#but also just thinking about how i often say i write about rudolf's tortured mind but maybe i want it to be ACTUALLY tortured | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

aboutyoutoo · 6 months ago

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i'm going thru another horror phase and it's... kind of making me want to write something todolf-adjacent maybe but more in a horror vein. like i know tod isn't all that, he's sexy dramatic toxic grim reaper boyfriend etc but ! idk i want to explore the idea that death is actually something scary as well as just something that's seductive to rudolf. either that or something about the horror of actually being in that deep depressive suicidal state.

#i guess thinking about the frantic desperation of rudolf running around the stage in mayerling.#but also just thinking about how i often say i write about rudolf's tortured mind but maybe i want it to be ACTUALLY tortured #not just “tortured” in a dramatic self-hating but sexy way xD #also thinking about what stephanie wrote about how she was actually afraid of being alone with him in the last few weeks of his life.#anyway! just microwaving ideas. i should be studying.#ALSO the inherent horror of the mayerling incident in itself #like. the feeling i get when i watch affaire mayerling #where the end scene has those tragic romantic undertones but i just feel deeply unsettled #thinking about a vulnerable teenage girl being murdered #ANYWAY. girl go study

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