#but for theyre like 'nah too poor for that we can tell by your car'

[firefighting-idiot]

My cousin being an absolute legend and taking me to pick up my car from the dealership (for a recall fix)

[blackberry-gingham]

i’m just imagining shy reader had a really bad day and on top of that is stuck at school when the weather is raining/snowing (maybe their ride never came) and theyre freezing.

then teddy boy john sees the poor little reader upset, cold, and tired and asks if they’re okay. but the reader has heard rumors about john, and their wary and scared of him. but john ends up convincing them to come with him,, so he takes them to his house to warm them up and provide some comfort for them after a long day 🥺🥺🥺

SJSKSKSKSK TEDDY!JOHN?? READER COMFORT?? AND A HIGH SCHOOL AU??!??!

I swear you guys literally can read my mind, like you all be sending in stuff I would've just written myself at some point 🥴

Here we go!

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You scan up and down the road for the seventh time now. Class let out nearly an hour ago, and with good timing too. Something of a snow storm has taken over the town and as you've been waiting for your ride, a delicate frost has clumped your eyelashes together and snow has begun accumulating on your hair and shoulders.

With a sigh, you pace the side walk by the parking lot where your brother was supposed to be picking you up. You kick a mound of snow in frustration. It doesn't appear that he's coming.

A bitter wind blasts past, chilling you to the bone, even through your winter coat. You hunch up your shoulders and scuttle over to a little bench so you can hunker down.

You shovel off a patch of snow from it so you can sit. Not that it matters, you think to yourself, considering you're already practically soaked. Absent mindedly, you kick your feet out in front of you. Your socks are saturated with snow, and you're worried your mother will kill you for getting your nice leather riding boots soping wet.

She did tell you to wear your rain boots after all.

A few more minutes pass and by now you're ready to try and walk the several miles it'll take you to get home. You stand up, deciding you've finally had enough, only to jump as one of the old metal school doors slams several feet off in the distance.

Quizzically, you turn to look after the noise. You thought for sure everyone had gone home by now...

There, heading now towards the same parking lot you yourself are waiting at, trudges the John Lennon. Considering where he's just come out from and, well, who he is, you immediately know he's just got done serving some detention time. You crinkle up your nose and turn away, hoping he doesn't try to interact with you.

Typical teddy boy. Your mum warned you about boys like him.

You stand frozen in place, trying your best to look purposeful, until the gentle crunching of John's boots pass you by. They stop just behind you.

"Oi, what are you doing out here?"

For a moment, you consider ignoring him. But unfortunately, you were raised with manners. Curses.

You turn around on a dime, a stoic look on your face to convey that you are not to be messed with, "I'm waiting for my ride, thank you". You shift your weight beneath you, hoping it doesn't come across as nervous energy. You've just now realized you can't really feel your toes...

John surveys the empty parking lot and then the desolate school grounds around you.

"Doesn't look like they're coming, eh"

"W-well, if they're not here soon, I'll just w-walk", a violent shiver overtakes you. You immediately stiffen, and stare at John, terrified. He looks back at you with his little, shark like eyes, and suddenly you feel very vulnerable and alone.

"Nah, can't have that. Look at you, you're freezing love. Here, uuuh...", John takes off his flat cap and scarf and hastily secures them onto you. He takes a minute to appraise his work, but he must've come to the conclusion that his efforts are insufficient.

"Say, my bike's over there", he points to a little motorcycle, covered in snow, "how about you can come with me and I'll take you home?"

"N-no one's home... Mum's out visiting and dad's at work. I-I don't have a key...", Your voice starts to shake and you find you feel very abandoned right now. A tear rolls down your face, soon followed by another and another. You're just so cold, and tired, and scared, you can't seem to help yourself anymore.

John jolts, looking a bit scared himself. "U-uh, there there now, don't cry love", he checks his pockets for something, perhaps a handkerchief, and comes up empty. Instead, he takes the tail of the scarf he gave you and wipes your tears with a surprising gentleness.

"I-I'll tell you what! How's about you come home with me and wait until your mum or dad gets back, and then you can call home from my phone", he smiles at you nervously, and you can tell he's trying very hard to stop your crying.

You shiver again, and sniff. The tears have stopped for now and you figure it's time to weigh your options. He is right you know, you're quite cold. Far too cold to make it home without catching something. And certainly too cold to wait on your doorstep for someone to come let you in. But also... You've heard bad things about John and teds in general practically all your schooling days.

John looks at you with eyes full of concern. He shifts the weight of his school bag, but otherwise waits patiently for you to make up your mind.

With a soft sigh you look up the road one more time for any sign of your brother's car, then imagine the long, long distance home to walk.

Finally, you turn to John with your big, wet eyes and nod.

"Capital! Let's get you warm, eh?" he takes your hand and helps you through the thick snow on the way to his bike, "I can make a cuppa you know! O-or hot cocoa if you like! My Aunt Mimi is out too, but she won't mind of you come over for a bit. Er, maybe that is"

John situates you on the backseat behind him, then starts up the motor. You don't respond, but you do at least feel a bit better. You lean against his back and hold tight as he speeds off. He's surprisingly warm, you note.

As promised, you arrive at John's house in no time at all. He lets you in and relief washes over you as warmth seeps into your frozen bones. John leads you into the living room and directs you to the couch.

"There now... I can take your coat and boots if you'd like. Then I can start the kettle and we can watch the telly!"

You thank him and shed your soaked layers. John hangs them up on the coat pegs in the hall, then disappears into the kitchen.

In the meantime, you look around the space. It looks just like any other house. Clean, a few nice decorations, and a welcoming atmosphere. The couch you're on is clearly old and worn, but it's still rather comfy. There's a fuzzy blanket drapped over the back. It's much newer looking, and you pull it down to wrap yourself in.

It smells a bit like John.

Nearly as soon as you're settled, you can hear John taking off his own jacket and boots, before plodding into the room. "Kettle's on", he says as he leans over to turn on the telly. He tunes it to a funny little show and then joins you on the couch.

This is one of your favorites, and you instantly feel your mood elevate. You didn't expect a guy like John would like it too...

The two of you watch and laugh on occasion until the water comes to a boil. John hops up and asks if you want tea or cocoa.

"Cocoa please"

He nods and scurries off. When he returns, it's with two piping hot mugs and a look of proud satisfaction. "Careful now...", He hands you a mug and then carefully sits besides you.

Feeling courteous, you move the blanket so he can join you under it. He smiles, and inches closer.

The two of you sip and watch in silence, but you've begun to get lost in your thoughts.

John's been awful nice to you through all this. He's done so much to put you at ease, when he could've just ignored you completely and went on home. You cast a glance his way, and then quickly back at the screen. What if... he's not as bad as you've been led to believe?

Suddenly, John gives a big yawn and stretches for the sky. Next thing you know, his arm is strategicly draped around your shoulder.

You smile to yourself.

"John...?"

"Yah?"

You lean in and give his cheek a little kiss. "Thank you"

[derekmorganscrocs]

Nancy Drew 2x10

Thoughts While Watching

Spoiler Alert!!

YO- THE- WHAT IS THAT-

Pls the Ryan puns, I can’t even lmaooo. Wholesome Nancy? PLEASE LMAOOOOO OK OK THIS GIRL IS MAKING ME LAUGH. oh no- the straw: SHE KNOWS. ms reporter is gonna DNA test nancy.

Is aces contact info for his bro “long lost brother”? GEORGE IS A RENTAL CAR? Pls. George has abs- I think I have a crush ngl. Bess knows- ODETTE IS CRUSHING ON BESS. Nick and Bess are about to be sister wives no cap.

Apparently he is Tamura, not Tamara... I’ve been calling him the second this whole time- was no one gonna tell me?! Oh enemies to lovers 250k words I see how it is. JOKING, JOKING. We don’t ship nancy and tamura.

“I thought I smelled bacon” OH PERIOD GIL. Sass king, I love. Oh Nancy getting all up in his space is something else. Good to see that Gil is rockin with ghosts, as he should.

“Typical waitress occurrence” okay, Tamura is kind of growing on me. He’s a little funny. “Whatever do you mean, another?” Ace stop trying to lie please. HOW OLD IS TAMURA- oh he’s like a history guy... I really just thought he was like an eternal being for a sec. “the supernatural detective and the basic one”

OMG BESS IS FALLING FOR ODETTE IN GEORGE’s BODY. and nick is seeing a contractor. (Awkward thumbs up). I STILL THINK GRANT IS A MURDERER. pls Nancy’s lil cheesey smile is so cute and funny.

Ryan coming off all smoldery, okay Riley smith. Own that swag.

Bess falling over made me laugh. Odette coming thru with the skating skill. Odess? Bessdette?? I love. Ace’s brother??? ALCOHOL- ODETTE. ACE HELP A GIRL OUT HERE!!!?

Tamura got left at the alter. NO WAY I WAS RIGHT LMAO sorry Tamura lol I know you got left at the alter or whatever but I like being right. PLS HES SO SARCASTIC ABOUT THE DRESS THEORY NO- AHAHA HES KILLING ME. (poor word choice but the point stands).

OH NO I SAW THIS NICK CLIP ON THE IG- IF THIS BITCH LIGHTS MY MAN ON FIRE I STG. NAH NAH NAH HES STUCK IN THERE. WITH A MURDERER.

OH M G. I SAW GAY SO I SAID GAY. THEYRE IN LOVE. ODETTE AND BESS IS SO CUTE. I love the French accent too.

OH NO NICK- DON’T GET LIT ON FIRE MAN, YEAH DUH THE DOOR IS WELDED SHUT- OH THEY BUSTED THAT DOWN LIKE NOTHING. Fire extinguisher fight.

SALT AND BURN, HOES. WHY WOULD YOU BREATHE IN THE SMOKE WTF

My girl nancy just fainted omg. I’m cackling at the prospect of what’s about to happen. BESS AND GEORGE GOT ARRESTED- GEORGES HAIR. what’s going on rn. “My face isn’t working yet” MOOD.

IM CACKLING OMFG TAMURA SLOW MO- pack it up property brother number three. “Were you just waking in slow motion” MY GIRL IS STRUGGLING. she’s trying so hard. GIL TOO- OKAY BUT GIL IS HOT- “so smoldery” YES MAAM HE IS. GOOD TASTE GIRL. She’s petting him? “No seriously get me away from them” the way she said that is sending me- she’s so freaked.

FANSON RIGHTS!! NANCY NOOOO. NO NANCY. STOP PETTING GEORGE’s BOYFRIEND PLEASE NANCY. THE HAIR- THE HAIR. I don’t blame her not gonna lie, I would also want to touch his hair. “I’ll kill Annette” MAAM JEALOUS MUCH OMFG. “Your palms are really sweaty” ACE STOP OMFG. Wow sis snapped there omg.

They locked her... in the freezer.

He FOUND the brother- ACE HARDY ACE HARDY ACE HARDY PLEASE. Ace half Hardy? Okay we’ve paused the show so I can do some math: so Ace’s dad was the Marshall for mom 1 and father to brother. And also father to ace but different mother. Okay we got it. Bess and Ace are such a cute friendship.

Aw FANSON YAY. “We’re gonna work on it okay? And we’re gonna get better at it.” PLEASE SOMEONE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT OMG. o nancy ruined the moment.

“She’s okay. Just a lil boy crazy” RYAN IS SO CONFUSED OMG.

