted your name by your ear.

For a moment, you let your breathing and heart rate steady. You gently brushed your hand against the back of his head as his arms wrapped around your body and he littered your skin with kisses.

“How was that, angel?” He murmured to you, voice husky. He raised his head up to meet your lips with his.

You kissed him back. “It was really good.”

Jacob gave a warm chuckle, eyes crinkling with a smile. “Yeah?”

“Five stars,” you joked.

That drew a slightly louder laugh out of him, and he carefully pulled his softened cock out of you. Swiftly tying the condom off, you directed him to the waste bin beneath your desk.

Jacob settled onto the edge of bed next to you and one of his hands cupped the side of your face, his thumb trailing over your cheekbone. “I meant it—you’re really, really gorgeous. And I know this kind of moved fast, but I'd really like to see where this goes.”

You bit your lip around a smile and met the twinkle in his eye. “I feel the same way.”

You slowly sat up and draped yourself around him, one of his hands holding your forearm to return the gesture. “How's a bath sound?” You asked. You wanted to do something for him now.

He grinned, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. “I would love that.”

a/n: abrupt endings are my weakness 💀 someone remind me how to write a conclusion

tbz m.list

[duoduotian]

sugar sugar rune anime vs manga

finished ssr so now i'll post these... why was i so invested in making this. it gave me stress digging through the chapters

keeping track of the differences i notice in the anime vs what i've read in the manga

1. chocolat and vanilla's class

in the manga, they were in different classes

chocolat was in 5A while vanilla was in 5B. however, in the anime, they were both in 5A which i presume was for it to be more convenient to add in filler episodes regarding their school life

2. these pierre scenes

these were from as early as ch. 2 right after rockin robin told chocolat about the piss coloured hearts. it's giving antagonist vibes. as of now, i've watched 4 episodes. haven't seen these animated yet so i presume the anime is just giving him the ~cool, popular senior student~ image for the start of the series, they'll get to the antagonist part later

'i met a girl today.' yeah you met cerunos' (cinnamon) daughter

3. vanilla's first heart(s)

in the manga, it was when she met akira and hiroshi and the reason his heart was orange was bc he saw her panties 💀 idk if this is in the anime but i don't want it. in the anime, she got her first few from some of her classmates after their PE lesson

4. when they got their familiars

in the anime, it was as early as ep 2. duke's first appearance was in ch 5 of the manga when the prank took place. the actual summoning for their familiars only took place in ch 6 after chocolat and vanilla got the basic wand to look further in the catalog.

5. chocolat indirecting pierre

this was during nishitani's interview with chocolat in the manga. unfortunately, we couldn't get this scene in the anime as chocolat had not met pierre during lunch. in the anime, pierre still walks past them during the interview. chocolat glances at him but says she has no ideal type :v

oh and chocolat didn't have to conjure a ghost for him like in the anime he just went back to the club room and everyone made up

6. presence of transformation and wand usage for picking up hearts

i only realised this when they were going through the magic item catalog in the manga and was like 'oh, they didn't have a wand?? fr?' using an example from the manga when chocolat takes nishitani's heart she is seen in her uniform casting the spell:

in the anime, they'll do their magical girl transformation before casting the spell

7. chocolat's return to the magic world

we're going back very early in the anime (ep 7) as compared to the manga (ch 10) we're missing a few things in between regarding the manga. what happens in both media was totally different though like in the anime, vanilla also comes to the magic world to save chocolat and chocolat gets cinnamon's diary from queen candy. but in the manga, she learns about the ogres. also in the manga, cinammon's diary was seen with chocolat in ch 1 so we can infer that it has always been in her possession

8. when a green heart is introduced

in the manga, it was shown in ch 23 and in the anime, it was in ep 9 (quite the jump but it's quite fitting for akira's relationship with chocolat)

9. timing of when houx and saule join moegi academy

manga: sometime after vanilla joins the ogres

anime: after the anime-exclusive midterm when chocolat organised the sugar rune festival ft. bonus tennis match against pierre

10. the heart-shaped hairpin

in the anime, chocolat bought it from the magical catalogue when vanilla told her about the item but in the manga, it was a gift from queen candy from the time when chocolat crashed the palace roof.

