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[famdommcfanface]

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“Whitesea? Good lord, no. You were heading for that backwater little town? Sounds like you really would do better with me. No, we’re going to Wolfrock, and if you think otherwise you have another thing coming.” Something dark enters his voice then, his posh accent slipping briefly, and you shiver. “Don’t look like that,” he says, his genial disposition returning. “I have... friends in Wolfrock, we could both do well there.”

“Fine,” you say, having no other choice. For now, at least.

“Very good. You’re not so stupid, then. Now, Ebony, it is time to get to work. These first few hours, everyone finding their way around the ship, luggage getting lost... they are invaluable. In order for my little ruse to continue, I must have sufficient funds, you see? And a gentleman really can’t be seen doing his own dirty work...”

You fix him with a hard stare. “You want me to get you money?”

“Primarily, yes. Gold, jewellrey will do well too, but nothing too recognisable. We are going to be on this ship with your... victims for about a week, remember. I do not want this traced back to me, and I doubt you want to spend your week in the brig.”

"I suppose not."

“We will have to do something about clothes at some point, but no need to worry about that now. So, go out. Find some coin.”

[aether-friskets]

wip questionnaire tag game yay

thanks @ap0stle for tagging me in this!! :D

The WIP im gonna talk about is uh. well it doesnt really have a name i just call it "that game i want to finish eventually" or "the survival horror game idea" lol, I'm bad with names so itll prob remain that way for a while

What's the First Part of Your WIP that You Created?

I can't recall exactly when this was, but I remember I was specifically listening to this video which, judging by its age, would've been around 2 years ago now. Something about the black and red blair witch game art used as the cover (which, i... totally legally... played that game out of curiosity later on, wasnt big on it as a blair witch fan or a horror fan in general, but you will see one little element from it as one of a few inspiration points for whats kind of becoming a major mechanic in my game at this point lol) mixed with the music itself gave me this mental image of someone driving on a road through the woods with that very black and red lighting, and i had this feeling that they were looking for someone. That's technically the very vague basis that sprouted into my game idea, which has changed a lot since then, and now I don't think a scene like that will even happen. Aside from that, my first concept that's actually stuck around, is the protag looking for their sibling (usually my brain leans sister so i may go that route, but i tend to imagine characters w/out gender in mind til later lol) and sorta ending up in the wrong place at the wrong time as a result. I have some more stuff in mind of course, but a lot of stuff is still pretty vague lol

If Your Story Was a TV Show, What Would the Theme Song/Intro Be?

Oh man this is such a fun thing to think about conceptually, I feel like the WIP is almost too much of a WIP to be sure... But it'd probably have to feel very 2000s, maybe have some kind of industrial edge? Something to capture the idea of an ordinary person descending into something they couldn't possibly be prepared for i guess loll Those things aren't necessary, but the setting is mainly going to be in this as yet unnamed city during the mid-late 2000s? I haven't settled on the exact year yet so that may not be fully accurate lol. The game probably will get some kind of intro style thing, because I absolutely LOVE that in the silent hill games (and also twilight princess had something like that!! which is very nostaglic for me lol) so I think it would be awesome to do in mine lol I feel like the closest I've heard to the vibe I imagine are like. 1. Into to The Mine from Lost in Vivo 2. Broken ALSO from Lost in Vivo (i swear something abt the music in this game just has the vibes) 3. Theme Of... by Drackfreeee I guess it makes sense because it's a silent hill inspired song that you can even hear bits from the game's intros in there but. man. it's got a dreamlike quality that fits the more surreal elements i have in mind well, plus i can totally imagine it playing in an intro thing showing a bunch of scenes from the game and setting that scene of descent When i get to that point in making the game, ill probably look back at songs like these for ideas on what'll work

What Are Your Favourite Characters You Made, and Why?