Nancy having a breakdown in the freezer is a mood. Is she about to stab someone- NO SHES BREAKING OUT OF THE FREEZER. THEYRE ALL THERE OH NO. why’d she go over the railing like that I’m laughing so hard- SHE JUST BODY SLAMMED GEORGE OMFG IM SCREAMING LMAO

OH GOD THEY CAN HEAR GEORGE AND NANCY FIGHTING FROM THE FRONT- i love the absolute dragging that’s going on here, honestly vibes. it’s like they’re feeding a child.

The girls are fighting (Tamura and Gil) NICK JUST KICKED THEM OUT.

I thought she was gonna escape lmao. WHY DOES SHE RUN LIKE THAT OMG AHAHHAHA. oh no Tamura is... they’re gonna kiss Rn I’m gonna barf ew. STOP MOVING SO SLOW JUST GET IT OVER WITH SO I CAN LOOK AWAY PLS. oh nvm she’s good now. She just dipped and Tamura is like: what now

LOVE THIS GIRL TALK OMG. YES PLS NANCY. Did George just emoji? AW GIRL HUG. I love the friend moment here, pls the sleuth sisters are the CUTEST trio.

HIS BROTHER IS IN TOWN? PETTY BESS I LOVE HER.

aw poor Tamura... oh no omg I actually feel bad for him now :( aw besties!!! Teamwork moment here, I love. HE TOTALLY HAS A CRUSH ON NANCY AND IDK HOW TO FEEL 😭

WHAT OMG DID ACES DAD GET KIDNAPPED? That might just be an old photo I’m kinda dumb ngl

NANCY CHOSE GIL? ARE THEY ABOUT TO KISS RIGHT- yup they just kissed.

RYAN IS SMILING WHEN HES TEXTING HER OH NO. HES GONNA GET HIS HEART BROKEN 😭

DAMN IT VAL. NO NEED TO OUT NANCY AS THE GRANDCHILD, HOLY CRAP.

Okay, so the episode is over, but I KNEW one of them was gonna fall in love with a ghost. KNEW IT! But on the down low, Bess and Odette are cute.

Sister:

Literal GASP at Ryan’s photo shoot. Like sat up like she rose from the dead and gasped SO LOUD- Yeah we’re both Riley smith groupies, what about it.

(When they locked nancy in the freezer) “I gotta ask. Is the meat hook still in there?”

Here are some more (ignore the contact image please lmao the vibe in my phone is random pics of my friends/family):

So the only explanation you really need is she LOVES Riley Smith, and is definitely crushing on Ryan lmao. She literally GASPED so loud at model Ryan.

And she’s not a huge fan of Tamura x Nancy. Tbh idk how I feel yet.

[fotiathymos]

yeah nah im expanding on it

Under a read more because it got long, of course it got long.

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I mean the basic issue is that I’m calling it ‘impulse control’. It’s more shown as reflex thinking in the movie that kind of end up becoming called impulsive. 

It’s common to say Galo lack’s impulse control and that he is very impulsive in his actions. But it isn’t really impulsive at all. People discredit Galo’s thought process just because it appears instantaneous. I feel like he’s considered more impulsive in how he’s just ‘loud and jumpy’.

He does think his actions through. The most obvious being when in Lio de Galo and fighting Kray and Galo doesn’t dodge the attack and just pushes right through it. He knows what he’s doing there. He has spur of the moment thoughts because that’s his job, he has to think on his toes to stay alive and keep others alive. In Galo-hen he had to think quick to save Thyma’s life, so throwing goo over himself is what worked. 

And in turn that’s exactly the same with Lio. In order to survive he has to think on his toes and react in an instant. He does think through his actions but has to do it fast to ensure the lives of his people are safe. In Lio’s introduction scene we all know (at least after you’ve seen the movie) that he was trying to get caught and put into prison, but he didn’t have to show off.. that hard. Gueira and Meis get taken out real fast and they do put up a fight so it doesn’t seem faked (not that I think Freeze Force would care if they wanted to get arrested, they may have just ended up ‘processing’ them faster through their torture system if anything). But Lio really has fun with it. And plays off of Galo’s actions really well. This obviously showing how compatible they are but how alike they are in their well I guess impulses. Yes, they’re fighting so they both have to be on their toes but it was way different then Galo vs Guiera and Meis. G n M both tease Galo by circling around him but that’s as far as showing off or playing with Galo goes.

Lio teases the fight by beckoning Galo forward and ramming his bike into him but he didn’t have to go flying into other buildings, have fancy sword fights and etc. Meanwhile poor G n M were lying on the floor getting frostbite for the 20 minute fight. But maybe this is stating Lio to be more a ‘show off’ then impulsive. Hmm.

Galo in the start of the fight is told to ‘not do anything crazy’ but of course he has to fight and capture them. So his impulse was to fight them. Still pretty thought through, not sure what the plan would’ve been if Galo didn’t fight them. I guess protocol was to wait for Freeze Force. So I could say it wasn’t that impulsive of an action.

Lio’s shown a little impulsive in his snarky back talk about government officials. In prison hes once again thinking on his toes and running head first into cars and under them in order to save his people. In the cave scene he gets so upset with Galo’s remark of ‘I didnt know you Burnish even ate food?’ and almost burns Galo. I also believe in the scene where G n M sacrifice themselves for Lio’s sake, Lio was ready to just sacrifice himself for them instead. There is some impulsivity on all three of their parts there. 

The volcano and dragon scene is touchy considering it was an impulse to just hunt Kray down and burn everything on his way to find him in a threat. Lio was under massive stress and anguish and it was a last resort impulse of not even saving himself but maybe possibly he could save the others. So it was in fact the most impulsive thing he’s shown doing but like... its understandable. That also ties in with him fighting Galo inside poor Aina’s helicopter. Lio’s just on his last thread and just wants Galo out of his way.

Honestly all these impulses are logical and thought out in a way for Lio but it is the same with Galo. I think it just comes down to how Lio is more soft spoken and serious and/or angry because he’s in a life threatening situation 24/7 and Galo is well, on his daily job and his coworkers can tease him about how reactionary he is. When serious stuff does go down (ex. talking to Aina at the lake, confronting Kray, calming down crying Lio) he does have a more serious tone that mimics Lio’s. Also just how... the entire movie is forcing the viewer to see Galo in a rather downplayed hero role of being poked fun at, having comedic scenes of his butt on fire and ‘oh how silly he is that he can’t fight with out his matoi’. And in contrast to that, the most Lio is poked fun at is by Vulcan beating and abusing him but its not made to show the viewer how silly Lio is but how horrible Vulcan is. Lio is more so put on a pedestal and you are clearly meant to sympathize with him.

This feels like side tracking but its sort of not. Galo and Lio are super similar and theyre shown in the movie to be different in obvious ways of contrasting color schemes, life situations, and well.. Being viewed as someone who is taken more seriously, Lio. And being the comedic hero of the story and taken less seriously, Galo. So when they both are doing impulsive things its under different lighting and effect and one is made to seem so silly and stupid and the other is more serious and sad. When they're both just trying to save lives! 

And well, in the final mech fight scenes and the end of the film, Lio is leans into his impulsivity. This time both Galo and Lio are showing off fighting vs Kray. And Kray is so stressed out and annoyed by them both just playing with him. Galo and Lio are still very much thinking through their actions together and fighting for lives but now both of them are shown in a more lighter way of having fun with it. Lio encourages everything Galo gives him. Galo just asked for a better mech, Lio built and designed it. Same goes for the Matoi. Lio leans more into being impulsive and showing off with Galo because Galo’s there to have his back in this fight, Lio’s not alone and stressed out and falling apart at the seams fighting for his life in a prison or burning a city with his tears. (It could also be why he was a bit more showy in the beginning cause Lio’s back up was G n M there but it still a different situation of them trying to get caught and not needing to go overboard in teasing and fighting. And with Galo they're teasing and fighting too but they're there to win.)

And unfortunately after Lio De Galon vs WhateverKraysMechWasCalledKrayXIDK.

Lio’s impulse is to... murder. Yes, its understandable with all he’s been though. All his family and friends are possibly dead or being tortured. His reaction is strong and violent. But before that Galo and him were both attacking Kray and there was no desperate attempts on either part to kill Kray. Galo knew Lio’s morals and Galo was shocked that Lio was running headfirst to go against his morals. Once again, yes, its understandable to have that reaction. But that was an impulse. When Galo was pushed to attack Kray one on one he held back. Galo did double punch the crap out of Kray but that was holding back. The man abused and manipulated Galo all his life and was the reason Lio was now dying on the floor. Galo is more controlled then Lio was. And they both had justifiable reasons to murder a man.

And then after the kiss, Lio leaning more into impulse then Galo, is exclaiming how they need to burn the whole entire planet. Both Galo and Lio are loud and proud in these moments for Galo de Lion. Lio even mimicking Galo’s kabuki-esc talking (bless his gay heart) and speeches. 

Okay, so I just talked about the whole entire movie. Wow. Of course I did.

To summarize I guess. They’re both impulsive but not stupidly impulsive. Lio was on the brink of stupidly impulsive moreso than Galo in just how he almost rejected all his sense of morals and life goal to kill a man. (Once again UNDERSTANDABLE) They’re equals. Its shown enough in the film. But shown in different lighting and effect on the viewer. All this just makes me feel that post movie Lio would still be impulsive and show offy and even moreso in situations where he’s not in a life threatening event. Lio would do a motorcycle jump off a car without a care for his safety while Galo is also gonna do a bike jump off a car but got his med kit with him, Aina on speed-dail and a cushion around the landing point. Lio would be more impulsive cause Galo’s there to have his back.

....................and I talked a lot again. I’ll read more this. BUT WOO. Please tell me your thoughts? If you agree or disagree?

I didnt reread this cause I did this with hair dye in so now imma go wash this stuff out and THEN ill reread this. Excuse typos or weird sentences ilu bye

[fart-gate]

SG1

Season 2 episode 12

"THE TOKRA"

Notes by me

- part 2

- PREVIOUSLY- Sam found where the tokra were, they seem p nice, sams dad has cancer, a tokra worm is also dying, I'm gonna fold martouf up and put him in my pocket to keep him w me at all times

- sg1: why won't you be our friends

Tokra: to put it mildly, u are just too dumb for us

- how do the tokra expect sg1 to accept the symbiotic "blending" thing when this whole time they have been avoiding murderous goaulds who are also worms in peoples heads

- when Sam is sad I am sad

- ask martouf to help u escape I'm sure hed be all for it

- Sam seems to have changed her mind about the tokra being too violating. Shes cool with it now, she just needed some time to process I guess

- or she can offer up her dad as a host! I cant tell if this is a bad idea or not

- "what is cancer" hes getting on my fuckin uwus

- haha suggesting this to hammond should go over well

- "greasy ass goauld"

- tealc being praised for defecting against apophis ❤ its what he deserves

- jacob: *dying*

Sam: *tv commercial voice* but wait! You could live if you only accept this worm in your head! No catch!

