#but I won't rn bc I'm pissed and sleepy

[cantarella]

love when an immortal character looks like a teenager behaves like a teenager is treated by everyone in the story and by the narrative like a teenager and is just purposefully written like a teenager and yet people refuse to accept maybe they're intended to be read that way. media literacy am I right

[theearnestonion]

Had a weird morning? Nothing big, just a bunch of funny little things. This is just gonna be me sleepy morning afternoon rambling, so it's going under the cut, but yeah. :)

Up half the night getting stuff done. (Aka, procrastinating. Aka scroll Ao3 & Tumblr when I wasn't supposed to. oops.) So, sleepy af. I head to the library to Actually get stuff done. I stop at Taco Bell to pick up a Baja Blast for the caffeine boost. (shouldn't have it while on adhd meds, but eh.)

I hit the drive-through, order just the small drink. What looks like a middle aged woman hands me it & says "have a nice day." I go "wait, how much is it?" She gives me a sort of 'pshh, don't worry about it' look & waves me off. --I??? This lovely person just gave me a free drink. Just because. Out of the kindness of their heart??? Hello???? How kind is that!?! I feel kinda bad? I'm the last person who needed it, living off my parents income & haven't done jack-shit to support myself. I didn't deserve that. But she did it anyway? Bc she wanted to?? Faith in humanity restored. Kindness is alive & well, holy fuck. I want to be like that. I want to be that person to someone so fucking bad. I can't stop thinking about it now. How kind. ily, Taco Bell person, thank you for your generosity.

I snack at the park by the library before I start studying. I head down to the dock no one uses bc its peaceful. The seagulls take it over in the summer, but right now, there's just some funky little sea birds convening at the end. (idk species.) These lil guys are Alarmed by my presence. Two start flying loops to scare me off, one sounds his little bird alarm like "BEEP!!! PIP!!! BEEP-PEEP!!!!!!!" There's a speaker that plays predatory birds' calls to stop birds from nesting in the picnic shelter. Well, that thing starts going off too. So suddenly, real birds are screaming & flying around, fake birds are screaming in the background, & I'm just standing there like🧍. Needless to say, I backed off & sat elsewhere.

On my to the library, I pass the park's little ditch where they let native plants grow. It's all dead growth rn. And of course there's a bunch of trash in it. I get unreasonably pissed about litter. But you can only say "why won't someone do something about that" so many times, before you remember that you're also a someone. So I channel my light rage into picking it up. Weird finds include: a pretty glass liquor bottle, a 2-liter pop bottle buried under plants & full of gross pond water, & what think was part of a seagull's skeleton. Shoved the trash in a bag & dropped it unceremoniously in the bin like "there you go, you fucks, if you won't do it, I will." I know its small & I don't want to get cocky over it, but I've never felt so chaotic good in my life.

I march into the library, it won't let me connect to wifi for a whole 5 minutes. No clue what that was about.

& that brings us to now. Just. a lot of weird, funny little events today. Not sure what's going on anymore but I'm not complaining.