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aethenia · 1 year ago

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adhd medication is so crazy. you're telling me that over a decade of mental health problems have virtually all but been cured by one pill? that i have been writing a diary consistently for months? that i work 35-40 hours a week in a demanding, stressful job that i love? that i have been able to salvage and create friendships that i maintain? that i can get out of bed in the morning, keep my space clean, read regularly, and eat on a schedule? that all along, all those desperate hopes, those long nights and heartaches could have been avoided?

#processing is an ongoing process #and becoming healthy means looking back and seeing all the ways that i've been hurt that were too painful to acknowledge in high definition #but holy hell has 2023 been the best year of my life so far #and i have complete and utter faith that my life can only go up from here #and i didn't need anyone to help me do this #but now i've done it i've been able to find so many good people to make a part of my life #learning how to have a relationship that didn't feel like i was betraying myself with every touch i acquiesced to has also been a journey #but here's my long arse tumblr diary update bc there hasn't been one in a while :)#this much positivity sounds fake/performative #but this blog is my record and scrapbook #and this blog has record of too many of the lows and not enough of the mediums/highs

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