#both have just a tiny bit of suns' issues but it's very tame and only mentioned once or twice in a kinda silly way

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I may have been writing evil things but it's okay because I have a pebbles top scars concept with a spinkle of sunstone and another sunstone one where pebbles gets caught lovingly gazing at suns with a spinkle of gjinka bs

[readingsbylibramc]

birth chart reading for @m4gn3tic

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a seesaw shape. your life focuses on different ideals and interests, often constrasting between each other. from one side, this gives you the ability to be adaptable and find solutions easily. on the other hand, you may struggle with balance; for example, you might find yourself dedicating your life to your relationships, neglecting your ego or viceversa. you need to learn how to harmonize these energies.

your dominant planets are venus, the moon and the sun. you are definitely a very creative individual, you have an eye for aesthetics and you're probably very artsy as well. you are confident and you have a very charismatic personality, people usually look up to you, even though you could sometimes be quite stubborn and sensitive to criticism.

your dominant sign is taurus. you're a chill person, you prefer staying at home instead of going out and partying. you are quite stubborn, but that's because you're passionate about your ideas and beliefs. you prefer trying and take action, even if you risk to hurt yourself, instead of just standing still and observing. you find comfort helping others; it's a way to feel satisfied both with others and yourself, as you like proving your skills and talents.

your dominant element is fire. you have a warm heart, even though it may be covered by your confidence and independence. in fact, you always strive for the first place. people may be intimidated by your presence, as you're a serious competitor. thanks to this competitive nature of yours you may be very positive and optimistic, making you a good and supportive friend/partner.

🌎 ascendant in sagittarius, 22° / 3rd decan ruled by jupiter and the sun

you see the world as an adventure. I feel like you typically don’t relate to sagittarius ascendant stereotypes; sag risings are usually very happy-go-lucky, they smile often, but pluto being conjunct to it may change things a bit. you’re more of a loner, you’re not as extroverted as other sagittariuses. you may relate more to scorpio rising, actually. ironically, you often look sad or angry. you have a knack for philosophy, and your favourite is most probably ‘you only live once’. you tame dying before making the amount of experiences you want to have in your life, hence you could even be impulsive sometimes. you’re the type to always be up to crack a joke or anything that can make you and others smile, yet when someone gets against you, it’s over for them. you have quite of a sharp tongue, you’re pretty blunt and straight-forward. in fact, you may often get in troubles due to your impulsiveness, which may be misunderstood. you have an incredible charm to you; it’s not like taurus’ or libra’s, those are more related to physical traits. sagittarius people, on the other hand, are surely very talented at something; maybe, at school you were one of the best students, and everyone recognized it and appreciated you for that; people understand your potential, and you may often receive compliments for your skills. basically, your personality is charismatic. due to pluto being conjunct the ascendant, I feel like you may even struggle too much with pessimism during your first years, but in case you are, you shouldn’t be. jupiter is also your dominant planet, and it’s willing to give you the best of luck if you respect its themes. hence, you need to have faith in the universe and be optimistic. try to look more at the positive sides in life and even in people. physically, sagittarius is all about abundance, hence you may have trouble losing weight. you could have big bones, or at least something bigger on your body that doesn’t make you look like a model. you’re more on the thick side, in fact you probably have a wide bone structure, with wider hips and/or thick thighs. you could also have wide shoulders, and something big and memorable on your face as well. maybe you have a very distinctive nose, or perhaps your eyes are almond-shaped. your forehead and lips could be pretty wide as well. I’ve also noticed that sagittarius people have a very lively sparkle in their eyes, even though they may be very dark. it’s like having two/three tiny diamonds at the centre of each of your eyes. last but not least, you may have freckles and very curly, or at least thick, hair. you may also have very dark hair / features in general, and perhaps you have long limbs too.

gemini venus opposite sagittarius ascendant: this aspect makes you more sociable and prone to interact with people. you’re also most probably very attractive, people are naturally drawn to you. the downside of this placement is that you may suffer from self-esteem issues, as you really care about others’ impression of you. maybe you’re a little bit clumsy too. it’s easy for you to gain popularity, but be careful as it’s not always good. popularity brings scandals too, so people you see in your everyday life could possibly start gossips around you. the good thing about this aspect is that you emanate loyalty, so you usually choose loyal and trust-worthy partners. this placement may also bring issues and problems in marriage with your future partner, even though I don’t think it’s your case. your venus is well-placed, so I don’t think there’ll be serious problems.

sagittarius ascendant square virgo jupiter: you probably learn a lot from people around you. you're most likely surrounded by wise, spiritual and possibly foreign individuals in your life. they help you to grow up, both spiritually and mentally. this placement also softens your introverted plutonian image, making you look more outgoing and approachable. you're also very open-minded, and you rarely have prejudices. the downside to this placement is that you may be depend too much on your friends or lovers, especially when it comes to your beliefs. you're easy to influence, and you may change your mind often if others disagree with you. you could possibly have high expectations from others, creating a false idea of those who surround you. at least, you're aware of your abilities and you have the potential to make the most out of them, but you're modest about it. you don't come off as bossy, as other jupiter - asc aspects would.

sagittarius ascendant conjunct sagittarius pluto: pluto, combined with your sagittarius rising makes you look a little bit naive. people may try to take advantage of you, and to defend yourself you tend to become bossy. you’re really competitive, and feel the constant need to prove others’ wrong, even though it’s not the best way to do it. in your life, you could encounter lots of enemies that may try to stop you from transforming yourself. or maybe, your grandfather is an authoritative figure in your life and in your family’s in general, and his influence has a big impact on your life. also, something I’ve noticed about pluto conjunct ascendant individuals is that they may feel unhappy when they’re young. as time goes by, they transform and become as they want, which makes them feel more satisfied with themselves.

🌞 sun in leo, 14° / 2nd decan ruled by the sun and jupiter

just like the sun, you shine brightly. you're confident, independent, brave and friendly. you're the only who can handle your life, no one can tell you who you are, what you want or what you need. sometimes you can get insecure, as you feel pressured to always be perfect. you try to be nice and kind to everyone, as you don't wanna be seen as someone unpleasant to be with. even though you may be into gossip and rumors, you try to avoid being involved with them at every cost. the thing with leo is, you're either loved or hated. no inbetween. some may admire your confidence, assertiveness and determination, others may be jealous of you. you have celebrity-like presence, you don't go overlooked. you're most probably the life of the party, and you enjoy living a life full of fun and amusement. you're also amazingly creative. with your heavy leo influence, you have the potential to do and achieve whatever you want, you're very resolute. even though you look very open to getting to know new people, you're secretly very picky about who you call your friends, or even when choosing a partner. you always try to be perfect, and hence you want someone that looks and tries just like you do.

🌙 moon in taurus, 4° / 1st decan ruled by venus

the moon is exalted in taurus, so it's definitely a good placement! you're very peaceful, you try to avoid conflicts when you can. this placement makes you crave stability, whether it's financial, in love etc. you must be very stubborn, as taurus is a fixed sign. this placement, paired with your imaginative leo energy, makes you settle on making your ideas concrete, and it's very beneficial. it makes you capable of achieving any goals in your life. you're also very artsy, and you may fancy particular art styles. you have a good eye for aesthetics, and you care a lot about the looks of your house, body, clothes etc. you have excellent concentration, and that is another thing that helps you achieve your goals and make your ideas concrete. last but not least, you're amazingly patient, and that makes you a great friend. probably, they vent a lot of their worries to you, as you're also a great listener.

🗣 mercury in virgo, 8° / 1st decan ruled by mercury

you have a very logical, pragmatic mind. ironically, this creates contrast with your leo energy, confusing you as you may act differently in different situations. you try to be as well-spoken as possible, especially with strangers, but when people get on your nerves you can’t help but kill them with your words. before expressing your opinion on a certain matter, you like making sure that your thought actually has proof to be supported. you’re very analytical, and hence you also overthink a lot. especially when it comes to people you care, you start overthinking so much about little things like late replies to messages that you create a variety of hollywood-worthy scenarios in your head. you also pay lots of attention to details, and you can’t tolerate typos and grammar mistakes. you always try to speak and write in the most correct and polite way as possible. you may have an elegant, yet neat handwriting. your voice probably sounds very calm and collected, yet you don’t have any problems speaking at a louder tone.

❤️ venus in gemini, 29° / 3rd decan ruled by mercury and uranus

this is the flirtiest, most romantic gemini decan, but also the flakiest and most indecisive. your flirting style most probably includes jokes, teasing… things like that. even though you may seem flaky, as you like experiencing romance with different types of people, you’re actually quite picky. in fact, in order to fall for someone, you need to feel mentally attracted to them, not just physically. someone ignorant and stubborn that doesn’t care about learning something most definitely isn’t for you. you’re not the type to be super romantic and sweet with your partner or just people in general. you show your affection for example by sending them memes, making ironic jokes about them etc. also, when you’re into someone, you probably get very talkative! you start asking them simple questions about their life, even things like 'did you have lunch?’. also, you talk about them with all of your friends, and you find yourself thinking costantly about them. you’re very curious of nature, but you’re only interested in getting to know what catches your eye.

gemini venus square virgo jupiter: you come off as a very positive, happy-go-lucky person. you're extremely friendly, and this makes you be good at social relationships. you may have lots of friends, or at least you have the potential to make many if you opened up and talked to them. yet, while this energy gives you positive vibes, some people may take advantage of that, as you could easily be mistaken for naive. people can try to dominate you unconsciously (sometimes even on purpose) not only in relationships but even in friendships. aside from that, I don't think this placement causes you many problems. you may have the tendency to procrastinate and not work. you could be quite lazy and get easily distracted, as you're constantly with your head in the clouds.

💥 mars in leo, 27° / 3rd decan ruled by the sun and mars

praise and success are what motivate you the most. your main goal in life is being praised for achieving your goals, you wouldn't feel motivated without compliments. therefore, you put energy in things that make you feel confident and noticed, as you enjoy being seen. for example, if you feel confident being well-dressed, you could spend hours in the closet to look how you want. you are very creative, you get an energy boost through creative outlets, and hence your hobbies (reading, writing, dancing, singing, drawing, etc.) recharge your battery. this placement also makes you very extra, especially with people you're close to. you may gesticulate a lot, you could as well enjoy mimicking others' voices. you're basically very dramatic, you look like an actor when you react, but at least you're very fun and entertaining to watch and listen. this placement, it gives you a strong charisma that, and combined with your sagittarius rising, it makes it impossible not to notice you. you could overreact from time to time, and you may also be particularly pessimistic, but above all you appear as someone very bold and strong-minded.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in sagittarius, with also chiron placed there. you come off as someone very sympathetic and bold, you're probably the fun one in the family or in your group of friends, even though pluto's presence conjunct the ascendant may delay this energy. you are very charismatic, you have a witty sense of humor and people are always pleased to have you around, as you're able to light up the room. people always see you as someone easy to talk to, someone trustworthy. you probably have great problem-solving skills or, otherwise, you just ignore your problems and wait for time to heal. you're also quite spiritual, you may be sensitive to higher entities and you could possibly also be religious. chiron is also here: your deepest insecurity is your appearance, your identity. it may be that when you were younger, you used to struggle a lot with your appearance. you could have been bullied, or perhaps you could have suffered from an eating disorder. luckily, this placement can get better. in fact, you can gain wisdom from this wound of yours; you can heal others who have self-worth issues once you start loving yourself.

your 2nd house is in aquarius. neptune and uranus are also placed there. your relationship with money isn’t stable at all. you may often go from periods where you earn a lot of money and possessions, to other times where you lose all of them all of a sudden. same thing goes for your self-esteem, it fluctuates a lot. you find beauty and aesthetic in material things; you most probably love clothes, art, music… anything that isn’t exactly a priority in life, but that allows you to express your personal taste, which is very refined. this placement makes you very creative, and hence you could make money out of your creativity. it would be a great way to find a job and become successful, but also to increase your security and confidence. you could even be a very innovative person, and with your leo sun you would make an excellent leader / boss. you could also make money through internet or with technology in general.

your 3rd house is in pisces. when it comes to speech, you’re most likely more introspective. you may not be much talkative, and most of the time you keep your ideas and thoughts to yourself, but actually it's hard for you to hide them. you may be secretive, but you're easy to read. you learn the best when you’re close to creativity or imagination, you’re very intuitive and hence it's easier for you to learn new topics. while you're very empathetic and you're able to properly convey your thoughts and feelings in your speech, you may also come off as sensitive or even insecure. you may have a quiet voice, and hence you could come off as shy. on the other hand, you may have the tendency to lie, or just being confusing in any way. you may not always express what you want crystal clear, as you want to able to modify the story just in case you encounter some hardships. also, you never truly express your feelings, probably out of fear. you’re always vague, and you keep your private matters for yourself. pisces is a mutable sign, so you may also find yourself changing ideas often, your mind wanders from one thought to another.

your 4th house is in aries. while outside you may appear as very polite, when you feel comfortable you actually become way more fiery. you’re very impulsive in your home environment, you could have been some sort of warrior in your childhood. maybe you used to argue a lot with your parents, perhaps because they were too overprotective. yet, I don't see any kind of trauma. you may have a very strong emotional bond with your family, even though you may argue often as you're all pretty sensitive and impulsive. you could be particularly attached to your mother, even though you used to argue a lot. the moon is also sitting in this house: your privacy and security are the centre of your life. you need to be and feel emotionally stable to fully take advantage of all of your skills; for example, if you argue with a loved one of yours, especially if it's someone from your family, you could get very unmotivated to do anything. you need to feel complete to function correctly, and when you can't, you rely on material goods; e.g you may overeat, buy a lot of useless things out of stress, drink... anything that apparently helps you to cope. on the other hand, you're very affectionate, even clingy at times, but your feelings are very pure. because of that, you may also be extremely sensitive, you could be afriad of others' judgment for example.

your 5th house is in taurus. you are a very creative, artistic person. you’re able to relax by watching netflix, eating, writing, painting… anything that can be done at home. you’re not the type to hang out too often or party all night, you’re more of a homebody. you could also love sleeping in, just being able to stay in bed all day wearing comfy clothes is a vacation for you. you always try to be at your best state, and you want those who surround you to be perfect too. it's hard for you to fall for someone, as you take everything in consideration: personality, physical appearance, fashion sense... it may look like it is too much, but once you find the right one that truly satisfies your standards, you're in for a long ride. you'll want to travel, live your life in the best way possible with the person you love.

your 6th house is in gemini. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. this placement indicates that you may be prone to overwork yourself, as you put a lot energy in your job. you could be quite superficial in a certain sense, and you’d risk to waste your potential with as you may take your job as a challenge, for example, you need to feel mentally stimulated to like it. in fact, your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working. as for your health, you may have problems with your lungs. you may suffer from anxiety or asthma, for instance, or anything that doesn't allow you to breath properly.