- "holy hannah" LMAO now we know where Sam gets it

- sam: dad we have a cure for cancer but you have to have a worm talking in your head for the rest of your life

Jacob: I'll be in the car

- I'm laughing so hard she tells him he has to stay with the tokra for the rest of his life and hes 100% fine with that like lol bye earth

- "the gate seems to only go to planets that support human life" I thought so

- when tealc shakes his hand and says "it is an honor" ❤❤❤❤

- there it is!! The cold feet have arrived

- its ok jacob just talk to the alien and it'll make u feel better

- OH MY GOD this worm is a Sassy Pants

- *both coughing pitifully*

- theyre perfect for each other

- "ive had almost 200 years of laughter with selmak" AAWWWW THATS CUTE AS HELL

- HE CALLED THE TOKRA HIS "FUTURE SOULMATE" IM LOSING MY MIND

- hes so up for this. Its nuts. I was sure he would be more skeptical but nah he heard about a worm that needed a head and signed right the fuck up

- when the spy goauld leaves the host and the host commits suicide in the tunnel O.O horrifying. I'm horrified

- this tokra needs to know if jacob is a good guy before going in him. I feel like this is the weirdest speed date ive ever watched

- you might die with the blending? Well shit. I mean what have they got to lose. They are gonna die either way

- Jacob was always proud of Sam 😊 maybe show it better next time tho instead of judging her on what job she has

- Daniel suggests more cancer patients could use some tokra worms? And hes right

- what if we were both dying.....and we were laying down next to each other ....and I asked u to kiss me so I could transfer my alien worm into your mouth....haha just kidding....unless..??..

- he really just swallowed that up didnt he

- the poor tokra saying bye to his former host :(

- I am legally obligated to comment on how pretty martouf looks in this episode

- Worm vs Worm

- leader lady: thank u jack *cheek kisses*

Jack: *visible confusion*

- finally an alliance of some sorts

- martouf offering to stay and protect jacob and selmak ahdbejsns

- Sam not leaving her dad😭

- Sam and martouf DREAM TEAM

- blending successful

- "HOLY HANNAH! NO MORE ARTHRITIS!!"

- I tried to catch the iris code when she punched it in on her arm band but alas my eyes are too slow :\

- Jacob is now tokra liaison and thats REALLY cool actually

- haha at least the leader lady is impressed with their makeshift dialing device

- martoufs flirt game STRONG

- like martouf didnt have to steal my heart so goddamn fast but here we are I guess

- selmak is the oldest and wisest of tokra? Yeesh no pressure Jacob

- Daniel and his earth culture box. Ive said it before and I'll say it again. If toxic by Britney spears doesnt start playing when they open it , I'm gonna throw hands

- "dont call us....we'll call you"