Since this thing is still so much a WIP, I don't have a tonnn figured out about the characters, so it's kinda hard to pick. But I can talk a little about what I DO have figured out! As I said previously, the protag is gonna be looking for their sibling. The basic idea being that they're visiting their sibling in this new city they've never been to before, and things go all wacky sideways real fast. I feel like I'm either gonna love 'em or hate 'em because due to the unintentionally personal nature of this story that I've been embracing more as time went on, they're probably gonna be the most like me out of the cast. I'm hoping to make them an enjoyable protagonist to play as tho, not annoying but not TOO bland or anything. The sibling is probably gonna end up reflecting a lot of my sister, cause, as i said, accidentally personal story that I'm kinda just embracing at this point lol. I wanna not make any of the characters 100% like a single person I know, so I'll probably mix in traits from other people I like lmaooo. but we'll see what they're like by the end. One thing i already DO know is I really wanna circumvent the idea of the person you're trying to find/save being this "damsel in distress" type, so I think it'd be great if when you finally reunite, they're dealing with the whole situation way better than you LMAO. or at least on par. The hardest part about that tho... Is I'll probably have to make a half-decently competent partner NPC for that part of the game... I've also had this idea for a guy based on a dream I had. I think they will be playing a part but I'm not sure yet, as stuff is still very vague at this point. The idea is of someone who is "helping" you for part of the game, only to fuck you over later on because, what can I say, I love the heartbreak of getting totally screwed over by a character you trusted sometimes :3 The idea being you'd make remote contact early on and they'd promise to help lead you to your sibling but in reality either A) they've just been trying to lead you to your death subtly lmaooo or B) more likely option, theyre tricking you into helping them instead, and then will leave you for dead once you actually help them. I feel like it'd be fun to write a guy who is a total opportunist and probably a smug asshole, idk lol There will probably be other characters? but these are the only ones I have in mind so far, and as you can tell, they arent very fleshed out at all yet

What Other Pieces of Media do You Think Your Fanbase Would Share?

Jeez, the idea of garnering any kind of fanbase in and of itself is kind of cool but scary lol I figure they'd probably like a lot of the stuff that's inspiring me in the first place, like Silent Hill (duh), Cry of Fear, Jacob's Ladder, a bit o' Twin Peaks... Basically if you like some guy going through some weird fuckin' psychological shit lmaoo More specifically, i want the vibes of stuff like. standing in a subway station at a weird hour, feeling like the only person left on the planet. Opening a door into a room that shouldn't logically connect. Cryptic phone calls and texts that don't seem like a person would make them. Desperately trying to reach someone, to find the answers, but it seems like the place itself is fighting against you. Stuff like that, I guess

What Has Been Your Biggest Struggle With Your WIP?

Man, what hasn't? I don't have much experience making games so I'm learning a lot mechanically as I go, but I also have never properly finished an entire original story before. I think the main thing, is like... I'm scared whatever I create will feel too derivative of the works that inspired me, that the thing I create will ultimately fade into the shadow of other things that did it better. So every time I have a new idea, I worry about if it'll come off too much like [x thing] and that's been making the process even slower loll Aside from that, I know the character's primary goal, and I have certain locations I think would be cool to include, but I don't know SHIT about any of the details of getting from the start to the end and what will fall in-between, which does make it tricky lol. I need to really consider what kind of path I want them to follow, and what will happen after they reach their goal, stuff like that. It's all just very vague right now and trying to work out the details is almost intimidating even tho thats the main part of making a story.

Are There any Animals in Your Story? Talk About Them!

At the moment? Not that I'm aware of. There may likely be enemies with animal-like appearances, though. I could see that being a thing I do. But I haven't really gotten into monster design just yet.

How do Your Characters Travel/Get Around?

At the moment I'm suspecting primarily on foot, however my concept for the intro of the game involves the protag taking the subway. So there may be some subway shenanigans too, idk.

What Part of Your WIP Are You Working on Right Now?

I'd say the main reason the story is still so vague, is I've been trying to get the main technical/mechanical elements set up before I get too much into the details. Or maybe I'm just stalling. So, I'd say I'm mainly working on stuff surrounding the non-story parts of the game. But in terms of the story, I want to flesh out the protag and the sibling more into proper characters first and foremost, I'd say.

What Aspects (Tropes, Maybe?) do You Think Will Draw Your Audience in?

I'll be real I got no idea but... I guess if I think about it from the perspective of what I think would draw me in from an outside view...