your 7th house is in gemini. saturn and venus are also placed there. in a partner, you seek someone intelligent that is able to keep up with your rhythm. you don’t have time to nurture someone, you want them to fully understand you. in fact, you may be more attracted to older partners, as they’re supposed to be more mature. I don’t see many issues arising in your marriage life, it will probably be very peaceful, but it may take you a while to find someone you like. you’re a picky person when it comes to love, you want someone hard-working and responsible with a big brain, yet they should also be quite outgoing and funny. you need mental stimulation, someone that is a constant adventure for you and that is worth exploring. maybe, you're actually afraid of falling in love; or perhaps, it's the opposite: your risk-taker sagittarius energy made you jump into relationships, even if they weren't actually your priority. it may be hard for you to fall for someone, but once you do, you're totally invested in them. you're quite of a traditionalist when it comes to love; you may the type that prefers being courted, rather than court yourself. you're also quite into clichés, and you're looking for a polite and ambitious partner. someone who has a stable job, and is also wealthy. basically, someone that looks (and possibly is) rich and noble. you may also have the tendency to date people that are older than you, and possibly also soulmates from your past lives. in fact, you attract many karmic partners that are here to teach you lessons. your relationships may be quite painful, or at least they're so intense that they are hard to forget. with this placement, it's also recommended to get married after your saturn return, hence after your 28-29 years old, to avoid any kind of challenges.

your 8th house is in leo, with also your sun, mercury and mars sitting there. you have the potential to become a very successful individual, with a great amount of charisma. yet, since the 8th house is related to pluto, the malefic planet of transformation, there are some hardships to this placement. in fact, you may have the tendency to look down on people that aren’t as open-minded as you are. I have the same placement, so I understand that it’s not easy at all, but you should learn to accept respectful people’s opinions. if you do that, you’ll finally be able to glow brightly. you’re very curious when it comes to taboo topics, you like learning about them. you’re probably into conspiracy theories, as well as matters like astrology, tarots, horror, tragedies, mystery... you can use them to transform yourself and grow up, so you could definitely use this birth chart reading to improve yourself. 8th house is also the house of karma, and yours is kind of strange. you may often feel like you’re right about something, e.g the sky is blue. you’re very proud of your observation, but then it turns out to be different. it’s like the universe is constantly teaching you new things. luckily, this is something that gets better with time. you’re an extremely goal-oriented person. you want to be the best at everything you do, not only to be better than others but also the best for yourself. you’re very astute, it’s impossible to trick you, and you always find a way to be in charge and get what you want. yet, you can get quite obsessed about your goals, that you could do extreme things to get what you want. in fact, people with this placement can even manipulate others, as they’re totally capable of doing that. in addition, your sun being in leo makes you extremely charming. people are naturally attracted to you, you have a way with words, and hence you’re always able to convince others into giving you what you want. but luckily, this doesn’t turn into manipulation, you probably don’t even realize this skill of yours, and hence you don’t use it to damage others. you are very persuasive, but you don't do it on purpose, you could actually be a little naive. when you get angry, you could actually get scary, though. your emotions are very intense, it’s hard to calm you down.

your 9th house is in virgo. at school you were a very diligent student; you were practical, precise and organized, you enjoyed studying at being the best in class. yet, you could be quite bossy at times, as you could come off as a bit too arrogant but you're just very dedicated. on the other hand, you're also very intelligent and open-minded above all, you could feel particularly drawn to foreign cultures and languages and you could be naturally skilled. you may also get to travel a lot or even move abroad at a certain point in your life, you're definitely a citizen of the world and you hardly ever have prejudices.

your 10th house is in libra. you have an eye for aesthetics, and you want to have a reputation for looking classy and mannered. basically a lady, but that knows how to stand up for herself. in your ideal career you need something that makes you express your need for beauty, possibly even justice. you may have a passion for poetry and literature in general, or maybe you could be particularly skilled at fashion. you have a natural talent to match colours with undertones, body shapes, vibes etc., and you could make this particular ability of yours a job. you’re also a charismatic, strong-willed speaker, hence you could also do well as a lawyer, a politician, an activist etc.

your 11th house is in scorpio. you are extremely picky with your friends. you have trust issues, probably caused by your karmic issues again, that make you secretive around your friends. you may close yourself in your shell, or maybe you actually know a lot of people, yet you only consider a few of them your friends. most of the time, you may also befriend people that try to take advantage of you, people may betray you often. or perhaps, since there’s a possibility that you understand that, you could be the one who leads the group and acts quite bossy. this is something that gets naturally better with time; actually, your friends will be of great help for you to grow up. you may have big dreams for your future, yet you may feel intimidated as they’re very intense, and hence hard to make come true. you need to pay your karmic debts in order to finally feel comfortable with others and have the motivation to achieve your long-term goals.

your 12th house is in sagittarius, and pluto is also sitting there. you're particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. possibly, you could make lots of good dreams, even though you do have many nightmares as well. perhaps, your dreams could bring you luck; for instance, you may dream about the winning numbers of the lottery, or maybe they may warn you about certain people or events in your life that could harm, you are strongly connected to your higher self.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love you attract gemini, aquarius, libra, capricorn and taurus. your future spouse will most probably have capricorn, aquarius and libra placements, hence they’ll be very hard-working, intelligent and witty, but also very sarcastic and a bit moody. it may be love at first sight, and you may find them very attractive. you may also meet at work, or you're going to be introduced to them by your family or friends. you'll most likely also meet them abroad, they may be foreign or at least they have a different cultural background from yours. or perhaps, you're going to marry someone older than you, and you meet them later in your life, around your 27s/28s and so on. your children will be heavy in taurus and libra placements, hence they’ll be very creative and quite lazy too, they'll probably love eating and they will like playing around. yet, they could be a bit too stubborn and sometimes materialistic.

👶🏻 family life

your mother is a very fiery person, with a short-temper. she could have sometimes even been quite violent with you during your childhood, and she might have a bit of a childish behaviour. deep down, she’s actually kind of insecure with her role as a mother. she may have aries, libra or cancer placements in her chart. your father, on the other hand, is more submissive. he’s a peaceful person, even though he most probably has a passive-aggressive behaviour. you could actually have a better relationship with him rather than with your mother, or at least he understands your needs better. he may have libra, cancer or scorpio, as well as aries in his chart. if you have siblings, they most probably have pisces, capricorn or aquarius placements in their chart. you have a great relationship with them, even though it could have been a while for you to get along. overall, your relationship with them was peaceful.

📊 career

you could do well at a variety of jobs to be honest! with your gemini in the 6th house you could actually work in different fields before sticking to one career, hence you’re pretty experienced. I certainly see you being successful in your career, you will most likely work alone and you'll most likely be a boss or even famous. you're very hard-working, so I can see you having your own business for example. otherwise, you may also do well in an aesthetic field, you probably have great creative talent. you may be an artist, a creative director, a screenwriter, a writer, a singer, a musician... or even more practical jobs like lawyer, judge, possibly also a therapist or psychologist. you'll settle down on a career that will make you feel emotionally fulfilled, you'll truly enjoy what you do. you may possibly also work with other people, you may have to interact with others for your future job. you could work in a field related to public relations, or perhaps you may even work abroad or with people of different cultures from yours.

👕 fashion sense, style analysis

I imagine you put a lot of effort into your outifts, yet you don’t show it. you want to look effortlessly good, you don’t want to give the impression that you tried. your style may be quite minimalistic and simple, with lots of jeans, sweatshirts, plain t-shirts… I see you being more into natural shades, like white, grey, beige etc. you’re also not very fond of using too many accessories, you’re stylish but still very simple. you have this natural charm to you, hence you still look good even though your outfits may not be too complex.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, you were very career-oriented. you were probably extremely successful at work, it was your priority. you could have even been someone important for your career, who knows. yet, this lifetime you don't need to focus on work anymore, you're already a master at it. now, you need to solve your issues with your family and create a family of your own to fully accomplish your life purpose. there may be some ups and downs, but this is what your soul has to learn in this lifetime.

🤔 major transits analysis / august 24

transit virgo sun is currently conjunct your natal leo mars in the 8th house: you may be feeling a bit impulsive these days, you could argue easily with others so be careful with what you do or say. these arguments could be particularly painful for you, so try to avoid them. also, with transit jupiter in your 2nd house conjunct your uranus, you may come across unexpected luck in these days, so pay attention to any signs! they were most likely meant to be.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

the best way for you to manifest is idealizing and acting at the same time. you have both energies combined in your chart, which is great actually! I’d suggest you to first picture what you want in your life, and then do something concrete to manifest it. for example, let’s suppose you want this gucci bag; first, think about it deeply. then, you could try going into a gucci shop and just walk around, maybe even touch that bag. you’ll get results if you believe it! it’s also great to write and read/listen your own positive affirmations, such as 'I love my gucci bag’, 'the gucci bag my mom gave me is amazing’ and so on.

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)

- libramc xx

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Things Once Forgotten

An Elsewhere University graduate struggles to remember the reason behind a deep-seated phobia of theirs.

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Your fiancee wanted a dog. That was where it had all began.

On the face of it, her argument was reasonable enough. She’d had dogs all her life up until the year before you two met, when her last one had passed away and she wasn’t sure at the time if she was in a good place to take on another. She was ready for one now, though, and while you’d never had a dog of your own, you were fond of cats, and the two weren’t all that different, the false binary of “dog people” and “cat people” aside. It’d mean going out for walks with the dog now and then, but you liked taking strolls through the neighborhood anyway, and bringing along a companion shouldn’t be too much of an issue.

All of which would be all well and good if you weren’t utterly terrified of dogs.

Your fiancee had persevered. She was determined to get a dog, but also determined to find one that wouldn’t frighten you in the process. She had you meet her parents’ dogs, her friends’ dogs, found the tiniest puppies imaginable at a local shelter and arranged a personal introduction, but big or small, wild or tame, all of them scared the wits out of you just the same.

(Actually, that wasn’t entirely true, as a bit of directed trial-and-error discovered: somehow, it was the little pipsqueak dogs, tiny bundles of fluff and energy that could realistically do you no harm, that freaked you out the most.)

After a few weeks of struggling with the issue, you resorted to meeting with a therapist.

Dr. Stein was a petite lady whose long blonde hair was turning silver with age, her gold-framed glasses making her dark blue eyes stand out that much more. She’d started with a reasonable enough question, the kind you had anticipated her asking: had you always been afraid of dogs, or was there some incident in particular that had been the impetus of your phobia?

The trouble was, you weren’t quite sure what the answer was.

You hadn’t grown up with dogs--your father was deathly allergic to them--but you didn’t remember being afraid of them at a young age, or having any feelings towards them stronger than a combination of idle curiosity and vague worry of having inherited your father’s allergy. But you couldn’t recall exactly when it was that your fear of dogs sprang up, let alone whether there had been a specific incident that had caused it.

You met with Dr. Stein several times more in the following months, went over your life in the hopes of finding some less-than-obvious connection to your phobia that you had overlooked, uncovering a few unsettling facts in the process that only led to more questions instead of the answers you so desperately sought.

First: nobody you could get in touch with remembered you encountering any particular problems with dogs that might have caused your fear; in fact, back in high school you’d became friends with the next door neighbors largely through befriending their large, slobbering hounds, though your visits with them had slowed to a stop after you went off to college.

Second: there are a number of long, dark scar lines across your back, reaching from near your shoulder blades down to your waist; you have absolutely no memory of where these scars came from, but you’re pretty sure you got them either during or after college.

Third: a good chunk of your college life has been reduced to little more than a blur in your memory. You remember bits and pieces, especially when it comes to your actual studies--reading books whose age could be measured in centuries, listening to lectures about those long dead coming from professors who often didn’t sound far off themselves, forming a tight-knit study group with a handful of your fellow history majors--but what you did in your down time, what you did for fun during those four years? You have only brief snippets and vague ideas left of that. Even some of what you do remember seems off a bit--you don’t know what the name of that one professor with the frizzy hair and the freckles and the refreshingly accommodating policy about late work was, but you’re pretty sure it’s neither Taffy nor Toffee, though your memory waffles between the two, and whatever the name of that tall guy in your study group who only ever wore graphic t-shirts and faded jeans, it definitely wasn’t Pineapple Pizza.

The conclusion Dr. Stein reaches, that something happened to you in college that caused your back scars, your fear of dogs, and your lack of memory of your college years, makes sense, given the evidence, but all attempts at unearthing the repressed memories behind your phobia fail miserably. Nothing Dr. Stein says or does helps you remember even the slightest bit about what might have happened to you back in college to make even the smallest of dogs utterly terrify you. For all the progress you make, you might as well have been running headfirst into a brick wall and expecting something other than frustration and pain.

Eventually, you, your fiancee, and Dr. Stein reach an agreement that perhaps the only way to unearth those repressed memories is to go back to your college and see if stepping on campus once again after all these years helps to jog your memory. Elsewhere’s Homecoming is coming up, anyway, and it’s not an unreasonable drive from home. At worst, you burn a little gas money and waste a weekend at an unremarkable college event. At best, you find the missing piece of the puzzle, and all those questions of yours will finally be answered.

Most of the drive is downright mind-numbing, the scenery changing little as the hours pass by, and once you start getting close you’re surprised that Elsewhere University managed to find a foothold and survive for so long while being located in, well, the middle of nowhere, really. You vaguely remember the highway near campus once you turn onto it, but it’s not until you cross onto the campus proper and your fiancee pulls into a school parking lot that you remember anything more significant.

The memories flood you all at once, and you struggle to wade through them, to find what you’re looking for amidst recollections of so many other things.

That professor with the frizzy hair really did go by Taffy--Saltwater Taffy specifically for the first few weeks of her employment, before she decided that the “Saltwater” part was both unwieldy and a bit bolder than she cared to be. She was an Elsewhere alumna, naturally, and well aware of the wide variety of circumstances that could lead to a student having to turn in late work, including those that wouldn’t (and couldn’t) happen at any other university. Taffy wasn’t her actual name, of course, but then, nobody went by their real name at Elsewhere, so she fit in just fine.

That tall guy with a fondness for graphic t-shirts really did go by Pineapple Pizza; he had a nasty combination of food allergies that meant he would never get to taste the stuff himself, but he liked the looks he got for choosing the name, liked how it led to arguments breaking out in his midst as often as not.

And as for what you did for fun while at college?

Well, that study group wasn’t just interested in history, or at least, not the kind of history that could be studied from old books and boring lectures. Your little group devised experiments and deals, ways of gaining knowledge from those who had witnessed things that no human had been alive to see, weighed pros and cons regarding what to learn and how. You were also a Knight, on the side, spending hours upon hours helping other students who had made poor decisions...

