#but because it's gonna be hard idk if I should CIZ im already gonna have a really heavy schedule

[niallsblckgirlfriend]

I need a language for school,,, should I do Arabic or German??

[thestudyofbasements]

LOVECRAFT WAS HELLA FUCKED UP AND I KINDA FEEL BAD FOR HIM CUZ HE SEEMS LIKE HE LIVED A SAD AND LONELY LIFE AND DUDE DIED AT LIKE 40 SOMETHING BUT HOLY S H I  T WAS HE MAD RACIST BRO. I LIKE TO THINK THAT IT WAS AN EXTERNALIZATION OF THE OTHER SHIT THAT HE HAD GOING ON SINCE HE MARRIED A JEWISH WOMAN DESPITE HIS ANTISEMETIC BELIEFS BUT I ALSO KNOW SOMETIMES PEOPLE ARE BAD AND JUST BECAUSE THEY;RE NOT 100% CONSISTENT WITH THEIR BULLSHIT DOESN’T MEAN THEY AREN’T ON THAT BULLSHIT ESPECIALLT IF THE OTHER RACIST PEOPLE IN A TIME WHERE RACISM WAS MUCH MORE READILY ACCEPTED AND COMMONPLACE TOLD HIM THAT HE WAS BEING A TAD TOO RACIST. LIKE; “My fellow I understand the senitment but good graces that’s just gratuitous sir.” OR SOMETHING. IT’S ALSO A SHAME BECAUSE IT KEEPS ME AWAY FROM HIS LEGITIMATELY GOOD WRITING, YKNOW HOW DAMN HARD IT IS TOO MAINTAIN SUSPENSION OF DISBELIEF WHEN ANY SUSPICOUS OR NEGATIVELY ASSOCIATED CHARACTER THAT USUALLY GETS THE INITAIL BLAME OR WHATECER FOR SPOOKY ALIEN GOD FUCKERY IS JUST ‘NOT WHITE’ AND THAT’S IT? LIKE THAT’S THE WHOLE CHARACTER IS JUST THEYRE SCARY AND SPOOKY CUS THEYRE A SHADE DARKER THAN DRY WALL. LIKE HOLY SHIT MAN ITS LIKE BEING PIMP SLAPPED WITH A BEAR DICK WHILE TRYING TO MEDIATATE IT R E A L L Y TAKES YOU OUTTA THE EXPERIENCE. ANYWAY THIS DOESNT HAVE A POINT BUT ITS 2:23 AM AND I SHOULD BE WORKING ON A POETRY PROJECT BUT INSTEAD IVE GOTTEN A LITTLE HIGH (don’t worry it wore off ages ago im totally sober rn), WATCHED MY FIRST STUDIO GIBLHI MOVIE (it was howl’s moving castle and ngl howl is a Good Romantic Wizard and i would totally, like, cuddle him in the early morning light before the world has begun to stir), AND WROTE THIS FUCKING BESPOKE MASTERWORK. honesyly im havin a great time rn and i remembered why i love procratinating ciz it always leadds to shit like this and a rekindled wonder at the world for some reason. although that might;ve just been cuz of studio giblhi being mad good at the almost genre they do. (thanks for telling me to get into that joe) yeehaw lads, lasses, and laboratory assistents, the amount of red lines on this bitch make me proud of my bullshit ADD for the win. keep on procrastinating if its a good ass time but eventually do actually get the work done its important if not in the content for the oppurtunities that good grades will unepectedly lead to. nosleep gang out, ig uh  idk i feel like i should say some important shit since you sat thru all that drivel. um. If people are already liable to hate you for who you are you may as well do away with all social posturing and fulfilling societal expectations because you’‘ll never be able to please them and to do what you wish in spite of their distain is the purist form of revenge because they poison themselves while you grow in yourself. alright im done time to do that poetry shit. good god this is a lot of text. i love you and get some sleep or youll end up like me. also any drugs below cocaine are alright in moderation, like once or twice a week when you;ve done all you have to. NEver say you need them tho otherwise you might start to believe it. You don’t need you just want it, recognizing that early and correcting is important cuz it might keep you outta addiction and shit. god i gotta go do my thing. no more weird advosory send offs to something no one[s gonna read. bye bye have fun good luck you’re worthy and i hope whatever bedevils you eases if not ceases soon.