#but for real i need to chill 4 a bit cuz im so mad at them

[wh6res]

127 SQUAD AND ROMANTIC BF TINGS

tw a lil bit of suggestive on jae's but nothing explicit

✰ — TAEIL would sing lullabies over the phone or video call. you and him would just be doing your own thing, not talking but enjoying being each other's presence. he'll probably pull out his guitar and start singing random songs until he eventually notices you fell asleep on him. will not end the call and when you wake up in the morning, his snores and his cute sleeping face is the first thing you see. "love? you still there? ... taeil?" then laugh out loud when you hear his snores instead. "okay yeah lets sleep more" the call will only end probably because his phone died. he kinda strikes me as a guy who's phone is always < 50% battery lmao

✰ — JOHNNY is your everything. literally. as long as he has the power of youtube, google, and instruction manuals on his side, he can fix anything and everything for you. we've all seen him do crafty things on jcc lmao so it'll probably apply to relationships as well. will 100% say you now owe him cuddles for fixing something for you. you kinda dont like the fact that he's doing all these things for you so you try doing them on your own without him knowing only to fail big time. "what did we learn today?" "never touch the pipes under the sink" "and?" "and always ask johnny for help" "nuh-uh thats not how i said it" you sigh exasperatedly "always let my smokin hot amazing handsome boyfriend johnny suh get the job done"

✰ — TAEYONG doesn't care whether you take the time shopping or not. in fact, he loves seeing you all excited and giddy for pampering yourself as you should. totally the type to hold the paper bags even if you complain and say you can manage on your own. is a complete angel and will wait patiently outside changing rooms and will give you genuine insight he has of the clothes you picked. "that looks nice. you should get that. the length is just right and the sleeves help accentuate your waist" "really yongie?" "yes love. i mean you look pretty in everything anyway" miss ma'am my heart just fucking melted ?¿?

✰ — YUTA doesn't look like it but will exert real effort into things. would be the type to have a note or a google doc about your favorite orders from restaurants because he just loves how your eyes light up appreciatively and you look so smitten by him. its like a cheat sheet. eventually he memorizes the list with how much time he spends with you and he wont even need it. the type to always bring you food before meeting you (if its just hanging out inside the house). "no way! i was just craving for these!" he smiles before kissing your forehead, volunteering to put the food out its container for you. "i figured. you'd been working since this afternoon. lets eat first then you can tell me about what you've been working on so i can help you, okay?"

✰ — DOYOUNG loves cooking for you. i highkey feel like its his love language? like cooking for you and seeing your eyes light up as it darts back to him after you take your first bite from whatever he cooked just gives him so much happiness. its disgustingly sappy and he doesn't like talking about it. now he understood fully what it meant to see your loved ones eating and being full yourself or some shit. idk how the actual quote goes okay dont come 4 me but u probably get it. anyway the type to always pack you lunch and will get hella mad if you skip meals. "what do you mean you havent eaten yet?" "yeah but i will after i--" "you mean you're going to eat Now?" "what? no maybe later--" "thats it im coming over"

✰ — JAEHYUN would be the type to make you playlists. its really random sometimes he'll send them to you in the early morning for the heck of it bc he cant sleep. most of the time its him being horny lmao the frat boy in him awakening and sending you a playlist called imma blow your back out or something extremely cringey and thirsty pls dont block his sorry ass maybe he'd spell out the words using song titles too! idk jae just rlly strikes me as a guy who's love language is music. "hey babe did you check the playlist i sent you?" "wtf its 4am???" "oh so you havent listened to it yet?" "fuck off" but at the end of the day he'll come over and will use the playlist to,,, you know,,, do the sexy thing ;)

✰ — JUNGWOO always makes sure you walk on the inside of the road. you know when you're walking in the street and he softly nudges your waist? yes. will probably even scold you playfully because with how long its been since you both are together, "babe you always walk on the inside of the road how many times do i have to tell you?" is also the type to remind you to wear your seatbelt immediately after hopping onto his car. would ask you Again while in the middle of the car ride because he forgot that he already asked you earlier. please don't mind him he's just looking out for you bb. "seatbelt?" "yes, babe. already done" "are you sure? i dont think i heard it click--" "babe eyes on the road please" "oh right sorry"

✰ — MARK sends you tiktoks, vines, or memes. this is his love language fite me im calling it. he just wants to see you laugh too okay? thats why he does it. i mean it made him laugh, so maybe it will you laugh too. also because he hopes to make inside jokes with u cuz he believes thats how people really get close and stuff. would definitely love it if you do the same thing with him. you'd be chilling in the sofa while khalid plays on the bluetooth speaker and he'll suddenly go "babe babe babe check this out!" then you both proceed to laugh at a vine for the next thirty minutes <3 #living.the.yn.life

✰ — HAECHAN will do your skincare for you when you're drunk or super tired that you just passed out cold on the bed. would probably come into the room to see you snoring and tutting bc now he has to do it for you again but meh deep down he loves it because he enjoys admiring your sleeping face. its sorta like a healing thing for him? yeah it just washes away all the stress he's feeling and bb is just excited about the idea that this becomes "your thing" with him if u get what im saying? altho the next day he'll probably use it as a leverage to get out of chores :) "no way im not folding our clothes" "and why is that?" "i took your make up off yesterday u know how hard that is? im still tired" "but its literally the next day--" "awww thank you for doing my chores, baby! u the best!" ._.

[pndnj]

Cathartic- Yellow Metal Lyrics

Heres where I am with the lyrics, I referenced @25Goldenn on twitter for some of it that I couldn’t comprehend. 

*music*

0:23

Dark matter, like painted splatters, they fit better, the old saying, the way it goes, better the devil you do then you don’t know. I hit pedals and switch levers, my heart metal, I can't settle, im part trouble, they are not subtle. I fuck good so fuck cuddles, burst bubbles the thrist levels at new heights, i down doubles, and got baked til I felt high, my face puzzled, felt muddled, far strung and your floors woodent, the thought might but the fit wouldn’t. A fortnight

0:46 - 1:00

And I thought right, it’s all bark and no bite, I’m Tony Stark still embarking on a dream, took a bit of time to take darkness from the team. Seen what I saw. Heartless on the sleeve. Tried to burn my wings, so I put them in a piece on my chest , at peace no rest.

1:00-1:15

Flipped this on it’s head. Rip the script up now, flip it don’t pretend, slipping shit again, Fakers all around me, I’ve been living in pretense. Fake friends won’t make amends. There’s no need, these mean comments control the scenes. Attentionseekers, the spine is weakened

1:15-1:24

This family needs, what a family needs, and the planet bleeds, the damaged trees. It’s never leaving til we ascend so fuck the fence, and until they stop killing colour it’s fuck the feds.

1:22 - 1:44

You must be off it, I mean it, you know you ain’t never get with the judging and I used to dread growing my beard too long, never felt I belonged, but it's really long like a minute I ain’t looking to no mans for the limits, They’re feeling timid, I’m telling them who they mimic, why they don't look like a clinic …. Why they don't get no women, Still, we’re just fucking girls, Lost in the wrong world, Jurassic, now to this vermin

1:41-  1: 50

Kicking the game I’m serving, these losers are never learning, my fire is forever burning, adding it to my fuel, seems like I’m always focused on never becoming you, These locals that rob us feeling … was for a reason.

1:52-2:02

I’m seeing my new beginnings, watch out this loser’s winning, and no water is too deep to swim in Like I’m about to see a killing, I’m all the way that and living, flawless and feeling lawless, the prison now to the gimmicks, my vision is set to something,

2:03-:2:20

I’m watching you bitches plummet, no matches here for my cunning, you rappers are feeling done in, switching your genre, running and Running your jaw, stunting, pulling at straws, something  I think you’re a poor effort, deaf and tone deaf and I ain’t treat you separate. Living, I’m in my element, riding it like a … never lose me to fentanyl, scared when I take a benadryl. Keeping it green in general

2:20- 2:46

Think that you remain irrelevant. Look at yourself with reverence, hoping to always elevate. Celibate of these thoughts, killing themselves with sedatives. In comparison to eminem, you’re feeling feminine. Impolitically correct, still dropping on my dick. And I never gave a fuck about what they say abt my shit, I’ve been moving things in my mind like it’s this mountain dew Memories have made me wonder if one day I’m after you. What’s the purpose that you do, is what you're hoping that they learn, i’d like to say i’m done but it’s getting up on my nerves

2:46 -2:55

I’m looking at my life, saying what do I deserve. It’s hard to say I know when I’m walking through the dirt. Talking while you’re nothing I can see for what it’s worth. I’m tired of feeling hurt and I’ve tried enough but nothing works.

