#but i didn't! shut! my goddamn! mouth! bc of course i didn't!

[omgahgase]

i'm on my hazbin hotel shit so i can't stop thinking of tommy and ellie bonding over the show.

like tommy loves cartoons, both the kind intended for adults and the ones for kids—spongebob especially bc he thinks that show is comedic genius—and ellie loves anything tommy's into, so of course she'll binge watch the first season with him in one sitting (it's actually tommy's 12th time rewatching the show and he still gets excited every rewatch).

sarah tried to get into it bc she always wants to talk about her uncle's interests, but it's more ellie's speed, so she'll stick to her k-dramas and let them have fun. which they do.

ellie's memorized almost every joke in there and she thinks vaggie is kickass bc, hello? an ex-exterminator angel who went and fell in love with the princess of hell? yeah, that's pretty fucking cool. her favorite songs are "hell is forever" bc adam may have been a little bitch but he had a catchy as hell song, and "hell's greatest dad" bc she thinks lucifer if a silly little guy. she hasn't stopped saying "i wap-bam-boom, alakazam" for 6 days straight and sarah is about to duct tape her little sister's mouth shut lmao

her and tommy rewatch their favorite episodes a lot, specifically ep 4 bc they're angel dust lovers, and they've learned the choreography to "loser, baby" much to joel's absolute displeasure bc they won't stop singing "you're a fucked up little whiny bitch" anytime he's in the room. they do it even when they're not watching the show and he's about to break the roku remote he's so goddamn serious—

on a serious note, tho, joel's actually so happy his daughter and brother love spending time together and that they have similar interests, even if the first time ellie watched hazbin, joel was in the room when husker appeared and all she did was point and laugh bc "joel! you didn't tell me you were in this show! look, look, he's exactly like you! old and grumpy!" it was funny the first time but now he's learned to stay far, far away from them whenever he hears the opening jingle blare from the living room tv

[svtskneecaps]

you ever lay awake stewing over all the shit you want to apologize for but can't because it happened so long ago that it would be awkward to bring it up in conversation and you're pretty sure the other party has either forgiven or forgotten or never viewed it as a slight in the first place but you're still like 'oh god, they must hate me'

yeah

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Anon with the fanfic tropes list (most of these are somewhat specific but that's cause they just appeal it me), didn't think you guys want to see it that bad but here it is! (I said it's over 1k words so don't say I didn't warn you) (also Note: few of them are implied nsfw but it's mild)

-The italicized oh.

-Sun and moon dynamic

-Teaching someone how to skate

-comparing hand sizes

-picking a flower and putting it behind someone's ear

-BRAIDING HAIR O U G H

-babysitting together (bonus if kid thinks they're dating but they are just mutually pinning or kid figures out one of them have a crush on the other and either try to get them together or straight up blurts it out while the crushing tries to get them to shut up)

-when someone's laugh/smile/moan becomes a character's favorite sound/look in the world and they try as much as they can to hear/see it

-A Covering their face with their hands/arms/etc and B moving them and saying 'you're beautiful/I love you/I want to see you'

-Sharing headphones

-SHARING/BORROWING CLOTHES (bonus if it's too big for them)

-using nicknames

-Stealing food off someone's plate

-Sharing food with someone

-comparing them to either sun, moon, stars, god, angel, etc and ultimately saying something about worshipping them (and their body LMAO DONT CALL ME OUT)

-Riding on a motorcycle/bike together

-calling someone something in another language (bonus if they don't understand what it means and says it back)

-voice messages

-cooking/baking together

-when a character wears something new and asks 'how does it look?' And the other absolutely short circuits

-sitting between someone's legs?? (Doesn't have to be inherently sexual, it's just cute like:

-playing with someone's hair

-head on someone's lap and they just look up with the sappiest smile on their face

-oh my the inherent and absolute banger of peppering kisses on someone's face!!

-Kissing someone's nose (as in a 'boop' kind of way)

-FOREHEAD TO FOREHEAD (bonus if one of them is cupping the others cheeks)

-Kissing someone's hand

-Scar kissing

-watching someone play video games

-taking pictures of the dumb shit they do (and them favoring those pictures over normal ones)

-friendship bracelets

-personal special friendship greetings

-still using/wearing something someone's outgrown (small rings on necklaces, old tee shirts as headbands, etc also; "you kept that?" "Of course, why wouldn't I? It's special to me." )

-Painting someone's nails

-Seeing how peaceful someone looks while sleeping

-'I missed you.'