- so happy Sam didnt lose her dad!! I would have thrown my phone

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: . . . – – – . . . Carly: ? Carly: nodded on your phone Ali: OG 🍑📞 Ali: nah save me Carly: it's pretty lemme just grab a 💄 really quick Carly: what's up baby? Ali: you are and I need distracting Ali: got band practice and I really have to Ali: missed the last two so she's dead moody Carly: go solo ill play a tambourine for you Carly: until you get famous anyway Ali: we'll get you those noise cancelling headphones they give to rockstars kids Ali: then you just gotta close your eyes n shine Carly: aw Carly: you're a 🍑 Carly: but before then I know how to sweeten up rockstars Carly: lots of jd is 🔑 yea so ill swipe ronans & its a party Ali: know that'll go down a treat Ali: almost as good as the ego stroke of calling them rockstars Carly: y you asked me its a not so hidden talent of mine Carly: strokes where needed Ali: 🎨 Ali: alright monet Ali: I'll try not to make it completely boring Carly: i have to take 5 to finish up here or he'll be dead moody Carly: so he's all you have to be more fun than Carly: & whats more boring than a horny lad when ur not feeling it Ali: easy Ali: I remember being that bored Ali: less memory more reliving but shh Ali: all fun and games yeah ✌ Carly: yea Carly: he gets it over quick tho some go & go without getting u anywhere Carly: ha Carly: ive got a home to go to sometimes boy Ali: he's very considerate like that Carly: i wont share it w him too big of a word for rn Carly: wheres this practice @ Ali: 'course not Ali: all he needs to hear is biggest and best Ali: memory serves Ali: in one of the other's garage Ali: so punk rock Ali: I'll come meet you Carly: long as he can call me a slut & I make the right noises it dont matter what I say Carly: thats every lad on here Carly: k well he's done so direct me Carly: u dont wanna meet me outside here Ali: if that's your jam, go off Ali: you mean you don't trust me not to 👊 your mans 😏 Ali: I started walking, call me a pessimist, Ronan 🤷 Carly: yea u kno for a good time call any of these caravans Carly: the old lady w the gnomes is a dark horse like Carly: i don't want u to see me looking this way ty ronan 💘 Carly: so rough about everything Carly: him & u ha Ali: she's living my dream, I remember her Ali: the pink trailer, like Ali: shoulda been going to see her if not you Ali: 🤡 Ali: you alright? Ali: you need a sec or Ali: idk, anything else Carly: her cats are living my dream Carly: lying in the sun all day, getting fat Carly: being loved whenever they ask Carly: i need a drink but im taking all of his its k Ali: duh Ali: only had it slightly better in ancient Egypt, like Ali: forever goals Ali: we'll drink it on the way Ali: need to see where to put their fingers Ali: not code for gay shit but like Ali: also Carly: theres lots they can have some as promised Carly: he owed me for all the 💊 Ali: you're sweet Carly: we can get your gf ☕ to dump it in thats the adult thing to do Carly: trying to make her happy not more mad Ali: she's 17 Ali: she just fronts a good game Ali: suppose one of us should Ali: #badgirlfriend Carly: ur the best wife tho Carly: ive missed u Ali: 😚 Ali: comments like that are why I've deffo missed you more Carly: aw Carly: comments like urs r why ill make today really fun for u Ali: 💚 Ali: we can make anything a party yeah Carly: yea Carly: but u gotta help me carry these drinks to cos i think my wrist was broken from all the coaxing that boy needs when hes been on it Ali: ugh, the struggle is so real Ali: though if you use that as an ice breaker they're all gonna look at you blankly Ali: fucking lesbian priviledge amirite Carly: i bet at least one of them's hurt their wrist trying to get a girl off Carly: half who go to our school r so uptight you need to check for sticks Carly: catholic guilt be like Ali: 😂 real Ali: but you gotta be on my side Ali: already outnumbered Ali: team bi for the day okay Carly: so i can talk about masturbating with my grandma's jesus cross or i cant Ali: you can Ali: that's a story whoevers company Ali: 'cept grandma, obvs Carly: punk rock enough? Carly: if theyre all as scary as ur lesbian im shotgunning more beers Carly: bag of recycling before we even get to the garage Ali: when she cares about the 🌍 Ali: 😍 Ali: they ain't, if we're being real Carly: dont want the earth to die Carly: its so pretty Carly: & fun Carly: k i wont have every can Carly: before we get there Ali: 👼🌟🌈🍓🐰👸 Ali: you Ali: and I'm literally just 'round the corner hold on Ali: not dragging my feet 'cos of you babe Carly: ur too sweet Carly: are you the singer & the guitarist or do they make you just do one cos youre too big of a 🌟 Ali: got it in one babe, I'm relegated to guitar #2 most the time Ali: at least you can own the stage more when you ain't so Carly: ill tell them you need to be 1st guitar & lead singer you're too talented for it to go to waste Carly: its sad Carly: but its cute that youre in a band together Ali: you wanna be backup baby? Carly: yea but i cant 😢😢 Ali: you can when it's just us though Ali: you're too pure for rock n roll anyway Ali: their brand of Carly: how you said that makes me think i need to drink more Ali: it's a good thing about you Ali: just saying though, my voice will be fucked by the end of this Carly: ill get you some 🍯 baby Carly: you can be 👼 again in no time Carly: church ready Ali: only if you coming with Ali: 😈 Carly: only if we do some more sinning first Carly: make it worth the walk Ali: naturally Ali: how we do Carly: k Carly: are all the band dating each other or just you two Ali: 😏 more and more apparent how straight you ain't tbh Ali: currently off again, I think Ali: they've all dated each other though, every which way you can combo it Carly: i have met a lesbian before ur rescued me @ that party Carly: been hit on by lots Carly: i kno they like to date in circles & all kinds of other shapes Ali: I bet Carly: aw don't be jealous Carly: i didnt like it Carly: ur my fave Ali: I'm not Ali: am glad I ain't giving off those predatory vibes though Ali: good to know, like Carly: you give off the best vibes Ali: 👼 energy, baby Carly: 🌟💙 Ali: let's hit 'em with it Carly: yea Ali: after she can drive us to a decent shindig 🤞 Carly: me & a car full of gays Carly: ronan will be in a mood ha Ali: always a bonus Ali: also always in a mood Ali: they really would get on if she could get over the whole man hate vibe Carly: ill bring him to the next rehearsal Carly: he thinks hes got what it takes Ali: 😏 Ali: I'll put my money on Mar Ali: poor boy Carly: steals my 🎸 every time he comes over Carly: i cant be impressed that you can play 2 chords baby boy I'm sorry Ali: 😩💦 Ali: even as relegated #2 I can do more than that Ali: promise Carly: me too & im only groupie #1 Carly: he still tries to teach me tho Carly: so boring Ali: 🙄 Ali: what a dickhead Ali: he just wants to be behind you to 'position' your hands, boys love that shit don't they Ali: I know how to play pool too so get off Carly: we should play my da taught me Carly: make some money & have some fun Ali: I'm down Carly: k Carly: cos i need to buy more 💊s he really did eat them all Carly: 😢😢 Ali: Babe Ali: I know a reliable lad Ali: invite him Ali: make it a party Carly: yea me & him been up since i saw you last how long ago was that? forever it feels Carly: be more fun away from site Ali: damn Ali: how the other half live Ali: I feel like I haven't had any fun since I last saw you Ali: get enough to take the edge of your comedown if nothing else or that'll be rough Carly: i wanted to invite u my baby but u kno how he gets Carly: hates that weve met Carly: ill make you feel good now promise Carly: hes had too much of my time Ali: worried that Imma tell you horror stories like you don't know him? Ali: backatcha 💚 Ali: swear Carly: yea he thinks my head's empty Carly: just a body like Carly: not that weve done school for years together or anything Carly: i kno i dont always go but boy come on Ali: you're miles ahead of him Ali: he only acts like he reckons that 'cos he don't want you coming to your senses and binning him off proper, like Carly: ur lil bro writes & reads better Carly: but hes a smart lil cutie Carly: what am i gonna do move the caravan in the middle of the night? no wheels is there Carly: stuck as fwb til he gets married his wife finds out & comes for me Ali: yeah he likes you too Ali: always chatting on when you coming 'round again so you know Ali: better hang some more, for his sake Ali: I know you got locks Carly: aw i love him Carly: always wanted a lil bro but my rents dont fuck no more so that ain't happening Carly: unless my dad knocks up someone younger Carly: u kno id lock myself out & end up round there Carly: ha Ali: lil blue pills don't fail us now Ali: ick Ali: should go to casa flamenco Ali: don't think she'd steal your stash Ali: oldies always have their own, the real good shit too Carly: that what ur calling it Carly: ill steal hers Ali: exactly Ali: 😍 #babe Ali: ronan who Carly: i do go older but not sure i could handle peeling back the wrinkles Ali: weak 😉 Carly: you seduce her for me, thats love Carly: & you wanna be under her anyway Ali: 'scuse you Ali: I'm happily married Carly: me too Carly: pimping me out to the older generation wasnt in the vows were it Ali: could've been Ali: you know how creative I am Carly: yea i do love that about you Ali: I 👀 you Ali: [runs up and takes some of the shit] Carly: [unnecessarily long hug moment because always] Ali: ['it does feel like forever'] Carly: [just rambling on about how much she's missed her & like all the compliments for how she looks/what she's wearing etc cos again always] Ali: [lbr she'd go all out for rehersals even so it would be a look, Ali lowkey fixing Carly up whilst checking 'cos was concerned but not gonna make it a Thing tm] Carly: [save her Ali she looks like shit rn & your gf don't need to be seeing her like that] Ali: [finishing by kissing her nose 'cos that is a thing] Carly: [😳 but really happy obvs & another hug cos they really have missed each other so] Ali: [walking and talking baby] Carly: [& letting Ali catch up with all the drinks Carly's had] Ali: [giving her the lowdown on the other bitches who are clearly not as scary as kstew] Carly: [you'd think she's not listening because 1. state of her & 2. how distracting Ali is in her lewk but she is] Ali: [is like soz it's boring but I'll make it fun] Carly: [she's like its not you're just pretty & also I'm saving you & making it fun] Ali: ['not about to beg but please do'] Carly: ['knew I should've locked that down in the vows' cos being flirty with it] Ali: ['too late now babe, 'less you make me wanna renew'] Carly: [is just like yeah okay will do, soz kstew but we know its true so] Ali: [turning up to your function, imagine kstews face oop] Carly: [Carly handing the booze out cos she's a babe while kstew talks shit on her by pulling Ali aside like we said] Carly: u want me to go? Ali: [Ali tryna explain but also being kinda over this mood like why can't she be here, u lowkey know why but you know] Ali: no Ali: don't Ali: I'll sort it Carly: k Carly: [Carly just drinking a little bit too hard cos the vibe is wrong & her anxiety don't need this thank you ladies] Ali: [just walking away and being like okay come on let's start 'cos can't argue if you're playing] Carly: [pissing about on some spare instruments while they're setting up cos awks] Ali: I've text the lad Ali: reckons 10 minutes 👍 Carly: 💙🌟 Carly: ty Ali: [ooh crimson and clover 'cos joan did it and it'd be a sexy moment so blatantly directed at carly] Carly: [Carly literally 😍 harder than her gf is, oops] Carly: [& so many compliments as soon as the song is over before kstew can get a word in, god bless] Ali: [gently/not being a patronizing dick with it showing her dance moves and stuff like getting her involved without being like you have to perform now lol] Carly: [k stew fuming like now the WARM UP is done we should play OUR songs we all know the type like excuse you everyone is having fun especially my sweet baby angel] Ali: [being like oh but I just learnt this song it's got a good bass bit we should do that, overruled lol] Carly: [has to go with it cos no argument she can make that won't sound petty as hell and not trying to look like that bitch in front of the squad] Ali: [doing electric feel for the gay sexiness] Carly: [Carly even more into it cos a song she knows cos lets say she don't know the glory of our cat song just because so its such a moment okay bye] Carly: [Marlene calling a 🚬 break immediately after cos fuming & that can also be when Drew comes] Ali: [as if you weren't fuming enough there's how a man here 😍 at your woman, also giving them droogs] Carly: [meanwhile Carly ain't noticed cos sharing a 🚬 with the prettiest & least intimidating lesbian perched on her lap like so cosy....way to kill Ali babe we know she's special but let her know please] Carly: [hops off to get her drugs but still a moment] Ali: [these other girls just stirring the pot rn lmao] Carly: [that girl being like you should come out with us & Carly's like yeah cos she's pure] Ali: you know this one's flirting with you too, yeah? Ali: 😏 Carly: ha Carly: shes nice Ali: yeah Ali: pretty cute Carly: u kno the dealer wants to fuck you tho yea Carly: hes pretty Ali: obvs Ali: his hairs a bit naff but yeah Carly: ur gf is gonna drag him out by it Carly: let me slip him my number first ty Ali: lol 🙄 Ali: better you have his, no Ali: 💊 Ali: idk why she's the fun police today Carly: k good idea Carly: [goes to get his deets] Carly: she's so mad Carly: u gotta love me more when shes not around Ali: i ain't done nothing Carly: shes jealous of me like i am of her Carly: two girls one 💙 Carly: [lowkey flirting with Drew before he gets thrown out] Ali: hmm Ali: maybe you can duel Ali: [helping herself 'cos they clearly got enough to go around 'cos Drew's easy lol] Carly: 😢😢 Carly: you want me to be killed Ali: don't be silly Ali: not very gentlemanly of her, she'd never Ali: for someone so punk she loves following rules you know Carly: y u like her or y ur bored? Ali: [casually loling at her phone like what you think] Carly: [a moment of eye contact soz kstew] Carly: y dont i kno this lad? Ali: idk Ali: he wasn't always that cocky Ali: maybe his pubes came in Carly: ha Carly: ill find out Carly: gotta b known as the school slag not the girl who pissed herself on the stage Ali: more catchy Ali: I get it Carly: u only remember our wedding day i kno but it tends to stick in everyone else's memories Carly: a day of bad vibes Ali: I remember you but not like that Carly: hope its not worse Carly: how you do Carly: [casually taking too many 💊 to deal with the bender she's been on with the gypsies, you know Drew will remember her like this] Ali: nah Ali: you were cute Ali: and nice when all these random english kids showed up Carly: cos you were cuter Carly: im always nice to the pretty ones Ali: 💘 Ali: s'a good line walsh, you get it off him n all Carly: 💔😢 Carly: i love you i dont need him feeding me those kind of lines Carly: we gotta crush some of these tho its gonna take forever to kick in Ali: only joking baby don't be sad Ali: [comes over and helps 'cos why not kstew already furious her band practice has descended into anarchy] Carly: [using a shoe she's wearing for once to crush pills casually but stops to put her head on Ali's shoulder cos is sad lowkey] Ali: [gives her top of the head kisses] Carly: [is smiling again & telling her how much she missed her again and all that good gay content while Marlene fumes in the distance] Ali: [whispers like sorry for the bad vibes and I am gonna fix this 'cos she knows it's been fucked but realistically don't know what she's doing about it yet 'cos where do we stand] Carly: [kisses her on the forehead cos that big brain always thinking & worrying & she know] Carly: u wanna 👃 or 👅? Ali: 👃 Carly: yea dont want a numb mouth Carly: no fun Ali: probably would help my throat but kinda 'bout that smokes and drinks a 40 a day vibe so Ali: soz to my nasal cavity in advance Carly: the 🍯 is coming as promised Carly: [puts enough powder in her hand for Ali to snort, how intimate excuse them like she could have used her own hand or any surface Carly but go off] Ali: you're sweet enough darling Ali: [soz kstew just gals being pals 'cos obvs returning the favour and 'holding her hair out the way' aka stroking it] Carly: [when you more about that intimacy than the drug you're trying to take] Carly: aw Ali: [moment being ruined by some kind of unignorable strop moment from marlene clearly so she has to go and have an argument brb] Carly: should i go now? Ali: wait for me Ali: please? Ali: outside if you like or whatever, I'm being selfish but Ali: I ain't staying either Carly: k Carly: [is outside quietly singing a little mash up of both gay covers while she waits, just little bits of lyrics she likes from each lol] Ali: [not tryna drag this out and clearly we can't let it get to let's break up point so] Carly: lets go have some real fun Ali: [when she comes out, resting her arms on her shoulders and spinning her 'round and 'round like let's go] Carly: [is loving life again bye bitches] Ali: ['we can do anything we wanna' means now but also like always] Carly: [is buzzing because her life is literally so stagnant already like what a welcome premise & hugs her cos that's what she wants to do, always gotta be touching] Ali: [and hand holding] Carly: [complimenting her AGAIN as they going along cos she's a really good singer tbf so] Ali: [chatting away 'bout the kinda music she wanna do and what the band is about and starting her own etc but also about how pretty Carly's voice is and how it's too precious for the stage anyway] Carly: [okay but after they've nerded out over music Carly be like 'wait for me' runs into a shop really quick & buys Ali some honey for real cos she that nerd & presents it to her really happily wrapped in her headscarf or something cos again nerd] Ali: [you know how buzzing and touched she'd be 'cos also that nerd, being like you're such an angel and imma get you something so special etc] Carly: [Carly like you gotta eat it tho & opens it right there like she gonna drip it into Ali's mouth if she don't how gaaaaaay, steals some with her finger too obvs cos cute but also accidentally sexy all the time] Ali: [winnie screeching in the distance] Carly: [gets a phone call from her mum & answers in this state cos no fucks given on either side & then turns to Ali like my turn to take you to a family bbq cos I think the contrast would be hilarious so we should but not now cos give them some alone time @ god] Ali: [is down 'cos she's not a snob unlike someone we know rosalin and she'd be lowkey about it 'cos any excuse to spend time] Carly: [ronan will 100% be there cos hilarious like you gotta fight him Ali tbh] Carly: [just rambling about how much she loves Ali rn though cos always] Carly: 💙🌟🐝👼🚀 Ali: [backatcha and dropping the charity shop plan] Carly: [is so down obvs like little kid levels of excited] Ali: [running thru the streets of dublin like babes] Carly: [god fucking bless] Ali: [charity shop crawl so wild like leave 'em be world] Carly: [like how pure that they think of cat lady Ro & kstew would never bitch] Ali: [probably making friends with all the nice old ladies in there/horrifying the old bitches tho too lol] Carly: [this is why Carly makes my heart hurt cos she'd wanna be friends but would probably horrify lol] Ali: [tbf they are high] Carly: [as per again let them live peeps its summer] Ali: [should steal something but like something really tiny and silly 'cos sinning and stealing from a charity shop is pretty bad in a cute way somehow lol] Carly: [but leaving shoes behind or something cos barefoot life so the universe is balanced] Ali: [and ali would buy stuff for 'em both but making sure carly knows this ain't THE gift 'cos wants to swag that lol] Carly: [okay but can they also come back to buy homewares for the caravan when she gets her own thanks bye] Ali: [absolutely, just window shopping rn how you do like 'when I have my own place' but saying we 'cos #married] Carly: [Ali can actually get one of the actual things when cos its still there, oh my heart]

[ylla]

Friday Night Gurus - Chapter 1

Series: JJBA Ships: josuyasu (others will eventually happen too, but im tagging as i go) Tags: au where theyre famous, modern au, pining, josuke is a hot mess and has exactly 0 chill Rating: T (for this chapter only, bc eventually there will be sex/smoking the devil’s lettuce)

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reeeeee so i’ve been in and out of the doctor’s office with a sinus infection so intense, i’ve been to the ER due to pain. fun shit. i came up with this AU while listening to music while waiting for someone to come smother me with a pillow to put me out of my misery.

this unbeta’d because i wrote this on my phone while waiting. i plan on keeping up with this idea because it delights me. next chapter will follow shortly too, because i’m trying to break this up into smaller chunks as i hammer it out on my phone (which fucking sucks, lemme tell ya). if you notice anything weird, tell me about it so i can fix it!!

The first time Josuke Higashikata meets Okuyasu Nijimura was because of a fuckup in a magazine photo shoot schedule. The shoot in question was for a feature in Rolling Stone; award season was coming soon and they wanted to feature the current Biggest Names in Music. Some poor intern (who was probably promptly fired) fucked up EVERYONE’S schedule, so all the bands and singers had to come in during the same hellish week in June. It was a nightmare for all involved.

Of course, the cover would feature the biggest name in the industry which, naturally, was Josuke. Discovered at sixteen, with two world tours, four albums (two of which went platinum), and at least 20 different awards, he was twenty-four and still going. His latest album dropped too late for Grammy consideration last year, but he was feeling real confident. This was his year. He’ll get that fucking Grammy, even if he killed him.