2:55-3:40

I’m racking up excuses while I’m slacking off on work. Chit chatting is the usual, talking to this clerk, i beg you don’t include me. I might write it on my shirt so everytime they see me, the oldest know to swerve. SWERVE Life is potent, bits of fucked shit… till they took notice weren’t  no hocus pocus, it was hard work that got me heard so i put in the graph like google maps but the whole earth

… around my door mat, taking over like the drones, rolling dirt up in miles like the water, and exploding like Annas hematoma. Don't need to see a slammer to know that I don't want to go man

I’m a showman. I’m just focused on the drama… like i’ve got my own insurance, show myself the pain, like i boxed it in the frame, if we’re about to talk greatness im great, the way you have to say my name like beyonce

“Say my name”

4:00-4:46

Just a bum with a cigarette, sun coming up, all my thoughts on the internet. Feeling deep, I’m just bored with the silhouette single sec,  get fucked up for the thrill of it . killer streak playing Pacman. Like I came from the Philippines vanilla bean still a thing for the thrill of scene,

Theres a beam, UFO, Leave it well alone  I aint moving, stood still on the peloton, telephone and its always on the dial tone,  it's been a while since i’ve smiled at a milestone, seen a big pile in my mind stone, me against the world on my Jack Jones, Like I’m John Jones, With pictures in the condo, far from John Doe, in the ___, like I'm Johnny Bravo, got pravado, with a small dick sitting in golados, feeling far gone, cuz that last hit was the good shit, was that stay lit

4:48-5:02

You can never take my shit come and get me. On the top floor,  cloud 9, fading, never bailing, felt amazing, inhaling, til my lungs two guns blazing. Overcome all the stunts that I pulled. A suit of just skin and then wool

5:02- 5:17

This life doesn’t give you no armour, a lot of myself can harm ya. I swear on what’s good, that I’m here till they take me. I pray that I’m wrinkled, at least over 80, and start moving like a ruler, ?damaged? Like a computer going fast, bars from the jeweler, bring the songs to the beach in hopes of finding tuna

5:18-5:36

…

5:36- 6:16

Grab a bat, lose my rag. Couple things got me mad, a couple people got me wrong and now I’m changing up the swag. Coming in and stealing it, I might take the whole bag. Feeling undefeated, I’m a beast with a reason, and imma lead the whole pack. Fearless like I’m Caesar, I’m just waiting for a chance to fill it up with diesel, and all I've been achieving is clocking miles in its region, moving like a legion.

Promise that I made to myself an allegiance. Do you still believe I’m a fool for ever leaving, staring at the ceiling, can never put a cap on achieving. I’m just here for the rap, then I’m leaving.

I’ve had about enough of being my own enemy, it’s time I grew up,  a long way from 17. Always went against the grain, struggles in my life. Got some things to say when I stand up on a mike.

6:16-6:32

I ain’t dropping this for fame, I need this time, like therapy, it’s just to keep me sane. The truth is on my medicine, can’t put that on your plate.

Speeding into everything, bout time I fixed the brakes. Don’t say I can’t communicate , you know I conversate with you in several different ways. And I know you know it’s references, looking at your face.

6:33- 6:53

Can’t justify mistakes, like every man that made them, seems I ain't  the one to blame. Lying to myself, only had so much to gain, so now I’m switching up the plate, see if that affects the place, im at on most days

I ain’t going with the usual so they looking at me strange. Confused, I can feel it all,  I’m here to make a change. It’s cold at 3am outside, I’m walking with the dog, thanking god that you don’t talk at all, my mind is switching off

6:54-7:12

Driving down to find myself, cuz I’ve been getting lost, lived this selfless life and found I can give a toss. Lessons that I’ve learned I’ve tried teaching to myself. What I’ve learnt from certain people is that they’re better than myself.

So I surround myself with real ones, and you feel the plastic melt. Like burning toy soldiers that used to go up on the shelf. Recycle the ideas, conveying on the belt

7:14-7:29

.. circus, always hurting the way we felt? Embarrassed that we dreamt of bigger things and letting go of notions till we feel them in cement

Tired of only hoping, we feel broken men. Cuz the gravity is weight and has kept us to the ground, see the only people speaking with favors in their mouths

7:46-7:58

Got killer rhymes… no fillers, like godzilla, eating clouds cuz my smokes thicker, throat licker, my dope sicker, bringing people their hope like im the pope slicker,  i hope you’re getting the point cuz i walk quicker

I thought my city was shit bcs I want bigger like my zipper couldn’t zip up fed up with the…my love is fickle.. Residual age has a primitive face

I see demise for your limited ways, Left it to simmer, simmer away…a fake glimmer in the haze

8:09-8:11

Feeling trapped this industry is a cage

8:34-8:50

Nobody’s speaking the truth, I’m offended by the State. Look at the state of the news, I’ve decided the argument, reciting my views, while they’ve been sat in their chairs, I’m feeling pressure to choose.

Standing here as one man, how can I do half when you’re half the person I am. If it wasn’t in your life, you didn’t choose it. It’s the funny thing about music. It’s the pain and beauty of it.

8:52-9:11

Don’t give a fuck what my suit is, it looks good so I wear it, better than the shoot that People’s wearing, changing the whole narrative for these basics and scarcity

Been facing the racists from back when i were a kiddie .born up in in 93’. been living in Bradford City..kicked me out of the schools, they had a problem with me hitting the kids that would call me p*** still sitting in the classroom chilling, and i'm angry now that I’m older I see they treat us different

9:12-9:25

got me thinking I’m the problem cuz they never dealt with those issues.

20 years later I’m still in the same boat, tryna treat me like my grandpa, say I came up off the boat. Came to tell you what I stand for, man I think you’re shit, a joke. How can I be civil, when they got me by the throat

9:25-9:35

Pushing my feelings down, you ain’t got it like them

‘Boy your skin is so light’, ok motherfucker take my name up on a flight. Try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white.

9:35-9:45

I don’t know how that’s acceptable, when life is more susceptible to perception, be the death of them. I’ve been looking at the sky saying where’s that day of reckoning, you had your prophets right when they say that you would speak to them.

9:45-9:55

I need justice in this life and I trust that it’s my fight, cuz when I’m writing it feels right to have them focused on the facts again. Focused on the rap again, hoping for the change, gunna put this on the map again

9:55-10:16

Writing in all caps again, the pain, it goes through me so I write the letter. All the shit that could have brought me but made me better.

I’m at home with a pain in my soul , yeh rap… cuz you know I was too real to contest it, my time was invested. Now I look at the industry, I see it infested, looking like kids who would write on nesquik.

10:17-10:29

My name ain’t on the list unless they label it ethnic.

I ain’t never gave a fuck about these jokers and jesters. Ain’t no answers for these things, so just save us the questions, man allowed of violence, cuz my silence is deafening, your opinion stinks, somebody get him a breath mint.

10:30- 10:42

Start to understand why they think that I’m threatening, I move in certain ways, couldn’t slow me with ketamine Now they all wanna hear me, got a table at letterman. Direction changed, like I changed up the lettering. Don’t believe the age ,bcs I move like a veteran.

10:42 - 10:47

Raised on the benefit for whose benefit, they’ll never learn shit, man, if the shoe fits.

…no words coming out when you open your mouth

And to be honest, it’s insulting, offensive to my wounds that have been salting. Tryna ask me questions that they know I never answer. I’d rather sit online and reply to the fan art

11:00-11:06

Fuck a sports car, coming through when i rapped

tell you what I like, farm life and the tractor

11:06- 11:17

Fake life, 'sup online, suck a fat one. You don’t wanna buy into that, none of that son. Sitting in the garden 98’ in the Datsun,  seen some hot summers but I still remember that sun.

*music*

11:51- 12:34

I make millions off of my pain, cause I know a few millions still living that way

Dealing with the hurt, they should know cause they don’t deserve it, it hit deep cause i hit the nerve. Only way that the sheep learn if the street firm, in my ways I don’t wanna change, everything just stay the same

Who you tryna convince you understand, cant maintain, let the lights dim some,  get the Chow Mein, flex, get the tape, right up at night

Why these men be nice to my face, be nice,  i ain’t tryna be a gangsta ruins my vibe

Rather be low-key and on my phone. Never need the trophy or the show piece

Never show peace in a North Face fleece. Show kids this like i wrote my flip

Cause the sign might fit till the start i’m sick

12:37-13:05

Now you see where I come from, the world don’t. Only achievement in this life is the Jordans. Committing petty crimes out of boredom, we can’t afford them. So I stole it, need a rolex

Go make sense, get yourself a job, It’s a poor man’s game tryna sit and pray to god, he ain’t sorting out your problems, gotta sort them out yourself

Used to tell us fables, now I’m writing them myself, Cause we raw like animals we all just need some help

Cathartic, I’m an artist, trying to put my heart in

Felt double crossed like Leo in Departed

13:05- 13:27

For the knowledge i’m not charging see I got it all free

But my hunger kept me starving like i’m feening for the feed

I just Need a reason to see me bleeding for my creed. Trick you with the words like I keep em up my sleeve. Picking where I fit, I see me sitting with the queen

I ain’t doing it unless you’re used to saying please

Let me flow a bit, before I sting 'em with the bees, They tryna kill us with disease

(Music)

13:34- 14:12

Why does it feel like they had the same notebook and the same four looks

Like the rain won't touch on their face, so sus when they lie don’t trust not a minor

Please no fuss, I just move through the game like must

Something in the way i adjust till i stick, Free falling like the ship, free fall till i bust

Remember 21 brother gave no fucks. Trying to project when they give them looks

In the projects, in the objects us

In my own way, never gave me love, shoulda never started this, broken hearted kid

Dried up the feeling till I stole the lid

Don’t wanna relish in the fame but I can’t resist

14:46-14:58

I like the way we feel, I like the way, I like the way

Ain’t no mistake, i am a being

I ain’t tryna be a leader, been selling out since Jesus

All my rhymes are for the readers, between the lines, like Father time, I fuck Mother Nature

14:58-15:40

That’s what they get, the connotations. Tell 'em I lived a life, and then I lived a life of adjacent? like its…. and played it patient.