-Grabbing someone by the wrist as they're about to leave and saying 'wait-...stay.'

-Hand/finger on someone's mouth and the one with mouth covered is silently short circuits/panics

-pinkie promises

-maybe this is one sided joy but tickle fights

-pillow fights

-Going swimming (bonus if one of them isn't dressed for water and the other is so they just drag them into the pool)

-hugging someone from behind with arms around their waist and head resting on their shoulder

-hugging someone with so much force that they almost fall over

-putting someone's hair over their ear/clipping it

-Getting into a certain media because of someone

-When pets like a person and the owner is like 'Awww they like you, they're usually shy/etc' and it's symbolism for their relationship

-'oh you like this?' (Starts buying merch or whatever it is just for them)/(gives the one they own to them)

-riding something together and the other has to hold them tightly/close

-playing video games together or just watching them play

-Distraction kisses (whether to beat the other in a game or just to distract the long enough to let them escape, it's good)

-singing karaoke together or just preforming as a duo

-When a character wins or finishes a race and they immediately rush to a certain person, asking them 'did you see me/that/did I win??' Cause all they really care about is the person they're asking's opinion

-A staring at B from a far and B noticing them and either waving/smiling at them or blowing them a kiss from a far and A just looking away really quickly cause they were caught

-Saving spots/anything for somebody

-drawing somebody (bonus if the muse actually sees it and they're like 'woah is that me?? You're a great artist!!' And artist reacts by either quickly closing it or just dying)

-licking lips, wether it's their own or their partner's, it's good

-"you taste like (food)"

-aaa goes along with licking lips but like savoring the taste

-*calls other their s/o in front of people proudly and said s/o is either embarrassed or really likes that they're not afraid to be known that they're together*

-alternatively, calling the other their s/o when it's just them and they haven't decided what they are and said s/o is very much short circuiting

-ALTERNATIVELY that but they're together and one of them uses a cute nickname for the other!!

-Leaving Notes around for them w cute messages

-communicating through a notebook/notes together in class

-throwing paper airplanes at them (they have notes inside)

-carrying something someone else always forgets

-sending songs that remind them of each other

-not exactly romantic but this still slaps, other friends seeing their pinning from a mile away and putting bets on them

-when couple gets together, one person going 'TOLD YOU/CALLED IT! HAND IT OVER, (NICKNAME)' and the doubters reluctantly hand over 20 bucks

-and when they do get together and find out, friend group is like 'yeah and what?? Y'all were so obvious *acts out/recalls their past pinning*' and couple just shuts down

-Oh and the pinners somehow gushing to their friends about said crush

-making pictures of said crush and them as their wallpaper

-the dumbest possible contact names for each other

-making a flower crown for someone/putting flowers in the other's hair/tucking a flower behind their ear

-describing a kiss or a feeling as addicting

-describing something as downright sinful

-Siblings or friends cheering/teasing the couple (wether they're dating or pinning, it's always fun)

-running through the rain together and laughing

-Dancing together (bonus if one of them is reluctant or inexperienced to dance and the other teaches them or just tells them to have fun, also bonus if they do 'the dip')

-Taking care of someone while they're sick

-Intoxicated/high/sick person confesses that they like the other/gets affectionate/flirts and other is very blushy (bonus if other gets to see a side of the intoxicated they've never seen before)

-Sharing a drink (like milkshake)

-Kissing someone's lips to taste something or get lipstick

-The visual of lipstick smudged or all over

-A seeing B with a different hairstyle and absolutely being like: 😳��‼️

-Same reaction but A hears B's morning voice

-Preforming on stage and performer (who's already with s/o) points at their s/o in the crowd and is like 'this one's for you, babe!' And said s/o is embarrassed but finds it endearing

-or the exact opposite where s/o points at performer and says 'THATS MY S/O!!!' very proudly and loudly

Okay why is this so goddamn well thought out!!!! Honestly we should make this an ask game one day bc I’m the “THATS MY SO!!!!” trope

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“Go and die for all I care!” - tali & nora somehow pls

okay so i’m combining this with the other prompt you sent, 14 from this list. for extra angst purposes!

prompt source! 

so this one is... set in the canon universe, but isn’t exactly canon??? a similar situation to this is planned, but it’s. very different. (very, very different lmao). BUT i adapted it to fit the prompt. because otherwise it wouldn’t have made as much sense. 

