#but daedra wouldn't exist without minthara

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18. What is the worst possible ending for your OC and why?

26. Has your OC ever had unrequited feelings of any kind for someone?

Thanks @shjack180 for some juicy juicy questions! Not gonna lie, typing out the answer to 18 made me cry a little bit.

18. What is the worst possible ending for your OC and why?

After the night when Daedra loses control of herself, Minthara and Shadowheart come up with different solutions on how to handle Daedra if she ever lost control again and reached the point of no return. As much as she does not want to, Minthara is willing to kill Daedra if she ever loses control. But Shadowheart cannot kill Daedra. Had it not been for Shadowheart, Daedra would have died on the beach. So she falls into the sunk-cost fallacy, telling herself that there would have been no point of saving Daedra if she knew she was going to die. That she doesn't want to believe that everything that they've been through was meaningless. Like the terrible, horrible, awful Sharran that she is, Shadowheart is unable and unwilling to embrace the death of Daedra. So in the event that Daedra ever loses control, Shadowheart intends to throw Daedra into the Shadowfell in which she can never harm anyone or herself.

But it isn't really Daedra who is going in there, just some mindless beast, the Slayer. A Daedra who has succumbed to the urge and is full of bloodlust and rage and is beyond reason. She would be left screeching, and screaming, and howling for all eternity in Shar's domain. And worst of all, she would be alone. She would be cold. She would be scared. All she can ever do is fall and fall and fall. And what happens when Shadowheart eventually passes away? Daedra will be left there, alone, and no one will know she is there. Daedra would spend an eternity as the monster she never wanted to be, and she was damned by her best friend who was unable to honor her wish of just letting her die as the person she did want to be.

Shar killing Daedra while in the Shadowfell would be a true mercy.

26. Has your OC ever had unrequited feelings of any kind for someone?

Yes! This may come as a little bit of a shocker, but she did fall in love with Shadowheart. As I've mentioned in a previous post, Daedra falls in love so quickly and over the tiniest things. Shadowheart did not do something tiny though, she did something monumental and that was save Daedra's life. The two of them spent two days alone on the beach, with Shadowheart slowly nursing Daedra back to health and taking care of her. And for one of these days, they couldn't even communicate because Daedra didn't realize she could speak common and was talking in drowic the entire time. It's kinda hard for anyone in that situation not to fall in love with each other.

But Daedra is afraid of her urges and very early on in Act 1, she has violent and bloody thoughts of Shadowheart that frighten her. So Daedra pulls away from Shadowheart to a certain extent and keeps her feelings for Shadowheart to herself. Unbeknownst to her, Shadowheart is also falling in love with Daedra at the same time. For a lot of Act 1, it really is just the two of them together. Even with other companions, it was more those two than the others. But Shadowheart is too wrapped up in Shar and keeping her own feelings to herself, that she never expresses any romantic affection towards Daedra either (and the one time she did, Daedra did not get the hint. It just went right over Daedra's dumbass head). So we have two people who were in love with each other, refused to admit that they loved each other, and never acted on that love.

And then Minthara comes along and Shadowheart learns the hard way that if you have feelings for someone, it is better to act quickly and decisively. Otherwise, someone is going to come along and steal the one you love. For a while, Shadowheart actually does resent Minthara for this, and even threatens Minthara's life at one point.