Use of classic survival horror stuff like fixed camera angles (plus I'm going to have both tank and analog controls so more people can enjoy it :])

Putting a guy in A Situation

The general atmosphere and setting (as I sorta said, mid-late 2000s urban enviro with weird illogical stuff happening and potentially kind of dream-like elements, i hesitate to say liminal but maybe a bit liminal? I also want to go for a ps2-ish graphics quality cause i feel like its criminally underrated lol and some people may feel like me on that part and like that)

Vaguely queer protag? like i said i dont have much fleshed out but if they're gonna be based on me at all u KNOW that bitch aint gonna feel cis or straight i'm sorry it's simply fact (also admittedly I've been wanting to make them like some kinda genderqueer or somethin because its my video game and i can do what i want, and seeing human protags that are nonbinary in some way gives me life)

Weird-ass shit??? like if you vibe with weird silent hill dialogue or the weird stuff that just. happens in twin peaks, im hoping to bring a similar energy in my own way

Possibly more stuff as I flesh things out more lol

What Are Your Hopes For Your WIP?

Honestly I just hope I make something that I feel proud of. I wanna make something that makes someone feel the same way that stuff like Silent Hill, Cry of Fear, Lost in Vivo, Twilight Princess, hell, UNDERTALE did, where that shit changes you. Where you can feel the love for the genre or medium it's based upon. But at the very least, I just hope at least one person likes it, I guess That'd be enough for me

Uhhh erm I have no idea who to tag I am so bad at this part.... If you want to do this consider yourself tagged :]

[ravenlunaticart]

14. Any favorite motifs

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

Ohooh! A triple threat!

14.) Fav motifs are def things I pull into my own stuff so Aesthetically? Moons, halos, Christian imagery, arrows, and fire to name a few. Thematic ones would be queerness and parody, monstrosity and nature being deified. I like taking things seemingly mundane and making them something more. I like taking uncommon subjects and giving them a kind of transcendence cause I think there is something so remarkable about just existing sometimes and is easily forgotten in the day to day. Overly poetic and sappy? Perhaps! Haha

16.) Ohhhh hmm this is interesting cause I will admit I'm fairly critical of most steps of my process so there isn't a lot I honestly believe I'm good at. And even less that I don't enjoy doing 🤔 maybe uh lineart? I don't hate it tbh I often do enjoy it but it's kinda a necessary evil now? I don't think about lineart too hard but I do get a lot of compliments on it as well as my sketches. I do enjoy those things but I guess they become a bit second nature or monotonous haha. Though I could say the same about shading sometimes. Idk adhd, baby I'm easily bored hahaha!!

This piece is a good example in the sense the lineart was a means to an end in the sense that I drew the lineart first then played with it to create the melted effect then redrew it to nail down the lines. This one also has a nice bit of line weight variation which is fun.

20.) Idk if everyone finds it hard but I know a few of my peers really don't like doing realism in anatomy or life studies, which is totally fair! But I adore it. Theres something very satisfying about staring at a reference for a few hrs and trying to draw it with accuracy. I find a lot of inspiration from old school scientific drawing and had thought of studying it as a discipline too for a bit. I was trained in drawing first and it has become a comfort zone for me so I often do it to relax which some of my friends find insane haha! That said I really do just love investing time into a detailed drawing and see it develop. For instance this old moth drawing from 2020 I spent like uhhh 6-8 hours on this. I used a hb mechanical pencil 0.5 and did ever teeny little scale texture abd I loved every second 😅 Good to listen to podcasts too.

[quaddmgd]

Ask game!! For Crystal - 7, 8, 13, 28, 38, F, H :3

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

Probably spending time with Aldecaldos, especially seeing them in their camp, helping each other with mundane tasks. On occassion she helped them with fixing a vehicle or some other piece of technology on her way back to the city. This quickly caused some of the Aldecaldos to warm up to her, and they ended up inviting her to a few family dinners, where she could unwind and share some stories over a beer. At first it was problematic to her due to the way she parted ways with her family, but after some time in Night City she found comfort in reliving memories of the good old times. She misses the silence and being surrounded by people that she knows and trusts.

