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dayurno · 15 days ago

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kerejean haters au?! not just keremy haters okayyyy. jeremy is insane so i won’t question how he gets around his convoluted feelings for jean but how does jean ever get over jeremy being a raven? i guess he isn’t anymore but the ravens were famously really bad to jean right? was jeremy not really involved in that?

jeremy being a raven is kevin being a raven is neil being a raven, jean spent so long in that place he can’t really avoid the fact that some of them were and are important to him. as for the second part of your question: jeremy never went out of his way to hurt jean in the nest and most of their clashes while ravens were surface level spats, but that doesn’t mean jeremy liked him either. perhaps if jeremy had been more relevant to the lineup or higher in the ravens’ hierarchy he would have been worse to jean, but as it was he wasn’t in a position to antagonize anyone, especially considering he was going through his own thing with the ravens

jeremy gets outed in the nest pretty early on, and being a sub striker with almost no court time already puts him in a position to be picked on by the others—he has to deal with a lot of ridicule pretty much from the get go, and the homophobic abuse gets worse the longer he stays in the nest. in a way him and jean were in very similar positions in the ravens’ social standing, but jeremy didn’t have the exy skill nor the perfect court title to fall back on, which means he was probably the easiest target of all for the ravens to let off some steam if they wanted to. in most cases jeremy gave as good as he got, and he stood stronger than i think anybody could in the face of relentless social ridicule, but this cost him a lot of the softness he came with and left him the joyless distrustful paranoid mess we see arrive to kevin’s doorstep in palmetto. he was only as awful to jean in the nest as he was allowed to be, which is not much when you’re even lower than he is in the raven hierarchy

#his strategy was Bullying people back when they bully me which at least. worked #kind of.#he never really outruns the rumors or the loneliness or the bullying but he becomes a raven #which means that he learns to accept it #they haze him into one of them and in some way it helps him cope. somewhat better with the abuse #jeremy’s life in the nest is an entire can of worms and there’s a lot of contributing factors #that made him such an easy target in his first year #but by his fourth he is already integrated into the hivemind and though it still hurts he lives with it #being a raven comes before his pride or personhood #which means the homophobic abuse (and all the other little things. the horrible experiences. being taken advantage of) is bearable if he ca #still be a raven #asks #jeremy #raven among doves

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