CW: some discussion & references to suicide. under a cut bc it got long!!

"Fine," Talithasnapped, "just go and die for all I care!"

"Maybe I fucking will,"Alinora snapped back. "Beats hanging around in this lousy fuckinglife." Alinora slammed the door shut behind her and stomped down the hall.Tears burned at her eyes but she ignored them. That woman was so... she wasso... 

She was so irritating!

Alinora wasn't exactly happy aboutthis either, thank you very much, but it was the only way. Nomagical solution was going to drop in their laps. There wasn't a deus exmachina waiting around the corner. There was only them versus a god--and evenwith the power they had accumulated, they were still mortal. Whathope did they have against Fate? The only way... 

This was the only way.

She pushed through the doors,stepping out into the little pocket world Talitha had created. There were days,like this one, when Alinora really hated this place. Talitha was everywhere.Her magic fueled it, created it, shaped it. It no longer drew from her, but herhand was in everything. You couldn't turn around without seeing her.Which was the last thing Alinora needed--or wanted--right now.

She made for the gates. Maybe she'dvisit Elaena. Spend some time in Death's castle. Challenge Death to a game ofchess. Or poker. Or something. Anything to keep her mind off that terrible,wretched, awful woman. 

Talitha slumped into the floor. Whyhad she said that? Of all the things she could have fucking said, shesaid that. To an already suicidal woman with a history ofsacrificing herself for the greater good.

Why am I such a terribleperson? She buried her face in her hands.Her only consolation was that Alinora was probably heading for the trainingroom, to ruin a few unsuspecting dummies. Lyr would probably bitch about havingto make more, but honestly, Talitha couldn't care less right then. She'd makethem herself, if it meant that Alinora had a safe, productive wayto work out her anger.

There was a distant squeal as thegates swung open. Talitha's head snapped up.

Oh no. Oh fuck. Oh, Talitha fuckingJade, you're a goddamn idiot.  Shescrambled to her feet and threw open the balcony doors just in time to watchAlinora stride through the gates, head held high. Talitha turned and ran,nearly flying down the stairs in her haste to get outside.

She burst through the doors.Tracking Alinora would be hard, because as soon as she left, she probablyshadow-stepped away. But, Elaena was Alinora's handler. It wouldn't be thefirst time that Talitha had needed to contact her over Alinora disappearing.Not usually because of them having a stupid fight, though. Itwas usually Aishlynn. Or Asa. Or Lyr, once. Or. You know. Most everyone butTalitha, because normally, Talitha watched her fucking mouth.

Elaena. Babe. Need your help, please.Kind of panicking at the moment. Talithasent out the prayer, the thoughts lined with a desperate edge. Her heart washammering in her chest. Her tongue tasted of bile.

Elaena appeared, and for onceTalitha didn't even bat an eye at the way she materialized from shadow. Therewas a bored look on her face, instead of the usual bit of concern.

"If this is about Alinora,she's at the castle. Was in the middle of badgering Dad into playingchess." Elaena paused. "Pretty sure he's going to give in." Sheshrugged. "Got a fucking soft spot a mile wide. Guess you two got into it,then?"

"I said something stupid,"Talitha said. "And I want to apologize for it."

Elaena nodded. "You'll get yourchance. Go... prepare some grand gesture, or whatever it is you lovebirds do.I'll keep her out of trouble. Or whatever."

Talitha slumped. "Thanks,El."

She waved a hand. "S'my job. Godo yours."

And then she disappeared.

Talitha stared off into thedistance, over the bleak forest, where she could see the spires of Death'scastle. Alinora was in good hands, for the moment. Talitha needed to come upwith a damn good apology.

And then hope Alinora could forgivethe unforgivable.

Alinora rubbed her face. Three gamesof chess--two against Death, once against Elaena--, half a bottle of wine, anda really good spar later, and she was home. Sore and tired asfuck, but home. And dreading what she was going to find in their bedroom.