vanilla was supportive of chocolat in the anime since she wanted to help her friend. her behaviour was the opposite in the manga as 1. it was something from queen candy and 2. chocolat's sudden appearance ruined her own chance to get sasaoka's heart

chocolat's self realisation that she needs to put in effort in the manga vs how she needed robin to point it out for her to realise it in the anime

[stylesloveclub]

ok first this i funny bc i think the last ask i js put in was not as an anon which is fine bc it's really not that deep but i signed it as my anon name (which i adore btw tysm for that) and i js think that's quite silly

ANYWHORE....

so as we all know midterms are a terrible rotten creation and the person who made them deserves to burn in hell (maybe that's a stretch but they certainly get zero brownie points from me 😠) and ofc you absolutely feel that way when you're studying for them. and YES okay, you studied bc failing bc you didn't study and failing bc you don't understand the material are two very different things. the minute you find out you're absolutely CRUSHED bc you work sooooo hard in this class and are always studying and doing what's required of you but it just doesn't make a single ounce of fucking sense in your brain. so you trek back to your place all mopey and sad and on top of that you have work tonight, and don't get it twisted you love your job (otherwise you wouldn't have met harry) but all you want to do rn is curl up in a ball and shovel loads of junk food in your fat gob and wallow in the feelings of pity and being a failure :(((((((. but you can't bc for whatever reason the government says you're legally and big girl and have to take care of yourself (fuck that) so you put on your little uniform and walk the few blocks it takes to get to Pleasing. ppl can tell you're sad and just not your regular chipper self when you come in, but they also know it's best to leave you be in these situations bc you're bound to start SOBBING if someone asks what's wrong and as much as your coworkers love and care for you they cannot afford to be down a staff member so you crying is not any option 💀💀. so you're going through your shift and it's honestly better than you thought it would be bc it's keeping your mind off your grade and how bad it is and your friends and making you laugh, but then the snob of the night just has to come in and ruin the whole mood. you already know you won't like serving him the minute he opens his mouth, all "listen honey..." and you tune out the rest of his words until he finally orders. his date looks bloody miserable, and you wish you could tell her to run for the hills, but at least she's getting a free meal from a five-star restaurant. so yada yada yada things are going relatively fine with the customer until *uh oh* his pasta got messed up. he asked for his cilantro on the side and it, unfortunately for you, came with none at all. you're on the verge of apologizing when he starts chewing you out "what the fuck is your issue? are you really that dense? i get you're just some dumb waitress but you have to have at least half a brain to work at a place like this...." he's so unbelievably rude, causing a scene and grabbing the other customers attention, making them stare as he just yells and yells and yells :(((((. eventually, one of your coworkers, jenny let's say, comes over with the cilantro and slams it on the table and "we're sorry for the inconvenience sir, please enjoy your meal" he doesn't thank them or apologize to you (though his date does which is unnecessary but appreciated) and jenny ushers you away and is all "go see harry hun, it's fine" bc she's one of your closer friends from work and knows more about your relationship with harry than the others. so you run over to his office with a short nod of thanks to her and you don't even bother knocking before you push the door open. and harry's about to scold you until he sees you're crying (which you hadn't realized until just then) and he's pushing away from his desk and rushing to you and "puppy? what's wrong, my sweet girl?" :(((( and so you run down the whole day, from your failed midterm to the shitty customer just a few minutes ago, crying and blubbering into his pristinely pressed shirt. you don't notice that he makes a short call during your rant to get the customer who yelled at you kicked out, but it doesn't matter bc it's short and his full attention is back on you in no time. "baby, m'sorry, so so sorry about your midterm and the mean customers" :(((((( and he wipes your tears away until your cries have settled down to soft hiccups and "c'mon puppy, we're ending the night early"

AND THIS IS TOO LONG HOLD ON

-tummy r*ding anon 😵‍💫

1/3 🥸

[itadorey]

do you have any cringe/funny experiences with a professor that you are okay with sharing

oh my god yeah but i should warn that they're funny to me now but in the moment they were awful omg tw for mental + physical health

one time i told one of my p chem profs that i was struggling mentally and she called me into her office to ask if she needed to report me and put me on 5150 (which is like sewer slide watch) and i started laughing and we had to talk the whole afternoon about how i was just overwhelmed by work + school and not a danger to myself and when my lab partners were unhelpful she would yell at them to help me AHAHAHA

another time i failed a midterm bc i was in the emergency room and even though i had the documentation my prof wouldn't let me make it up and when i had that same professor for a different course (same time as the p chem prof mentioned above) i told him about how i was struggling w my mental health he told me to take all the time i needed and not worry about coming into class and i couldn't stop myself from reminding him about the midterm and blurting out "oh so fuck my physical health huh?" and he apologized 😭😭

oh god one time i sprained my ankle and i was on crutches and i couldn't wear sneakers so i was like how tf do i go to lab bc we need to wear close-toed shoes and so my prof didn't know and he didn't see my crutches so i got yelled at but when he found out he felt so bad and spent ten minutes tying plastic bags around my crocs 💀💀