...except, of course, for the time when the one who had made a poor decision was yourself.

It had seemed harmless enough, to go pet the dog that was sitting nonchalantly a few feet away from the path you were following, big eyes watching you from that tiny tuft of fur and bones laying there. You missed your neighbors’ hounds, missed your family’s cats, and petting a dog that had wandered onto campus seemed like an innocent enough way of soothing that particular bit of homesickness.

(An ingenious trap, really.)

You hadn’t noticed that the dog was dangerously close to the edge of the forest, hadn’t noticed that its shadow shifted and swayed with the setting sun, hadn’t noticed that both its shadow and its eyes were far too large for the small form it had taken on.

You only stopped approaching the dog upon sinking one hand deep into its fur, which was soft and luscious and thick, far thicker than it should be given how small the dog appeared to be.

It was only then that you realized what you had done, realized what the small and unassuming form of this “dog” actually concealed.

The rest remains a blur even now.

Turning your back on the “dog” and running, sprinting towards campus as if your life depended on it, because you knew it very well might.

Hot breath pressed against your back, and then claws ripping into your flesh, tearing it apart with ease.

A cluster of people gathering around you, one making shoddy salt line after shoddy salt line in the ground before you.

A well-tossed iron chain finally forcing your pursuer to turn away and allowing you to stop moving, sinking into the ground as the pain you had ignored in your terror returned with a vengeance, agony burning into you as you felt warm blood run across your back and your vision faded into nothingness.

You feel your fiancee’s hand brush against your own and recoil, realizing only then how tense you had become, how you had been sitting in silence for some time now.

“So?” your fiancee tentatively asks.

Your initial response is just a single, shaky laugh.

“What is it? Did you remember something?”

You shake your head and say, “Dr. Stein is never going to believe this.”

[eatbreathewrite]

The Adventures of Todd and Granny

(Alternatively: “I Saw Granny Ethel with the Devil”)

Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V

Yard Work

Of the many lessons instilled in him by Granny Ethel, the one that Todd knows best, is that good, hard, honest work keeps the devil at bay.

It’s only a saying. But he takes it to heart, if only to reassure himself that his brethren don’t know or care where he’s disappeared to for the past few months.

Really, they shouldn’t care. They’re often called away and sent on wayward tasks by superiors and skilled summoners alike. Sometimes for years.

Todd wouldn’t mind living like this for a decade, or two.

The Human Todd—Theodore—though, doesn’t seem to hold the same morals.

“Ugh—why won’t the damn thing just start?” he gripes at the old push lawn mower, rusted and peeling with age, as he yanks the motor’s rip cord for the third time in a row—unsuccessful. Not even a stutter. The heel of his shoe bounces off of its faded red deck with a dull, metallic thump as he tries to kick it into submission, but hitting machinery never inspires it to suddenly, magically work.

It isn’t that it doesn’t have gas—Todd has made sure it’s well taken care of in its old age and properly filled. It isn’t that it’s missing its grass-catcher bag, either. That’s another issue to be met further down the road.

Ultimately, it’s just Theodore’s poor luck and impatience. And a dirty carburetor, perhaps.

He’ll let him struggle obliviously for a few moments more—but only a few. Granny Ethel’s lawn is overgrown with a wily mass of green-yellow grass up to his shins, in desperate need of taming. But for now, he just shakes his head and minds his business at the stone-bordered garden on the other end of the lawn, getting his claws dirty pulling stray weeds from between herbs and taking notes on which ones need pruning.

More importantly, he only allows Theodore to swear so loudly because Granny Ethel is currently absent.

Their friend Sam from the grocery store kindly drove her to her routine check-up at the local clinic earlier that afternoon, though they probably would have walked if it wasn’t in the next town over.

Being who she is, he’s still a bit surprised they didn’t.

Another kick echoes off the metal body of the lawn mower—followed quickly by a strangled yell and the sound of something heavy—someone—hitting the grass with a sharp rustle. A soft landing.

Maybe he’s lucky after all.

Todd still ignores him, and pauses briefly to admire the ruby red glare of a ladybug landing on the back of his dark hand. Even as the swishing of disturbed grass only grows closer, until a distorted human shadow blocks the bright patch of sun reflecting off of the ladybug’s fragile shell.

Theodore clears his throat.

The ladybug’s wings unfurl in a flutter and it flits away, following the wind.

Again, he clears his throat to garner attention—and Todd ignores him. But he does keep him in the fringe of his peripheral vision.

“No help at all.” He huffs out an insulted breath as he stomps away, unkempt, sweaty blond hair flouncing with each step. It must be the hardest he’s worked out in ages, to get so worked up.

But Theodore doesn’t return to the lawn mower—this time he heads toward the far corner, to the small brown shed topped with a patchy, bright yellow roof. Unpainted, unfinished. It’s something Todd will take care of at an appropriate time. Granny Ethel’s birthday, perhaps…though she hasn’t mentioned it just yet.  

The doors rattle as he gives them a shake—locked, naturally. He sets his hands on his hips and hangs his head in defeat. Bends down and almost collapses in the grass, ready to give up, but stops. Frozen, as if struck by inspiration. His head tilts dramatically as he peers toward something in the corner, resting in the shadows between the shed wall and the fence.

Todd has to admit, this interests him greatly—he turns his head to watch, but doesn’t move from his spot beside the herb garden.

Theodore straightens up and slinks toward the shadowed nook, reaching a hand out into the blackness. And when he draws it back, a scythe handle is gripped in his palm.

It’s dusty. Rusted and bent at the edges, probably dull—and complete with another hand grip protruding from the main rod like a functional tool. Made of old wood; reliable wood. Hand-carved. Theodore wheezes out a laugh of disbelief and quickly turns. Todd can’t turn around fast enough and catches the brunt of the victorious grin wrinkling his face. Knowing, and so triumphant. The absolute epitome of foolish Pride.

He doesn’t even know what he’s holding, certainly. Not with those pristine, clean hands that have only been pricked by a splinter today.

Todd rises to his feet, to his full height. There’s no need to heed ceilings—not outdoors. When he takes the first step, Theodore’s smile crumbles. He clutches the scythe to his chest and takes a step back, shoulders tense. He holds the eye contact just to spook him. Just a bit.

But he doesn’t walk to him. He reaches the lawn mower and kneels to pass a hand over its motor, clearing it of whatever issue remains.

Ah. Like he thought. It’s the carburetor.  

He takes the rip cord in one hand and gives it a brisk yank—the motor stutters. Again, he pulls it, and the machine roars to life. Obedient, like a well-tamed beast.

Theodore’s strangled yelp of outrage satisfies the primal human vengeance he’s come to know as “pettiness.”

As the lawn mower idles, Theodore sets the scythe carelessly aside, dropped against the shed, and trudges through the tall grass toward it. He seizes it by the handle bar without sparing Todd a second glance even as he towers over him, still kneeling, thanks to the height of his spiraling horns.

Still, he doesn’t seem to know just how to operate the machine he snatched away. He pushes it forward, too rough—and jumps back with a start, cursing as the fresh-cut grass clippings pepper his navy-blue slacks in a rush of green.

But the beast has already been released, and as his fingers slip from the handlebar, it creeps its way forward without prompt and with surprising speed.

Straight into Granny Ethel’s beloved and flourishing lantanas.

Then right over them.

Both, speechless and stock still, stare at the vermillion whirl of shredded petals spit out in the lawn mower’s wake. Even as it bumps into the fence and tries to continue on, unaware—until it topples over and chokes itself out, blades whirring to a halt beneath its casing.

Just in time, too. In the distance, but not too far away, a car door slams shut. Swift and familiar, shuffling footsteps fast approach. The wooden side gate creaks open.

“We’re back at last, dears! I’m sure you’ve been working hard. Why don’t we take a break? I saw the most charming bakery on the way home and couldn’t help but—”

Something crashes against the cobblestone walkway. Soft—covered in a plastic bag. Bread. No, cinnamon buns. Todd can smell the sugary vanilla sweetness through the package. But he can’t quite turn to face Granny Ethel as a red hot glare fills his eyes, aimed only at Theodore.

But—no. It isn’t entirely the man’s fault.

It’s his, too, for playing a jealous, petty little game. Because he could have stopped the lawn mower and didn’t.

Sometimes, standing idly by is the worst sin of all.

Todd’s heart caves in as Granny Ethel breathes in and exhales, speechless, and presses her hands to her mouth when he turns to face her.

“Oh, my… The lantanas.”

Her eyes dart to the ruined mess of flowers and she takes a tiny step forward, over the fallen bag of sweet bread. Drops her hands from her mouth and holds them out in front of her as she ambles forward—and stops, a safe distance away from the destruction.

“Oh, my dudes, yikes,” Sam breathes, hissing in through his teeth and rubbing a brown hand across his frowning, pursed lips. “I, uh—I’ll go in and mix up some juice or something. You’ll need it.” He picks up the fallen bag of buns on the way.

Todd’s shoulders hunch as he very nearly curls in on himself in shame, wrapping his shawl tight around himself—because the heat never bothered him and it’s his it’s special and it was a gift from her and, somewhere deep down, he vows to never disappoint her, to hurt her, in such a way again. Ever.

Theodore, flushed deep red from neck to ears ever since his grandmother walked in, shuffles half-heartedly in front of the straight line of shredded lantanas, at least self-aware enough to realize he’d made a grave error. His hands knead roughly together, pale skin turning whiter from the pressure. Sweating, still, but not only from the summer heat.

“Gran, I…”

“Charles grew that patch for me.” Her soft poofs of cloud-white hair twist in the breeze as she closes her eyes and dips her head toward her chest, eyes closed. “Oh, they’ve been there ever since he planted them. Every single one.” She folds her hands in front of her loose, sunflower-yellow dress and shakes her head, saying no more on the subject.

“Oh my God. I’m so—Gran, I don’t… I didn’t mean to, it just… It wasn’t my fault!”

His frantic cry goes unheard by Granny Ethel as she stands with her head bowed in silence.

“There’s a silver lining, here, my dear.” When she looks up, her eyes shine behind her glasses, unshed tears catching sunlight, but her stare is hardened. And harsh.

Even with that small, tired smile, her fury is a cold-burning flame.

“You see, these particular flowers can live again. We will collect the undamaged stalks that are left and root them. Replant them. Then…” Her voice trails off into the silence of an unspoken thought. “For now, I’ll leave you two in peace to finish the yard work.”

Neither speaks a word, stuck in mortified silence, even as Granny Ethel disappears into the house.

The silence is only broken moments later when Sam makes his way back outside holding a tray filled with a glass pitched and three glasses, as well as a small pile of cookies. Peanut butter, of course.

But no sweet cinnamon buns.  

“Here’s that drink! Lavender lemonade with honey—and Granny’s special peanut cookies,” he smiles, trying his best to keep up a positive atmosphere as he sits cross-legged on the lawn with the fine silver tray in his lap. “She helped put it together, dudes, so don’t forget to thank her later.”

Theodore scoffs and grumbles out, “I’m allergic to peanuts,” but Todd knows that isn’t true. He’s seen entire containers of peanut butter disappear overnight, at times. And Granny Ethel simply wouldn’t do something that selfish, so he’s the only suspect.

But if the man is going to be that way about it, then all the more treats for him and Sam. He drains one of the glasses in a single gulp and devours two of the delicious, crispy cookies, nodding in appreciation. Because it’s what Granny Ethel would want—and he’d rather die than let her hospitality go to waste. Her happiness always comes first.

He hopes she’s not crying.

“She’s busy crocheting something in the den, by the way. Humming, and everything. Boy, am I glad she’s not mad.” Sam also eats a cookie and speaks around the crunchy bits in his mouth, providing him with just the answer he sought. “But, man, that’s some gnarly garden carnage, there.” He nods his head toward the lantanas and whistles low. “Did you apologize?”

“Why would I?” Theodore snaps, arms crossed tight as he refuses to look at the flowers and their faces, still evident in his guilt by the way he answers so quickly. When no one gives him an immediate response, he breathes a theatrical sigh and clomps toward the fallen path of ruined flowers. Hands on his hips, now, he observes the mess. “Is any of this even salvageable? None of the stems look un-shredded!”

“You should apologize,” Sam insists lightly, taking another cookie when he finishes the first. He meets Todd’s eyes and they share a knowing glance. Then, his brown eyes light up. “Oh—and by the way, Granny’s appointment went great! She’s fit as a fiddle.”

By now, Theodore is squatting amongst the flower shreds, combing through the mess for anything that looks particularly helpful and root-able. “Of course she is. Her energy knows no bounds.”

Todd can only nod. Granny Ethel’s health is nigh infallible. But—that aside, it’s time to return to work. He finishes his cookies, brushes the crumbs off his palms and carefully makes his way to the flower patch to pick out the lantana stems they can still save.  

There are few—but a few is better than none. And for the rest, they can grow from the seeds.

It will take some time to return Granny’s beloved lantana garden to its former glory, but not forever. And before they know it, this day will be nothing more than a mistake of the past.  

So, they continue their yard work until the day’s chore is done.

The remaining lantanas: neat. The lawn: trimmed. The herb garden: weeded and pruned.

When the tools have been returned to their proper place, they leave the yard behind, and Todd gives one final, sweeping glance around the space as he slides the back door shut.

Something is out of place. He can’t quite pin down what, but later, when he curls up in his small twin bed and drifts to sleep in the room he shares with Theodore, he dreams of a rusted scythe that he can’t quite remember putting away—one that he promptly forgets when he wakes.

[sad-trash-writing]

Bite Me, Ch. 7

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Daisy was still shaky as Jemma guided her home. She was in such a daze that she didn't even realize that they had passed through the maze of tunnels, the dorm lobby, and the elevator to get to Jemma’s front door. 

Jemma kept an arm loosely wrapped around Daisy's waist until they were fully inside the apartment. The blackout curtains were still pulled back from the night before, letting the early morning light stream into the living room, where Daisy stood awkwardly. She had no idea where to go from this point. She was exhausted, physically and mentally and her mind still felt like a jumbled pile of words and feelings.

Jemma’s voice drifted into her consciousness, gently asking if she wanted to take a shower. Daisy nodded slightly, not sure if Jemma was actually asking her or if she was imagining it.

Jemma’s hand gently pressing against her shoulder answered that question. In a matter of moments, Daisy was in the spacious bathroom with a fluffy towel and a change of clothes in her arms. Jemma placed a hand on Daisy's shoulder and gave her a comforting smile, muttered something about breakfast and left Daisy alone in the bathroom.

Daisy cranked the hot water up and stripped off her borrowed, baggy clothes. Her hands were coated in a fine layer of dirt up to her elbows. She had bits of grass and mud still caked under her fingernails and a few flecks of dried grass stuck to her skin. On looking down, she noticed her feet were in a similar state. 