Josuke still considered himself to be a chill, down-to-earth kind of man despite his superstardom; able to roll with the punches whenever they came. He got that sometimes things just didn’t go your way, but he still couldn’t help it when his precious time off gets thwarted by some dumb idiot.

“What the fuck, Koichi?” Josuke whined on their way to the shoot, “Why couldn’t have this happened literally like, last week?”

Koichi Hirose was his manager, agent, PR guy, and truth be told, the only person beside his mother and grandfather who truly knew him. “Stop whining, it’s not the end of the world.”

“Dude, this was supposed to be my first week off in forever—“

For someone who was 5’3 and weighed 110lbs soaking wet, Koichi could be intimidating. He gave Josuke a look before parking and turning off the car, “Can’t be helped. They wanted to do the cover shoot last since there’s two of them.”

Josuke made a face. He forgot that this would be a dual cover. Him on one side, some band on the other. “Who’s the other band?”

Like he was still in school, Koichi started rattling off some facts, “Arrowhead, they’re a metal band. Comprised of four members. Skyrocketed up the charts this past year with their second album. You guys fought over #1 album and singles on Billboard on and off all year.” Koichi was the type of guy who always did his homework, “Now come on, you’re gonna be late.”

The shoot was operating in some random ass warehouse in some backassward part of Los Angles. Josuke and Koichi waltz into some giant room that was getting set up; a group of 4 people huddled in a corner eating what appeared to be a large quantity of Taco Bell with a sharp dressed man standing near them. Josuke’s kind of people.

“Oi! Tonio!” Koichi called out with a wave, before gesturing at Josuke to follow him over. Josuke barely restrained an eyeroll; his hair was up in a ponytail and he was wearing some worn-out sweats with an old t-shirt, not exactly looking good for first introductions.

“Koichi,” the finely dressed man shook Koichi’s outstretched hand, “good to see you.”

“Josuke, this is Tonio Trussardi, we work at the same agency.” Koichi gestured at Tonio, “And Tonio, this is Josuke Higashikata.”

Josuke held out his hand and got a firm handshake, “Nice to meet you.”

“Pleasure to make your acquaintance,” Tonio’s eyes sparkled. He let go of Josuke’s hand and gestured to the group of people sitting behind him, “These are my charges, Arrowhead.”

He started with introductions, pointing to a man leaned up against the wall, who had sleepy eyes and a face Josuke would find attractive if it wasn’t for the tattoo on his chin, “Yuuya Fungami, drummer.” Yuuya nodded in greeting. Tonio pointed to a pretty girl with long black hair who was intently staring at Koichi, “Yukako Yamagishi, lead guitarist.” She didn’t even acknowledge Josuke, but held out a hand for Koichi to shake (which he did, if a little hesitant due to her staring). He swept a hand towards a man with impressively tall hair and two braids, “Keicho Nijimura, bassist.” Keicho gave them a cold stare and said nothing. “And last, but not least,” Tonio clapped his hand on a scarred man who had been too busy slamming a taco the entire time and didn’t notice people had walked up, “Okuyasu Nijimura, lead singer and rhythm guitarist.”

Okuyasu jumped a little, before turning a little pink and waving, “Sup?” His voice sounded he had came out of the womb smoking like a freight train.

Josuke was taken aback when he got a good look at the guy. The symmetrical scars running parallel on Okuyasu’s face did nothing to detract from how goddamn hot he was. Square jaw, angular face, black and silver hair pulled up into a ponytail, three piercings in each ear, ripped arms that had tattoos snaking up them, good God almighty. The first thought that entered Josuke’s mind when looking Okuyasu in the face was Oh no, he’s hot. The first words out of his mouth were “Those tacos smell so fuckin’ good.” Real smooth.

Without another word, Okuyasu offered him one. Josuke ignored how the blonde guy glared at him, and took the proffered taco, “Thanks dude.”

“S’no prob.”

As Josuke started chowing down, about to start chatting up the cute guy, when Okuyasu unceremoniously got up and walked away. Trying not to look so bitter, Josuke turned towards Koichi, but Yukako was asking him incredibly personal questions about his life, while Tonio started ushering Yuuya to hair and makeup, “Photographer’s not here yet, but you need to be ready since you’re the first up.”

“Yeah yeah, stop pushing.”

Keicho’s cold stare was unwavering and was starting to give Josuke the heebie jeebies, “Oi, Koichi. I’m gonna have a smoke.” Josuke didn’t bother to listen for Koichi’s stammered reproach before heading outside (which might have been a strangled cry for help). Truth be told, he really didn’t need a cigarette, he just kind of wanted to go pout. But luck would have it, when he went outside, Okuyasu was sitting on the curb with earbuds in, watching some video. Nosy as shit, Josuke hovered over his shoulder to see what he watching, “Are you watching Real Housewives of Atlanta??”

Okuyasu nearly jumped out of his skin, phone fumbling in his hand, “Oh shit!” he whipped around, wearing glasses he didn’t have on earlier, unlit cigarette dangling from his lips, “Uh, I can explain.”

Oh no, he’s so fuckin’ cute Josuke hollered inwardly. He held his hands up in defense, “Sorry man, didn’t mean to scare ya.” Pulling out his own pack of cigarettes, he sat down beside him on the curb, “Don’t gotta explain anything to me, I love trashy reality shows.”

“You ain’t makin’ fun of me, are ya?” Okuyasu asked, scowling.

“What? Nah, reality shows are the shit. I love binge watching them.” Josuke fished around in his pocket, “You got a lighter?”

As if Okuyasu was trying to divine if Josuke was lying, he stared at him for a few seconds before handing over his lighter, “Jus’ asking. Keicho gives me shit for watching them, but they’re hilarious.”

Josuke lit his cigarette, “Don’t let anyone tell you how to live your life.” Inhale. He gave Okuyasu a serious look, speaking on the exhale and handing his lighter back, “Fuck what he thinks.”

Okuyasu was quiet while he lit up and took a drag. For a moment, Josuke was worried that he had already overstepped his boundaries with someone he literally just met. God, no wonder he didn’t have any friends.

He was snapped out of mentally kicking his own ass when Okuyasu spoke, holding up his right earbud, “Wanna watch with me?”

“Hell yes I do, which episode are you on?”

“The one where Ridickulous shows up—“

“THAT’S MY FAVORITE ONE—“

“DUDE, MINE TOO.”

They ended up talking while watching, not really paying much attention to the show until Ridickulous showed up, which was met with raucous laughter. Josuke learned that Keicho was Okuyasu’s older brother, that the only thing better than chocolate or strawberry ice cream was strawberry ice cream with chocolate chunks, he smoked his cigarettes like he did his joints, he smelled insanely good, most of his tattoos didn’t have much more meaning than “They looked cool as shit when my dude drew them”, and that Okuyasu Nijimura was the most genuine person he had ever met. He was sweet, eager to please, loud, and friendly. Josuke was already dangerously enamored.

Josuke hadn’t even been aware of how much time passed until Koichi came out, “They’re looking for you guys. Keicho’s almost done, so you both need to go to hair and makeup.” Yukako hovered in behind Koichi, her eye’s sliding between Okuyasu and Josuke with a blank expression on her face.

“Shit, I hadn’t even realized,” Josuke stood up and held a hand out to help Okuyasu up, “Let’s go before we get murdered.”

With a grin, Okuyasu took his hand and hopped up, “Yeah, god forbid we disappear for a minute.”

It was hilarious watching Okuyasu, who had never had makeup put on him in all his life, grimace as his face was caked. “This shit smells weird.”

Josuke couldn’t help but cackle while he did his own hair, “Get used to it, dude. This is your life now.”

Makeup finished, Okuyasu got started on his own hair, “Josuke, the least surprisin’ thing you could ever tell me about yourself is the fact that you don’t let anyone else do your hair.” He was fighting with stubborn strands that didn’t want to stay still, “The pomp is cool, you pull it off.”

A quick glance in the mirror told Josuke that he managed to keep his blush to a minimum, “Thanks dude, you got some slick style there yourself.” The shy, pleased grin that crossed Okuyasu’s face was an image he wanted branded to the inside of his eyelids.

Okuyasu was up for pictures first, looking anxious and green. It was clear to Josuke that he had no idea what he was doing. “Dude, just relax!” he shouted, “You’re looking fine!” What he didn’t say was that he meant that two ways. With a slight nod, Okuyasu relaxed slightly, and his pictures started coming out better. Josuke was trying to go for the somewhat disinterested watching, but damn, he couldn’t help but stare. This dude was cute. Out of the corner of his eye, Josuke caught Keicho staring at him again. What was that guy’s deal??

He couldn’t ruminate on an answer, because as soon as he thought that, Yuuya suddenly sat down beside him, causing Josuke to yelp in a totally manly way, “Jesus! You scared the shit out of me!”

“Sorry dude,” Yuuya was eating a leftover taco, “Busy watchin’ the show?” He tilted his head toward the photographer fussing at Okuyasu, shit-eating grin on his face.

Josuke did not like that smug look Yuuya was sporting, “He looks nervous. Jus’ tryin’ to help him out.”

“That’s just how he is,” without looking over his shoulder, Yuuya tossed the taco wrapper behind him, hitting a trashcan, “He doesn’t know how to chill out.”

They sat in silence few a couple of minutes before the eyes Josuke felt on his back were getting on his last goddamned nerve, “Why is that guy staring at me like I murdered everyone he’s ever cared about?”

Yuuya eyed Keicho for a second before shrugging, “That’s just how he is too.”

Before Josuke could even ask what the fuck that even meant, Keicho punched Yuuya’s shoulder as he walked by, “Come on, asshole. It’s time for the cover.”

“Ow, that fuckin’ hurt, dickhead.” Taking his time, Yuuya stood up and stretched, rubbing his punched shoulder. “By the way, Okuyasu’s single,” Yuuya said casually, as if he was answering a question that had been posed.

Josuke sputtered, his face scarlet, “WHAT MAKES YOU THINK—“

Yuuya pointed at his nose, “I got a nose for romance,” and then he dead ass winked at Josuke before walking away. Josuke wondered if he was that obvious. Perhaps that explains why big bro Keicho stared daggers at him. Maybe he needed to work on being subtle, but Higashikata’s were never, ever subtle (thanks mom).

The cover shoot didn’t take too long, much to Josuke’s surpise. Not a whole lot of time passed before it was Josuke’s turn. Okuyasu was dragging his feet, watching intently, while Keicho was demanding they leave. Tonio, bless him, told them that he needed to speak to Koichi about business matters before they left (mercifully saving him from Yukako’s question of “What do you look for in a woman?”) Josuke didn’t know if Tonio was picking up on something, or just making assumptions, but he appreciated it.

When the pictures were mercifully done, Josuke ran to the bathroom real quick to reorient himself, muttering under his breath, “Okay, Higashikata. You got this. You’re cool, suave, and undeniably handsome.” Josuke applied a quick coat of lip gloss before heading back out there, “Get that cute guy’s number.”

After leaving the bathroom, Josuke was greeted to an almost empty room. Okuyasu was nowhere to be found. In fact no one associated with Arrowhead was there; Keicho had muscled them out of the door as soon as Josuke left the room, Koichi helpfully explained, patting Josuke’s shoulder as he felt his confidence leak out of him like a sad balloon.

Josuke pouted the whole way home, and Koichi couldn’t tempt him out of a foul mood. “Josuke, what’s the problem??” Koichi asked, finally fed up with his huffing and sighing, “Why are you like this?”

“Koichi, I’m gay,” Josuke said, head leaned against the window.

“I know this, you’ve told me before. What does that have to do with you sighing like a moody teenager?”

