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krawdad · 2 years ago

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I've had zero help from medical anything aside from being prescribed muscle relaxers and acupuncture

A massage therapy place we found on fucking google has been able to verify that this is extensive fucking overuse injury that is trapping nerves and has also been able to unstick some of my shit

My shoulders already hang more symmetrically and I have literally gotten taller

This is a tremendously encouraging development but I am so profoundly pissed that it took this long to just end up having to pay out of pocket for a random ass place we found online.

Especially since it turns out that the problem and solution that I presented to every single doctor I've seen since the beginning fucking years ago was exactly correct goddammit. And it's been slowly, excruciatingly getting worse and worse every single day in the meantime.

#no telling what it's going to fucking cost to be able to use my hands again #i guess my 'spend what money you manage make like you're going to have to pay for some inevitable exorbitant medical expense' worked out #i hate this #but I look forward to however much more movement i am able to afford i guess #dude has to put his entire weight into unsticking the stuck shit. it sounds like pulling apart a frozen chicken #and it hurts like you're ripping branches out of my flesh. but in a good way.#maybe making it less physically demanding to move my mummified ass around will let me have more energy #i miss going on walks with my wife and working with my hands. those are like my favorite things to do #it's hard to not feel let down when you have measurably been failed #but hey my neck isn't permanently tilted 10 degrees to the left anymore that's something #i am very very sore though #i have probably been dissociating a lot #apparently i handle having my shit painfully crunched uncommonly well. which like. possibly part of the problem.

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