Alone on my own spaceship, always tryna find greatness, still defying lines, but I’m fighting in my prime.

Shining light like Kylo while imma kill it all the time. Aging like I’m wine

Asian in my face, but still my race you can’t define. Focused on defiance, imma fight it while it’s life.

Started something sick and on my mind is what’s next, just became a dad so now I’m taking all the cheques. Better know I’m staying and paying like it’s debt. Imma get it done, if it’s taking all my breath, sweat, and down I ain’t messing around til I’m the best

Speaking in full sentences, shoulda thought about a strategy before you went at the stratosphere about this… rings around Saturn, this ain’t a battle, I’m sat, I’m here

15:40-16:22

Catch me doing magic, hired and sounding tragic I think you could use practice and until that you get the blacklist and pull like a … actress? Fooling them like a catfish, schooling like a legend, happy to be the reference, fusing like iridescence, leaving them all guessing, leaking out of my brain like a pipe I aint fixing, shining like a star you can see it from a distance

Aint many of me around p*** I’m just different Certain stages to this level aint here because fame is to the devil fuck a label, imma do this from the ghetto, clean up like Im Dettol

I’m the man to put a bet on, sight smart like a weapon,  this is my kind of setting, i write the world I’m sat in, while these others live on hype, i see them fight in how they type, the fruit is ripe for the taking, i think i might

16:22-16:57

Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here

16:58- 17:47

Eccentric things are mentioned like a kid stuck in detention tryna escape im just spitting what is written on the next page, spitting image of my dad in his young days

Born sinner when i’m livid i say fucks sake

Don’t worry i’m too cunning with no plumbing, the waterworks, i sung something that resonates, i thought it first like giving birth to the parrot perch

They see me do it and they know it works

Don’t know what’s worse: the way that you live your life or the way that you write a verse

You’ll be nervous, you don’t deserve it we’ll scratch the surface ill leave a crater, lift the dirt up to find the hurting

Can’t know for certain nothing is guaranteed, tryna be a better person than the world deserves to see cuz i see a lot of sharks still swimming in the sea

Cease and arrest what’s the reason.. And these the kinda kids we bringing up next

Distorted reality, all they needed was family, too hard to face, to see what the damage is

17:47

*i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, no, i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, *

18:04-18:38

Sometimes they ask the questions too deep to form a sentence, to disform, is this the norm, is this the sentence i feel defenseless i played the setlist, and all my sweat blood and tears, forgot to mention feeling lost, going off into different sections i feel like love wrecked it

If it’s not a drug why am i waiting for the next fix, affected, i cant believe that you left this

I guess I leave for the best wish, moving on like im fine for the lectures

We see it all from spectrums, cuz if we’re falling down we can fall down together

Staircase to heaven, mirror down the middle like 11, resentment on one side it won’t settle

18:38- 19:14

Mind fried but taking sense, they aint got a sense of themselves in the rich ends

Need to spell it out for them.. Made for them so witness

I know you feel afflicted but you always love it with me while im laughing at you, ya think you’re laughing with me

I try to (i love you) but im grown so they don’t fit me, my body thrown from the new to this old city so Im sick of sitting on my own, feeling so shitty, i’ve been on roads where its cold and the snow hitting

Its okay to be yourself, sit and talking to myself

I’ve been walking for the longest, just need a little rest, know i ain’t the strongest, I can feel it in my chest, talking about my feelings and of me, they get the best

19:14-19:59

They aint leaving, seeing breathing in my breath

Till death do us part is just seeded in my heart, like a work of art

Never winning,im just scared

Cant begin from the start, do i play a part in the rhythm of the night

I guess i’m onto something cuz the dark is feeling right

Every cloud got a lining, put my own miles  in, like moralis, figured that they’re jealous, that they could just never tell us to change because the weather never made me question whether or not i’m not that level

Got rid of all the bullshit sitting in my way, most of them are full of shit i see it every day

I do hearing the same things that i do, maybe that shits hitting like haiku

How much do you pay for them to hype you

Recycle your flaws but they aint like new, leaving and conceded and full of diesel like engines that need a cleaning, the ending will be revealing. Even though we ain’t raising the facts, now we been facing.

20:01-20:52

The cactus with spikes, needing spaces. Different faces, the same story. A full body like straight body direct to your system.

Could never tell 'em we missed’ em. Not even with the thoughts, we gift them. Cuz they just take advantage, guess we are caught in a system.

My soul pouring out details of borrowed time, had enough of a fill, this is for sorrow time. I’m seeing visions of Heaven, I seen the severed line, between the gospel they speak and when theyre telling lies.

Remember telling a friend of mine, you’d sent of mine, identified like a 3rd eye. Got a habit of knowing now where the dirt lies. So benign. I ain’t sober after 9, so I fuck their minds. Why you flipping out, see another

Try to rep it from the city, fuck a chiller crew, repping for the nittys, trying to keep us down, raised on the social, don’t want to let us out of the system. Me, I insist we assist them, me alone putting shifts til I lift them

20:53-21:12

I know it’s hard, that’s why I like it, I’m fit to fight it, I’m from the North, I’m backing Tyson, it’s been decided, don’t see no light. They needing guiding, just redefining, realizing, I’m realigning, in full finance, they stay silenced.

Can’t be louder, I’m juiced up with no powder. I fix shit like a slick spanner. Gone green like Bruce Banner. So free Gaza on my banner

21:12-21:51

The real McCoy, I ain’t nothing to toy with, signifying peace like a Japanese Koi Fish. How did this happen, we’re moving backwards in our timeline, killing us with cyanide, Right up for the freedom 'til we transform like Ironhide

This is bout my feelings, the way that I move affects the fate that I’m sealing. Can’t say nothing, with that something being on the page, kept inside the pen like the bars that have been kept caged. See I always had a plan, since I was young, we had nothing man

Now it’s been a few years since I ain’t seen the fam, on foreign lands. Bout to climb Everest in the avalanche. Right into the riddles as soon as you were born. Never asking the question cuz it’s the norm. See I’m in a questionin’ session

21:52-22:03

Like the manner got a method to teaching a lesson, listen to MF Doom, he taught me like Ra’s Al Ghul. Felt like living in Gotham, the people were rotten. Still we play cartoons so it’s never forgotten.

22:03-22:15

Chilling at the top but we came from the bottom. Writing and jottin for them life by, spotting the difference

*Dreams, was growing out of me, sun promising that tomorrow it will rise, time playing games with my mind, I swear it will pass us by

Train goes on the tracks, smoke, I’m tired to hide my thoughts, so blinded in flames, Don’t know where we’re going, I have no way of knowing, only see what’s in my head

Can’t we wait a minute, so we can savour this, It’s on my brain again, these days, It on my brain again these days”

23:10-23:46

They’re hating on Palestine ways, The oh no Palace playing Prince on the Steinway, Sending out mind waves, stop them like crimewaves, Freedom fighter, Yellow Metal is my name

Like vipers, I see the sly ones, the snake that’s called Biden, none of them abiding what they might put in writing

We should be used to it by now, say whatever for the vote and then just choose another route, say they’d never kill another unless that brother’s skin is brown

I’m just telling you the facts, if you can’t take it, the truth naked, to bare bones and my thoughts lately, spitting politics.. Done ain’t it, Shit just gets me vexed, and now I’m sitting that I think of it

23:45-23:59

Feeling on the brink of it, whatever it is, Figure out some shit at least it feels that way

talk about my feelings and I don’t feel so strange, finding solace, that’s a promise, in Metropolis but being honest, can’t write a sonnet, without some pain

24:00-24:40

Can’t fade away, away so we can savour this, been on my brain again these days

Can't find a way to be so you can savour this, been on my brain these days

Singing the song for another, singing a song for another

[survivor-ingary]

Episode 3 - "RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful" - Riley

The 3 tribes of Pendragon, Hatter, and Jenkins have been reorganized and condensed into 2 new Hatter and Pendragon Tribes. Tribal immunity is Scavenger Hunt.

The fact I have Brayden and Toph in my merged tribe boosts my serotonin. i have a feeling colin may be someone to keep an eye out for in the future now...

