#but also if anyone wants to come chitchat I'm going through the inbox today so come say hi!

[mha-quotes-and-such]

Do you worry the blog will lose traction now that you don't have as much time to manage it and the manga has ended?

Hope you keep it up, by the way (it was not my intention to sound discouraging XD). love your blog and thank you for your hard work! <3

I both do and don't worry tbh. I'm not like deeply upset or anything, but its definitely something Ive thought about. I think if you had asked me the same question about a year or two ago, I would have felt very strongly about it, but the truth is that I'm not as invested as I used to be

Now, that's not to say I don't care. This blog has been like. A formative experience for me honestly, and I always dreamed of having such a large and involved community. Ive never had something quite like this in all my time on the internet, and its something that I love just as much as I thought I would

As far as the manga (and soon to be anime I imagine) ending, I sincerely hope that bnha doesn't fall into the trap that so many fandoms nowadays do. Im sure everyone here has seen a thousand posts about it, so I'll keep it brief, but this whole culture of "Oh this thing is over. Looks like I can never engage with it again" is so sad to me. I get that things aren't as appealing when there's nothing new, but some of my favorite media (and favorite fandoms) are things that came out twenty, thirty, forty, hell even 200 years ago. Even if I were to leave the fandom and totally abandon this blog, I would hate to see yet another newer fandom fall into the "no one cares anymore" pit

Tldr; whatever happens happens but yeah! I do forsee it happening at some point (likewise, don't take this as me throwing in the towel! I'm still kicking here) but it would really bum me out. Its been a huge part of my life and would definitely be a sort of "end of an era" for me personally

[nobodyexpectsthe]

anyway we're explaining writing methodologies today

my replies / asks one is best summed up as 'whatever sparks the highest muse goes first, my time on xyz days is extremely limited but once the rush is done i'm going through in chronological order of what is owed'.

i guess but i'm also gonna explain my approach to ooc communication. i am shy as fuck and talking to new people makes me incredibly nervous which is why if youve ever sent a thanks for following message i have never replied. i get locked in a 'how do i reply to this' mess and then two months have gone by and its weird to say something. even if its just plotting out a new thread. it didn't used to, i used to be way more social, and then i spent some years in a relationship irl that decimated my confidence. so i end up overthinking every little thing i say and usually i'll overthink it to the point where i won't actually say anything, or, worst nightmare, i'll overthink the thing i want to say so much it comes out completely wrong. it's bad, 0/10. don't be with someone who delights in making you feel small, because then you'll apologize for taking up space.

so i am, in general, very cognizant of how much space i take up and very much struggle with the idea that it's too much and i'm being annoying and people are too polite to say so. but that's a me problem & i don't want to put my insecurity on them, so i end up in a weird vibrating stasis. if i feel like i'm overstepping or being too much i'll pull back until i get a sign it's chill and you like my nonsense.

so i'm stressed at nice compliments, stressed at idle chitchat, generally just a big vibes of 'how much of an idiot do i sound right now' which makes for stilted or awkward replies until i get comfortable. and that doesn't go away for a good long while. it's nothing against anyone else and i don't expect people to have the patience to push through that, it's my problem & no one else's to work through. but what it does mean is it's easier for me to jump all over ic stuff and writing once i know how our styles mesh or i get a sense of what you also like from other threads and interactions?

i can and will drop novels into inboxes of people i barely know as a fun icebreaker if i think it's something they'll lie, i'll write lengthy & detailed starters & replies for strangers. i will absolutely sit and agonize in my drafts over things that don't sound just right until do they. i do think a lot about the early replies in an interaction with someone because i don't want someone to feel that it's... unbalanced? that all i'm bringing to the table is my muse's issues, their feelings, their reactions, and i'm not giving them anything to work with for theirs in turn. so that requires a little more fine-tuning and finesse.

and then once i'm more comfortable, i don't even think. i slap the keys and a symphony of words happen.

anyway all of this is to say i talk to like 2 people oocly and i'm trying to get better but oh boy that's hard.