#bro he's just mindng his own business

[quaranmine]

the mcyt hate on this website is unreal. i mean, i knew that, but somehow it's so much more striking when it's directed at...jimmy solidarity of all people in that poll. like??? hello? yall are talking about jimmy solidarity?

i assume most of these people hate mcyt because of dream and dream smp. and jimmy is just...not associated with that at all. he's interacted with dream, what, maybe once? they were on a mcc team together three years ago in 2020. i literally don't think they've spoken before or since, not that i can think of. he's never been involved in dream smp either. honestly, in terms of degrees of separation, jimmy's just as close to stampycat (via martyn + netty) as he is to dream smp people. to my knowledge jimmy has never been in any controversy. not that i want to speak to soon or have anybody go digging up stuff, but like??? it's jimmy solidarity?? wet paper bag of a silly man who gives his two kitties little kisses on the head? AND PEOPLE ARE HATING ON HIM THAT HARD JUST BECAUSE HE MAKES MINECRAFT VIDEOS?

the entire term "mcyt" is just trashed because nobody knows how to separate the actions of a few people from an entire genre of content. which i already knew. but it just keeps getting continually proved to me

[hotterthanhotbread]

Story time rant!!!

So we all know im not the healthiest person there is, but hey I'm not the unhealthiest. My dad on the other hand basically is asking for a death wish I mean he doesn't eat like he should and drinks and smokes constantly which is deteriorating his health rapidly. So ya girl here mentioned how she hates how the longer I stare at my foot the smaller it's seems and that it was like looking at a child's foot. My dad was like "I could understand if you were standing up and your stomach was in the way but you have you leg propped up" and laughed at that. I snapped real fast like "at least my stomach is almost flat with abs, while you're over here with a keg belly looking like you 4 months pregnant." My blood boiled like okay they, being everyone I live with at my apt, so far 2 younger brothers and dad, call me 300+ fat 24/7, more now that I've dropped 30+lbs. Like the other day I was mindng my own business and my dad pops up in my room and was like "I'd be terrified if you slept on the top bunk of your bunk bed" and I'm like wtf get out but in that awkward chuckle kind of way. You know like the Simpsons im in danger chuckle meme because Biss over here triggering a girl and I did like a 1.5 hrs workout right after...

Anyways back to story. So he said if an apocalypse ever happens he'd be ready and he was like "while you and your little friend here is dying from not eating for one day I'll be set to not eat for 2-3 days". I just gave that look you know the look that says this biss.

Anyways my mind was like listen here peasant boi you don't know me, I eat less that 600cals most days even though my limit is 1000. I purposely find it fun to see how long I can go without food. I can go week+ no food boi and you over here thinking I can't do a day. I workout while not eating for long time because self hate be like "bet you 5lbs you can't" and I be like "bet your ass I can" even when I feel like trash. I can do an apocalypse as long as there's flipping water, cause ya girl here is that messed up already. You can't survive in my world I'm a goddess compared to you. You would die in my world due to the lack of alcohol and food, could you survive off cigarettes bro cause I can.

It was then I noticed that I messed up. Like why am I even glorifying myself over here. Like why do this to me because you guys want to trigger me. So for the first time in like idk how long guy I honestly, I didn't count calories as I ate. I ate until I was full, I ate slowly, I even had sweets, and drank plenty of the clear liquid that helps keep us alive. It was weird thinking maybe I'm not that bad after all that I'm faking it but im not because normal minds towards food don't think this way. They don't hate themselves for eating a cookie now and then or hell even thinking of yeeting themselves off a highway bridge for taking a sip of a non diet drink. I realized I'm sick but so is everyone else in their own way. That we all fight our own battles but some are harder than others depending on your point of view.

That aside and back to the story I chose to ignore my dad's comments and eat peacefully for the first time in a while and I didn't hate myself at all. Like Biss ate a cookie and she enjoyed it. So it's the next morning and I don't know what to do. Like do I see if I can eat normal...do I restrict with only cucumbers...do I just not exist? Like what do I do besides see what the trusty old scale says.