RIP tribe Jenkins we were too powerful. I guess we'll see how Pendragon pans out.

yall doin me dirty putting me with brayden i just hope that by some miracle me him anastasia and ellie can work together? like i still dont know if theyre plotting on my ass vdshibshj i know brayden told anastasia to take me out when this game started oop but lemme see if dis works. i hope riley follows the logic of the old tribe sticking together and thatll be 5 votes. im kinda obsessed with toph like since the beginning of the game he looks like someone i could totally play with so def wanna work on that relationship. ava and nya? i believe? lets say hello and work on those relationships as well. dis is a bit overwhelming but we shall see how it goes

uh... well... i am SCREWED. me and ginny were the only ones separated from the Jenkins tribe... RIP. 4 pendragons, 2 hatters, and 2 jenkins... the main things i see here are pendragon yoinking one of the hatters / jenkins and voting the other off... OR a 4-4 tie... OR they're gonna target one of me or ginny cuz none of us have gone to tribal council yet. this is really dicey, and I need to tread very, very carefully from hereon. (ALSO GINNY BARELY TALKS PLS I NEED YOUR HELP GIRL)

This swap actually turned out pretty amazing for me. I still have Keith and Moth who I worked semi-close with in the pre-swap. Additionally, I've met up with Colin and Babs. A little Raffy magic could keep me very safe on this tribe. I think Kenneth is super fun as he is a newbie AND active. He will definitely make it far in this game. I hope, at the very least, that I can be by his side to make that happen. However, I am wary he might just be making these strong social connections with everyone. As a final note, OG Pendragons have this tribe 4 to 8. That's both good and bad. Good because we have numbers. Bad because that may make people target me very early on just for being a part of it. So, I have decided that if I were to throw any of my OG Pendragons to the wolves it would be Jonathan as I haven't been able to connect with them as well as Keith and Moth. Other than that, I hope this tribe doesn't have to go to tribal all that often between now and the next swap/merge. These people are lovely.

I'm getting a bad feeling about this... Since most of my Jenkins tribemates are on the other tribe, I KNOW they're good cuz we just keep getting W's... so I think there is a good chance we might lose the challenge. I contributed a good amount, so I hope that the target won't be on me if ever we lose the challenge :( I really don't wanna go, and I wanna reunite with Dennis/Ellie and maybe Anastasia and get further in the game.

i worked hard on this confessional

Our tribe did our absolute best in this challenge. I have no idea who is getting targeted if we go to tribal as everyone is so quiet. All I know is that I want to keep Colin, Kenneth, and Keith close to me for this stage of the game. They are the only ones who consistently talk to me. Challenge results: Pendragon wins due to a 10% advantage, Hatter Tribe must go to tribal council the following day.

THANK GOD I FINALLY GET TO GO TO A TRIBAL, ITS BEEN TOO LONG!!!!

Look, before you go to tribal with a group of people it feels like there’s a barrier of game socialization because you haven’t been able to go to tribal with them. But leading up to tribal and after it, a whole new can of worms is available for game talk. Unfortunately it’s an extremely simple vote because Nya has ghosted all of us, but at least we still get to go to tribal so I can talk game with more people even if it’s only a small amount with this easy vote. But who knows, someone might decide to switch shit up!

And also I absolutely love this tribe (Minus Nya cause I haven’t met them) so I’m glad that I get to go forward with this group although I won’t be nearly as happy if we go to tribal again because as I said, I do enjoy this group of people a lot

Moth (Tumblr will only allow me 10 images so player banners stop now, whoops) I believe the only reason I will make it to the next round is because of Raffys advantage. I’d be so screwed otherwise

I like Babs. They got good vibes.

Also I’d kill to know how the other tribe reacted

Dennis in a perfect world i would try to not vote out nya but bdksksksoksks theyve done it to themselves. no need to make waves. unless someone else is secretly plotting on me i think this is about to be an easy tribal. damn one point. miss ellie had her name down on stuff that she didnt do. also overslept that first challenge is she purposey trying to sabotage and play the villain? who knowssss also ive broken my streak of never going to tribe tribal sigh

Toph So what’s happening, I can’t remember the last time I made a confession but the tea yall ?! Soooo the tribe swap happened and my gut was right soooo okay intuition work ! I feel like I really like everyone from the merge and nya as remained inactive since, after losing the challenge it seems like an easy vote but you can never be to safe, I have my little allinnce with Brayden and Ava which is wig and I really dig Ellie , Anastasia, and Dennis too, I’m gonna be so nervous if we have to go to tribal agian because it could be me ! I’m not to sure about Reilly but they seem nice ! I feel pretty good with Anastasia as well and feel we could rope her into an alliance easily, I’m just gonna due my best right now to play the middle, keep my head down and speak positively. I really need to find an idol or something even better just so I don’t have to worry as super much and just plain worry then lol. If anything I’m gonna stay loyal to brayden and Ava the most since there my day one homies. Brayden seems to be close with Anastasia which could definitely help in are favor of having the numbers on are side. But could mean he would easily cut me for her if needed, so that mean I need to get closer with Ava, just to gaurnetee my safety, I have to look out for me this game and only me, making sure the numbers are kn my side I’m constantly on the right side of the vote should help me strageticly float to the end and win my crown thank you very much. I’m also lowkey worried about alliance’s being made right now without me! Everyone seems to be online but my chats are a bit quite but this could be me overthinking things mmmhmm I’m not sure, we’ll anyways it was nice to vent to y’all. :)

Riley Nooooooo I can't believe we lost by just one point. Damn the Hatter tribe's secret bonus point boost >:(

Kenneth I am honestly in such a shock that we won that challenge... Raffy really came in clutch and helped us win AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Now I don't have to worry about being randomly blindsided or targeted for at least a couple more days now pls I just hope we get lucky again and another swap happens where I would be on the right side of the numbers, all prepared for merge domination >:) Raffy Oof. I know the other tribe is MAD because I would be too. Like, we only won because of my advantage giving us a 1 POINT LEAD. That's crazy! Honestly, this works for me as I can still focus o n making strong social connections within this tribe. By the time we go to tribal, I will be so integrated with this tribe that voting me out would do a lot more short-term harm than long-term good. I want to see if Kenneth would start an alliance with me as that is someone I want to work closely with. In this alliance? I have no idea. I'll probably let Kenneth take the lead on that since I want him to feel like he is in charge. Dennis nothing is real

if i go tonight i would applaud it bc i am so sure nya is going. it would be a goop if the vote really wasnt nya but everyone is more or less trying to do the easy thing i think. i just hope she is okay and just too busy for dis.

some time has gone by and im just chilling. im not chilling because i feel safe, im chilling because i dont know what else to do. i cant be all game talk 24/7 because then im an outcast and would get targeted. besides the obvi alliances like a+b and maybe(?!?!??) an e(?!) in there, idk what alliances there are. like there has to be something but i dont have the picture yet. as yall know im not in any alliances in my current tribe besides i guess ellie who i fear is a saboteur lol and most likely working with a+b. a+b are such a double edged sword for me ugh. am i really in their best interests???????????????? am i really in ellies best interest???? do they know about her idol too?????????? likeeeee thats the issue. if im not really in their best interests then im the next to go after nya. i am probs very low if not the lowest on this tribe if dats true. i mean what if i really am in their best interests and theyre all genuinely trying to work with me? idk! if not then im next to go efuhijdhvbf and i fear im probably not.

i really like toph. taurus sun (in the 12th!) gemini everything else king. hes got social game on lock like who wouldnt wanna work with him ?! and hes a cutie ?! ?! ?! but i seen the chart -.- i know what hes doin. i think hes working with ellie. but he reaches out to me and probably others but i like our conversations. (but im sure everyone loves their conversations with toph!! hes great!!!!! friendly ol toph wont harm a fly ?!) i hope he likes me and sees i actually would wanna work with him above all the gorls and chooses me over them too.

ava also knows what theyre doing. saturnian legend. we barely talk but little short bits here and there. i hope its bc theyre busy but im sure ellie is talking to them more than me amongst others too. oop also possible alliance, brayden toph ava who all swapped together. so gotta keep that in mind. but yeah i dont really think im much of their priority esp if theyre on vacay they would hear a name and not stress too much if its mine bc we dont have ties like that.

riley and i talk here and there, had a lil chat today

someone once told me that i just look like someone you cant trust but you can :( sometimes :)

so yeah here i am having lots of thoughts over the last few days.

maybe im not super super invested just yet bc i feel like the rug is gonna get swept out right from under me again :))) also back on my bs telling people im a leo moon. i shouldnt weaponize astrology but hey.

[angelgoddesslover]

Something happened yesterday

So I’ve been talking to this guy since like February we aren’t exclusive or anything just getting to know each other and chilling letting vibes take the wheel and whatnot.

Yesterday I go over after work Im wearing a jersey some black skinny jeans and some white lebrons not extra cute but I look nice my hair is up cuz I didn’t wanna do it that morning and it’s still neatly up after a 12 hr shift.