Daisy glared at her reflection in the mirror, staring herself down as if any minute her dark brown eyes would shift to a brilliant gold and she was telling them ‘don't you dare.’ She clenched her hands into fists, half expecting that they would be fur and claws instead of skin. 

Everything felt off. Like she was a stranger in her own skin. Or there was someone else in her head with her.

Daisy nearly didn't recognize herself in her mirror. Sure, she looked exactly the same, but somehow her reflection seemed sharper. She glanced around the bathroom and everything her eyes landed on seemed the same. Tiny, nuanced distinctions in the paint on the walls that Daisy would have never noticed before suddenly stood out loudly. Small print on Jemma’s shampoo bottle across the room was suddenly legible.

Daisy frowned. Her vision had never been bad but the way she was seeing now made her feel like she had been blind all her life. 

She tore her eyes from the reflection and stepped into the scalding shower. She spent way longer than normal scrubbing every inch of her skin, trying to get rid of the memory of wind through fur. She squeezed her eyes shut when the memory of Coulson and May filtered through her mind, but she couldn't push it away. 

She finally turned the water off, wrapped herself up in the towel, and stepped out of the shower. 

  Her stomach growled loudly and the smell of bacon drifted into the bathroom through the thick steam from the shower. Everything else could be put on hold. For now she needed food.

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“I talked to Coulson.”

Jemma’s voice finally broke the awkward silence of breakfast. For most of the meal, neither party had wanted to talk, but Jemma finally spoke up. Daisy just hummed an acknowledgement. 

“He's spoken to the pack and found you a transitioner. And he'd like you to meet them this evening,” Jemma finished.

Daisy's stomach dropped. She was hoping to have at least another month before she had to deal with this...werewolf business again. Or at the very least, one night. Apparently the universe had different plans.

“Oh,” was all Daisy could muster.

“He said it didn't have to be until later, so you could get some rest, but he thinks it's important you start immediately,” Jemma muttered. She could definitely tell Daisy didn't want to talk about this. 

Daisy just nodded in acknowledgment. They finished the rest of their breakfast in silence. Afterward, Daisy offered to help clean up, but Jemma shooed her away to go take a nap. Daisy wasn't going to argue with that too intensely, so she shuffled back to Jemma’s bedroom, collapsed into her plush bed, and slipped into sleep in seconds.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ “So, Lincoln? That blonde, guy who wandered into the lab the other day?” Daisy asked.

Jemma nodded tersely. “He's done this before, so Coulson thought he would be he best choice to help you out. And he’s been a werewolf the longest of the group, so he seemed the logical choice.”

Daisy frowned. “Is there something wrong with him?”

“No, why do you ask?”

“Well, you seem to have some issue with him,” Daisy countered. 

Jemma flushed slightly. Daisy chalked it up to Jemma being out in the sun. “No, there’s nothing wrong with him. In fact, he’s brilliant at what he does. He just… I don’t know. He doesn’t like to follow people’s directions very well.”

Daisy quirked an eyebrow. “That’s why you’re annoyed with him? Why are you not constantly annoyed with me, then?”

Jemma rolled her eyes. “Believe me, I frequently am,” she replied, but with a slight smirk. “I was annoyed with him because I advised both Coulson and him that it wouldn’t be a good idea to have you meet the pack when we still weren’t sure of your status. I told him I would be bringing you to the lab and asked him to stay out of it for that afternoon, so we wouldn’t overwhelm you. Apparently, he decided that coming down to meet you anyway was a good idea.”

“Oh.” Daisy muttered. She appreciated Jemma’s concern, but she wasn’t too traumatized by the brief meeting with Lincoln, just a little startled by the suddenness of it. It seemed like there was something else that Jemma wasn’t saying, but at that moment, Daisy saw Lincoln leaning up against a light pole by the coffee shop they were headed towards. 

He perked up when he saw them approaching and strode over to meet them. “Hey, Daisy. We’re so excited to have you join the pack,” Lincoln said when he caught up to them. 

Daisy cringed. “Well, sorry. I’m still not in the excited phase of this whole thing.”

“Oh, yeah, of course. Perfectly understandable. There’s so much that you’re dealing with right now. But, that’s why I’m here. To make it a little easier for you,” Lincoln explained.

Jemma had disappeared for a moment, but reappeared by Daisy’s elbow with something crumpled up in her hands. 

“What is that?” Daisy asked. 

Jemma scowled. “Another Watchdogs flyer I saw hanging up.”

Lincoln mirrored her scowl. 

“Um, Watchdogs?” Daisy glanced between the two. 

“They’re a hate group that’s been trying to recruit on campus lately. They’re strictly against any non-humans 'tainting' their cities,” Lincoln explained with disgust. 

“But I thought you guys— we— were a secret.”

Lincoln shrugged. “Sometimes the secret gets out somehow and people don’t react very well. Most people who don’t know about us just think the Watchdogs are delusional. Don’t worry too much about them, though. The campus is safe as houses.”

Lincoln placed a hand on Daisy’s shoulder in a comforting gesture.

“Well, I didn’t take enough of my potion today, so the sun is getting a bit much for me. I’ll leave you two to it,” Jemma blurted. Daisy noticed her eyes dart between herself and Lincoln, before she turned on her heel and marched off. Jemma threw the crumpled flyer at a trash can so hard, Daisy thought she saw a dent poke out the other side. 

“So, shall we get started?” Lincoln asked.

“Sure. Get started with what exactly?”

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They ended up in the woods surrounding most of the campus. Only the Erebus school students were allowed in the woods (though, apparently, the only regulars were the werewolves on full moons and a few witches), so they knew they were have privacy while they talked. Lincoln led the way, strolling through nearly invisible paths in the foliage. Luckily, Lincoln did most of the talking, so Daisy could just listen and ask questions. 

“No one is really sure where we came from,” Lincoln explained. “The prevailing theory is that thousands of years ago, when humans first moved into cities, they tried to repress and get rid of their more 'wild' urges with magic. Somehow, it went wrong and they ended up splitting themselves into human and wolf.”

“How the heck did they manage that?”

Lincoln shrugged. “We’re not really sure. It might have been around the time  they were domesticating wolves and tried to transfer part of themselves onto the wolves. It might have that the spell turned that part of the person into a wolf and that’s why they changed. No one really knows, because no one wanted to write it down. All we know is that sometime after that point, werewolf images started spreading around all sorts of cultures, so we’re probably all the descendants of those few people.”

“Great,” Daisy muttered sarcastically. “So, we’re genetically cursed because someone turned their bad thoughts into a wolf.”

“Not bad,” Lincoln clarified. “Just wild.”

“Yeah, like the urge to kill things. Which is bad,” Daisy countered. 

“It’s not just to kill things. It’s a hunting instinct for survival. The more violent urges come from pushing all those instincts down and repressing them,” Lincoln said. 

“So, what. Turning into a werewolf is all because we repress our feelings?”

Lincoln cringed. “Yes and no?”

“Very clear.”

Lincoln chuckled. “The wolf part is a manifestation of our natural, basal instincts. The need to run and hunt and just be around nature. The stories of violent werewolves destroying and killing is the result of people being too pent up and enclosed in urban spaces. Also, mostly exaggerated negative propaganda. When we’re given this kind of space to move around—” he gestured to the trees around them— “we’re actually quite tame and in control.”

“If all we need is space, then why did the dean put me in a fence for the first time I turned?” Daisy asked, trying to keep the bitterness out of her voice. 

Lincoln flinched. “Honestly, the way they handled your transition was not great. They haven’t had someone go through the change on their campus before, so they weren’t really sure how to go about it. All they knew is that newly turned werewolves tend to be really confused and unpredictable, so they figured the best way to handle that was to keep you contained.”

“Which actually made it one thousand percent worse,” Daisy finished for him.

“Pretty much.” Lincoln cringed. “I suggested the pack could be on standby to help out, but they were still convinced you weren’t going to change, so they shot me down.”

Daisy’s eyes narrowed. “What do you mean? Did you know I was going to change?”

Lincoln looked abashed. “We can sort of tell who is and isn’t a werewolf. You know that there’s a genetic component to lycanthropy, right?”

“If lycanthropy is 'being a werewolf, then yes.”

Lincoln nodded. “Even before a potential werewolf changes, there’s something that we can sense in each other. It’s not really a scent, just a feeling. Sometimes werewolves will seek out unchanged werewolves and try to change them, because of this.”

“Like whoever bit me,” Daisy said. A shudder ran up her spine from the memory. 

“Exactly.”

“Have you figured out who it was yet? The one who attacked me,” Daisy asked.

  “Unfortunately, not.” Lincoln frowned. “The whole pack was accounted for that night and nowhere near where you were attacked, so we’re trying to figure out how another werewolf got on campus without anyone knowing.”

“Are you sure?” Daisy prodded. 

“Yes. We’re a very small pack and everyone was together that night,” Lincoln defended. “And I know my pack and none of them would change someone without their permission. They know what it’s like to be forced into it.” 

Lincoln suggested they head back towards campus, so Daisy had to file away further questions for another day.

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The next day, Lincoln signed himself and Daisy up for a private yoga session. Apparently it was to 'refamiliarize Daisy with her own body and mind' while also giving her a chance to stretch out her abused muscles. 

Thankfully, they didn’t start at the crack of dawn, because Lincoln and the pack shifted and went for another run last night, which Daisy didn’t even realize they could do.

“The whole process of shifting involves energy. It takes a ton of energy to shift form like we do, so we pull it from the full moon. That’s not warrior pose, Daisy.” Daisy huffed and tried to twist her torso into the position the video instructor was demonstrating. She spun her arms trying to keep her balance while her legs shook trying to support her body weight.

Lincoln continued his teaching, oblivious to Daisy’s struggling. “When the moon is at its peak, that’s when it’s easiest for us to shift and it’s nearly impossible to resist shifting. The days before and after, it’s still possible to shift with practice, but takes a lot more energy. Some months we just like to have the extra days together. I figured you would still be exhausted from your first shift and probably not want to join us this time.” 

He wasn’t wrong. The residual memories of the last time made Daisy want to go as long as possible without shifting again. She couldn’t imagine wanting to do it more than she had to. 

“So, other than running around all day, how do you control the wolf-brain?” Daisy asked. 

“Well, you have to acknowledge that the wolf brain is your brain, first. The only biological difference werewolves have to normal humans is in our brain stem, which controls instinctive action. Actually, my dissertation is on the variation of neurobiology among non-human persons, and I’d like to have another werewolf in the sample if you—” Lincoln cut himself off when he noticed Daisy’s blank stare.

“—Nevermind, not the time. Anyway, the wolf part of your brain is basically the same as your normal brain, but since it’s new, it feels unfamiliar. Once you familiarize yourself with it and everything it wants, you can assimilate it into your normal stream of consciousness and you’ll be more in control. When you try to fight or push away the wolf part of your brain, that’s when you start to lose control of yourself.”

The video instructor twisted herself into some impossible position and Daisy lost her balance and fell on her ass.

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A few days later, it was decided that Daisy should move into the werewolves’ floor of the complex, since she officially was one. Jemma spent her weekend helping Daisy pack up her stuff and move it down to the fifth floor. Most of Daisy’s stuff was still in boxes from the last move, so it was just a matter of making multiple trips up and down the elevator and shoving the boxes into her new apartment. 

Daisy was thankful that the rest of the werewolves seemed to be busy, so they weren’t around the floor while Daisy moved. Once all her boxes were situated, Jemma, who had been unusually quiet all day, offered to help her unpack. 

“I think I can manage. I just need to figure out where to put everything. Thanks, though,” Daisy responded. 

Jemma just nodded. “I’ll get out of your way then. If you need me, you know where to find me.” She gestured to the ceiling. 

“Got it,” Daisy said, with a mock salute. “And…thanks. For everything this past month.”

Jemma smiled. “You’re very welcome.”

With that, she left and Daisy was alone in her new place. 

It was set up similarly to Jemma’s apartment, but was significantly more bare. Obviously, Jemma had plenty of time to decorate her place with all her accumulated things from 400 years of life. Daisy had a lot of catching up to do in that department. 

Daisy rolled up her sleeves and dove into the first box she could reach. 

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“So, are you like the alpha of the pack or something?” Daisy murmured. 

The coffee shop where Lincoln decided to meet was on the side of campus favored by the Erebus students, but they still had to be cautious. Still, he offered to meet Daisy again to answer some more of her questions and orient her a bit more, since the next full moon was coming up. 

Lincoln wrinkled his nose at the comment. “No, definitely not. I think Elena would kick my ass if I even suggested that.”

“Is Elena the alpha then?”

Lincoln chuckled. “She’d probably like that. The thing is we don’t really have alphas and omegas or whatever humans like to attribute to normal wolves. Even normal wolves don’t really follow that model in most circumstances. The pack is more of a…team, I guess. We keep an eye out for each other, work together, support each other, et cetera. If we had to hunt to survive, we’d do that together, too.”

“Huh.” Daisy took a sip of her coffee. 

“So, don’t worry. There’s really no hard and fast rules with the pack. We usually head out for runs together, but after awhile everyone sort of does their own thing. Honestly, sometimes it’s just really nice to take a nap in the woods,” Lincoln said with a chuckle. 

Daisy had to laugh at that. Part of her brain seemed to relish the idea of curling up under a tree and just relaxing. The other part of her brain thought that was crazy since her new memory foam mattress was so insanely comfortable. 

“Hello, Daisy.” A familiar voice pulled Daisy’s attention from Lincoln. 

Jemma stood beside the table where Daisy and Lincoln were sitting. She had her coffee (or, knowing Jemma, tea) in her hand already and a pair of dark sunglasses perched on her head, despite the overcast sky.

“Jemma! It’s been awhile. Grab a chair,” Daisy greeted, brightly. 

“Oh, I wouldn’t want to interrupt anything,” Jemma replied, her eyes darting between Daisy and Lincoln. 

“You aren’t. We’re just talking about wolf stuff. Right, Lincoln?” Daisy prodded. Lincoln nodded in agreement. 

“Really, it’s fine. I—I’m meeting Fitz in the lab in a bit. I just wanted to say hi,” Jemma said.

Before Daisy could say anything else, Jemma had turned and headed for the door, flipping her sunglasses over her eyes as she went. 

Daisy frowned. “That seemed weird,” she muttered.

“I get the feeling that Jemma doesn’t like me very much,” Lincoln said, sheepishly.

“Why do you think that?”

Lincoln shrugged. “Well, usually when we’re working in the lab together it’s fine. We even collaborate on our research sometimes. Lately, though, anytime I bring up you or werewolf stuff in conversation, she gets really quiet.”