8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child

Crystal was regularly encouraged by her mother to practice netrunning, but she displayed more interest in mechanical stuff like cars, weapon assembly, maintaining equipment. At the end of the day she managed to learn some of it. She's by no means good at it, but skills she learned continuously compliment her combat.

13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?

Hmm that's a good question. Never thought about the possibility of her being wrong about what she looks best in. I might have a good answer to that, however. Crystal was dressing all black with red accents during her nomad days (I've yet to post her pics from that era). That's the style I imagine she retained to date, though she managed to diversify it a bit. I still like to dress her up that way, but there are two outfits that she wears most frequently - both are yellow/gold with white and black accents. Figured that might be something she subconsciously feels better in, or there might be someone that praised such a mix on her.

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth?

She usually doesn't mince words, sometimes to a fault. She's direct and she wants people to act the same towards her. Partially it's a result of her upbringing, but also because at the most critical moment in her life this far, she was lied to by multiple people she depended on. That made her even more distrustful, than she was raised to be. No matter how devastating, she prefers to tell the truth and she expects to be treated the same way.

38. What memory do they revisit the most often?

Not a singular memory, but she likes to reminisce about nights she spent sneaking to multiple restricted areas on the outskirts of Tucson AZ with her best friend and his girlfriend, where they would end up drinking and talking about whatever all night. She misses them greatly and prays that they're doing fine. For now she doesn't know how to go about it, but she hopes to see them again someday.

F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

Adoration? I'd love to be friends with her. Other than that - pride, definitely. It's not often that I create OCs, so I cherish all of them, even if I didn't put much thought into making them. I wasn't inspired by anything while deciding on her looks, she just sort of came out this way, and one look at her gave me a basic idea of what she was like. Shortly after, I had her personality and backstory. She kinda came out of nowhere and I'm happy that I managed to detail her story and fit her into Cyberpunk. The appreciation from people on the internet certainly enhances this feeling even further.

H) What trait do you admire most?

I guess it's the ability to completely dissociate herself from the outside world. The moment she feels it's too much for her to handle, she finds the time to travel into the badlands, where she can spend an entire evening listening to her favorite music, lying on her car and thinking about both past and present.

[mmorpg-escapism]

Alright, it's time for Paglth'an! If I'm not mistaken, this is the last Shadowbringers patch dungeon we'll be running, and despite it being a little early, I'm switching to the endwalker tag after this post. The tail end of x.5 patches are basically the next expansion anyway.

Anyway, dungeon! The twins and G'raha are taking a back seat this round after all the crazy running around they've been doing - and de-tempering Tiamat! - so we're taking Thancred, Y'shtola, and Urianger into the dragon's den (so to speak).

As soon as the intro cutscene starts, I am hit with what might be the heaviest bass in the game's music thus far. It's very intense and I love it - fitting, for what we're up against since Bahamut is, as far as everyone is aware, the single most dire threat Eorzea ever faced. The inclusion of bagpipes and arabian inspired sections (I cannot for the life of me remember the name of that string instrument) just adds some much needed variety to this guitar and bass heavy theme. I could sit here listening to this on a loop for hours and not get bored of it.

There sure are a lot of Tempered Imperials mixed in with the dragons here... the first casualty of the Telophoroi is their "home" country. This can't end well...

Boss #1 is Amhuluk, a big zappy kitty. The fight's main gimmick is using lightning rods at the edge of the arena to avoid getting fried, all while dodging big aoes and orbs that will also try to fry you. It's more annoying than anything because as a SAM, any time away from the boss is lost damage that could be getting the fight done faster. At least I'm not playing BLM.

Seeing Estinien and Tiamat both in action during this dungeon is AWESOME, by the way. We also get to fight alongside Aymeric and Lucia again :)

Boss #2 is... a really, really annoying "dodge the Bad" while also fighting tons of adds. NPCs for this one were Not Helpful at all. Missiles, beams, lots of magitek armor to beat up, it's just chaos. Survive until you can burn down the core twice, and move on. Not my favorite boss, especially because it just feels like a bonus trash phase for most of it.

