#bro is built a bit funny in a goofy and silly way

[go-our-own-ways]

it's been a Long Ass Time since I've had so many rushing emotions over an entity whom I will never get to know on a personal level and it is Breaking My Brain LMAO why am I like this

Also just basically re-discovering all the check-boxes I have to like an entity. I say entity because to this day I really don't know if these are things I want to have in a real-life partner, or things I like in my entertainment.

But basically... Doppi encapsulates it all. Lmfao.

The End.

LOL

Previously I've probably said similar about Sonny, but the one thing about Sonny is that sometimes I get the sense that his humor behind the scenes could get a little dark/sarcastic beyond my comfort. Otherwise he too is very...yes.

I've yet to hear Doppi sing (sadly...I regret not getting into him sooner and missing his karaoke as a result sobs) but I imagine he probably has similar vocal capacities as Sonny? But Sonny sure can belt like man... hard to beat that imo.

But then there's Doppi's General Talented Vocal Chords and every new thing I watch of his I am increasingly surprised, grow more feelings, fall more in (dare I say it) love... it's absurd.

Really, really absurd.

Ingenious, funny, kind, soft, cool, unabashedly himself, talented as hell, confident without being annoyingly cocky or egotistical, apparently built as fuck, evidently very athletic.................and yet so very nerdy and chuuni and dorky like

And with his voice like. normally it's got a lighter more casual feel to it, kinda goofy and playful, sometimes it becomes a little deeper and softer when he's a little more focused or serious on something, and then when he's Really doing it on purpose, it becomes so deep that I can hear and feel the vibrations, it becomes sultry and addictingly delectable... OR he gets all growly when he's passionate and stuff and THAT can even sound attractive somehow... or when he gets really excitable and high-pitched and his words run together into jibberish... it's SO cute...

how is he real????????????????????

truly the duality of man and it is driving me insane. seriously.

also like when I went and found The Forbidden Knowledge and listened to some of his old stuff like bro. BRO.............. he has a RIGHT to be cocky and he CHOOSES not to. I respect that, frfr.

For this guy to single-handedly remind me that I LOVE when people

have wide acting talent, ESPECIALLY in the voice department

have wide vocal range, and a nice enough voice that I can feel tingles (and this man makes me feel full-on body tremors)

are confident (even a bit cocky sometimes) but in a way that shows that they are simply self-assured, and not doing it to stomp on others

healthy dose of athleticism

cute AND cool

funny AND smart

kind and appreciative and genuine to others and the community

like...damn. he really is just about everything I unconsciously gravitate towards in people wrapped into one.

Sonny does check off quite a few of those boxes, but he's also just. Sonny. like he has duality of man in terms of his voice acting talent, but he is what you get, he is as labeled on the tin, and I appreciate that about him and his branding. If you dig deeper, if you stick around, if you're LUCKY, you'll see he can be softer and wholesome, but he's usually just being silly, shooting the shit, and being really tsun to chat lol (he "abuses/bullies" his briskadets and briskadets does it back kind of thing).

And before I forget, let me bring in Enokiya.

Enokiya also ticks off pretty much all my boxes too, I've come to realize over the years. Like the more he's shared about himself, his life struggles, his thoughts on his job, how he moves through the world, etc.., I've come to really, really admire him and appreciate his work and existence in the seiyuu world, right? But also like. good looks, EXCELLENT comedic timing and sense of humor (I love word play, dark humor, jokes delivered in a flat, point-blank tone, etc.; it's quite similar to Sonny's and thus why I like Sonny's humor too), AND HIS ACTING RANGE MAN LIKE YES X1000000... and so on. I could go on and on and on. But you look at the bullet points I listed above? He checks off all of them, pretty much. He's just more...sleepy/tired vibes. He's just a guy after all. LOL

So like. yeah. I have found entities that I realize like wow! Ya'll check off almost all of my boxes, if not all!

but then there's Doppi... oh Doppi.

The amount of times the things he says has nearly made me cry in the past 2 weeks is kind of ridiculous lmfao. I have admittedly been in PMS/period mode so I know that's part of the reason why, but like. He is SO fucking wholesome and earnest and kind about his community and making sure everyone feels welcomed and Worth It and just.......................god.

again. how is he REAL,

Like, I guess the missing piece with Enokiya and Sonny is that you don't always easily feel the appreciation for fans. I think with Sonny we do get it every now and then (birthdays, anniversaries, etc.), and with Enokiya I feel like I felt it FINALLY after meeting him at Sakura-con... but it's like. infrequent, right?

But with Doppi... man. It's ALWAYS there. He makes SURE you know that he appreciates you the viewer, us the community, his staff, his fellow gen-mates, all his senpais, etc. like... if you didn't want to know before, he insists that you know that he appreciates you and everything you add to the streaming experience.

How on earth does he do it... They do say though that the kindest people have been through Some Shit and I have to wonder...what kinds of life experiences made him the way he is today... what tragedies did he have to endure? ; ;

I know what we see is just his public-facing self, but I'd like to think that he's been pretty genuinely himself on stream. He seems like it, anyway...especially given how others have been like "yeah, he's just. like that. always." about his chuuni-ness LOL.

Sometimes I get so caught up in my feelings over Doppi that my anxieties and insecurities bubble up. Not healthy enough, not taking care of myself enough, not smart enough, not funny enough, don't know enough about otaku contents, not understanding all his reference and jokes, not being talented, etc. etc. etc.

I'm trying to make sure I don't fall in TOO deep, but it happens, you know? Just gotta be careful (': I think he'd be understanding of trying to maintain the delicate balance that mental wellness requires, after all lol. It's definitely something to help keep me in check too like... okay insecurities bubbling up...let's go do something or watching something else to make me stop hyperfixating so much on a good thing (Doppi) that it turns into a bad thing (my insecurities in life).

Anyway. This wasn't supposed to get so long. What the fuck happened,

PS: it is high time I acknowledge that I have a voice fetish and like a...smart/intelligent/capable fetish???idfk but damn if I don't feel so kimoi and creepy every time I try to acknowledge it as Real and Not Going Away LMAOOO