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butchnavi · 10 months ago

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making new friends irl is so nerve wracking but also so exciting. I remember how much I used to panic over sending my now best friend one text or randomly calling her and look how that turned out BUT also I've given wayy too much of myself to people who ended up not caring and hurting me and it's such a gamble to trust people but I really think it's worth it but why does EVERYTHING feel like such a big step and so scary like??? can we hang out when we're not in college? how often can I text you to hang out before it becomes too much?? can I say I love you?? can I give you a high five? can we hug?? AKFHDGDHHDDH I LIKE YOU SO MUCH. and I know you like me too but I've been known to come on way too strong and and and god I can't wait to get to know you even more. yeah I'm going insane. bye

#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com #and then repeat cycle #but I'm glad im back to having enthusiasm about it cause I haven't been able to summon it for a while #and I've been getting more jaded and bitter lately cause i lost some of the people closest to me #but I'm glad im getting my hope back #god its hard and i keep falling on my face but every so often. every so often ill meet someone who'll make all the trying worth it #ahhhhhhhhh #ok no. but I'm gonna be chill this time. i promised myself. i can do this. it's gonna get better #and that's not even getting started on my unreliable ass energy levels #anyway. god i should sleep

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