The little sequence where we're flying over a golden battlefield with Tiamat is one of the coolest parts of this dungeon. The locale is stunning. Urianger, unfortunately, doesn't enjoy dragonback as a method of transportation. Or maybe it's the "over a battlefield" part.

And now... now we get to Boss #3: Lunar Bahamut. This Grape Kool-aid flavored dragon primal is just as menacing as the original. Augmented by the fact that he just kinda... dropkicks Tiamat. And shrugs off a fireball. Great.

I'll be honest, I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get to have the dungeon's theme music for this final boss. The normal end boss music is great, but it's not nearly as bass-heavy as the dungeon's theme.

Anyway, mechanics! Dodge The Bad, cranked up to 11. Cross AOEs that hit multiple times so drop it and run, multi-hit stacks, eyeball telegraphs that cover the whole arena and shrink down so there's only like 4 safe spots, circle aoes that snake across the floor in waves, etc. First time through, this took all of my concentration to survive. Now, older and wiser as I am? Yeah, it was still a challenge, but it was a fun challenge.

Hey! Peace with the Amalj'aa! ...is that war chief's voice actor the same one as Raubahn's? That's an awfully distinctive voice. It's not a named NPC though so IMDB has no idea. Oh well, I'll just *guess*.

(I'll address the Tower/Arenvald in another post)

[maydays2]

q’s incoming:

1. how’s your friday going?

2. are you working on anything right now? how do you get inspiration for your edits and gifs?

3. there’s been some discourse about headcanons this week but i’m curious to know if you could only choose headcanon you like and make it canon, what would you choose?

4. what’s the most obscure supernatural ship you’re on board with? like the rarest rarepair you like?

5. what fics have you been reading lately?

6. what’s your favorite weather?

/ ida 💜

Oh, hi! So glad to see you here 🤗

1. Honestly? Kinda dull. Though dull is better than bad, I guess. I've been feeling like I'm waiting for life to happen to me lately, rather than actively making my life interesting. Idk I just wish it was easier to live exciting lives.

2. I have a little draft for the last day of suptober, actually. A mediocre little digital edit that was quick to make but I like quite a bit. My inspiration just comes and goes. I'm no artist, I lack the training and my creativity is a fleeting thing, so making edits/gifs is a very chaotic process for me. Still, it's a good venting mechanism. I can express myself freely without fear of judgement and maybe learn something in the meantime as well.

3. Oh! I think I missed a lot of the discourse going on unfortunately, since my fruition of Tumblr has been kinda on and off lately. Btw I think that my favorite fandom hc is the whole Chuck won verse. Not only because the finale is sooo bad on sooo many levels, but also because it's a truly compelling concept, especially since spn has build a substantial part of its narrative around the characters' conflict with their author.

4. Mmmmm, this is a tricky one. I don't really have a rare pair I ship, so I'm gonna use this space to give a kinda controversial shipping opinion: I'm not adverse to Dean/Lisa. As in, I don't think Dean didn't love her, that she was nothing more than his failed attempt at living the apple pie life. Of course, being the protective part in the relationship was one of Lisa's main traits, but I don't think that's enough to make their whole thing "an illusion". I mean, "the protective kind", is sorta Dean's type, am I right ;)?

5. I'm currently reading Redemption Road! I'm really enjoying the pace so far, as you probably already know, I like my fics slow and burn-y. Still, I'm like 10% in, so it's too soon to give a proper opinion, but I like that it's a choral story, that's not just focused on the main pairing, but on multiple plot levels, and I just love the fragmentations of Cas's psyche in this one.

6. I have to say, rainy. But specifically when I'm at home with my robe on and stirring a cup of camomile, as I listen to the pitter patter against the window. That's happiness to me.

Thanks for popping by, it feels nice to be noticed, and also get to do a bit of self-reflection. Also every chance I get to speak to you is gold to me (so if you wanna answer these questions yourself, maybe, idk)

[echo-inthevoid]

Season 2 q&a and overall reaction

Jonny stealing everyone's names XD 

Is martin going to be ok!? I also need to know! 