“How often do you bring me up?” Daisy teased.

“Not that often. I just figured she’d want to know how your were doing with everything. You guys seem close,” Lincoln said. 

Daisy frowned again. She glanced at the door Jemma had just retreated from, wondering what that was all about. She knew Jemma was occasionally frustrated with Lincoln, but that should all be in the past now, right?

Eventually, they finished up their coffee and headed to their separate classes. 

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This time, Daisy was alone in her own apartment when the date circled in red crept up. At least she knew what to expect this time around. There was no question on whether or not the full moon would affect her this month. 

Even though the sun had set completely, it was only early evening, since winter was approaching, and Daisy was trying to finish up some homework. A knock on her door pulled Daisy away from her coding. 

When she opened it, Lincoln stood there, with a woman and a man Daisy hadn’t met behind him. He waved slightly in greeting. 

“Ready to go?” he asked. 

Daisy gulped but nodded. She grabbed a small bag with a few things she needed and followed Lincoln and these two new people (her pack mates) into the woods.

[formerprincess]

A tale written with fangs and claws || Chapter 7

Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Liam Dunbar/Theo Raeken Characters: Liam Dunbar, Theo Raeken Additional Tags: Alpha Liam Dunbar, Slow Build, Friends to Lovers, Dunbar Pack, Bisexual Liam Dunbar, Werewolf Theo Raeken, Alpha Theo Raeken Series: Part 1 of Morning Dew Pack

Maya needs to learn better ways to tame her wolf, Liam has to be an Alpha for the first time in his life and Theo gets a surprise.

“You’ve got to be kidding me!”

Theo stared at what was in front of him, hazel eyes widened in shock, and completely flabbergasted. His gaze finally wandered to Maya. “You can’t be serious!” She raised her shoulders in defense. “I said I had a place to chain me up.” “Yeah, I expected a basement, a cell, hell even a dungeon. I didn’t expect a tool shed in the garden of an elderly woman. That’s...I have no words for that. Liam! Say something!” “She’s hard of hearing, almost deaf, and she lets me rent the shed for a few bucks. I told her I’m working on a theater project so she should not pay attention to any sound. Not that she would hear something anyway! And the walls are sturdy enough so I can chain myself there and not break free.” Maya still defended herself.

Liam knelt on the ground and inspected the holders she used for her chains as well as the chains. Some had traces of dried blood on them, he guesses it was from rubbing her skin when she was tossing and squirming. The whole shed was filled with the stench of desperation, fear and pain and Liam had almost gagged when he first entered. She had said it was hell but this was worth than expected. 

Liam now got to his feet again. “You made Theo speechless, that’s an accomplishment itself.” He said and looked at her. Theo gave him a look like they were in The Office but Liam ignored him for now. “I see no claw marks here, you’re really blocking your shift completely.” Maya nodded. “Only my eyes glow. Neither my fangs nor my claws come out. I can’t risk it.”

The nineteen-year-old sighed and ran a hand through his hair. “I still have no idea how to help you overcome this fully but I’m willing to try something. We will work on it with the way our pack, the Morning Dew pack, does. I need you to be open towards it.” “Anything in order to not wish I was dead on full moons.” She agreed. “Thank you, Liam.”  “Thank me when we really managed to help you.” He said with a small smile. He didn’t want to get her hopes high and then let her down. Only from what she told him and what he saw here, Liam knew she had a long way to go. 

Stepping outside of the shed, Liam took a breath of the fresh air. This was better than being inside a tiny shed reeking of all kinds of unwanted things. “We can start right now if you want.” He offered. 

But before she could take him up on his offer, her phone ringed and she checked the text she had gotten. “I need to work. A co-worker called in sick.” She then announced and let her phone sink. “I am sorry, Liam, but we can text and meet again soon?” “Yeah, sure.” Liam agreed. She grabbed her bag and waved goodbye before turning around and leaving. Liam watched her go until Theo stepped next to him, arms crossed over his chest. “That girl has issues.” He muttered and Liam turned his head to look at him. “Perfect fit for us then, huh?” The Alpha replied and Theo shrugged. “Well, maybe. I don’t know.” “You still don’t trust her, huh?” 

 They started walking too, leaving the garden. “I still think we should be wary, yes. Maybe she’s really just somebody who needs help but this could be a trap too. She wouldn’t be the first person to lie to us and betray us.”  “I know and like I said, I’m not fully trusting her, but did you smell the air inside the shed? She’s really desperate and she’s scared of her own wolf. I’m not sure you can fake your chemo signals like that.” “Me neither but we still have to be careful. Better safe than sorry, Liam.” “I know, I know, Theo.” Liam said and waited for his friend to unlock his truck so they could drive home. “And while you say that I know exactly you will run headfirst into danger.”  Theo muttered and unlocked his truck to get inside. Liam got into the passenger seat but hesitated before closing the door. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

Theo shrugged and buckled up. “I know you.” He said cryptically and waited for Liam to follow his example and buckle up so they could drive home.  But Liam just looked at him, both eyebrows raised and with a frown. Theo sighed. “You have a good heart and if you think someone needs you, you immediately ruin to aid them, danger be damned. And it’s my job to make sure you don’t get yourself killed while doing so.” “That sounds like you’re my babysitter.” “Well...Yeah. In moments like this, I am.” “I don’t need a babysitter.” “Uh uh, I beg to differ.”

Theo glanced over and was rewarded with the look. Something Liam had mastered over the years and Theo knew he had fucked up. The look consisted of Liam raising both eyebrows, blue eyes wide, and a mixture of a frown and a very pissed of look on his face, like he wasn’t sure if he wanted to explode immediately or wait until the other person screwed up even more than they already did. It may sound like it was nothing but when you were on the receiving end of the look it was a dead giveaway trouble was coming your way. 

“Don’t look at me like that, you know I’m right.” Hah, look who was talking. Theo obviously decided, against better judgment, to continue. “I like to help people, I think that’s what everyone should do and maybe I’m a bit reckless but I don’t need a babysitter.” Liam now stated. “Then you would get yourself killed faster than you can think. I’m just doing my job to protect you. You were the one who made me your first Beta.” “I’m still the Alpha and I can handle myself.” Liam stated firmly and glared at Theo who huffed and rolled his eyes. “Of course you can. I will remind you next time you’re almost dying. And could you please buckle up now so we can drive?” Liam buckled up but he said nothing else and just stared out of the window. Theo sighed and started the engine. 

The mood between the two friends was tensed and they said nothing the whole drive. At home, Liam left the car without saying anything. He didn’t wait for Theo to catch up with him when they walked into the apartment building and was tempted to slam the door into Theo’s face but refrained from it. The only door he slammed was his bedroom door once inside the apartment. 

And then Liam stayed inside the rest of the day, only leaving to make himself something to eat and to use the bathroom, then he hid again inside his room. Theo didn’t knock to make up, Liam was too stubborn to make the first move, so the mood stayed tense the rest of the day and in the end, they both went to bed with an uneasy feeling om their chests and their stomachs in knots but they didn’t clear the air.

Liam woke up the next morning more or less at the asscrack of dawn and no matter what, he could not go back to sleep. He hated fighting with Theo, he hated not talking to his anchor. He needed Theo close to feeling calm and every fight drove him mad. But his pride and his stubbornness made it impossible to be the bigger person most times.

Liam sighed after a while and got out of bed to change into basketball tracks pants and a grey t-shirt as well as running shoes. Theo seemed to still be sleeping when Liam gathered his money, his phone and left their apartment. The early morning sun felt good on his bare arms and he inhaled while starting to jog down the street. Thoughts were running through his head and Liam quickened his pace to outrun them for a while. He knew Theo just wanted to protect him but they were both pig-headed and that’s why they clashed so often. They could see where the other was coming from, they were just too stubborn to give in. 

He had run for a while when suddenly another person caught up to him and when he glanced over Maya was jogging next to him, also dressed in running gear. “Hi.” She greeted with a soft smile and Liam could not help but return. “Hi.” She frowned while they jogged next to each other. “Your chem signals are sour. You’re irritated. Something’s wrong?” “You are really straightforward, you remind me of Malia. You two would get along.” Liam smiled weakly and then slowed down a bit to catch his breath and shrug. “It’s nothing, just an argument with Theo.” “About me?” She made it sound like a question but it was more a statement than that. Liam groaned. “Partly about you as well. But also about other things. He patronizes me a bit too much from time to time.” Maya sighed. “I am sorry. It was never my intention to make you two fight. I just wanted help and I know you don’t trust me but I’m honest. I’m sorry.”

Liam felt sorry for her and shook his head. “It’s true, we don’t fully trust you yet but that’s nothing personal. We’ve been through too much to trust people blindly. But if we wouldn’t trust you at all, we would have not accepted to help you, so you’re good. It’s not your fault Theo and I fought. It wasn’t even a real fight, more like a heated discussion, but it left us both pissed.” “My aunt and I, we are very close. I love her and she is pretty cool. I know I can tell her everything, she’s like an older sister to me, but she naturally sees some things differently than I do. It’s then when we clash and we clash because we both are important to each other. There are days she drives me so mad but I know she only manages to do that because she gets under my skin. Theo and you, you drive each other mad because you are important to each other as well. It’s one of the first things somebody notices about the two of you. I mean, he almost ripped my head off for touching you. He can be quite scary when he gets into growly chimera mood, he’s aware of that, right?” Liam laughed. “Oh yeah, he definitely is.” Maya laughed too. Liam then decided he really liked her. 

“Your aunt, does she lives around here?” “Montana. So, not really.” Maya grinned. “But I liked the environmental program Seattle had and that’s why I left for my first year. It’s strange without her but I figured I could also have a fresh start and maybe a new city would help tame my wolf.” “Hold on a second, I thought you were twenty. Now it sounds like you just started college.” “Yeah, well maybe I’m not twenty yet. I learned people take you more seriously when you make yourself a tad older. I’m almost twenty. My birthday’s in May.” “That makes you younger than me!” Liam blurted out and laughed. “You are a strange girl, Maya Duncan.” “Says the one who is known as Beta and suddenly is an Alpha. Speaking of, how did you become an Alpha? I wanted to ask since the first time I saw your eyes.”

They were walking next to each other now and Liam grinned before telling her his story. “You see, me being an Alpha is still new.” He ended. Maya looked at him in awe. “That’s one of the coolest stories on how someone became an Alpha. The Morning Dew pack sounds really awesome.” Liam bowed his head with a smile. He was proud of his pack. “Thank you so much, Maya. Hey, I have an idea. You need help to tame your wolf, so let’s start right now.”

He stepped under a tree. It was still early for too many people so there rarely was someone walking past them and those who were doing their Walk of Shames or were still too drunk to care. Maya had followed Liam but looked unsure. “What are we going to do?” Liam turned around to look at her. “From what you told me and what I smelled, you’re afraid of your wolf. Afraid of this part of you and that’s the problem. It is a part of you, you were even born with it, you can’t just block it. So we need to do the same with you as Byron did with me: Learning how to work with the wolf.” Her eyes went wide as saucers. “Oh no! The last time I let my wolf out, I broke my aunt’s arm! No, no, no, no!” “Maya.” Liam said softly but firmly. He took her hands in his. “Relax. I’m not letting you hurt anybody.” “And who stops me from hurting you? I’m not keen on having my throat ripped out by Theo because I touched you.” “Theo and I, we discuss and argue a lot but he trusts my judgment. He won’t hunt you down because you won’t hurt me either. Trust me.”

She still looked unsure but after a while, her shoulders sagged. “Okay, fine. What should I do?” “Close your eyes and just focus on listening. You like nature, so this will surely help you.” Liam watched Maya follow his instructions. It was still new to him to coach others through it but he liked the new aspect of his life. “Just focus on what you really hear, not what you think you hear. I didn’t realize those were two different things at first but it makes sense if you think about it.” Maya stayed still, obviously trying to follow with it. “I hear birds.” She mumbled after a while. “And your heartbeat. You realize your heart beats almost in the same tact as Theo’s? I heard it when we were eating and you were teasing each other. It’s oddly similar.” “I...Really?” Liam had never paid attention to it but it made him smile. Maye opened one eye and looked at him. 

“You really like him, huh?” “He’s one of my closest friends, my roommate and he is my anchor. So yes, I do.” She smirked at him and he rolled his eyes but laughed. “Focus on listening, not teasing me!”

“Yadda yadda!” Maya replied but closed her eye again and inhaled. Only to snort after a while. “I hear nothing extraordinary. What’s that supposed to teach me?” “Maya, your hear things other people don’t hear. You smell things others are not aware of. These are your wolf abilities. The wolf is always there, if you block it or not, you can't separate them! Person and wolf belong together, you need to learn to work with both and not against one of them. So try, really try, to hear all the things normal people don’t hear. Work with your wolf.” She kept her eyes closed but she tensed and Liam felt her grip on his hands tighten. “Maya, it’s okay, relax.” He said but she still gripped his hands and she started shaking. Fear was waving off her and Liam’s heart tightened.  “Maya, open your eyes!”

She pried her eyes open and gasped and then she let go of him and stumbled back, falling over her feet and landing on the ground. Liam looked at her, shocked how violent she had reacted. He had not expected her fear to be so overwhelming. It made his own wolf snarl inside, put off by her distrust in her own wolf. She glanced at him, still trembling, and Liam saw himself, five years ago, trembling and panicked on the ground, telling Scott he couldn’t be a monster. Now the roles were reserved, he was standing tall while a Beta was on the ground, desperate for help, overwhelmed, and Liam knew he would help her.  He knelt down. “It’s okay.” He muttered. “We will manage. You’ll be fine.” She was still shaking, desperate in need of consolation and he let his eyes glow. “I promise you, you’ll be fine.” It was his promise as Alpha. 

****** Liam opened the door to his apartment and stepped inside, softly closing the door behind him in case Theo was still sleeping. He was lost in his thoughts, replaying his encounter with Maya. It had taken some time before she calmed down again and then Liam had walked her to her dorm building. She went inside with thanks and a shy smile and Liam had walked back home, only stopping at the campus’ coffee shop. He really wanted to help her but this morning had shown him it was a long way ahead of them.

He met Theo in the kitchen of their shared apartment and they silently looked at each other before Liam put Theo’s favorite coffee and a white chocolate cupcake on the kitchen counter. Theo loved both things and his lips turned into a small smile. “Peace offering?” He inquired. “Peace offering.” Liam confirmed and smiled softly too. Theo searched for his eyes and then opened his arms in silent invitation. Liam rounded the kitchen counter and happily accepted the embrace by wrapping his own arms around the chimera’s waist and pressing his face against Theo’s chest. Theo hugged him back immediately, pulling Liam to his chest and putting his chin on top of the younger one’s head.