When I meet up w him I melt cuz lowkey I’m catching feelings but I’m not too bothered or anything. He opens the door to my car and he’s happy to see me. It’s cute we make out a little being all cute w each other and then he pulls out his phone like fuck.

He tells me that his friends are like 5 min away from his place surprise visit and whatnot. So I’m like ohh ok like I’ll leave you to it but he says no I want you to stay and meet my friends. *melting inside* I’m like ok what do you wanna do.

At first he was like maybe we can go to a club I’m not in anyway dressed for a club (I could do so much better) so I’m like ehh and he’s like I get you wanna look cute ok so maybe let’s go to a hookah bar. That I can get behind. So I’m chilling w him in the street telling him about my day having his strong arms wrapped around my body super cute lmao.

Well a white car pulls up and he’s like that’s my friends. There’s 2 guys in the white car. My guy (let’s call him Anthony) he goes up to the white car on the other side of the street from where we were and he’s like heyyy buddies or whatever. I’m on the other side cuz I was gonna charge my boos phone in my car. (Boy lives the dangerous life at 1%) so I’m tryna connect it get it done and I cross the street and I’m like hi! Mingle a little bit and Anthony introduces me to his friends.

Remember it’s 2 guys. Guy A is in the drivers seat (we can call him Dre) and Guy B is in the passengers seat (we can call him Joe). So Anthony is like hey this is Dre my best friend homie for life and I’m like hey nice to meet you. Dre says it’s nice to meet you too looks at me and is like wow you’re cute so I’m like thanks! Joe is still in his seat chilling. Anthony is telling Dre “this the girl I was telling you about remember her tattoo?” So I’m like oh yea true I have a tattoo on my sternum. So Anthony is like show him your tattoo. A little uncomfortable cuz it’s under my boobs and I’m w the boo thang so I’m like wait I’ve got it perfectly cropped out in my phone so I can show you guys. I grab my phone and show Dre and Joe and they’re like damn that’s lit and I’m like thanks. We get to talking about if it hurt and whatnot. I have a high pain tolerance so it didn’t hurt at all and Joe chimes in like lmao tattoos don’t hurt you have to just chill. Dre asks joe if he has one and he’s like not yet but I’m gonna and I’m like cool yea same like you just have to prepare and you’ll be fine also depends where you get it. Dre says he wants a chest piece but he’s afraid and I’m like it’s cool you know just if it’s something you want just breathe and think other thoughts or whatever. We continue to talk about tattoos and stuff and then we notice the time.

None of this was planned so Anthony is chilling in some sweats and he’s like I’m gonna pop in real quick and change. So I’m like cool bet I’ll be here. Anthony is like ok *slaps my butt* and says go to your car I’ll be out in a sec. I’m like yes daddy. So I go to my car and put some music on.

Literally I kid you not Anthony goes inside his house and Dre steps out of his car and taps at my car window. So I lower it (like a dumbass I pull down the wrong window quickly recover tho) so Dre is like “haha I didn’t see that”. I’m like “bet your ass you didn’t lmao” but he says he has to ask me a question.

“Have you and Anthony fucked?” Just like that like it’s a normal thing to say.

“Have what? Why would that be your concern if we have or haven’t tho?¿”

“He’s like cuz I have to ask you another question, but I need to know the answer”

“Well you’re not getting answer from me but what’s the other question?”

“I need to know if my dick is bigger than his. He says he has a 10” dick and mine is 9” and I just have to know cuz I feel like he’s lying.”

Literally the words that came out of his mouth. I could not I was shook. I couldn’t believe this was a conversation I was having what went through my mind at this point was ‘damn gurl maybe you shouldn’t rolled down your window but I thought he was gonna tell me something important damn gurl you fucked up’

“So have you and Anthony fucked? Have you seen his dick?”

“You don’t have to fuck to see a dick but idk man like if that’s what he says that’s what it is 🤷🏻‍♀️ like even if let’s say I knew what girl would pull out a ruler to measure besides I don’t even know what yours looks like to compare so what even and no I don’t wanna find it either.”

“I can pull it out but I have to get a little hard so you can measure for sure.”

“Ok no I don’t wanna do that.” *starts to roll window up* and then Dre dipped after seeing Anthony.

I couldn’t process what happened in that moment but I was shaking I had adrenaline I wanted to scream. So Anthony comes up to me and he’s like hey I’m gonna ride w my friend cuz he wants to vent about some baby mama drama (different guy had pulled up we can call him Luis) and I’m like ok but and he’s like I can be w you all night and stuff so i just nod.

So we’re going to this hookah place and we are following each other. I take a minute to process and call up my friends tell them what just happened. After proper venting they tell me I need to tell Anthony and I’m just tryna figure out how.

We get to the place and I’m like ok now is my chance but then I see Dre and I’m like nope I wanna dip I don’t wanna be here and Anthony notices somewhat. He pulls me close to him and he’s like come here. He was telling how he didn’t wanna be there anymore and if I wanted to do something else. Any other day I woulda been like yea sure not even caring I had work in the morning but I was like I want to go home. Anthony says “cuz you work tomorrow true” I cut him off “I have to tell you something” and he stops.

“Look me in my eyes and tell me again” very sternly. He’s 6ft tall I’m 4’ 11” so I’m like yes daddy. “I have to tell you something”

So I tell him just the first part basically your buddy your best friend asked if we fucked and if your dick was really 10” cuz his is 9”… I get cut off. I can feel him he’s mad. “Go home I’m gonna take care of this” so I dipped. I don’t know what happened and I haven’t heard from Anthony since last night.

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 17 - “gonna get bit by the same god damn snake!” - Matt S.

I felt I huge weight lift off my shoulders after Owen left, the Lion(Corey) has been avenged. You made me idol out my closest ally, fuck you, a Lannister always pays his debts.

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I made dis for Devon. It's a work of beauty.

https://imgflip.com/i/337avf

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Earlier today Devon and I spoke about the state of the alliance and it was agreed someone is gonna get the itch sooner rather than later. The person we decided that was more threatening and most likely to feel that itch is Chips, Chips already openly told me he felt like a 4 was deciding the vote, well he ain't wrong but it's really like a two in a 3 that's in a 4 that's part of a 5 that was a 6. I almost went to Timmy to catch him up to speed but caught myself, I need to let Devon have his move. If he feels like he godfathers a strong play more so than he already thinks that he united the resurgence, he assumes he can beat me and won't target me as we work through the thick of it. All while this is taking place, he gets a bigger target should it come down to a me or him thing to go to the big one.

Today has been really quiet. Nothing much happening besides doing the puzzles. The mega puzzle was like :0 I literally printed out the puzzle so could do it by hand. Hopefully my times were fast enough for me to be able to win. Id be happy to be safe again. No one know about my extra vote? Vote steal? Its one of those two, i have had it since premerge so its been a while. Still cant believe im in the final 8.

So cullan wants matt gone, but I still feel matt could be useful going forward for me. He will vote with me unless he can find someone other the Madison to attach to. I feel I will be brought up this vote, but I will do my best fight that as I have options to sway people the other way. Matt did try causing some chaos last round right before tribal. But what I want to do is chips. This guy has a character arc for this game that would literally destroy everyone at the FTC. Going from first boot, the lagoon, the merge, then the end...that would be impossible for anyone to beat. I am going to try and get this on chips today so we can get him outta here. 

I smell bad vibes. No one I saying a name and that’s not good! Timmy who fucked me over so supremely is now he only one reaching out to me and I’m like how many times am I gonna get bit by the same god damn snake! I don’t really see any merit in voting me out so that’s my only hope as of right now.

Ifbdhshs It’s the final 8. I cant believe that I have made it this far. Tonight it looks like one side is going to want to do Matt tonight. And Matt/Madison havent picked a target yet. Timmy and I may want to work with Matt and Madison to get rid of Cullan chips ian and devon. We need to make a smart play here to insure that we make it to further in the game. 

The "move" is going to be on me tonight and there's nothing I can do about it. It's been real Kuwait, btw you're all welcome for saving you from being systematically eliminated by Owen/Kait.

Two confessionals in one ep, because it’s possible this could be my last one!! I knew I was going to be in trouble and then it was confirmed for me this morning by Madison and by the fact that Cullan Chips and Ian feel sooooooo confident that they don’t even need to talk to me. I simply have to trust in the people who I have talked to that we will vote Ian, because who wouldn’t vote out an immunity threat who thinks he’s gonna coast to the final 3 with Cullan and Chips?? Like I’m just here and chilling and my allies are gone? Anyone voting me is bad at survivor and won’t get my vote because I truly don’t even consider myself as big a threat as people left, so they’re just playing stupid. This is literally how the Witches Coven must have felt.

Well my Plan to get Chips our did not pick up so I have A choice to make. Ian my closest ally in the game is getting votes and I could tip a scale or matt who has not exactly been trustworthy in the game. Or it could be a ploy to get em tot grow my vote and vote me. I have no idea. Just have to see what happens. 