He said no;-; 

ok ya, no one's gonna be ok. 

Ya, he must do sooo much research. 

Ya, except for "fatigue" lol.

Eyyy the mechanisms!! 

What's the red string brigade? Ok, I guess a group of fans theorizing about stuff. 

Oh ok so someone else did martins poetry. Ooh, there's more martin poetry out there! *grabby hands*

Ok ya, Alex clarifying that Jon isn't stupid he just makes poor decisions. Probably if he'd paused and thought about it (like I did lol, I had to go do some stuff in the middle of that ep and thought about it a whole bunch lol) instead of immediately going out and buying an axe and further isolating himself and panicking immediately he probably would have figured it out. This is why it's bad to panic in a crisis guys. 

Eyyy! Jonny's parents voiced Gertrude and Leitner! That's so cool. 

XD Jonny grumbling about having to work with his parents. 

Hmm, I hadn't really thought of Gertrude being like a mother figure in the story? She just seems very cut-throat I guess from what Leitner said. Idk so far I've been very suspicious of her. Especially since that one statement where her photo burned a whole bunch of people or something. She just seems very shady... 

Alex chortling over Jonny's pain. XD

Side note, Every time there's a q&a I just can't stop noticing Jonny's voice going in and out of archivist range? Like most of the time I'm just listening along and then he'll say a sentence a bit grumblier and my brains immediately like "ARCHIVIST! That's THE ARCHIVIST!!" 

Martin would be the last one alive in Friday the 13th! It's official! 

(Is it bad that this gives me hope)

Jon likes Nonfiction, documentaries, and probably collects something just a little bit weird. *writes down for use in potential fics* 

also while im at it I remember jon saying he dislikes coffee at one point,  and so many people have him liking coffee in their fics! This has been your daily reminder of that fact because ever since then it keeps bugging me lol. (But also do whatever u want.)

Alex's spluttering sounds so much like Martin.

Yes!! I want to hear jon sing!! Yes! Musical Episode When!!?

Ah yes yes yes! All the characters are so unique!!? How does he do it!! 

Ya, it being in audio format sometimes makes it hard to understand what's happening in the live-action bits. (Live-action is the wrong word but u know what I mean.)

Oh ok ya, how he mentioned he got a pipe was quite clever I didn't realize that that's why he mentioned it at all. 

Ooh, there's a manga where there's something similar to Michael? I'll have to look that up later...

XD Alex and Jonny arguing about apples. 

Ok, so all the statements we're hearing ARE for reals. I kinda assumed but good to have it confirmed.

They used to hang out together!!? Work function curry nights!! ;-; 

Ya Ya! Who made the leitners!?

"You are assuming a book needs to be written" ...ok then. (but it has to have been created somehow??? Did they just spring fully formed from the powers? why? And why take the form of books?)

Alex's mischievous laugh about whether jon has friends *trembles in fear*

Yes!! Micheal is so good! I'm so happy they love him too! Yesyes! His laugh! 

Ah Yes!! Mary kaey was so creepy! 

XD yes yes yes fatigue was written on zero sleep, I knew it! 

Akskdjdkd I love them so much. Also, I've looked up Michaels voice actor luke booys and he does some other horrory type sketches n stuff and I kiiinda want to do a little animatic with some of those but it's Michael like annoying some poor soul lost in his halls... I think that'd be fun. I wonder if anyone's done that yet? If so someone send me the links I neeeed iiitt :3

Season 2 summary:

Uuuuu ya so this season was really good. I kinda listened to it in bursts of about ten episodes every couple weeks and then have been saving up the reactions to post later so these are usually going up about a week or so after I actually listened to the episode just FYI. 

I also do have a lot of spoilers cause I can't keep myself away from fanfic and people don't always tag for spoilers and I kiiinda wana know what's coming beforehand anyway? Idk it's hard man I get very stressed about what might happen and then also listening to too much at a time is too spooky for my poor little heart so I gotta read the less spooky fanfic to fulfill the hyperfixation you see. (If anyone has fanfic with spoilers only up to season 2 that'd be great btw) 

Anyway, I try not to take spoiler type stuff into account unless I'm just so sure of it I can't really not acknowledge that I know about it. 

