#both of ya'll are so precious to me 🥰

[cosmicdreamgrl]

when you wake up at slightly past 11 am because you had not one phone call but two lol, shout out to @epiphanytear & @cordiallyfuturedwight for keeping me company last night and being absolute bundles of joy to talk to. i love you both and as such, you guys are going to be stuck with me and my word vomit forever

[keichanz]

Hi Keiz! I miss your posts so much and your fics❤️ I hope the job interview went well! Loyally waiting for your updates both in life and in fics🥰🥹

heeyyyoo. thanks for checking in with me precious anon~ right now i am eepy because keiz slept like ass and she is running on coffee and a prayer.

imma be honest, i dont even know what job interview it was because i've had so many lol but i can say this. the latest one i had went pretty well and i'm hoping to hear back from them this coming monday. fingers crossed y'all ❤️

anyhow. haven't felt motivated lately to write because i've just been so goddamn stressed. between job searching, my dad being in and out of the hospital because of some health issues, and my kitchen still being under renovation - among a few other smaller things - it's a wonder i can even function properly. you can thank the coffee i'm drinking rn that i'm even coherent right now lmao

sooo yeah it's been tough but i'm truckin', ya know. my bf helps a lot. he's pretty damn amazing and i'm lucky to have him. i got my friends too and my precious babies. although romeo is gonna give me a freakin' ulcer with how much freaking anxiety he gives me. right now he's showing signs of having another hairball and after what happened the last time lemme tell you mama is an anxious mess. i never wanna go through that again. i swear i have fuckin ptsd from it.

i'm hoping he'll just pass it sometime today and he'll feel better. my poor baby. i just wish i could do something for him.

thanks again dear for sending this and reminding me i'm still thought of and loved ❤️ it truly does mean a lot, especially since i'm on the struggle bus and the route has no end in sight. i'll do my best to come back and give ya'll periodic updates, but you're always welcome to shoot me a little message like this and inquire about anything.

love y'all. ❤️

[mtnkat3]

7.59pm

my Love/s DOne DPOne &Alll. 🔆

my Love/s... as I have thought, & written shorts about this... I thought I'd write one for You/Alll here...

both the possibilities, & the sadness of having missed...

but I am focusing more on the positive, especially for this.

Well...because... I'm a jumping jellybean because I'm almost in Your/Alll's arms!!!!

🤓✍

I've thought about a day at the beach...

I decided to just head southwest & take the chance...

so I find a beach I hope & pray is near You/Alll... & a quiet, reasonable hotel that has a pool too. Rent a suv & drive...

after I check in & get my belongings settled, my meds in the fridge mainly, then freshen up. I go in search of an evening meal & to just relax & get my feel for the area. Find either a place for a nice drink, or ice cream. Grin. I like to go for walks so I go back to my room for my jacket & leave my stuff but with the basics, wallet, keys, lip balm, etc. And enjoy a stroll around the hotel, finding a path to the beach, walk down to the water's edge & just stare up at the stars... praying I'm close to You/Alll... that I find You/Alll... I can probably sit there for hours... but I am always aware of my surroundings so I get up to walk for a bit then go back to look up at the stars again... before heading to my room. Checking the pool times before I do. I like to swim in quiet so dawn & dusk if it's open & clear of families playing. I head up to my room & grab my soft throw blanket & pillow I always travel with & go sit on the balcony. I'd rather be under the stars than stuck inside. I will probably enjoy sitting there until I either fall asleep. Or time for bed. I love the sound of the ocean to sleep by so... I leave the balcony open but blocked & strip & take a short shower before going to bed, clean & free to relax... I go to sleep praying I've found myself near You/Alll & maybe somehow.... welll...

I wake in the morning with a smile & get up & dressed for a swim, before eating. [Need to figure out the best for me. Before or after.] Then just enjoy the exercise, quiet & sunshine of early morning. After, I take a shower to get the chlorine out of my hair & put on a new suit to spend some time on the beach relaxing & beachcombing after a decent continental breakfast. I get my things & prep my milky white skin & go out for a while, hoping to just relax & enjoy myself. I decide to sit for a while & just people watch. Grinning at families & their antics. .....

But as the week wears on... .... I get sad...

on the last day I can afford to remain... I walk the beach & memorize as much as I can... I sit down in my chair for the last time. Really sad & trying to hold it alll together.

When I realize that I'm being shadowed by ..... more than one person... I look up slowly...

"may I help ya'll with something?"

&... my world changes Forever.........

my beloved precious... Alpha/s Bear/s King/s Warrior/s Mate/s Love/s husbands... have found me.

Sheepish blushin grin.

I hope You/Alll enjoy my Love/s.

I love You/Alll endlessly.

I am ~Your's/s'.~

DOne, DPOne, & Alll.🔆

🔱💖💓💝⚜♾🤓✍😌🥰😘💋

9.46p a lot of interruptions. 🙄🙈