“I just want to protect you, Lee.” Theo muttered after a while and Liam hummed.  “I know you do. I’m just too stubborn to be thankful for that sometimes, Dore.” Theo chuckled and still held Liam. “Stubborn little Alpha.” “Hm, stubborn little Beta.” Liam snickered and Theo grumbled playfully. “Not little!” “Yeah, well, I’m not little either.” Liam piped in. “But I am taller than you.” Theo countered and Liam sulked for a moment. It was true. Theo was slightly taller and he could not argue with the truth. Theo, who knew damn well he had won, smirked smugly. 

“Stop that!” Liam protested. “I’m not doing anything.” Theo defended himself with a laugh. “I’m talking about you grinning so smugly.” “You don’t even see my face.” “I don’t have to. I know you, Dore” Liam replied and finally raised his head to look at his anchor. “See? The smug grin, there it is.”  Theo grinned even wider. “So what? I just like to have the last word. Should know that by now.” And he kissed Liam’s nose just to mess with him. Liam scrunched his nose like an adorable little rabbit and Theo chuckled at his antics. Then he let go of Liam in favor of grabbing the coffee Liam bought him. He took a large sip and Liam watched him while shaking his head. “You are such a coffee addict.” “I’m not addicted to coffee. We’re just in a very committed relationship.”

****** “Okay, I’m here I would have arrived sooner but the line at the coffee shop was insanely long. Anyway, I bought drinks for you, guys.” Maya held up the paper tray and then sat down across from Theo who leaned against the big oak tree in front of the library. The big tree was giving enough shadow to sit there and not get sunburn any minute. Liam laid on his back, head resting on Theo's lap, and watched his friend make grabby hands at the drink Maya offered him. “You just became Theo’s favorite person. His coffee dealer.” “Coffee is always a good idea.” Maya mumbled and sipped her own. Liam could just groan. “You too? You’re also a coffee addict?” “Shut up, puppy, since you became friends with me you drink a lot of coffee as well.” Theo threw in and Liam shrugged. “I do, yes. But I’m not as addicted to it as you are, sweetheart.” “My point still stands. I tainted you.” Liam just grinned ad bit back a comment. He sat up instead and grabbed his own coffee, taking a sip. 

“Now that you’re here, Maya, want to start?” Her face darkened slightly, almost as if she wanted to say No, but then she nodded hesitantly. Liam handed her pen and paper. “Write down everything you associate with your wolf.” Liam tasked and held out pen and paper for Theo too. The chimera gave him a puzzled look. “Why me?” “Because you have control over your wolf. I want to compare things.” “You can’t compare my wolf to yours or Maya’s. I’m a chimera, that works differently.” “Yeah, what exactly makes you a chimera? I know you are one and I know you did some bad things but redeemed yourself. That’s all I know. If you don’t mind me asking.” Maya sat cross-legged, looking at Theo.

“I was made in a laboratory. I’m not really a supernatural being. Hence why I can touch mountain ash for example.” Maya considered this. “You were made...Huh, that explains a lot. Nobody can be that attractive by nature.” Liam snorted into his coffee. “No, that’s just unfair DNA. Some people were just lucky.” Theo gave him a look and Liam raised an amused eyebrow while sipping his coffee. “What? You can’t deny you hit the DNA jackpot.”

“I...” Theo refrained from saying anything else and just sipped his coffee. Liam and Maya shared a grin and then Maya looked down on her paper and started to write some things down. She handed it over to Liam after a while and he read what she had written down. It was all negative, things like fear, anger, and pain appeared several times. He could work with that.

“Okay, get up.” He said up and got to his feet too. He had instructed her to wear workout clothes and she was wearing black yoga pants and a blue top. Liam himself was wearing a black tank top and dark red basketball shorts. “We’re going for a run. Try to keep up with me.”

He started jogging and Maya matched his pace. Theo stayed behind, he had to work later and decided to just hang out with them but not taking part in their exercise. They now jogged for a while, Liam steadily going faster. “Come on, keep up, Maya!” He challenged her and got faster again. She managed to keep up for a while and if she fell back she stayed hot on his trail but the faster he got, the more she fell back. Just like Liam had experienced with Byron, outrunning an Alpha as Beta was almost impossible, especially if the Alpha was as young as Liam.

Liam turned around and jogged backward. “Come on, Duncan, you can do better than that! I haven’t even pulled out the big guns yet and you’re already falling behind?” She groaned. “That’s unfair! You’re an Alpha!” “So? I never said you have to be faster than me but come on, you can be closer than that!” There were a few feet between them and the distance grew.

“You’re working out, right? I see your fit build. This is nothing new for you, so I know you can do better. Come on, try to get close to me!” Liam challenged the younger wolf once more. Maya groaned again but tried to jog faster and yet she didn’t even come remotely close. Liam stopped.

“You’re not even trying.” “Of course I am. Have you ever tried racing a car with just your feet? That’s what it feels like. You are faster than me, way faster. There is no use for me to even try and keep up.” “This is not a race, Maya. I just want you to try and come closer, that's all.” He explained to her when she finally stopped in front of him, hand on her hips and out of breath. “Sorry, can’t do it. That’s the best I’ve got.”

Liam tilted his head and listened to her heartbeat. It was faster thanks to running but he clearly heard the tick at her words. Her own body betrayed her. “You’re lying.” “What?” “You’re lying. You can be faster and here’s my theory: You know you can do it and yet you refuse to do it. Because being faster means using your wolf. Means tapping into what you want to deny so desperately. How often did it happen? How often did you run faster without noticing and when you did, you stopped, deadly afraid of what you did?” She frowned and wrapped her arms around herself and Liam knew he was right. “How do you heal? How long does it take?” “Depends. If I cut myself while cooking or have a bruise it hurts for two or three days but then it’s gone.” “So you slow down your healing abilities but you use them. You use your wolf and tell me, is it bad? Does it feel like losing control?” “No, but Liam, everything else does. I run and get faster, faster than normal human beings, and I like it, but when I give in I won’t stop. I won’t stop being strong and beings strong means grabbing a person’s arm, werewolf or not, and using so much strength the bones break almost in half. It means pushing someone against the kitchen counter, trapping them. Because you are so wild and untamed. It means having them look at you like you are a monster.”

She was crying at the end and Liam wrapped his arms around her. “Hey, shh.” He muttered softly and stroke through her hair. “I know how you feel, Maya, better than you might know. I felt the same once. But I managed to gain control and you can do it too.” She sniffed. “You did?” Liam nodded. “Yeah. Even before I was bitten.” He cleared his throat. “You know me as Beta with anger issues. It’s my IED, my condition. I suffer from it since I was a young boy and when my coach benched me I flipped out and trashed his car. I will never forget the look on my parent’s faces when they heard what I did. They looked at me like I was a monster, no longer their son, and when I was bitten my biggest fear was they would find out I indeed became a monster. I learned there is a difference between a werewolf and a monster but there were moments when I knew how close I got to become one. I get you, Maya. I’m learning to see my wolf as a partner rather than an enemy. Want to learn with me?” She nodded and wiped her tears away. “Thank you, Liam.” He smiled softly. “Anytime.”

When Liam looked up he saw Theo standing there, watching them. He noticed Liam’s glance and gave him a thumbs up paired with a smile. Good job, Alpha! Liam smiled back and Theo waved, indicating he was going to work now. 

****** “I hate meditation.” Liam opened his eyes. “Me too but this is not a meditation.” “Sitting here, listening to nature, inhaling and exhaling, sounds a lot like meditation to me.” Maya told him and gave him a pointed look. They were in the park near Liam’s and Theo’s apartment, sitting on the warm grass and trying to tune in with nature. Maya, so Liam learned, was way too impatient for this.

“Maya.” He sighed and fell back on the grass, looking up at the sky. She laid next to him, ankles crossed, and watched the clouds float by. “That one looks like a bird.” She said and pointed at a cloud. “And that one looks like a butterfly.” Liam pointed at another one. “Maya, seriously I know it’s hard but you need to concentrate.” “I’m trying but I have never been one to sit still for long. I’m always moving around and need something to do. I can’t sit still and just listen to whatever nature has to offer.”

Liam pondered on that. “Okay.” He said and got up. “On your feet!” “Why?” She asked but got up too nonetheless. “You don’t plan on kickboxing, right? My aunt tried that once with me and I broke my own wrist to stop my wolf from breaking through.” “That’s disturbing on so many levels. But no, no kickboxing. Just catch me.”

“What?” She stared at him as if he had lost his mind. “You’re an Alpha! We already established you’re faster than me!” “Aw, you’re scared? Think I will be too fast for you to even come close? Come on, where’s your competitiveness? Get your ass up!” “But...” Maya began but stopped when Liam’s eyes glowed red. “Try, Beta!” He demanded. And then Liam ran. 

He heard her heartbeat getting further and further away from him but suddenly she was after him, trying to keep up. Liam used his full speed this time, not giving her any real chance. He had a headstart anyway since he had surprised her but he wanted Maya to reach her limits. Theo had done the same with him, riling him up and challenging him and his wolf had broken his nose several times for that. And maybe Maya’s wolf needed the challenge too. If she reached her human limit, her wolf would push her and maybe that way wolf and person löearned to work together.

They raced through the whole park and Liam bypassed Theo. “Liam, what...” The chimera asked confused. “Don’t let her catch you!” He shouted over his shoulder and Theo turned to see Maya running after Liam. And just like always, he was insanely good at making connections so he turned around and ran after Liam. 

Theo as chimera wasn’t as fast as Liam as Alpha but he was faster than Maya who was fast but only for a human, fueled a bit by her wolf. She was further behind and after a while, Liam decided it was enough for now and stopped. He slowed down until he completely stopped, and turned around to wait for the two Betas. Theo arrived first, of course he did, but he was out of breath. “Fuck, you got faster too!” He panted and put his hands on his legs to catch his breath. Maya came a while after that. “I admit it was fun to play a game of chase but what was the use?” She inquired, more out of breath than Theo. Liam grinned. “Your eyes are glowing.” Theo looked over his shoulder. “They do.” He confirmed and straightened his back. “So what? I told you I can flash my eyes.” “When do you flash your eyes usually?” “When I have to see something in the dark. Find something in my dorm while my roommate is still sleeping.” “And again you’re using your wolf. And your wolf likes a little competition as it seems. Look, Maya, I don’t expect you to shift into a full wolf here. I want you to realize how often you use your wolf for little things. Do they hurt? Does it hurt when you heal a cut on your skin? Does it hurt when you run a little faster than a normal human?” She shook her head. “No.” “Okay. I get you are afraid of being too much, too fast, too strong, but we can work on this control. Every wolf needs to learn this. We will manage, okay? Baby steps. And maybe one day you will be faster than Theo.” “Excuse me?” Theo looked offended and Liam grinned and patted his shoulder. “Relax, you’ll always be my favorite, fastest of them all or not.” Theo glared at him and then at Maya who tried to stifle her chuckle but failed gloriously.

****** Theo and Liam had seen a lot of things in their lives. Lots of nasty, nasty things, some downright terrifying, some just disgusting. But never, and Liam was sure he spoke for both of them, had they seen something like this. It was greenish-brown, looked slimy, and the smell almost made him nauseous. 

“Please tell me you don’t really want to drink this.” Theo muttered with a disgusted look on his face. Maya stirred the green thing in her glass. “It’s kale juice, stop looking like that. It’s healthy.” She raised the glass to her lips and Liam felt Theo grabbing his hand. The young Alpha laced his fingers with Theo’s and grimaced. “I’m going to throw up.” He muttered while she gulped down whatever the heck that was. 

Maya finished her drink in one go and rolled her eyes. “It’s what I drink the week leading to the full moon. That and a few rice waffles I ate. Otherwise, I won’t be able to keep my wolf in check.” “Seriously, Maya, this can’t be healthy. Especially not for us.” Liam told her and shuddered when he looked at the empty glass. “You need to find a better way.” “Liam, I know we’re working on this but I don’t think I’m so far to change my diet plan and try to handle it if my wolf’s not weakened. So let me have this.” “Thank god you’re single. I would pity anybody who has to kiss you after that.” Theo mumbled and Liam bit back a laugh while she kicked his shin under the table. Theo hissed and kicked her back. It was almost a month since Maya sought out their help and the three of them had become good friends already. She trained with them to learn how to tap into her wolf powers without getting overwhelmed and they hang out. Liam learned she was quite the workout partner and Theo learned Maya liked classic books just like him. She also enjoyed painting and it made Liam smile when he saw Theo slip up and talk to Maya about the various styles one could use to make their drawing or painting more alive. 

Theo now raised his hand to give her the finger and noticed his fingers were still laced with Liam’s. So he let go of his drink in the other hand to give her the middle finger with that hand, not intending to break the hold. It made Liam fell all warm inside and he hastily tried to will it down. It was just a friendly gesture because together they had faced the abnormality that had been Maya’s drink. Nothing to lose sleep over. 

****** The full moon was here and they were in Maya’s shed. She had shown them how she usually chained herself up but now with two more people it went way better. Now she was chained to the wall and Liam and Theo sat on the other side of the shed, waiting. Liam was tensed, not because of the full moon, but because he smelt the fear radiating from her. Her heart was pounding in her chest and she glanced at the small window every now and then. The full moon wasn’t up yet but it wouldn’t take long and she dreaded the moment. Theo gently placed a hand on his leg, showing his silent support. Liam was grateful Theo was there with him because he didn’t know he could handle her in distress. Whatever happened to her during full moons, it must be horrible and he wasn’t sure if he could stand that. Theo had said he was used to people in pain thanks to years with the Dread Doctors and even though he cared now, he would be able to stand it better in case Liam needed to leave.

And then it happened. Maya’s breath hitched and she fell forward. Her fingers scraped over the wood floor and she panted. A whimper left her lips and she started shaking. The cloud in front of the moon disappeared and the light shone into the shed and Maya whimpered louder.  Liam saw her body spasm while it fought the shift, waves of pain rolling through her body. She whimpered and groaned and then she cried out and Liam heard the first crack. Her arm twisted in a way it wasn’t humanly possible and she yelped but continued contorting and spasming until her wrist cracked.

Liam stared at the horror scene in front of him, eyes wide and mouth open in shock.  “She’s breaking her bones to stop the shift.” Theo muttered next to him. “She’s doing what everybody does to trigger the healing but she does it to weaken herself more.” Liam glanced over and it broke his heart. Theo looked just as shocked as Liam did and there were tears in the corner of his eyes. Seeing somebody suffering like that brought not only Liam to tears.

A louder crack made his head spin around. Maya had broken her leg and whimpered in pain. She was pulling at the chains around her body, eyes pressed shut, and blood dripping from her lip where she bit down too hard. Liam felt like every movement from her sent volts of shock through his whole body and he lost track of time how long he stared at her. Her bones were slowly healing but when she twisted her other leg to break it, he could not hold still any longer.