[bronzetomatoes]

so update it's 10pm and i didn't do any fucking math review for my test tomorrow bc i remembered that an assignment from the first week of the semester that i never did had to be turned in tonight or it'd be marked as a zero on my midterm report card 💀 so

[ildi-dragonheart]

Tagged by @frankenjoly tyy!! i miss doing these tags

Rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better

Relationship status: single (i'm in the aro/ ace spec but currently in a crisis because my seasonal desire for a relationship is back)

Favorite color: Neutral colors, black, white

Song stuck in my head: the "my dearest, angelica" part from Take a Break from Hamilton kept playing in my head while I was doing a scholarship exam for college yesterday😭

Last song I listened to: as of doing this i last listened to Top of My School by Kathrine Lynn-Rose🙃 ah yes all hail the burnt out gifted kids bc it's currently midterms season at my school💀💀

Three favorite foods: pizza. with lots of cheese. and also pineapples (YES I LOVE PINEAPPLES ON PIZZA DEAL WITH IT >:( ) and dark chocolates and CARBONARA MY BELOVED

Last thing I googled: "neutral colors" it was for this tag😭 i wasn't sure if the colors i was thinking of were called neutral colors😭

Dream trip: from the top of my head i would say any of the Nordic countries

Something I want rn: i just wanna play genshin without having to worry about my acads pls i didn't get to log in for three days now because of fcking school😭

Tags: anyone who wants to do this because i don't know that many people on this app🙂

[ethereal-carmen]

hello big sis :D

this is a random checkup bc i’m offline on discord and i miss you

how have u been? have u been drinking enough water? (this is ur sign to do it rn!!!)

did u eat breakfast? it’s very imp >:( eat!!! breakfast!!!! and also if you’re giving your characters angst pls take a lil break because it can give u negative emotions too (and also jasper and ags and kit are my good little babies and do nOt deserve angst ;-;)

i’m gonna try to make that bread + oil thing u told me to try! my school is super early so i’m not even functioning the first three lectures

also did u practice self care? do something for yourself? did u tell yourself you’re pretty and probably the nicest person ever? that you’re worth it? because you are <3

and apparently i suck at writing check in messages bc i have no idea what to type rn 💀

i love you, byeeeee <333

*finger guns* imma head out

hello lil sibling! my lil annoyance (affectionate) :D

i've been,,,,going haha. reading a lot (now bc I enjoy it or for escapsim?? ✨who knows✨) I have been drinking normal amounts of water to my standards (aka maybe two glasses a day? idk i don't quantify my water intake lmao)

I did not eat breakfast today bc I was in a hurry and didn't eat until 2 pm haha :) and about my characters,,, they are fine! (no they aren't I deleted a whole kiss scene bc it didn't make sense)

self care huh,,,not really, but i'm writing and reading and that makes me happy (though i want to really study today bc midterms are almost here and I don't want to be stressed, so maybe that counts as self care?) I did not tell myself I was pretty today bc I'm not really feeling pretty atm ^^'

take care alex!!! i love you too!

[sungbeam]

XNONIE PRESENT !!!!!

i had soooo many midterms to study for, so apologies for the late reply beam 💔 but lemme tell u that i missed u very very much

A LITTLE BIRDIE TOLD ME THAT U FOUND SOME DAREDEVIL FANART (the little birdie being ur post about ur thoughts during hiatus) AND I WILL WELCOME IT IN OPEN ARMS 🤗🤗

i absolutely vibe w/ daredevil x she-hulk too just b/c they both look SO SO SO happy w/ each other & they should just get married alreadt 🫶 i MEANNN i also vibe w/ daredevil x me, BUT i'm not gonna steal the spotlight from her 🥰