Would Talitha still be there? Or wasthis the last straw?

At the time, Alinora hadn't thoughtpast more than leaving. She hadn't thought about how it might look from theoutside. Not until her second glass of wine. She should have come home then. Butshe didn't. Instead, she took Elaena up on her offer to spar, and... leftTalitha to worry some more.

Obviously Tali would know that therehad to be very specific circumstances for Alinora to do what she was planning.It wasn't just something you rushed into half-cocked. But that wouldn't make itany easier to bear. Wouldn't make how they had left things any more comforting.Wouldn't have made it any more certain that Alinora was going to come home.

Alinora took a deep breath, andpushed open the doors.

Talitha was on the couch, lookingfidgety and nervous as hell, but also extremely soft and open in her too-bigsweater and leggings. Alinora's favorite dish was on the coffee table (oneTalitha hated dearly) and there was a mug of her favorite tea as well. Andcandles. The warm, cinnamon scented ones that Alinora only brought out onspecial occasions, because it was easier to just use magelights most of thetime.

Talitha gave her a little, crookedsmile. "So, um. I said something stupid earlier," she said, becauseof course she was just going to jump right into it.

Alinora closed the door softlybehind her, leaning into it, listening. Hoping her expression wasn't toosevere.

"And... I shouldn't have saidit. I didn't mean it. I was just... angry. And that's not. It isn't an excuse.I know better. I know that, that words hurt. That they mean things.That they can cut deep. Make scars that last a long time. And, I don't. I don'twant to do that to you? That's not the kind of person that I want to be. Not thekind of relationship that I want us to have.

"And. I'm going to try and dobetter. In the future. Whether, um. Whether you forgive me or not. But I'mreally hoping that you do, and we get to continue to this, because. You'rehonestly the best thing to ever happen to me. The light of my fucking life,honestly. And I don't want to lose you because I'm an idiot. But I mean, you'dbe well within you're rights to just. Drop me. Because I was an asshole.Majorly. Worse than I've been since---"

Alinora held up a hand. "You'reforgiven," Alinora said softly. She hadn't contemplated anything else. Hadbarely registered the words, barely realized what Talitha had said in the firstplace. All she had seen was Talitha's anger, her immediate shut down of themost obvious way to end this, before it got any worse. That probably saidsomething about her mental health, something she didn't really want to examineat that moment. "It's not like I haven't been an asshole... most of thetime."

Talitha snorted. "Yeah, but you'venever told me to--" She cut herself off.

Alinora raised an eyebrow. "Howmany times did I tell you to jump off a cliff, Tali?"

"Yeah, but you didn't mean it."

"Neither did you."

"Yeah, but mine was said out ofanger. It wasn't a joke. I wasn't teasing you. I was pissed,and frustrated, and I said something stupid. It's different."

"Are you trying to talk me outof forgiving you?" It wasn't working, but Alinora was curious anyway.

"No! Yes. Maybe! I don'tknow."

Alinora snorted. "It isn'tworking. Isn't going to work either." She walked over to her, and sat onthe couch next to her. "You said something stupid. I'll grant you that.But I don't think it was out of anger."

"No? What would you call thatthen?"

"Fear." Alinora leanedagainst her side. "You were afraid. So you said something mean. Becausethat's what we do, when we're afraid. You and me. Doesn't make it a good thing.But it's an understandable thing. So. I forgive you. Because I know you didn'tmean it. I know... that you meant the opposite, really."

"I did," Talitha murmured."Still do."

Alinora nodded. "See?" Shepaused. "Besides, if I didn't forgive you, who's going tocling to me like an octopus all night? I won't be able to sleep without that, Idon't think."

Talitha laughed, wetly. "Guessnone of the others are clingy like me, huh?"

"Not even close."

"I love you, Nora."

"I love you too, Tali,"she murmured.

Talitha kissed the top of her head."Light of my fuckin' life." 