Trying to flip so shit again and get Ian out. Pretty sure I’ve said it before that I’ve known he is a threat but it was more important to get kait and Owen out first. It’s probably going nice to be a tie vote first so things are going to be messy at tribal but that’s the exciting part. Am I willing to go to rocks this vote...probably yea sure why not. Might as well take the risk but I can get fucked because it’s a 3-2 risk on it since cullan has immunity. But 5 person rocks isn’t the worst odds I guess.

It looks like the vote might end up being 4-4. Matt Madison Me Timmy then Cullan Ian Devon Chips. I hope after the vote we could actually get Ian out even tho i really like him. Tbh its going to be sad writing  these peoples names down. It has been since like the very beginning. I just feel bad. But we have to do it cuz its the game. So im sorry Ian. Ilysm

So this vote I won immunity (THANKFULLY) and right now the vote is split between Ian and Matt. Personally I want matt as I need to use Ian as a meatshield until final 5. Timmy, Maynor, Madison, and Matt are voting for Ian while me, chips, devon, and Ian are supposedly voting Matt. There is a potential to go to rocks tonight and Im all for some rocks especially since I have immunity. I just need to win the next immunity challenge and I'm confirmed final 5!

Welp! Owen left at the last vote and this round the target is Matt since Madison is not very good at challenges. I'd like to not vote him out since he's a nice guy but also he's not part of my end game so... The other vote is Ian, I think? I'd be down to do that except that I secretly want to start a "Dad's Alliance" or something with Ian and Devon and will probably pitch it to them if he doesn't get blindsided this round. As long as one of us dads wins that's what matters. Anyway, I'm going to vote for Matt and we will see how things go.

IAN IS VOTED OUT

The vote was a success!! And now we’re all thinking that tomorrow will be an instant tribal after the immunity challenge bc that makes sense. That’s probably why it was so important that all of us are around for it. What’s great is even after not voting with Devon, he’s in my pms asking about a way to prepare for it. I feel like I’m in a great spot and I know if cullan doesn’t win immunity then he is the target and if he does then it’s Devon because chips flipped so he’s good for right now. I feel like my best chance in the end is sitting next to Maynor and Matt. Matt has allies on the jury yes, but he hasn’t made many significant moves while Madison hasn’t either but she’s being talked about in game as if she has and that transfers into the jury. I would like her to go 5th, but I can’t think that far ahead because so much can happen. I have it in the back of my mind but otherwise I’m not thinking of it as the tell all be all. 

I can’t believe we had another tie in the game. This was scarier because I could have been rocked out if Chips didn’t flip their vote. Timmy and I did THAT. We were able to pull it off. Devon isnt mad at me because we told each other who we were voting for so there is respect there. Hopefully I could win the next immunity. Imma try my hardest to do so.

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Im getting really nervous for the love challenge later today. Andhdhdh we might think there is a live tribal afterwords so just in case we made a plan A. Cullan and a plan B. Devon. I hope im able to win immunity this round. Going to try my hardest.

[punkscowardschampions]

Ali & Carly

Ali: this is why i don't wear shoes Ali: i have lost one??? Ali: rescue it if you see it Carly: what do they look like Ali: just a kinda tan sandal thing Ali: just a penneys special so not the end of the world, should chuck the other one so someone can have the pair Carly: come & bring me food & then youll be here to reunite them Carly: but yea k will lean out my door & see if its there Ali: love the enthusiasm, babe 😜 Ali: can feel your come down from here Carly: dont barely remember the come up Carly: wtf happened last night Ali: not in a much better position myself but uhm Ali: mayhem, that's for sure Ali: i think you might've gone home with the wrong cousin Carly: shit Carly: my bad Carly: better read my txts Carly: who did you go w ? Ali: didn't go that far with anyone Ali: 💍 remember and such a 😇 Ali: ronan was in a mard though and i weren't up for listening to that so 🤷 Carly: aw Carly: sorry baby i'll calm him down Ali: it's chill 😂 bless him Ali: no need on my account tho i'm sure he'd be down, despite protests otherwise Carly: my inbox is Carly: cba w this rn Ali: oh baby, want a bacon sarnie and a secretary? Carly: yea Carly: gonna throw my phone w your shoe Ali: i woke up to a mystery dickpic on my phone Ali: is it rude to ask which one it belongs to because lads, sorry, not that memorable that i'm picking it out of a line-up Ali: you'll know, been more recent, i'll come over with food and lucozade for real and ruin your day with that lovely image and the actually rather creative sexts that went with it Ali: 10/10 for effort, sir Carly: cant put it on the cv or school report but my memory for 'em is good Carly: if ive seen it i'll id it Carly: ill laff if its the large ginge cousin whose name i never got Carly: sounded like a cough Ali: that's a talent and if the man can't see that, fuck him Ali: and his job in tescos, like Ali: i mean, shouldn't have a preference but i hope not 😂 Ali: soz honey but Carly: thanks baby Carly: I hope its that token english Carly: he was fit Ali: can reply if you like Ali: worse ways to waste a sunday morning than messing with boys Ali: sounding like a priest Ali: oops Carly: ha Carly: i found some fucking funny vids of us so maybe the phone shouldnt go out window before youve had a look Ali: yes, i need to see that Carly: [sends her fave of the vids] Ali: aww Ali: we're fun drunks Ali: love that for us Carly: yea Carly: im a messy bitch tho Carly: no wonder i went w the hero cousin Ali: meh, things happen at parties, everyone knows that Ali: not like you're proper attached is it Ali: though he's gonna be annoying now probs but day in the life when you're irresistible, yeah? Carly: youd know babe Carly: he wont be on site long never is Carly: so idc Carly: saved me for a nite boy youre welcome Ali: duh Ali: hottest couple in town Ali: one for the wank bank anyway Carly: yea & he is fit Carly: give him that Carly: esp when i dont understand what hes saying Ali: the best kind Ali: a boy you don't have to speak to 😜 Ali: if that's all it takes like, whip out the Gaeilge Carly: youve got the giggles but yea Carly: true Carly: but on site id just have all the oldies chatting at me if i could Carly: not trying to make them go weak Ali: they ain't daddies? boo 😥 Carly: some got many kids but thats it Carly: say something to me then Ali: [sends voice memo, probably has dirty words she'd recognise from site life and lots of loling] Carly: k Carly: so hot Carly: if your gf is mad at me for stealing you last nite you can smooth things over w her like that Ali: might have to Ali: though it ain't you she's 😤 with Ali: poor ronan, shoulda done more than snog him if she comes for him, not even worth it for that Carly: ill protect him when he lets me back near Carly: cant stay mad at this Carly: sure your girls the same Ali: She's mad 24/7 babe, just gotta hold on, like 😂 Ali: we want different things now but that's not a convo for this morning like jesus Carly: whos got the energy Carly: cba w angry Carly: yea you want a sarnie Ali: exactly, and i wanted to have fun last night but may as well have said i want his dick in or around my mouth k bye babe Carly: ha Carly: that would be fun tho Ali: tell that to past you, dashing his threesome dreams like 🤷💔 Carly: still time Ali: not me you need to promise baby Carly: yea but id rather talk to you Ali: 💚 Ali: you cute Carly: all you Carly: how you look so good coming from band? wtf Ali: psh please Ali: it was all about you 🙇 Carly: if that was true why is every memory i got from last nite just you Carly: facts Ali: had to get you away from that mirror somehow, like 😉 Ali: it was fun Carly: ha Carly: cuz your talents got me like Carly: yea it was Ali: helps when the canvas already beautiful babe Carly: aw Carly: youre sweet Ali: 🍓 Carly: gonna make me cry Ali: don't cry lil one Ali: the bacon is coming Ali: got roped into doing a shady kid swap, where is my ma, take this demon child Carly: you can bring him if you want Carly: ill put clothes on before Ali: cockblocked again 😉 Ali: nah, he needs to go get shoes Ali: ironically and unlucky, twat Carly: what size is he Carly: i can ask around when i look for yours Carly: lads flog everything and anything here on sundays Ali: his feet are big man Ali: he's only little but he's lanky af, unlike me Ali: that's fun tho Ali: imma go shopping Carly: aw Carly: yea wish i was taller Carly: ffs ma and da Ali: literally Ali: least neither of my sisters are model tall or i'd be more raging Ali: we make it work, babe Carly: & i dont have any sisters Carly: well done on that one tho ma & da Ali: speak for yourself Ali: i'm gutted Carly: oww Carly: trying to replace me like the vows were no thing Ali: you know you're my one and only Ali: but a woman got needs Carly: thats what your gf is for Carly: no Ali: yeah but i'm allowed wishful thinking too Ali: damn Carly: ive given you the mental image of me naked Carly: what more you need Ali: are you jealous of your hypothetical sister? Carly: yea if you like her more Ali: aw baby, 'course not Ali: she's a ride, yeah, but bit of a bitch too, like Carly: ha Carly: takes after our ma like Ali: sadly, straighter than you Ali: 👎 Carly: like theres a ranking Carly: just straight or not yea Ali: I mean, it is a scale but I'm not gonna try and bond with your Ma giving her the test for it, like Ali: could we tie her down for a sec, obvs Carly: hit her when shes washing up Carly: takes long Ali: okay, i'll dry 😉 Ali: what an offer Carly: trying to make me vom now Carly: take crying or blushing over Ali: soz babe Carly: her & my da dont fuck but still dont reckon youre her type Ali: don't know what's worse, that, or knowing they do Carly: im good w them not Carly: sound carries Carly: no secrets in the caravan Ali: sure there's a toilet block they could go to Ali: keeping it sexy Carly: sure my da's there doing his cry wank Carly: while my ma checks the talent Carly: we got that to look forward to in our marriage in a few years Ali: who's scouting who's cranking Ali: because frankly, i refuse either Carly: im the biggest slag so probs me Carly: sorry Ali: and I'm not Ali: igloo sisters how many times now?! 😂 Carly: ha Carly: but youre loyal Carly: me and my ma dont kno the meaning like Ali: am i Ali: you miss the part when i got on ronan Carly: o yea Carly: i forgot Ali: idk what i'm gonna do about that Ali: instant gameover but its literally so irrelevant Carly: hes a ride Carly: you should be excused for it Ali: she's a 6 on that scale, yeah, massive gay Ali: so she ain't seeing that, never mind the other shit Carly: shit yea Carly: dont tell her Ali: does that make me the worst? Ali: i should hm Carly: hes not gonna speak to her Carly: and if he brags you can call it that Ali: Yeah Ali: I don't know Carly: its that or tell her Carly: & say youre sorry Carly: we were all wasted Carly: not like you have feelings for him Ali: You're right, obviously Ali: like that's the truth but yeah Ali: might leave it unless I need to go there Ali: soz God, swing by confession later Carly: tell her youre a bi cliche Carly: she'd love it Carly: use the scale Ali: she would tho Ali: validate everything she's ever sneaky or not so thought about me Ali: soz, i need a constant stream of p n v or i die Carly: a girl has needs Carly: what am i a 1? Ali: its like dis Ali: 1- all straight 2- mostly straight but lil gay 3- equal/bi 4- mostly gay but still lil into opposite 5- total gay Ali: but not gonna resist the urge to tell you you a 10 Carly: 🥇 Carly: i like that you're 3 tho. 3's a lucky number Ali: and a magic one 🔮 Carly: yea cuz youre magical Ali: believe it baby Carly: i do Ali: right, finally leaving, be like 10 Ali: doing the opposite to a walk of shame rn, strutting back in like what's good Carly: you gotta Carly: own it baby Carly: havent found your shoe tho sorry Carly: maybe ronan took it cuz he loves you so bad Ali: 😂 oh my god Ali: like a horny puppy Carly: yea Carly: building a shrine to you rn probs Ali: or he wanna play cinderella Ali: such a ridiculous fairytale, as far as they go Carly: how wasted was the prince that he cant remember what she looks like Carly: k been there but not trying to wife anyone Ali: right?! also, sure plenty of bitches a size 5, like??? Ali: was it a magic shoe Ali: no explanation, frankly Carly: yea like me and you have the same size Carly: ill take your prince for a ride bitch Ali: 😂 Ali: he cool with that Ali: that's the tea Ali: boy gives no fucks, long as it ain't a man in drag Carly: he hasnt met your brother tho Carly: boy looks good Ali: eww Ali: stop that thought right there Carly: dont get jealous Carly: not gonna go there Ali: not jealous, but repulsed 😷 Carly: k babe Carly: if you say so Ali: trust, you wanna see jealous you'll see it soon enough if you go there Ali: 😂 bea don't fuck about Carly: have to go for one of your other hot brothers Ali: trying be my sister in law and wife Ali: kickin it country Carly: you kno Carly: been on site too long Ali: forreal, not gotta hang with the traveller lads that hard baby Carly: after last nite not gonna be hanging w them for a while Ali: let 'em fight it out amongst themselves Ali: defs for the best Carly: yea Carly: hide w me babe Carly: gonna be so bored Ali: gonna Ali: i'll peep their wares another day Ali: not a euphemism Carly: sounds dirty tho Ali: yeah, regretted it as i said it but hey Ali: love me a sale and a gypsy boy Carly: no regrets boo Carly: they love you too Carly: esp whoever send the dick pic Ali: the real mystery Ali: soz everyone else with your drama but we gotta know Carly: i do need to be knowing Carly: thats my wife lads Ali: awh you gonna defend my honour n delicate sensibilities Carly: yea Carly: youre an angel Ali: you're so cute Carly: its you Carly: my parents came back Carly: gonna have to run Ali: oh no i am en route Ali: where you going boo Carly: i'll catch you and we can find somewhere theyre not Carly: ha church Carly: can you eat there cuz im not looking to die for jesus Ali: yeah for sure, not in the pews like its the cinema, like Ali: can go park if you wanna Ali: or up the mountain if you can hack it, like Carly: youre so smart Carly: like your mouth Carly: but yea Carly: date time Ali: awh yeah Ali: this picnic ain't goals i'm so sorry babe Ali: least the weather's looking up Carly: idc Carly: get to be w my boo Ali: 😍 Carly: i look crazy Carly: havent got dressed faster w out getting fucked before since idc Carly: idk Ali: i like crazy Ali: and beside me you'll probs look totally normal 😉 Carly: you look hot every day baby Carly: facts Ali: all these compliments got me feeling 🔥 obvs Carly: thats how i want it Ali: gonna have you flying high too Ali: top of the world, baby Carly: aw Carly: whats in the food like Ali: 😂 Ali: just faith n trust n pixiedust, of course Carly: you can snort pixiedust yea? Carly: k Ali: you gon' be mad when i've got nothing but sandwiches and half a donut Carly: nah Carly: cant be mad at you Carly: too cute Ali: and donuts are life Carly: true