"i love making men cry" BEAM?!?@?@?' HELLAUR??? i'm gonna appreciate the angst so much SHDKSJFJ also hmmmm i'm not sure you've seen some of my stuff since i juuust started out. & don't worry, ur not being pushy at all !!!! i'm also very VERY nosy too it's something that dies hard 😭😭

druig mind games would make the e2l go a little faster tbh so that we can start dating right away 😍😍😍 THAT'S THE GOAL BABY

cravity JUST made a comeback w/ party rock!!! u should really check that out if ur into the upbeat & fun songs 🫶😚😚 I HAVEN'T LISTENED TO 28 REASONS YET b/c i was so caught up w/ school!! but it's on my to-do list for listens!

omg... u didn't just ask that BC NONE OF THEM SEEM E2L WORTHY THEY'RE ALL SO SHDKSJDKFK 💔 but HMMMMM:

slow burn/chan (he just seems like the best option on here 🫶), e2l/mark (it would be one sided tbh, like i'd hate him bc he was too perfect or something dumb like that LMAO), fake date/joshua (he's so bf material that i wouldn't be able to fake it honestly LOL)

XNONIE !!!! missed u very much too 🫂🫂🫂 and don't even worry abt it, i totally get that studying must come first 😔😭 but glad we're both back 😃

A BIRDIE WAS HOPING IT WOULD REACH U HEHE (ﾉ´∀｀*) i've actually always been a fan of this person's art style and the way that matt's portrayed here is so 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻 idk it's just so good and as soon as i saw it i wanted to share it w u but i was on hiatus 😔✨

frfr like all power to daredevil and she-hulk but WHAT ABOUT ME õ_ó my main character arc when 😔 /hj LMAOO

OKAY I DO LOVE MAKING MEN CRY NO JOKE 🤩🤩🤩🤩 i love writing about men being emotional 😔✨ we don't get a lot of that irl so 👀💀 ahhh that makes sense!! welcome to the community tho omo 👀👀 i do hope i come across ur stuff at some time ^_^ LOL PLS IM SO NOSY AND CURIOUS I FEEL BAD SO I ALWAYS RESIST MY URGES 😭😭😭😭

AKBXKSJXKDBD PLS THE E2L FASTFORWARDING AND NEVER HAPPENING CUZ HE KNOWS THE EXACT MOMENT U FIND HIM ATTRACTIVE ?1?(!(@299*!1;: HES SO HAWT AND FOR WHAT REASON (´Д⊂ヽ low-key wanna write e2l druig rn where the only reason why it's even over 1k is cuz u keep denying ur so-obvious pining and simpery 😔😔

OOH omg yeah i'll add it to my list to listen to cuz i need jams to bring me out of my depression ayo 🤩🤌🏻 THANK U FOR THE REC HEHE but yES LEMME KNOW ONCE U DO LISTEN TO 28 REASONS it's low-key my villain arc soundtrack (actually i've been really into g-idle recently like owh they're so badass YKW THE GIDLE DISCOGRAPHY LIKE THE I NEVER DIE AND I LOVE R MY ACTUAL VILLAIN ARC SOUNDTRACK)

josh hong IS boyfie material like tbh all three of them are (´Д⊂ヽ(´Д⊂ヽ i would prob go with the same options u picked tbh :0

okok i know there were things i wanted to talk to u abt during hiatus but i cANT REMEMBER RN AHHHHHHHHHH but r u into dc as well ?? like im def not as involved as the mcu obviously but i 👀👀👀 am currently writing something where it's like txt choi 👀👀👀 and like the bat boys 👀👀👀 i hope u know what im talking abt cries but it's my passion project as of late sidbskchkehc but HOPE UR DOING WELL ILY MWAH TALK TO U SOON XNONIEEEE

[jgallagher]

May of 2022.

Hi everyone! Gosh! The last time I posted here was October of 2021, 7 months ago. I wasn't able to keep on writing here because I'm worried of my phone's storage so I had to uninstall this app. But worry no more because I uninstalled my TikTok, Twitter and Facebook today. Yay!

I just got the chance to write again here now because my calculus midterm exam is already done. I wanted to celebrate but I wasn't confident of my answers so maybe I'll just celebrate after the releasing of our grades? That'll take months tho 😭

To keep up with my life updates after October 2021, let's wrap up a bit.