“I was gonna ask Okuyasu for his number, but they left before I could.” He felt like a fucking fool, why did he have to run to the bathroom like a scared baby? It was taking a lot of effort to not punch his own face in. “That Yuuya guy told me he was single and everything. Was I that obvious??”

As they sat at a stoplight, Koichi patted his shoulder, tactfully choosing to not answer the last question, “Don’t sweat it, Hollywood is small. You’ll run into him again.” Actually, Koichi could easily get Okuyasu’s number, but he knew better than to offer. It would only hurt Josuke’s pride.

Josuke shrugged and changed the subject, deciding to throw a pity party for himself later, “So about that Yukako chick…”

Koichi grimaced, “She followed me around the whole time. Asked me how I got such a high powered client when we’re the same age! And a bunch of personal stuff like my underwear size and what kind of man did I consider myself to be.”

“At least she’s cute?” Josuke offered, an apologetic smile on his face.

“She is that…also intense. Very…intense…”

“Did you get her number?”

Koichi sighed as he pulled into Josuke’s driveway, “She took my phone, put her number in it, and then texted herself.”

“Damn,” Josuke snorted with mirth, “Hey man, you might end up getting laid before my dry spell ends. I’m rooting for ya.”

Josuke didn’t need to look at Koichi to know that he was getting a look. He hopped out of the car and waved goodbye as his friend pulled out of the driveway. Upon walking through the front door, he greeted an empty house. “I’m home!” he called out to no one. Josuke really wished his mom hadn’t moved back east, but after his grandfather had that heart attack and refused to move to Los Angeles, someone had to stay with him. He could use advice, and was tempted to call her. No, he was grown ass man. No advice from mom, you die like a man.

…He’ll just call her later.

One shower and ordered pizza later, Josuke laid on his bed, booted up both his laptop and PS4. It was time for Netflix and Learning As Much About Your Crush As Possible. With Netflix on Worst Cook’s in America, pizza in one hand, and beer in the other, he typed in Arrowhead into Google and got to work.

Two hours later, he laid on his bed, hands folded across his chest, and stared at his ceiling, Netflix and pizza forgotten. Arrowhead’s second, self-titled album had been on repeat for the last hour. Metal was never his cup of tea, but Okuyasu’s husky, rough voice made the hair on the back of his neck stand up and chills run down his spine. If he didn’t have it bad for Okuyasu before, he certainly fucking did now. Josuke briefly wondered if this is how he sounded when he woke up in the morning, or when he was needy and wanted—

Josuke promptly rolled over and started screaming into his pillow. Why was he like this?

You’re a fucking mess he thought to himself, You have it bad for a dude who you barely even know, just because the way he sings goes directly to your dick.

“He’s also really hot and nice,” Josuke mumbled aloud. He paused before tearing out of bed, determined to shower, do anything that would get his mind off of Okuyasu. “I also need to stop talking to myself!” he said, ripping his clothes off, jumping into lukewarm water.

After a long, somewhat cold shower, Josuke steeled himself. He was gonna get that fucking number.

[hiraethc-blog]

long list of character traits . feel free to use .

BASIC INFORMATION

FULL NAME: sekiko lawley ayumi  PRONUNCIATION: seh - key - koh // lah - ley // ah - yuu - me . MEANING: i dont hecking know someone told me that sekis full name means seatbelt and honestly that really fits her REASONING: her parents wanted a seatbelt not a fucking child NICKNAME(S): seki , asswipe , meme . PREFERRED NAME(S): seki ! BIRTH DATE: june 15th , 1998 .  AGE: 18 technically an adult even tho shes mentally like 8 ZODIAC: gemini probably  GENDER: female PRONOUNS: she / her  ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: bisexual as heck SEXUAL ORIENTATION: she doesnt like sex hon NATIONALITY: english / british  ETHNICITY: white CURRENT LOCATION: brighton england LIVING CONDITIONS: she lives in a shitty apartment in a shitty part of town can she get anymore mary sue TITLE(S): punk ass , meme , dead inside

BACKGROUND

BIRTH PLACE: shes from london HOMETOWN: london SOCIAL CLASS: shes debating becoming a camgirl for more money what does that tell u EDUCATION LEVEL: shes so smart ?? like she hides it a lot but she’s super hecking smart wtf dont get on her bad side FATHER: yuuta ayumi . bad news bears  MOTHER: naomi ayumi . bad news bears v2 SIBLING(S): yoshida ayumi . good meme but dead LITERALLY DEAD BIRTH ORDER: yoshida , seki CHILDREN: she hates kids PET(S): she has two dogs ( max , and pepe )  OTHER IMPORTANT RELATIVES: none theyre all dead she probably killed them PREVIOUS RELATIONSHIPS: sekis afraid of love and commitment ARRESTS?: probably around 420 times but she always gets off easy bc shes friends with the sheriff and he feels bad for her PRISON TIME?: she spent a night in a cell down at the station does that count

OCCUPATION & INCOME

PRIMARY SOURCE OF INCOME: her barista work SECONDARY SOURCE OF INCOME: none TERTIARY SOURCE(S) OF INCOME: none lol shes poor APPROXIMATE AMOUNT PER YEAR: how much does a barista get paid again CONTENT WITH THEIR JOB (OR LACK THERE OF)?: shes chill w it tbh its like starbucks but a knockoff PAST JOB(S): she used to work at a library with her friend and eventually got fired for being too loud SPENDING HABITS: she never saves shit she spends it all in one go MOST VALUABLE POSSESSION: pepe the frog

SKILLS & ABILITIES

PHYSICAL STRENGTH: shes stupidly strong for how small she is tf OFFENSE: lmao DEFENSE: LMAO SPEED: she Smol but Fast like sonic  INTELLIGENCE: stupidly smart we already went over this ACCURACY: eh shes alright AGILITY: Chill STAMINA: she has like no stamina shes so out of shape TEAMWORK: she doesnt like working w other people she gets snappy TALENTS: she can cook and she’s made 1 popular meme does that make her good SHORTCOMINGS: none shes perfect LANGUAGE(S) SPOKEN: english , and a bit of japanese from when she lived in japan for like a year . DRIVE?: yeet  JUMP-STAR A CAR? : ofc  CHANGE A FLAT TIRE?: yes RIDE A BICYCLE?: probably SWIM?: she just learned like a month ago PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?: she used to play recorder but her roommate snapped it in half PLAY CHESS?: no thats for nerds BRAID HAIR?: yes TIE A TIE?: yes PICK A LOCK?: she knows WAY too well

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE & CHARACTERISTICS

FACE CLAIM: marzia bisognin or dodie clark EYE COLOR: brown HAIR COLOR: brown HAIR TYPE/STYLE: its just straight and long   GLASSES/CONTACTS?: she has glasses but never wears them bc she likes living the high life and having the possiblity of getting hit by a car DOMINANT HAND: both shes Powerful HEIGHT: 5′1 feet WEIGHT: 122 pounds BUILD: Smol but Strongk EXERCISE HABITS: none shes bad SKIN TONE: ivory TATTOOS: she has a lot ?? click HERE , HERE , and HERE for reference pictures . she has a few more but they’re not visible  PIERCINGS: uhh her nose , and a LOT of piercings in her ears from her Emo Days  MARKS/SCARS: she has circular burns on her shoulders , and scars up and down her forearms , and thighs . NOTABLE FEATURES: how short she is  USUAL EXPRESSION: a smile usually  CLOTHING STYLE: tbh it depends on the day ?? she could be emo or pastel it depends on how shes feeling JEWELRY: earrings , nose piercing , thats abt it . she likes necklaces and rings but she doesnt wear them much  ALLERGIES: shes allergic to jerks BODY TEMPERATURE: like 98 degrees farenheight idk whats the normal body temp DIET: she likes soda and pizza PHYSICAL AILMENTS: nothing rly tbfh

PSYCHOLOGY

JUNG TYPE: entp  JUNG SUBTYPE: estp ENNEAGRAM TYPE: type six MORAL ALIGNMENT: chaotic neutral  TEMPERAMENT: sanguine  ELEMENT: fire PRIMARY INTELLIGENCE TYPE: bodily-kinesthetic intelligence APPROXIMATE IQ: 115 MENTAL CONDITIONS/DISORDERS: depression , anxiety , ptsd  SOCIABILITY: she socialized too much tf EMOTIONAL STABILITY: Lol OBSESSION(S): her dogs and makeup COMPULSION(S): eh PHOBIA(S): abandonment and commitment what a duo ADDICTION(S): nah DRUG USE: shes tried everything at this point ALCOHOL USE: yup PRONE TO VIOLENCE?: Yes

MANNERISMS

SPEECH STYLE: shes v loud like?? Overly Confident ACCENT: british bitch QUIRKS: she can make some wild things from coffee HOBBIES: going 2 sephora HABITS: bites her nails tf NERVOUS TICKS: she will Shake(tm) DRIVES/MOTIVATIONS: um dont die bc u have pets FEARS: commitment n abandonment POSITIVE TRAITS: smart , funny , kind ( at times ) NEGATIVE TRAITS: paranoid , sarcastic , violent SENSE OF HUMOR: vulgar DO THEY CURSE OFTEN?: yes  CATCHPHRASE(S): “ FUCK YOU LADS “

FAVORITES

ACTIVITY: going 2 a zoo or pet shop  ANIMAL: probably a lemur or something weird BEVERAGE: pepsi BOOK: who reads these days CELEBRITY: she likes youtubers more tbfh COLOR: black or pastel pink DESIGNER: Lol FOOD: she likes pizza tyvm FLOWER: roses GEM: opal bc its Pretty HOLIDAY: christmas it makes her feel Happy MODE OF TRANSPORTATION: the subway MOVIE: shrek MUSICAL ARTIST: smash mouth  QUOTE/SAYING: “ and , there will come a time you’ll see with no more tears , and love will not break your heart , but dismiss your fears . get over your hill and see what you have there , with grace in your heart , and flowers in your hair . “ SCENERY: autumn time . serenity , and calmness in a small villa . SCENT: vanilla . SPORT: softball . SPORTS TEAM: idk she doesnt like sports TELEVISION SHOW: bitch she will nut for anything horror based WEATHER: CLOUDY & RAINY PLS VACATION DESTINATION: uhhh probably los angeles or new york

[jesliey]

Henlo you stinki poop. Go do all the asks, you stinki boi.

OH

alright boiz lets do this... *cracks knuckles*

under the cut because this gonna be fuckin long...

200: My crush’s name is:

Her name is Lucy, and she is really amazing, and thank fuck she doesnt have a tumblr...

199: I was born in: 

1996 BABEY

198: I am really:

Three gnomes in a trenchcoat.

197: My cellphone company is:

Telus, and im less than thrilled about that....bare minimum passable service at best

196: My eye color is:

Blue-grey ish

195: My shoe size is:

Depends on where i go, but generally 12 - 13~

194: My ring size is:

Oh fuck man i dont remember...i think i was 10.5 when i got mine fitted??

193: My height is:

6′3″~

192: I am allergic to:

Pet hair and dander mostly...nothing to the point of lethality, just making me wish it was...

191: My 1st car was:

Still dont own my first car, but if i had a choice of anything itd be a custom 1985 Pontiac Firebird Trans Am

190: My 1st job was:

First paying? Retail. Hated it, drove a forklift without a licence, got fired. Whoop.

189: Last book you read:

Not from start to finish, but i started Prison School a while ago

188: My bed is:

A single. Aint got that much room in student housing my guy...