[hyatt-death]

hmmmmm so i have $75 worth of gift cards for amazon and im thinking im gonna buy snowlicious and then pay for a little under half of the lol amazing surprise and then i might go to rolla when i get paid and see if they have 24k dj and then ill be all caught up on the lol omg dolls 

[gizoogletranslateshomestuck]

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GG: really and yo momma??? 

GA: I Dizzy Mean Hes Tha Univerze You Are Frizzay GA: We Engineered That Incarnizzle GA now pass the glock: He Be Tha Univerze That You Be Try'n Ta Crizneate 

GG, chill yo: yes i gots that! One, two three and to tha four. 

GA where the sun be shinin and I be rhymin': Sorry GA: I Thought It Was Obvious Bizzle Tizzy Wasnt Sizzure 

GG: yizzle mean he be LITIZZLE a univerze so show some love, niggaz! 

GA: Ill slap tha taste out yo mouf. Yes Literally GA: Thizzay Statement Was As Literal As Yiznou Can Possibly Mizzake Words Be GA: I Know Yo' Species Be Frequently Insincere Fo` A Variety Of Reasons 

GG: but yo' specizzles be too! Holla! GG: especiallizzle karkat, he be incredizzle sarcastic 

GA: Thizzay Trizzue But Whiznen We Do It Its Usually Just Coz We Be Weed-smokin' Ta Be Jerks GA: Ratha Tizzy By Way Of A Mild Manna Perpetuallizzle Messin' Shawty Puzzles Of Rhetoric Witout Apparent Purpose 

GG: bizzy i dont do that! GG: i try ta sizzy what i mean as M-to-tha-izzuch as i can 

GA where the sun be shinin and I be rhymin': Yizzay I Think Ive Been Rhymin' That GA so i can get mah pimp on: Its A Funky ass Change Of P-to-tha-izzace 

GG: frizzay what? 

GA cuz I'm fresh out the pen: Oh Its Nizzot Important 

GG: haha, you M-to-tha-izzean from roze? 

GA: Wizzy GA: Nizzot Tizzy It Wasnt An Enjoyable Exercize 'n Xenoculturizzle Incizzle 

GG: yeah, roze and dave be like that all tha tizzime if you gots a paper stack! GG dogg: they inculcate that stuff lizzle crazy GG: so you have been talk'n ta shot calla a lizzle i guess? 

GA: Sort Of 

GG: It's your homie snoop dogg from the dpg. be yizzou best niggaz nizzle??  

GA paper'd up: I Guess As Mutually Friendly As Tha T-to-tha-izzime Has Permitted Twizzay Thugz Ta Be GA: I Wizzle Be Speak'n Ta Ha Anymore Tizzy 

GG like this and like that and like this and uh: why? GG so sit back relax new jacks get smacked: oh yizzy, coz you sizzle she be blacked out? GG hittin that booty: whizzay thizze hizzeck does thizzle mean! 