November 2021- my 18th birthday. No celebration at all because I wasn't used to celebrating my birthday. I couldn't even remember what happened that day lol. Maybe I was busy thanking the people who greeted me. Overall, it wasn't really memorable at all.

December 2021- before Christmas Eve, Christmas and New Year's Eve, shit happened because of super typhoon Odette. Pros of that typhoon is we can finally renovate the house (tho it's been 5 months they haven't even started yet grrr), I had a good sleep because there was no signal so after we eat I'd watch kdrama for awhile (downloaded from Netflix) then I'll sleep, I spent time mostly with my family. Cons: No freaking signal. I had to go to Colon so I could catch up with my blockmates and friends. No electricity for almost a month so I had to use flashlight or a candle to make my goddamn plates. Shortage of water and food, we had to wait for how many hours to buy something. It wasn't a good time to celebrate Christmas and New Year.

January 2022- post Odette sufferings. Doing schoolworks while breaking down, couldn't understand anything because I was too busy thinking on how to fix our house, some of our teachers gave heavy tasks and I didn't care about my grades anymore as long as I could pass the courses.

February 2022- We went to Simala and Alcoy. I had the best time of my life since it's our semestral break.

March 2022- Celebrated mom's birthday. Still no classes so I accepted our family friend's offer to be her children's nanny for 4 days. I remember crying because I miss mama and I'm worried bc she's alone. While we're having video call, I had to turn off the camera because I'm crying for no reason. It was an epic 4 days because I had to clean not entirely 24/7 but I'm making sure that the house is clean and we're safe. I woke up early to cook, and after they eat washed the dishes, I cleaned their mess, assist them while taking a bath, literally all the chores a mother do. It was nice bonding with the kids, however, I realized that I wasn't really meant to be a mom (yet). Because of that experience, I realized that I will never be ready to become a mom.

April of 2022- official start of our class. First time I attended our virtual class inside a mall because I went to Talamban to witness my friend's performance. I will never do that again 💀 April 5, I went to see my friends because it's been a year or more since we last saw each other. Sunday of the following week, we agreed to go to Sto. Niño together with their partners and we went to SM Cebu to eat. You know what sucks? I'm the only one who's single. Yes. I pity myself for that 😭 but nah, I'd prefer to be their photographer than having a boyfriend. April 23, we met again to claim our medals at CIT and then we went to SM seaside to eat. We catched up and everything.

Now, I'm busy laying on my bed with so many pending tasks to do. I just finished our exams so I guess I deserve this? Actually, my April and May is busy as hell because our teachers are giving us too many tasks, plus I accepted personal tutor from our neighbor and answering their children's modules, plus my axie, plus the chores I do inside our house. There were times when I forget about eating, or even sleeping. I guess my body has more caffeine than water by now.

And oh, before I forget, I attended VP Leni's rally last April 21 at Mandaue City 😭 HOW CAN I ALMOST FORGOT THAT SPECIAL DAY OF MINE!? Well, yes, I attended her rally, become politically active, and this is my first time voting since I'm now 18. Sadly, she lost to the frontrunner of this election. It wasn't easy to grief while cramming my schoolworks but I moved on already and decided to help her NGO, angat buhay lahat. Also, because of her, I became close to some of my blockmates because we created a group chat. We became instant buddies because we share the same thoughts. They were nice, I just couldn't believe I made some friends because the actual goal is to stay low-key. Well 🤷

My realization for this blog, as I go back to where did I stop, I realized that I've been through so much. There were succeeding nights that I am crying out of frustration, anger, fear about my future, sadness, yet here I am, standing still. Whatever troubles I encountered for the past months, I thank God for giving me the strength to carry it all. I thank my family for stretching their patients for me. I thank my friends for listening to my nonsense blabbers, for listening to my vms (shouting, singing, crying etc.)and lastly, I thank myself for being strong and unwavering. I constantly remind myself that it's okay to pause, it's okay to cry, it's okay to feel the pain until it's gone and after that, we'll start fighting again.