“Liam!” Theo yelled when he shot up and sprinted across the shed to fall to his knees in front of her. “Maya! Listen to me!” You need to shift” We will work on your control but you need to shift” You hear me? Shift, Maya!” She whimpered. “No, no...” She repeated over and over again, so quiet Liam almost didn’t hear it over her pained groans and the rustling of the chains. His heart broke, he needed to help her. “Maya, shift!” It was n order but to no avail. She was still fighting it. “Shift, dammit! Shift!” 

His eyes flashed red and his fangs grew. “SHIFT!” He roared, voice booming through the shed and underlined with the typical Alpha roar he had heard from Scott and other Alpha’s several times. And the wolf in Maya responded: Her head snapped up to look at him, eyes glowing gold, and when she snarled, he could see fangs. The wolf had broken through and tugged at the chains, obviously wanting to break free. She growled and snapped, wriggling and moving and Liam slowly got to his feet. His fangs were still out and his eyes were still red and he glanced over his shoulder. Theo was right behind him, eyes gold, and together they looked down to Maya who still tried to free herself. 

After she had shifted, Maya didn’t try to break her bones again but she tried the whole night to break free. Only when the sun was slowly rising and the light was pink out there, she shifted back. “”Whoa, help me unchain her!” Liam said hastily and he and Theo worked to free her before he fell into his arms. 

“Thank you, Alpha.” She mumbled with a tired smile, drenched in sweat and still with a few broken bones but feeling better than ever. And then she fainted.

****** Liam woke up to someone shaking his shoulder and he rolled onto his back and blinked. Maya’s face looming over him became clearer after a few moments. “Oh, hey.” He said and she raised her finger to her lips and pointed next to him. He tilted his head, Theo was still sleeping. 

They had brought Maya back to their apartment after she fainted and Liam had let her have his bed while he shared Theo’s bed with his roommate. They must have slept for quite a while when she was already awake again.

“How are you feeling?” Liam whispered and sat up. She shrugged but smiled. “Like I got hit by a truck but that’s better than feeling every bone in your bone rearranging themselves again.” She played with her fingers. “You forced the wolf out.” “I saw you in so much pain, I couldn’t sit there any longer. You don't deserve this, Maya. I am sorry if I crossed a line.” “No, it’s not that. It’s... I can feel it. The wolf. Closer than before. Like back then before I hurt my aunt and made the decision to block it. I think it will hurt anytime. I am scared what will happen if I lose control. But...I want to learn the control. From you and from Theo.” Liam smiled at her. “We will work on this together. All three of us.” He promised her and she smiled at him. “Thank you, Liam.”

“That’s all very heartwarming but if you two Care Bears don’t shut up now and go back to sleep, I will kill you both.” Theo suddenly muttered and both turned their attention towards him. He was still laying on his side, face pressed into the pillow and obviously not happy about having been woken up like that. Liam chuckled.

“He’s such a grump before he had his first coffee. Don’t listen to him!” Theo struck out and the back of his hand collided with Liam’s stomach without Theo even raising his head or opening his eyes. Liam gasped. “Fucking asshole!” “You deserved it!” Theo muttered and pulled the blanket higher.

****** “Mason and Corey will get here sometime that evening. Theo has to work. Thank god I have at least somebody to keep me company.” Liam muttered and checked his phone. Maya next to him snorted and looked up from where she painted another protest sign.  “You have a way of making somebody feel very special, you know that?” “You know your level of sarcasm has reached Theo’s?” “Aw, was that a compliment or a flirt?” “Sorry, Maya, you’re not my type.” And she could not stop herself. “Yeah, your type is male, hazel eyes, build like a freaking Adonis, smug smirk and stylish gelled brunette hair. Right?”

He threw a small pillow at her and her hand shot up to cat it before it touched the wet paint on her sign. They had trained her reflexes too over the last days. Since she had shifted on the full moon, Maya was still trying to gain control and she still had a lot to learn, but things like this made it a bit easier to train every day.

Now Liam decided to change the topic altogether. “Do you know a tattoo artist?” “For our kind? I actually do. You want a tattoo or someone else?” Liam nodded. It had been on his mind since he had first seen it and now felt like a good day to make it come reality. “Think he has time tonight?” “It’s a she and I’m pretty sure she has. I can come with you if you want.”

And that’s how Liam found himself in a small tattoo parlor in the university district half an hour later. Kiki, the tattoo artist, was a small woman with sparkly green eyes and she reminded Liam of one of the fairies in a Disney movie. She was peppy and laughed the whole time, joked around and Liam instantly liked her. 

“Okay, so you know what you want to get inked?” She got down to business and Liam nodded before pulling the drawing Theo made out of his jacket pocket. Kiki surveyed it. “It's beautiful.” She said with a smile. Maya looked over her shoulder. “Who drew this?” “Theo. Don’t tell him I said that, he keeps this part of himself rather private.” “Theo made this? That’s awesome.” Maya still looked at the drawing. “What kind of symbol is this?” “Every Alpha has their own symbol next to the pack symbol. That one is ours. Theo’s and mine. I’ll tell you the meaning later, okay?” Liam answered with a smile and she nodded. Kiki was preparing anything.  “You know I have to burn it in your skin?” “Can’t say I’m ecstatic about that part but yeah I know.” Liam confirmed. 

****** Liam looked at his forearm. The skin around the tattoo had already healed from the torch and yet he could still remember the pain when the tattoo had been burned into his skin and muscles. But it had been worth it. Seeing the howling wolf in front of the moon with their pack symbol in its fur, the black and grey lines of the tattoo a great contrast to his skin, were worth it. He was not sure how Theo would react but they were about to find out. 

“Ready?” Maya asked and Liam nodded, pulling his jacket over his arm again. He wanted the surprise to be perfect and so he would hide it as long as possible. He nodded and together they entered the bar where Theo, Corey, and Mason were already waiting for them. 

Liam looked around and spotted his friend and when they made their way towards the table, Mason jumped up and hugged Liam. Liam hugged him back, despite his arm still feeling a bit sensitive but this was his best friend, dammit. Corey received the same bear hug as Mason and then Liam introduced Maya. “Guys, that’s Maya, I told you about her.” Mays waved with a smile. “Hey, guys. Nice to meet you. I heard a lot about you already. Good things, of course.”

“Of course. I know Liam so I know that this is a lie.” Mason joked and they all laughed. Theo had also laughed by suddenly his nostrils flared and he jumped so fast to his feet, Corey almost had a heart attack. “Jesus, Theo!” Theo ignored him and he stared at Liam. “What did you do? Why are you hurt?” Liam smirked. “What are you talking about?” Theo growled. “Cut the crap, I smell the faint scent of blood and fire. The fuck did you do? Can’t I leave you alone for one hour without you getting into trouble?” But Liam didn’t budge and remained silent, just grinning at him, so Theo turned to Maya. “What did he do? You were with him the whole time! What did you guys do?” She didn’t reply either and he glared at Liam again. “You either tell me right now or I will strip you right here to find out myself!” “Did Theo just threatened Liam with relieving the sexual tension?” Mason asked and gasped when Corey’s elbow collided with his ribs. The second chimera was watching the exchange between Theo and Liam more than just fascinated. 

Liam kept his cool, shrugged and slowly took off his jacket. “You seem tense. maybe should get you a drink asap so you calm down.” He teased while doing so. “I swear, Liam, Alpha or not, I’ll kick your ass if you don’t tell me right now! And stop grinning so stupidly!” Liam tilted his head, still grinning. “Theo, calm down.” He said softly but Theo didn’t answer because Liam had taken off his jacket completely and he saw the tattoo on his best friend’s arm. Everybody else on the table too and Mason and Corey gasped in unison. 

“You didn’t!” Mason gasped out, eyes sparkling. 

“Should we be worried that Theo faints? Look, he’s gone so pale.”

Liam brushed his hand against Theo’s shoulder. “Hey, you okay?”

Theo grasped his arm, not too hard to hurt Liam. “This is inked. It’s on your skin. You have it burned into your skin.” He looked down at the tattoo before looking back at Liam. “This is permanent.” He said, voice thick with feelings. 

Liam chuckled. “I told you I wanted it on my skin. Our symbol, Dore.”

Theo swallowed and Liam knew him well enough to know his friend was fighting tears. Theo rarely cried but this was a moment he did. And then he threw his arms around Liam and pulled him into the tightest bear hug Liam ever received in his life. The young Alpha laughed and wrapped his arms around Theo too and for several moments the friends just hugged each other closely. Liam heard Theo swallowed dryly again and then the chimera hid his face in Liam’s neck, still fighting the tears.  It was an even better reaction than Liam imagined and he rubbed over Theo’s back. 

“Thank you for drawing this, Dore.”

Theo laughed. “Thank you for getting it inked.” He wiped his eyes and then finally let go of Liam so they could sit down when the waitress brought their drinks. Mason raised his glass. “To Liam’s new tattoo!”

They all raised their glasses and Liam smiled. “And to you visiting us. And to Maya being the first female member of the puppy pack!”

The all laughed and clinked their glasses together. Liam felt Theo wrapping one arm around his shoulder and pulling him close to press a kiss on his cheek, making Liam laugh. Right now he was absolutely happy. 

Yes, Liam has a look!^^ Maya has still a long way to go but she has her boys, her pack, they will manage it together. Thoughts on her? Oh and what do you say to Liam's surprise for Theo? :D

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birth chart reading for @sunfiowershrooms

hello! welcome to your reading. I’m gonna give you a quick overview of what I’m going to analyze about your natal chart. feel free to ask me anything if something isn’t clear, of course. you’ll find out your dominants’ influence on your persona, your physical appearance, impression on others and the way you approach the world; your ego, identity, the real you; your reactions, your desires, inner emotions; your way of expressing your feelings, your mind and ideas; your desires and approach to love; your energy tank, instincts and temperament; in-depth analysis of each house with their rulers and analysis of heavy aspects; love life + soulmates/karmic partners interpretation; your relationship with your friends; your family life; your approach to career and work in general + possible jobs suggestion; your style, fashion sense analysis; life purpose and past life description; basic transits’ analysis to describe your current mood and, last but not least, your secret skills, how to make the most out of your soul and manifest what you desire based on your birth chart.

🦋 chart shape, dominants

your chart is a splay shape, meaning that your planets are located randomly in different groups in your chart. people with this type of chart are usually very talented at different things. they can focus their attention on different matters, from family, to work, to love. everything is important for you, and you try to live your life to the fullest. you may be particularly talented at things that require action, it doesn’t matter whether it’s physical or mental. you may be very good at sports, dancing… or maybe you’re good at leading, you could easily be the boss on your work place. since you’re interested in so many things, you could easily be skilled at all of them to be honest. my advice would be to pick the hobby that is most important for you and care about it more than the others. that’s because people with this chart usually tend to do so many things that they may lack precision. it’s better to give all of yourself to what’s important for you.

your dominant planets are venus, jupiter and mercury. you are a very creative person, you may have an eye for aesthetics and you may enjoy the finer things in life, you probably enjoy shopping and following trends. you're also very smart, and you could be quite philosophical as well.

your dominant sign is libra. you're overall a peaceful person, you try to avoid conflicts if possible, even though sometimes you could have a sharp tongue. you're a romantic person, maybe too much. you hold unrealistic expectations of people, hence you often get disappointed when things don't turn out the way you thought. you're able to see both sides of an argument, and that's both good and bad. in fact, you're very objective, and most probably your opinions are right; yet, it may be annoying for people that are venting to you, as you could constantly point out their mistakes, even though you don't do it out of malice.

your dominant element is air. in your life, you adore seeking knowledge of any kind. you may be interested in studying different subjects, from those you study at school like science, maths, literature etc. to more unconventional ones, such as astrology, psychology, criminology and so on. you enjoy interacting with people; even if you’re not that sociable, you’ll still be interested in their point of view and their ideals, as you see it as a way to expand your own mind. you’re also interested in vintage, and you may have a retro aesthetic or just like history in general.

🌎 ascendant in sagittarius, 20° / 3rd decan ruled by jupiter and the sun

you see the world as an adventure. I feel like you typically don’t relate to sagittarius ascendant stereotypes; sag risings are usually very happy-go-lucky, they smile often, but pluto being conjunct to it may change things a bit. you’re more of a loner, you’re not as extroverted as other sagittariuses. you may relate more to scorpio rising, actually. ironically, you often look sad or angry. you have a knack for philosophy, and your favourite is most probably ‘you only live once’. you tame dying before making the amount of experiences you want to have in your life, hence you could even be impulsive sometimes. you’re the type to always be up to crack a joke or anything that can make you and others smile, yet when someone gets against you, it’s over for them. you have quite of a sharp tongue, you’re pretty blunt and straight-forward. in fact, you may often get in troubles due to your impulsiveness, which may be misunderstood. you have an incredible charm to you; it’s not like taurus’ or libra’s, those are more related to physical traits. sagittarius people, on the other hand, are surely very talented at something; maybe, at school you were one of the best students, and everyone recognized it and appreciated you for that; people understand your potential, and you may often receive compliments for your skills. basically, your personality is charismatic. due to pluto being conjunct the ascendant, I feel like you may even struggle too much with pessimism during your first years, but in case you are, you shouldn’t be. jupiter is also your dominant planet, and it’s willing to give you the best of luck if you respect its themes. hence, you need to have faith in the universe and be optimistic. try to look more at the positive sides in life and even in people. physically, sagittarius is all about abundance, hence you may have trouble losing weight. you could have big bones, or at least something bigger on your body that doesn’t make you look like a victoria’s secret’s model. you’re more on the thick side, in fact you probably have a pear/hourglass body shape, with wider hips and/or thick thighs and lower body in general. you could also have wide shoulders, and something big and memorable on your face as well. maybe you have a very distinctive nose, or perhaps your eyes are almond-shaped. your forehead and lips could be pretty wide as well. I’ve also noticed that sagittarius peers have a very lively sparkle in their eyes, even though they may be very dark. it’s like having two/three tiny diamonds at the centre of each of your eyes. last but not least, you may have sharp cheekbones and very dark features, such as dark hair or eyes.

sagittarius ascendant opposite gemini saturn: you may be shy and have self-esteem issues, especially during your early years. because of that, you may often appear as insecure to others, or even unreliable. you have a strong desire to be with someone and commit to them, you despise supertificial bonds, but at the same time you may find yourself being too shy to approach others, especially during your early years. this may apply more to the younger you, actually. you don't feel much comfortable around other people, and others can sense that; your insecurity is exposed to the world, and some may take advantage of that to hurt your feelings. you're afraid of being judged, whether it's for your appearance, or maybe because of your ideals or interests. hence, you end up becoming reserved. this is something that will be solved through growth and time; the older you get, the easier you'll be on yourself. also, thanks to this aspect, you're a responsible person with defined values. to cope with this placement, I'd suggest you to do what makes you feel the best. there are different ways to boost your self-esteem, so maybe you can work on that and then start expressing yourself freely; if you do it without the fear of being judged, you will shine even more.

sagittarius ascendant conjunct sagittarius pluto: this aspect enhances your scorpio rising even more. scorpio, combined with your scorpio sun and pisces moon, makes you look a little bit naive. people may try to take advantage of you, and to defend yourself you tend to become bossy. you’re really competitive, and feel the constant need to prove others’ wrong, even though it’s not the best way to do it. in your life, you could encounter lots of enemies that may try to stop you from transforming yourself. or maybe, your grandfather is an authoritative figure in your life and in your family’s in general, and his influence has a big impact on your life. also, something I’ve noticed about pluto conjunct ascendant individuals is that they may feel unhappy when they’re young. as time goes by, they transform and become as they want, which makes them feel more satisfied with themselves.

