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buddyapologist · 1 year ago

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sry for all the txt posts but i just remembered that line from stranger things s2 where hopper is leaving a note for eleven that says "i'm not mad, i'm just sorry" and im just. fucking essay in the tags

#avery.txt #also you can just blacklist that tag if i'm insufferable i will not be offended #but anyway.#lisaposting #buddy does some irrational dumb angry shit bc she's like. a teenager. and that's what teenagers do #brad cannot handle the possibility of her getting hurt by the outside world so he panics and gets mad at her and makes things worse #but then later he realizes he was lashing out bc of his fear. of course buddy is gonna act rebellious; she's a kid.#he's not mad he's just sorry.#gghghghghhhgghh just fucking punch me so hard i explode into dust #listen as a former teen (who is/was very ND but even aside that) i know how i acted/thought & i can't imagine how difficult that is on #*parents. your kid who you love rejects your affection bc it's not cool & there's all this posturing abt being grown up & rebellious agains #*ur parents. for a while ur kid will just act hostile towards u & u really can't do much abt it. at least for me it was a phase i came out #*of when i was around 20-22 when i started to really see my parents as People and start to understand their actions when i was a teenager #so when i think abt brad i think abt how not only did he have to deal w normal teen stuff he also had to deal w how much his trauma affecte #*his relationship with his daughter & how she's responded to it. he can see her patterns & behavior & how she's used to it but now she's #asking questions that he can't answer bc he's terrified of what might happen if she knows everything. so she gets mad as a result #and things just deteriorate from there until all they do is fight and she yells at him for always being drunk and he yells at her that #*without him she'd be dead and that she's too young to know everything and she yells that she wishes he wasn't her father #and he doesn't have a comeback for that one because some part of him knows he's echoing some stuff from his own father #the addiction and neglect and anger followed him no matter how much he tried to run from them and what if it follows her too.#what if he ruined her the same way his father ruined him. what if he failed to protect this girl who he thought he was safe to love.#ok im gonna stop now bc i need to SLEEP but i have a lot of really fucking complicated feelings about brad #bc i sympathize with his trauma so deeply but how he treated his kids breaks my fucking heart

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