Good night everyone and until my next step :))))

[staysuki]

hi !! sorry i haven’t sent an ask in a while.. midterms have been kicking my ass <//3 anyways, slc has me on the edge of my seat. first of all, i love all the women aldjsjjs. lia is such a sweet girl ((i hope she doesn’t put herself down after the jake incident tho… yeah she shouldn’t have assumed and put him on the spot like that but she thought she was being helpful)) and ryujin… oh ryujin :’) i love her sm you don’t understand. just imagining her dancing to chivalry is dead w jake has me crying. i was literally obsessed w that choreo when it first came out lol. i just hope they all make up w each other after the party incident bc y/n needs a solid group of friends. i hope ryujin isn’t too mad at lia and is mostly just shocked w the situation bc damn.. sumin would have to deal w two pairs of quarreling roommates ajdjdj.

felix is such an interesting character. i feel like he definitely saw something more than those pics on hyunjin’s phone… maybe the convos between candy and chocolate? i wonder if he’s the reason why hyunjin and y/n were stuck in that room. idk lol.. he’s just seems to know everything and it’s sus to me haha. very much Cheshire Cat vibes w how he just appears to cause some chaos. I can’t judge hyunjin for being paranoid about him bc tbh I’d be the same way. like what kind of person has zero photos in their camera roll sjdjsnsn

i wonder what hyunjin meant by y/n destroying his family tho… im probably gonna reread the au just to see if there were any hints about this but hmm. i doubt she actually did anything directly bc she was just a kid. maybe his family was going through some problems and his mind didn’t know where to direct that anger to. kids are weird that way lol

lastly, id like to talk about seungmin. not to be a seungmin simp but i love him lmao. although he doesn’t really show it, he truly does care about his family and friends in his own way. he’s just so observant and shows his care in small ways that won’t be noticed unless you really look into it ig. like he named the family gc “Kim brothers 🐶” for goodness sake… that’s some cute shit right there. enough of my simping lol… is it obvious that my bias in skz is seungmin? anyways, i find it interesting that seungmin and felix seem kinda close… like those pics man 👀. not saying that he’s his partner in crime but that’s sus. but at the same time, seungmin seems to care about hyunjin so idk. that whole friend group in general is weird to me. might just be me but they seem to be friends out of circumstance instead of like whole besties. i mean, jisung always seems out of the loop and hyunjin is very closed off about his feelings. like why would he go on that anon app if he was 100% comfortable and close w his friends irl? even seungmin, who has known him the longest, feels like he needs to crack hyunjin’s shell. and felix is felix… just a whole ass anomaly that I want to learn more about lol.

also, y/n thinking that seungmin’s candy is bound to bring a lot of drama. im gonna look forward to that haha. that’s all I wanted to say.. didn’t mean to ramble this much but yeah. i hope you have a nice day bestie :D

-🐳

it's alright! study well whale anon uwu~

the current situation with the group really is a bit complicated, it makes me sad. this is why in-circle relationships are always risky. who knows what'll happen to lia and ryujin's relationship— poor sumin 💀💀💀 i didn't even think about that, girlie is gonna end up sleeping on the couch or moving out atp.

yes, the phone thing huh~ he definitely has more than he let on, cmon, this is felix we're talking about. he made it seem like he found it, looked at the photos, and then gave it to seungmin but y'know~ who truly knows. felix just likes collecting things up his sleeve for no reason 💀

don't worry about the hyunjin part, it's the first time i ever dropped a big revelation about why he treats y/n as such. i'm gonna do it slowly but damn it's tempting to just drop it all at once 🙈. we're getting a few sneak peeks more into hyunjin's character as a whole, and i think so far, i'll be able to predict people's reactions to it, but idk, y'all always surprise me~

seungmin simp huh 🤧. for some reason, i'm REALLY REALLY good at writing side character seungmin (my seungmin fics are horrendous, no one should ever read them). but in all of my other fics that feature him as a side character?? 100% show stopping, incredible, steals the spotlight. ends up having the second lead syndrome bc of the readers. but then we circle back to the question from the very beginning: what is up with this friend group. although he does it in a weird way, seungmin seems to care a certain amount about the guys (given the way he wanted to crack hyunjin's shell, drunk words sober thoughts yeah?), and we all know that jisung is just #bestboy. hyunjin on the other hand is more of a tsundere with the way he values his friends (the pictures), while felix is... well, felix. he's the odd one out. i mean, if we all just take felix out of the picture, is it really a weird friend group? i doubt it. felix causes the syncopation within the dynamic—but at the same time, seungmin doesn't seem to mind his oddity.

and ofc! rambling is great. we finally have y/n being a bit sussy on candy's identity, she never would've thought that her secret chatmate is so close.

p.s. wonpil named their group chat 💀