[amodernpersephone]

tw: screaming, venting, general unpleasantness, some implications of bad things i do to myself, and yk, life and shit. please look away kdjdkd

so...i'm being asked to join this debate society thing. asked is a gentler word which in this sentence means being forced. i won't recount my whole life story and i physically don't have the fucking energy for that right now but. to put it simply, i excel in certain situations, including academic ones, particularly those that involve socializing. so for a long time, i've been expected to join things like these, campus journalism, competitions, the student council, and now this.

the student council...from my experience this year was nothing short of terrifying. i still get nightmares from it sometimes. left and right people kept asking me to run for president or vice or something. some did it with good intentions and other people just wanted me out of their competition. in any case, i hated every minute of it. because i didn't want to. i never once hinted that i wanted to. i repeatedly said, outrightly, multiple fucking times that i did not want to run for a position in any shape, way, or form. did that stop them?

no. or else i wouldn't be telling this story, now wouldn't i? in any case, the asking turned to pressuring which slowly evolved into threatening. that was the worst. i was mortified to see these people acting like this and i know some of them meant well, some say they saw potential in me and wanted me to have a seat there and i was flattered and i appreciated it but I DONT FUCKING WANT TO.

after being raised in a family with multiple politicians and witnessing how they all acted and you actually think i want anything to do with that shit? no.

but of course, as always, people never listened. the threatening became a bit more hostile, from publicly embarrassing me to continuously spamming me with creepy shit. (funnily enough one of them sent me a bunch of creepypastas and jokes on them im into that shit /nsx)

at some point i was literally at the verge of giving in and just fucking running for any goddamn position so they'd shut the fuck up already. and at that point as well i realized how fucking backwards it was???

aren't you supposed to threaten me IF i run?? this makes shit sense?? till i realized it wasn't students perpatuating this, it was my teachers. they saw my skills and my background and my achievements and said "hey let's pressure this kid into joining the council so she'll despise all of us for the rest of her life :D"

and so i did...not join the council lol fuck them. it's easy to see the potential in someone but please don't fucking forget that is still a human being in there, with thoughts and feelings and the right to a decision you should've been capable of respecting but heck no y'all are crazy.

and i think a great portion of why i'm actually good at what i do is missed bc of this. i excel in this because I LIKE IT. it's not the other way around. i am happy with what i do and that equally makes what i do good ig. i am skilled in this because i enjoy every minute of it. i don't want to join something people expect me to excel in because i fully know i'm gonna do a mediocre job with it.

plus i probably would've fucked up the council for funsies /j

idk if anyone is actually going to understand me or if i sound bratty, prideful, or mean but. i don't want to do something that makes me feel like i'm in hell incarnate, only to be constantly pressured into performing well. i perform well because every single minute i spend doing it gives me happy points which convert to skill points and become power ups.

for clarity's sake, i excel in socialization. a bit odd if you're asking me but i...don't feel shy. or if i do it's mostly self-induced and only lasts until i open my mouth. i talk. quite a lot really. sometimes i render myself physically incapable of stopping lmao

in any case, talking in front of a crowd doesn't faze me. direct eye contact isn't at all scary. i strive in situations where i get to talk to people and they get to talk to me. which is weird but got translated into me becoming a very intelligent person somehow.

which is a lie tho all i have is a good memory and an acciden roll 10 on charisma and that's literally it

but i'm good at talking because i like the talk™. if you talk to me about my interests i could go on for days. if you ask me aboyt cloud formations yes pls lets talk <3 if u talk to me about something i don't enjoy, say, why this candidate and that candidate or ask me if this material and this chemical, i will literally punt you /j

so, this debate society thing is scaring me in a way that makes me absolutely uncomfortable. i plan on saying no but knowing the very very big possibility of starting that cycle again terrifies me. i havent stopped crying all dayjdbdjdb i already missed the first screening because i was in pain and apparently that was iNcoNvEniEnCinG and i should warn them next time

yeah sure i'll try to schedule my bouts of extreme pain next time ma'am that'll be fun

and one teacher who is particularly nice on one stick and was also a part of the people who pressured me last time on another is going out of her way to offer me a chance to join which i think breaks club policy wtf

the notion is nice but i have neither the sanity nor the mental capacity to even do something like this. i can barely even keep myself alive between classes.

so yeah, that about sums it up. i'm in a deadlock once again with nothing but absolute fear and anxiety and i want to say no so fucking bad but knowing how they treat the word no as a "maybe if you convince me" in the most horrible misconstruction ever,,,,it makes me wish i'd shut up a few years ago and maybe i wouldn't be stuck like this. what i'd give to fucking disappear and fade away from it all huh.