Also, can I just talk about Michael for a minute?? Cause he's such a unique character? And I guess maybe there are other characters like him but I haven't ever seen one -tho to be fair tma is only like the third horror thing I've ever really got into (the other two are the SCP Foundation in its various forms and Little Nightmares. Hence why I keep making reference to SCP it's really the only thing I know similar to this.) But he's such a cool concept!!? Like someTHING that still has a personality? He's so not human? Like I get what he says but also I don't really? Idk im pretty sure he's an avatar right? Right?? Idk if that means he was a person at some point? But all this to say that he is probably the most inhuman character I've come across so far and I'm trying to figure out what it is about him that's so "other" to me? Like... I don't really know what Micheal's deal is? he seems to want to be sort of a neutral mischief-maker but also it seems like he keeps getting invested. But also I just love the way he talks about himself. Like he's a monster that has a personality and is fully intelligent but isn't just evil but isn't neutral either and certainly isn't benevolent. Like he's so complex and just,,,, the idea of a "thing" that's got a personality?? I love it? Kind of like dryads or spirits of things? Like the idea that after a long time things gain personality just by existing? Not that that's what Michael is necessarily? but that same sort of concept applies to him I think. Like the way he IS the maze and wants to help but wants to just watch but wants to kill them all. He's just so interestinggggggg. (And another vision of what jon could become?)

 also "es Mentiras" is a beautiful name 💕

So are him and not-Sasha avatars? Not-Sasha also seems completely inhuman and I was under the impression that avatars were (or used to be) human? Or are they like personifications of their power? Do all the powers have personifications of themselves. not-Sasha seems even less human than Michael? Like she seems to just really genuinely enjoy causing fear? Tho I guess we didn't really get to hear a lot of her. She just seemed kinda gleefully angry most of the time we heard from her. Was she... Human once!???

Anyway. Also, can I just talk about leitners line about jon belonging to the eye!!? Just..*chefs kiss* hnnnngg I need more jon grappling with that. I just need more everyone dealing with the fallout post all of the finallies ok? I still need more of jon angsting over his worms scars and stuff and now I also need jon freaking out about belonging to a fear god power thing. 

Also Martin! Is Martin ok? He sure did a lot of yelling which he doesn't usually? Look I love him and he actually thinks before he acts (unlike SOME people *looks at jon*) and he writes poetry and it is pretty good poetry ok!! And he cares about everyone and just wants a happy ending and aaaaa😭

Petition to get some statements from Martin's pov tho? I mean that's not gonna happen cause Jon's the archivist but I want more martin pov!! Maybe we can get some of his poem tapes??? Pls????? 

I feel so bad for Tim. It sounds like he's kinda fallen into despair.

Also Elias!!? Is showing his spooky side!!? He can control cameras and beat a man to death with a pipe!!? This is his "place of powerr"!!? I am afeared!!? At least jon knows he shouldn't trust him now. Oh jeez, I wonder if jon will listen back to the tape and know what happened. Thhhatsss rough. Oh dear, I hope he doesn't feel guilty cause Leitner did keep trying to hurry him and now everyone thinks it was him. Even martin thinks he did it? Wich like I kinda want to hear more of his thoughts on that? How much does he believe that jon did it? Tim certainly seems pretty certain but he's a bit biased and cynical right now so. 

And they were in the maze for DAYS? 

Now I need martin recovering from being stuck with Tim in Michaels maze for days being angry and worried and hungry etc... Dksjdksa knowing jon could be dying RIGHT NOW and there's nothing he can do. Please someone give me the fic links if this exists!! I've already written like 5 drabbles based entirely on spoilers/other fics (which I'll probably post (w/ links to their inspirations) once I'm caught up and can make sure I'm not just completely demolishing cannon lol. 

Leitner didn't even scream or yell or anything when he was murdered. Literally the chillest dude ever. F

Overall super great, Elias is terrifying, let's dive into the next season!!! I've got 2 seasons to finish in like, less than 2 or so weeks(?) if I wana be caught up by season 5 hhhh,,,

Better get started I guess.