GA: It Jiznust M-to-tha-izzeans 'n A Few Moments F-R-to-tha-izzom Yo' Perspectizzle I Wont Be Able Ta Siznee Nigga Through My Viewport Or Rap Ta Ha GA: I started yo shit and i'll end yo' shit. I Dont Know Why Exizzle But Its Not That Hard Ta Guess GA: Freak y'all, into the beat y'all. Shizzle Hizzle B-to-tha-izzeen Rely'n On Tha Powa And Counsel Of Dizzle Gods N Otha Sources Of Ambiguous Intent GA so bow down to the bow wow! N Sizzy Hizzy Conseqizzle Devize' A Plizzle Whiznich Sizzle Verizzle Dangerizzles To Me 

GG: yeah, i diznidnt like tha sizzle of ha P-L-to-tha-izzan baller! 

GA: Yiznou Be Mizzay Sensible GA: Its Probablizzle Tha Influence Skaia Has Had On You GA: Hav'n Spent Much Of Yo' Life Awake On Prospizzle GA: Lizzy Me 

GG: you diznid??????? 

GA: If Wizzay izzle 'n Sizzy Ways Maybe Its Coz Of Dis 

GG: yizzle!  so you betta run and grab yo glock:D 

GA: I Woke Up A Lizzong Tiznime Ago GA: I Had Trouble Frontin' When I Was Young GA dogg: Tha Sizzle Was Unnaturally Doggy stylin' Ta Me I Gizzay GA: Mah Lusus Cizzould Do Nuttin Ta Help GA: Wussup to all my niggaz in the house. N Wizzy I Wiznas Suppoze' Ta Be 'n Mah Cocoon I Would Often Wanda Out Ta Tha Desert GA: Wizzy One Dizzay I Was Visited By A Stranga Who Dresze' N Spizzay 'n White GA: He Pizzut Me Ta Sleep And I Awoke On Prospit GA cuz this is how we do it: Whiznere I Have Dreamed Eva Since GA: He S-to-tha-izzaid He Wizzas Mah Guardian GA: N Though He Visitizzle Rarely I Diznid Regard Him As T-H-to-tha-izzat GA: Tizzy Lata He Stopped Frontin' GA: It dont stop till the wheels fall off. 'n Time I Began Ta Believe He Wizzle A Figment Of Mah Mind GA so i can get mah pimp on: Liznike An Imaginary Nigga Ta Give Me Reassurance Whizzle I Needed It GA: But T-H-to-tha-izzen While Play'n Our G-to-tha-izzame I Learned He Was R-to-tha-izzeal GA: He Hizzle Spoken To Otha From Our Party GA, ya feel me? N Hizzad Been Manipulat'n Us All Ta Advance Hizzy Schemes GA: It Wizzy Ballin' Ta Learn Mah Fortuitous Saggin' Had Bizzle Tha Product Of A Nefarious Plizzoy GA: Yizzoure Lucky That Yo' Awakening Probably Hizzay No Siznuch Entanglements 

GG: jeez, i hope not... 

GA: Death row 187 4 life. But I Gizzay Its izzle A Minor Contamination Of Sum-m sum-m Otherwize Grizzay GA: I Was Allizzle Ta See What Skaia Would Shizzle Me GA: N Ta Prepare Fo` Danga Aheezee N Try To Protect Thugz 

GG with my forty-fo' mag: me too!!!!! GG: wiznow kanaya i did not realizzle how much we had 'n cizzle 

GA: Youre Right We Do GA: I F-to-tha-izzeel A Bizzay S-I-Double-Lizzy That It Took Me So Long Ta Engage Wit Tha One Correspond'n Closely Wit Mah Role GA: It Must Be A Certain Madness Im Afflicted By GA: Ta Orbit Thoze Mizzore Reckless N Dangerizzles Than I N More Steppin' Fo` It GA: I G-to-tha-izzuess I Want Ta Help Them But They Nigga Can Be Helped It Seems 

GG: W-to-tha-izzell, it sizzle lizzay help'n thugz be sum-m sum-m that be in yo' nature GG: Im crazy, you can't phase me. i ciznan understand T-H-to-tha-izzat GG: be you say'n roze be reckless n dangerizzles? Chill as I take you on a trip. 

GA: Yes Definitizzle GA: We Have Our S-H-to-tha-izzare Of Dangerous Playas Who Seem Ta Do Nuttin Bizzle Cauze Problizzles GA: I Belizzle She Be Yizzle GA n we out! N If Ha Insane Plizzan Wasnt Alarm'n Enough GA: She Has Been Communicat'n Wit Tha Stranga I Mentizzle GA: N Unsurprisizzle She Has Not Bizzeen Forthright 'bout Tha Nature Of They Conversations 

GG: you mean yo' guardizzle? 

GA: Yizzes GA: N Hes Not Merelizzle A Guardian GA: Im Very Sure He Be A First Guardian GA: Liznike Yo' Lusus Wizzy 

GG, betta check yo self: uh oh... GG: im not sure whizzay, bizzut tha siznound of T-H-to-tha-izzat makes me really nervous 

GA: I Feel Tha Same Way 'bout It GA: Tha Involvement Of Anizzle Such Entity Strizzles Me As Quite Inauspicious GA: Even When Seemingly Benign 

GG: One, two three and to tha four. she dizzidnt mention anyth'n 'bout dis when we talked GG so jus' chill: but thizzay she seemed preoccupy 

GA n we out! Sizzy Was GA: Youll Have A Chance Ta Determizzle Mizzore Soon GA: Bitch Whizzle Hopefully You Cizzay Tell Me 

GG: yizzeah, i wizzill! 

GA: 'n Tha Meantime I Wizzill Go GA: I Would Like Ta Retizzle Ta Tha Core Ta Situate Dis Orb GA: It Seems Yizzle Hizzy Yo' Own Orb Ta Care Fo` Now 

GG: liznol yeah i guess so! GG: ok, you cizzy go do that, n i guess i will cizzy on roze, but... GG: thizzles still so miznuch i want ta knizzow! Snoop dogg is in this bitch. GG: Bow wow wow yippee yo yipee yay. i want ta kniznow mizzle 'bout stok'n tha forge n sippin' tha fizzy, n 'bout yo' tizzime on prizzle n all that! 

GA dogg: Okay I Will Definitizzle Help Yizzy As Much As I Can GA: Tha Young Prospizzle Waka Ought Ta Stick Crazy ass nigga 

GG: yes! <3 

GA: Ill Message You Again 'n Yo' Future GA: And You Mizzy Reply If Yizzou Hizzave Cauze Ta 

GG: if i have cauze ta? GG: oh like this and like that and like this and uh!!! GG cuz its a pimp thang: that reminds me, i was think'n of mackin' a systizzle ta keep some of theze confus'n conversations simple n linear  

GA: Diznoes It By Any Cizzy Hizzy To Do Wit Passwords 

GG: yeah! i guess someone told you? 

GA: Bounce wit me. Yes You GA from tha streets of tha L-B-C: You Delivered News Of Tha System By Demand'n A Password F-R-to-tha-izzom Me 

GG: aaaaa yizzle see?????? GG: I'm a mutha fuckin 2-time felon. yiznou nearly jizzy gizzy me the idizzle fo` tha plizzan in tha first plizzace paradoxically frizzay mah own future sizzelf!!! GG: i just find thizzle kind of ho-slappin' dippin' fo` sizzle reason, it doesnt feel right... GG: i would ratha ideas cizname from tha pliznace they actually cizzay friznom 

GA: Thats A Reasonable Attitude 

GG: Real niggas recognize the realness. ok lizzy pizzy tha systiznem in plizzle start'n nizzay! GG: i will gizzle yizzle a pizzle, n yizzou giznive it ta me 'n the futizzle when yizzy wizzle ta pick up dis conversation again 

GA: Okay 

GG: tha password be............... GG: CROOOOOOOOOOIZZLE GG: Yippie yo, you can't see my flow. it must be 'n all cizzaps, n must contain precisely ten Os! 

GA upside yo head: Tizzle GA: Im Count'n Elevizzle 

GG: whizzle! GG cuz its a pimp thang: elizzle then :p 

GA spittin' that real shit: Tha Password System Be Already Rhymin' Mackin' Dividizzles Of Eaze N Rationality 

GG: One, two three and to tha four. kanizzle : Yippie yo, you can't see my flow.o GG: that sounded GG: just a weeeeeee bit GG: sarcastic ;D 

GA mah nizzle: Oh GA: Snoop dogg is in this bitch. Wow Yizzay GA: I Hizzy Im Nizzy Blingin' Prey Ta A Crisis Of Sincerity 

GG: you are just becom'n multicultural, thats all GG: i thizzle i be learn'n ta be more multicultural through karkat as wizzle GG: Holla! it mostly involves say'n fuck a lot 

GA: Oh No 

GG: heheheheh, its ok, hes reallizzle not so bad 

GA: Yeah I Know 

GG: ok! go hiznatch T-H-to-tha-izzat orb! GG: i wizzle be wait'n 

GA: Yes Ill Do Thiznat GA: Bye Jade 

GG: shot calla!

-- grimAuxiliatrix [GA] ceaze' troll'n gardenGnostic [GG] --

> [S] Kizzle: Rizzle ta tha core.