187: My pet:

@vocoterra​

186: My best friend:

@vocoterra​

185: My favorite shampoo is:

Im a tresemme boi. Love me some silky smooth hair

184: Xbox or ps3:

PC

183: Piggy banks are:

Pretty much nonexistent in this house i think....

182: In my pockets:

This question is reserved for someone wearing pants

181: On my calendar:

I have a calendar?

180: Marriage is:

Optional

179: Spongebob can:

Live on forever in my heart, but i know it peaked at Band Geeks...

178: My mom:

Is short and angry and im lov her

177: The last three songs I bought were?

>bought

176: Last YouTube video watched:

175: How many cousins do you have?

Im Polish....its a lot....

174: Do you have any siblings?

2 step sisters, and a half sister!

173: Are your parents divorced?

Yup

172: Are you taller than your mom?

Yeah but thats not saying much...

171: Do you play an instrument?

170: What did you do yesterday?

Did computer maintenance for an hour, went to the gym with Lucy, came home and had realtalk with my upstairs neighbor for like 3 hours. It was a good day :D

[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight:

Ehhh not really....attraction at first sight? Oh fuck yeah. Infatuation? Absolutely, but not love. Its two ways of knowing and understanding for each person involved, and a first meeting wont provide that.

168: Luck:

Randomness and chance is just not being far enough back to see all of the factors that come into play to influence an outcome. Those concepts only exist to explain something that cannot be currently understood.

167: Fate:

Not really. Choices and actions continuously influence the paths that everyone takes, and theres no such thing as not making a choice. Fate is all a matter of having the wisdom to discern which choices you want to make to reach a certain path. #deep

166: Yourself:

Fuck no that guys an asshole

165: Aliens:

In an infinite universe where we have no concept of its true size? I find it incredibly arrogant to assume that we live on the ONLY planet capable of hosting life out of something so infinite. #IWantToBelieve

164: Heaven:

Nah. I wont believe in anything until i can see it for myself.

163: Hell:

See above ^

162: God:

Im agnostic at best...if there is a “God” then they have a lot to answer for. Because they are either omnipotent or benevolent. I refuse to believe that a god can be both.

161: Horoscopes:

Its a nice little thought piece to pass the time, but i feel like human choices and actions shape personalities better than relative time of birth ever could

160: Soul mates:

Everyone is their own person with thoughts, feelings, responsibilities, and aspirations. Finding someone who is in every sense perfectly aligned with another in terms of “soul mates” is unlikely. Its all a spectrum of how well lifestyles can mesh.

159: Ghosts:

Nah fam.

158: Gay Marriage:

Spoiler Alert: Gay Marriage Is Just Marriage Between People Who Happen To Be Gay

157: War:

Its a reality, and as much as i hate it, due to human nature it is inevitable and almost necessary. War will never go away.

156: Orbs:

ＯＲＢＳ

155: Magic:

Its a term historically used to explain what cannot conventionally be explained. As soon as there is documentation and explanation, then it becomes a science and it can be studied.[ This or That ]

154: Hugs or Kisses:

I like me some huggin....

153: Drunk or High:

Both? Both....both is good. Gotta be careful with it though

152: Phone or Online:

Online mang

151: Red heads or Black haired:

I MEAN WHY CHOOSE??

150: Blondes or Brunettes:

I usually enjoy brunette more than blonde...

149: Hot or cold:

You can always put on more layers, but you can only take off so much before its a felony

148: Summer or winter:

Winter. Hot cocoa BITCHES~

147: Autumn or Spring:

Autumn season = Best season

146: Chocolate or vanilla:

I like me some vanilla

145: Night or Day:

Imma night owls ngl

144: Oranges or Apples:

Tough choice, but i love me some citrus

143: Curly or Straight hair:

yes

142: McDonalds or Burger King:

Wendy’s. Fight Me.

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate:

White, but only in select quantities...

140: Mac or PC:

PC, but if more programs and games had support id choose linux

139: Flip flops or high heals:

Neither...im more of a work boot kind of guy...

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor:

Jokes on you bud im ugly AND poor!

Ugly and rich tho. I can pay to fix my fucked up appearance, and youre damn right id use my money to fix up my town

137: Coke or Pepsi:

BEPIS BABEY YEAH

136: Hillary or Obama:

Remember when Obama reconciled with Japan for the dropping of nuclear ordinance on Hiroshima and also thanked them for anime? That was pretty damn cool of him.

I mean Hillary dabs though so i mean theres that

135: Burried or cremated:

Cremated. Not necessarily when i die. Just whenever. Surprise me.

134: Singing or Dancing:

Singing...i cant dance...

Cant do either, but at least i feel a bit better about my voice...

133: Coach or Chanel:

I dont understand the question....

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks:

Wasnt a huge Taylor fan....Kat by default

131: Small town or Big city:

Both are nice, but i think i like the idea of disappearing in a big city more than the peace of a small town.

130: Wal-Mart or Target:

Im Canadian, so Walmart it is

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler:

Owen Wilson. Your move.

128: Manicure or Pedicure:

I dont remember which one is which, so whichever one does feet. My hands see frequent use, and it would not last.

127: East Coast or West Coast:

East Coast. Vancouver is the only thing the west has going for it in my eyes

126: Your Birthday or Christmas:

Birthday. I like having a day just all to myself. No one is gonna take that from me.

125: Chocolate or Flowers:

Ehhhh both are really temporary...wanna get me a gift that lasts? Make it a really cool looking sword

124: Disney or Six Flags:

DIDNEY WORL

123: Yankees or Red Sox:

[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War:

Its unclean at best, its inevitable, and its almost certainly necessary.

121: George Bush:

By comparison right now his administration is looking pretty good

120: Gay Marriage:

Completely legal and totally socially acceptable. The fact that its an issue is baffling to say the least.

119: The presidential election:

You guys elected the annoying orange so you tell me

118: Abortion:

Her body, her choice, end of discussion. Die mad about it.

117: MySpace:

An artifact of an internet age gone by...

116: Reality TV:

If i wanted to watch peoples daily lives, there are vlogs out there that are a thousand times more genuine than anything ive seen on network television

115: Parents:

They should do their absolute best to raise their child to be better than them. The next generation should always be pushed to be able to leave the world better than the previous generation did. Thats how humanity evolves.

114: Back stabbers:

Pretty sure theres a circle in hell dedicated entirely to them according to The Divine Comedy

113: Ebay:

Never tried it, but it has its uses.

112: Facebook:

Not worth my time.

111: Work:

All just to fuel my long term expensive hobby of making swords.

110: My Neighbors:

For most of them, completely indifferent. Theres a lady upstairs who is really nice.

109: Gas Prices:

Now i dont drive anymore, but theyre ridiculous...

108: Designer Clothes:

Completely unnecessary, and feeding the bougie capitalist machine, but I NEED THEM. I WANNA LOOK GOOD.

107: College:

Its hell, and im stuck there...

106: Sports:

SPORTS

SPORTBALL

105: My family:

At the end of the day they should be the people that you can fall back to no matter what.

104: The future:

Tired and jaded as to what it can bring. I survived 2016 so anything that is yet to come might as well happen.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone:

Its been a couple weeks....for someone who very much enjoys physical affection im actually pretty shy and touch starved....

102: Last time you ate:

Yesterday at about 4 ish...i should really eat something...

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile:

Yesterday actually! I dont get to see my old highschool friends too often, so im glad i went to see one yesterday

100: Cried in front of someone:

Oh fuck its been a while...came close last night, but not quite.

99: Went to a movie theater:

Probably to go see Rogue One....I enjoyed it at the time, but its a bad Star Wars movie. I cant remember a single thing about it.

98: Took a vacation:

OH FUCK ITS BEEN A WHILE I DONT EVEN REMEMBER

97: Swam in a pool:

Years at the very least...

96: Changed a diaper:

Never...I was an only child growing up, and i never babysat

95: Got my nails done:

Ehhhh like a year or so?

94: Went to a wedding:

A couple months ago! Thats probably the last time i cried in front of someone actually!

93: Broke a bone:

Never broken a bone before, and im not about to start

92: Got a peircing:

You could not pay me enough money to have someone jab needles through my flesh

91: Broke the law:

I pirate frequently so like maybe a day or two

90: Texted:

While i was writing this[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most:

Oh prolly @vocoterra

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is:

The comfort of being at home...i like going out, but nothing else feels like home

87: The last movie I saw:

Pass Thru by Neil Breen...i was stoned out of my gourd when i saw it, so i knew it was either gonna make perfect sense or none at all, but what i didnt expect was for it to do both at the same time

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most:

Im going to see Nightwish in a couple weeks so thatll be really fun!

85: The thing im not looking forward to:

Midterms are still going on...

84: People call me:

By my name usually

83: The most difficult thing to do is:

Pee with a boner. Prove me wrong. Ill wait.

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket:

Not a speeding ticket, but i did get a ticket for going too fast passing a fresh accident

81: My zodiac sign is:

Cancer

80: The first person i talked to today was:

In person? My landlords wife came by for a viewing, but i talked to the nice lady living upstairs over snapchat first

79: First time you had a crush:

The first one that comes to mind was a girl i was in daycare with growing up named Tori. I dont really remember what happened to her, but i guess she moved away.

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from:

Thats the thing. I can hide things from everyone. Most of the time i dont because im bad at lying, but there are a lot of things i will take to my grave. Most of them dont even involve me directly.

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking:

Last night when the upstairs neighbor came down to talk. Its kind of odd how on-the-same-page we were about a lot of the things we talked about

76: Right now I am talking to:

Neighbor lady. She has a date today and shes pretty nervous and wants someone to talk it out with.

75: What are you going to do when you grow up:

Hopefully be less of a mess of hot garbage, but ill settle for freelance software developer and occasional swordsmith

74: I have/will get a job:

Ive found work pretty reliably through temp agencies. Theres never a shortage of manual labour that needs to be done.

73: Tomorrow:

Is saturday. Whats the question?

72: Today:

Is friday. I have a game to go to in about 30 mins.

71: Next Summer:

Ill hopefully be doing an IT internship if my parents can pull some strings at their work. Ill see what happens.

70: Next Weekend:

Nothing major going on i think...

69: I have these pets:

@vocoterra

68: The worst sound in the world:

@vocoterra

67: The person that makes me cry the most is:

Ehh im pretty emotionally calloused by this point...i think itll take a lot to make me cry

66: People that make you happy:

Friends from highschool. @vocoterra. Some of my newer college friends. Definitely my parents.

65: Last time I cried:

Wasnt this asked already? Pretty sure it was a wedding.

64: My friends are:

Gay dumbasses

63: My computer is:

RIPPED AS HELL AND CUSTOM BUILT

62: My School:

Its kinda shitty

61: My Car:

Nonexistent

60: I lose all respect for people who:

Commit sexual assault.

59: The movie I cried at was:

Bridge to Terabithia....dont lie you did too

58: Your hair color is:

Light brown/dirty blonde ish?

57: TV shows you watch:

The Netflix Marvel TV series’

I was a particular fan of Luke Cage

56: Favorite web site:

9 times outta 10 itll be youtube. Theres just everything to watch there.

55: Your dream vacation:

Scotland highlands, rural Japan, or urban Poland

54: The worst pain I was ever in was:

Depression

53: How do you like your steak cooked:

Medium rare like god intended

52: My room is:

Reasonably tidy i think...got a few things lying around that i should pick up

51: My favorite celebrity is:

Taliesin Jaffe. I hold an immense respect for him.

50: Where would you like to be:

Anywhere where im not writing this honestly....

49: Do you want children:

Yes, but i will never father my own. There are too many genetic fuck ups for me to want to pass this on.

48: Ever been in love:

No. Thought i was a couple times, but its supposed to be reciprocated. It never was, therefore I never have been.

47: Who’s your best friend:

I tagged him like 4 times in this post already it should be obvious

46: More guy friends or girl friends:

Pretty even split i think

45: One thing that makes you feel great is:

Coming back after home after the gym. Just the relaxation of it is unforgettable.

44: One person that you wish you could see right now:

No one in particular at this moment. Im heading out to see friends in a few minutes so im enjoying alone time

43: Do you have a 5 year plan:

Farthest i really go is about 2

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die:

Nope. If i start, it wont end. Theres too much that the world has to offer, so ill just find what i like as i go.

41: Have you pre-named your children:

I did. Thats never happening though.

40: Last person I got mad at:

Last night i remembered some of the more racist shit that some of my friends can just get away with in that particular group and i genuinely fucking hate it.

39: I would like to move to:

Maybe somewhere in Germany. The only place i can think of in Canada would be Vancouver, but even then ehhh...

38: I wish I was a professional:

Ass Eater

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37: Candy: Coffee Crisp36: Vehicle: 1985 Pontiac Trans Am35: President: Obama34: State visited: Tennessee 33: Cellphone provider: Wind32: Athlete: Shiho Yoshimura31: Actor: Taliesin Jaffe30: Actress: Laura Bailey29: Singer: Rob Swire28: Band: Sabaton27: Clothing store: Mark’s Work Warehouse26: Grocery store: Food Basics25: TV show: JJBA24: Movie: The Boondock Saints or American history X23: Website: Youtube22: Animal: Potoo Bird21: Theme park: Canada’s Wonderland20: Holiday: SPOOKYWEEN19: Sport to watch: CSGO18: Sport to play: Sportball17: Magazine: I dont read maagazines...16: Book: 198415: Day of the week: Thursday14: Beach: Whichever is the closest one to where i live. Theyre all far away...13: Concert attended: Soon Nightwish! :D12: Thing to cook: SPAGEDDY11: Food: Sushi10: Restaurant: Pho Dau Bo9: Radio station: My phones music library8: Yankee candle scent: Anything lavender7: Perfume: I prefer cologne...6: Flower: Lavenders and Lilacs5: Color: Royal Blue4: Talk show host: Uhhh...3: Comedian: Bo Burnham2: Dog breed: Corgi or Samoyed1: Did you answer all these truthfully: Fuck yeah i did

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PLEASE DO NOT READ. PLEASE. IM BEING SERIOUS. ITS MY BIRTHDAY. WILLYOU GIVE THAT TO ME AS A GIFT? PLEASE. DONT READ THIS. :)

Ahhh soooo hmmmmm if you arent into dramas, emotional, depressing thoughts then i suggest that you stop reading this right now cuz im about to start something deep, something emotional

Its 11:47pm, 13 minutes before 12. Wow. I did the math right? Right? 13! Yep i love that show! Where did you cry? I cried at the beginning of episode 12. Where Hannah picked her phone and called Clay. Remember she put the bag on top of the car? And that moment, when she called Clay. Its fckd up! I have to stop! I felt i know what will happen next! I stopped! Not even kidding! I pause it. Went to the bathroom and cried. I dont even know why the heck i was crying. I just cried! But dont worry i finished it. I have too! Anyway. I dont know where to start.

I actually want to write this on my other account. Cuz i dont want people to be annoyed about this because some human in this world doesnt unfortunately understand depression, suicide or the feeling of being alone or left alone or someone who dont have someone.

But hey if i do that, hide and just be scared then im weak. So here i am :) that is why theirs a note at the beginning so that YOU HAVE A CHOICE anyway okay im gonna start now

Tomorrow is my birthday. Yey! Another day of fakesht. Some will post things about me. Good things about me. “Memories” we had. They will say they loved me, that they will be there for you always. That they are thankful to have you in their lives. Mygoodness. Im done with that. Done with that shts. Im sorry but i do not feel the way you guys think. I dont feel im appreciated enough. I dont feel the loved. I dont. Sorry.

Imma tell you a story about. Im not pleasing you guys to believe me that this is me. One who will always supports you. One who will be there for you whenever you need me. One who will tell exactly everything you wanna know. Im quite frank. I mean i say things straightly. Im that girl who will do everything for others. Who pleases people. Who tried a lot of times to be the number but always failed. Im nice. As much as possible i want to understand others. I want to love everyone. I hate wars. I hate discrimination. Colors or gender. Social status. Im open to everything and anything. I wont judge you if you are gay. If you are poor or fcked up kid. I wont. I will never ever. As much as possible, i dont wanna judge. Cuz man i dont know what the heck they are going through. I dont know the reason why she is wearing high heels and a leather jacket in the middle of sun rays. I dont know the reasons behind those smiles, those tears. I dont know anything.

I started being like, person who is as-much-as-possible-do-not-judge-people-base-on-what-my-eyes-can-see back in 2012 and beginning of 2013. Dont worry ill past forward things. Those years, i experience depression. I want to kill myself. I always cry. In the middle of the night. Those years the only thing i know is phone. Phone helped me a lot to somehow forget things. Those times im alone. Like no one is there for me or with me. Even parents. I was asking why the heck im into this. Im sooooo nice. Why the heck this is happening to me. What i have done to deserve this?

If you havent felt the feeling of suicidal. If you havent thought to kill yourself. If you havent try to kill yourself. The you wont understand. No. Depression is not just a “thing” that could passby. No. its not a joke. Its not a joke when you want to kill yourself because you feel that is the only way to end pain. That is the only option to stop sadness. If you never felt that feeling. If you havent thought using of knife to end your life while you are washing the dishes. Then you wouldnt understand.

Depression for me is fighting your self. You against yourself. The only way to get out of this is you, you have to figure it out on how you will fight againts your thoughts, those emotions, those negativities. You drown yourself on your on pool. It is a bit insensitive to say. I know sorry. But that is the definition i came up because that is my case. I wasnt bullied. No. at some point yes. But that is not the reason why felt suicidal. Its being alone and left alone. The feeling of you thought you have friends but you really do not have. Thats the reason why i wanted to kill myself. I love them. My friends. I truly love them. I treasure them. But the feeling is not mutual. They were smiling in front of you but guess what they are talking about you being so overreacting all the time. Being so weird. They stab you at the back. Loved you in the front.

That was back in 2012 and 2013. When i found that out. I stopped for a while. I was defeated for few days. But i said no. They wont win. Ill do what the fck i want to do. Fck them! Who cares! They are not happy with their lives thats why they look outside to make their feelings better.

Past forward. 2017. I thought everything is fine. I thought im done with those kind of stuffs. I thought i have “friends” now. Or at least someone i could talk to. But heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. Nope. You havent. It feels weird actually. I really do thought im done with that. Feeling of being left alone. I really do thought im done. Its so weird im experiencing this again.

I chatted someone to see if that person cares about me cuz i really do care about her. I chatted her. She saw it. And didnt respond. Hmmm okay. I left the group chat to see if someone do care and chat me nice things or convince me or will try to help me. But no one. I posted something, like “stop caring to those who dont care about you” something like that not exactly okay. I wanted to see if someone or some of them will try to ask me if im okay. Or is there something wrong.

No. Nah. Not a single word from the people i was expecting to do something. That something matters to me cuz if someone did that something. At least i know i have one. I have someone.

But no one did.

Their silence kills me. Non response breaks my heart.

You know what hurts me the most? When they need me. Im there! Whenever they feel down. Dude! Im there to tell them theyre not alone. When they need a support. Im there! If i see them sad or alone. Im there! Im fck here. For them. But they are not. And i dont feel they will. They will someone be there for me. Its hard to explain. But i really do not feel like, they love me or they do appreciate me or they are there for me. No. i dont.

That is why i asked myself. Am i demanding? Am i not worthy? Am i expecting too much from them? Am i asking for more? Am i not being appreciative of their actions?

Am i selfish?

I dont feel i get what i deserve. I dont feel enough love. Im sorry

Im so sorry. I really dont.

That is why i decided to stop loving you guys. To stop caring about you and being rhere for you. Any of you.

I told you depressionn for me is fighting againts yourself. Yep i stand by that. But, a lift from ONE friend can help a lot. You dont need the world to fight with you. No. its your battle but a little help will help a lot. It could do so much things. All you need is one friend. Just one. ONE THAT WILL LISTEN TO YOU AND WONT JUDGE YOU. ONE WHOS OPEN TO TALK ABOUT YOUR SITUATION AND CAN UNDERSTAND YOU. JUST ONE.

2012 or 2017. I dont have one.

But there are 4 people who is still there for me on times i need someone. Im so sorry guys if i dont consider you as the one. Hahaahaha! If in case in the future you guys see this. Chesca my lovely chef. Diego my face of the night. Kezia my mentor my spiritual adviser my somehow everything kasi you always give me reason to breath again hahahaha and Rhea… yep youre here too. On the list. Wow hahahaha i mean on the list of people i should be thankful and whatever happen nanjan pa rin sila. Bukod sa pinautang mo ko. I felt the sincerity. Yung buong pusong tulong. I felt that with you when i needed money. I did not felt na may utang na loob ako sayo. You are sincere when you were helping. And i will never forget that.

Okaaaaayyyy where the heck am i?

Im lost. Ang haba kasi. Hahahaha! Its soooo long. I dont know if someone can survive on this longgggg emotional post hahahahaha

Its 1:02am

My birthday wish is i hope we can all have someone with us. Just one. One who will be there until our breath. It could be your future wife or husband. I dont know. But i really wish. We could all have the one. We deserve one. Everyone deserve one!

And be nice!

Your “hey are you okay? You can talk to me!” Could save a life!

And if you guys will ask… hmmmm how am i dealing with this sht again. I HAVE GOD :) well im still asking for someone cuz i want to have like a physical contact. Like i can call in the middle of the night and talk about non sense things. You know physical contact? Love you Lord! Dont hate me! Hahahaha!

But right now since i dont have someone, i have God, i can talk to and phone. Tumblr! Duuuhhh! I can write a book in here! Hahahaha!

Deep sigh I dont feel like i gave the message i wanted even though its like 134 pages now hahahaha ALL IN ALL. DONT BE A DICK. DONT BE A RUDE. BE NICE. BE OPEN. DONT JUDGE. HELP OTHERS. APPRECIATE PEOPLE. SPREAD LOVE. KINDNESS. AND TO THOSE WHOS SUFFERING SADNESS RIGHT. HEY! DO NOT STOP BREATHING OKAY? YOU CAN DO THIS YOU WILL WIN. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! GO FIND SOMETHING THAT COULD HELP YOU GET THROUGH THIS. GO BASKETBALL OR VOLLEYBALL OR PLAY PIANO OR LEARN ABOUT VOLCANOS IDUNNO JUST STAY BREATHING!!!! PLEASE!!!! FIND SOME INSPIRATION. YOUR IDOL!!! Selena Gomez or Demi Lovato!!! I dont know!!! Just, stay breathing okay? Okay? Promise me! I love you! And i love myself. Eventhough im fck up sometimes. And i love life eventhough sometimes it punches me right in the face. AND I LOVE GOD. EVENTHOUGH SEMANA SANTA IS ALWAYS ON MY BIRTHDAY! Love You Lord! :* Love you everyone! -eya