🌞 sun in scorpio, 3° / 1st decan ruled by pluto

you're quite of a loner, you prefer spending time alone rather than with others. you're extremely intuitive, and you can read people like a book; they can't lie or keep secrets from you, you'll surely find out. you're pretty charismatic, and paired with your wise intellect it's hard not to agree with your ideas, especially considering that your moon is in pisces. you're basically a leader, a very demanding one. you have high standards regarding everything: clothes, food, goals, people... you're always striving for the best, you don't want to settle down. on the other hand, even though it may take you a while to find someone worth of your affection, once that someone shows up you'll stay with them forever. you're deeply loyal, and also caring in your own way. that's because you value feelings, you can easily smell when someone isn't trustworthy. you're probably very protective of your friends and loved ones in general, sometimes even too much. this could even escalate and become a more serious issue, as scorpio is also the planet of obsession, after all. it's common for you to feel your emotions x2, as they're too intense to handle. you know everything about others, but you don't show off and gossip about it. actually, you keep the info for yourself and use it when you need it.

scorpio sun square capricorn mars: you’re extremely passionate about the things you love, you strive to be perfect at them, and your perfectionist, capricorn nature confirms this. this could make you quite competitive, as your capricorn mars wants to succeed and be always right. I feel like you don’t really enjoy being in the spotlight; you’d rather avoid conflicts, or at least not be the center of them. yet, sometimes it’s hard for you not be aggressive. I don’t think it happens often, but you can be very blunt and rude if someone truly gets on your nerves. this, paired up with your scorpio energy, makes you sort of dramatic. as long as you don’t react like this too often, I don’t think it’s a big issue though.

🌙 moon in pisces, 0° / 1st decan ruled by neptune

hands down my favourite moon sign! you're extremely empathetic and sensitive, you care a lot about others and you treat others' problems as if they were yours, you get totally immersed in them. you have quite a vivid imagination, you're able to idealize and picture anything you want. while this placement gives you an incredible amount of creativity, it can also make you uncomfortable. in fact, you may actually find yourself imagining every detail of every situation, even the worst ones. let's suppose you hear of a rape at the news; you literally start imagining the scene detail by detail, and it makes you extremely uncomfortable. actually, it literally ruins your mood, as it's as if you actually lived that scene. going back to the creativity matter, you have the soul of an artist; you have very enhanced emotions, and you're able to express them through artistic outlets. you could be amazing at writing poetry, books, art, music... also, your particular empathy of human's intellect can also make you an amazing psychologist or actress, as you're able to understand others' feelings and make them your own. you're extremely spiritual, and if you don't feel like that, you just have yet to have your spiritual awakening. you may be able to talk to spirits, for example, or perhaps you have very meaningful dreams. or maybe, you could literally predict the future through them. you're also most probably an avid daydreamer, you tend to get distracted easily because you're too busy thinking about random scenarios in your head. seriously, you could even make a movie out of them. you're also an hopeless romantic, and you dream of finding not just your spouse, but your literal soulmate. to make it simple, you want all of your daydreams to become reality.

🗣 mercury in libra, 15° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and uranus

you're very diplomatic! you always try to be nice and gentle with your words, you don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. your tone of voice is extremely soft, sometimes it could even be hard to understand what you say, as you could naturally have a low voice. you're extremely balanced, you have amazing problem-solving skills as you're able to see both side of an argument. it's natural for you to understand what's right and what isn't, and most of the times you're actually right. when you're with someone you're not really close to, you could even be the accommodating type who allows others to speak over your voice, or maybe you let others speak first as a gesture of kindness. I feel like with your jupiter dominance you have very strong opinions, and you're actually particularly proud of them. luckily, this placement makes you able to communicate them with diplomacy. you could often get angry if someone tries to prove you wrong, but aside from that, you try to be very elegant and formal when you speak. you're probably not fond of cursing, or at least you try to appear as mannered as possible with people you're not comfortable around. last but not least, you're such a charismatic, smooth talker that you result very persuasive. you're able to trick people with your words, which appear very diplomatic and calm.

libra mercury conjunct libra venus: this placement confirms your struggles to open yourself to the world. you’re insecure that your thoughts and ideas may be judged negatively by others, hence you just bottle them up with your feelings. this aspect is mostly positive, though! you’re probably a good singer, or at least you have a very calm tone of voice that is pleasant to hear. you’re able to see both sides of an argument, hence you may be good at helping people making up. you could actually be suited for psychology! you may also earn money through your voice and thoughts, so you could be a writer, a journalist, an actress, a singer etc. this placement assures that you may be sociable, or at least that you have great social skills.

libra mercury square cancer jupiter: this placement emphasizes your intellect. your mind is so broad that you can come up with different theories and philosphies, making you a sort of genius. you're probably good at memorizing things, and you could even have a photographic memory. yet, with this aspect, you may have troubles being consistent with your ideas. you may overestimate your needs and thoughts; for example, you may promise yourself to get all As in maths, then you get tired and bored and you end up getting Cs. same goes for your handwriting, for example: you may start writing in the best way possible, then you get lazy and end up writing in a sloppy way just to take notes. you also overthink a lot, and that causes you self-esteem issues. on the other hand, you're very open-minded and objective, as you look at the big picture. you'd do very well as a journalist, for example, or perhaps also as a judge of any kind. you may also be naturally skilled at foreign languages, you can mimic accents pretty well. you're probably also very poetic and / or wise, you're like a teacher for your friends.

❤️ venus in libra, 13° / 2nd decan ruled by venus and uranus

love this placement! you're very romantic: you're not looking for a partner, you're looking for a whole disney prince. you do care about looks when choosing a lover, but not necessarily a conventionally beautiful person. they have to appear perfect to your eyes, and this usually depends on the way they treat you. in fact, you despise vulgar, rude people. people that act like that immediately become unattractive to you. you're also very picky, exactly because you're looking for the perfect lover. you're probably the type to cry at movies. you're also quite of a cliche; you're into roses, romantic dinners, sunsets... anything romantic that you hear about in fairytales. the problem with this placement is that you may overestimate the people you frequent, ending up having different expectations from reality.

libra venus square cancer jupiter: you come off as a very positive, happy-go-lucky person. you're extremely friendly, and this makes you be good at social relationships. you may have lots of friends, or at least you have the potential to make many if you opened up and talked to them. yet, while this energy gives you positive vibes, some people may take advantage of that, as you could easily be mistaken for naive. people can try to dominate you unconsciously (sometimes even on purpose) not only in relationships but even in friendships. aside from that, I don't think this placement causes you many problems. you may have the tendency to procrastinate and not work. you could be quite lazy and get easily distracted, as you're constantly with your head in the cloud. yet, thanks to your capricorn energy, you still manage to find some motivation to do your work.

☄️ mars in capricorn, 29° / 3rd decan ruled by saturn and mercury

you can get scary when you want, especially with your impulsive jupiter dominance. you're a serious competitor, as your mind is very strategic. your ambition makes you want to be the best wherever you are, and you may actually overwork yourself to achieve your goals. establishing your status is important for you. you may not be the type to act instantly, you prefer taking your time to follow a plan. in fact, you probably write down what you have to do in an agenda, or even in your phone's notes app. you have this strong sense of duty, as you feel 100% responsible of your fate. you're sure that, if you don't work hard, you don't deserve success and recognition. in fact, you don't take orders from others, you are your own boss. you could have materialistic tendencies, as wealth is what motivates you the most to work or just take action in general. you may often experience burnouts, as capricorn, especially in mars, brings intense workaholic tendencies.

🏡 houses

your 1st house is in sagittarius. your relationship with your image could be quite complicated; chiron here points out that you’re quite insecure about the way you look. you may struggle with your self-image often, and you may even have a physical scar somewhere on your body or face. pluto conjunct the first house also gives you a very bold, strong presence, and hence you may be even intimidating. yet, you’re also extremely magnetic and charismatic, maybe even sexy. I assume that you struggle to fully embrace your potential, though. especially during your early years, you had a fluctuating self-esteem. you used to find yourself weird and ugly, you didn’t love yourself. luckily, if you work hard on your mentality you'll start being way more optimistic, and as a result you'll be more confident in yourself as well.

your 2nd house is in capricorn, with also neptune, mars, the moon and uranus sitting in this house together. your relationship with money may not be totally stable; you may get distracted easily, and you could lose your money around. you could be quite messy, overall, or in general, this is usually a placement that indicates sudden money loss. this placement also confirms that your self-esteem isn’t stable either; you could be quite insecure, and you may idealize a lot the way you look. for example, you could think that you have an ugly nose when it’s actually the opposite. same goes for your belongings; you may think that you have saved loads of money, you spend them, and then you realize you didn’t really have much. regarding your self-esteem, your imagination and your creativity could surely make you feel better. you may have an artistic hobby, such as acting, drawing, etc. that could earn you compliments and praise, and hence it increases your sense of worth. you could also increase your self-esteem by taking pictures or videos of yourself, for instance. you love challenging your mind, but you're kind of lazy. you'd rather stimulate yourself through your hobbies and interests rather than using school / work, which are quite stressful for you. you need to find something material and concrete to motivate you and make you assertive. you could study just because you need a good grade, or maybe work just to get paid. you don't really do it with interest, as you care more about nurturing your passions than responsibilities. you're not really into conflicts; you'd rather be peaceful with everyone, as you find it a waste time to argue with someone. you're very peaceful, you try to avoid conflicts when you can. this placement makes you crave stability, whether it's financial, in love etc. you must be very stubborn, as taurus is a fixed sign. this placement, paired with your imaginative water energy, makes you settle on making your ideas concrete, and it's very beneficial. it makes you capable of achieving any goals in your life. you're also very artsy, and you may fancy particular art styles. you have a good eye for aesthetics, and you care a lot about the looks of your house, body, clothes etc. you have excellent concentration, and that is another thing that helps you achieve your goals and make your ideas concrete.

your 3rd house is in the sign of pisces. when it comes to speech, you’re most likely more introspective. you may not be much talkative, and most of the time you keep your ideas and thoughts to yourself, but actually it's hard for you to hide them. you may be secretive, but you're easy to read. you learn the best when you’re close to creativity or imagination, you’re very intuitive and hence it's easier for you to learn new topics. while you're very empathetic and you're able to properly convey your thoughts and feelings in your speech, you may also come off as sensitive or even insecure. you may have a quiet voice, and hence you could come off as shy. since neptune, the ruler of this house, is in the 2nd house, I assume that the best way to deal with this issue is gaining more self-esteem. you may be introverted due to your insecurity, and hence dealing with it will be crucial for you to solve this karmic lesson.

your 4th house is in aries. while outside you may appear as very polite, when you feel comfortable you actually become way more fiery. you’re very impulsive in your home environment, you could have actually been some sort of warrior. maybe you used to argue a lot with your parents, perhaps because they were too overprotective. it wasn’t totally peaceful, there were a few events that made you hold a grudge, maybe even subconsciously. it might be regarding a family member, or even a childhood mate. during your childhood, you weren’t much sad, though. it could be that your home environment was a bit intense at times, or maybe one of your parents is absent, emotionally or physically, but it was nothing too serious, as your mars isn't bad aspected at all.

your 5th house is in taurus. you are a very creative, artistic person. you’re able to relax by watching netflix, eating, writing, painting… anything that can be done at home. you’re not the type to hang out too often or party all night, you’re more of a homebody. you could also love sleeping in, just being able to stay in bed all day wearing comfy clothes is a vacation for you. you probably had to grow up sooner than others kids, you seemed much more serious and mature than them. but remember, while this placement gives you a strong sense of duty, it’s also important to nurture your creativity, especially since your placements indicate that you have a very strong imagination. in fact, I see you earning money thanks to your big dreams, you could surely be successful in a creative or artistic career. you could work behind the scenes, you could be a graphic designer, a photographer, a videomaker, a screenwriter, or you may even be a celebrity of any kind. you could also work in the beauty field, such as a mua, a hairdresser or as a stylist.

your 6th house is in gemini, with also saturn placed in this house. in your daily routine, especially at work, you have to communicate a lot. you come in contact with lots of people, or maybe you write stuff like blogs or books. generally, you have a very hectic schedule, as you have different hobbies and appointments that you can’t abandon. your ideal career has to include something that allows you to express your personal taste, ideas and interests. in this way, it won’t feel too heavy to you, and you’ll find pleasure in working. you probably thrive from being efficient not just at work, but also in your daily routine; you probably like having a schedule, a routine of any kind (like a diet or a skincare routine for example). with saturn here you could also be quite delicate , you may get sick easily and you could suffer from anxiety and any kind of throat/breathing disease. you may also have problems with your arms and hands.

your 7th house is in gemini, with also your jupiter sitting there. in a partner, you seek someone intelligent that is able to keep up with your rhythm. you don’t have time to nurture someone, you want them to fully understand you. in fact, you may be more attracted to older partners, as they’re supposed to be more mature. I don’t see many issues arising in your marriage life, it will probably be very peaceful, but it may take you a while to find someone you like. you’re a picky person when it comes to love, you want someone hard-working and responsible with a big brain, yet they should also be quite outgoing and funny. you need mental stimulation, someone that is a constant adventure for you and that is worth exploring. you may meet your future spouse at work, according to your chart. otherwise, you could meet them in a bank, in a restaurant, at a concert, at the mall… also, they could help you gaining more confidence in yourself. there's also a high chance that they're going to be foreign, you may meet abroad or perhaps they're going to travel to your country. you may be a people pleaser but you're overall a very romantic individual.

your 8th house is in cancer. you are a very private individual, you have trust issues and you only share your concerns with people you're sure you can trust. you tend to preserve yourself, even though it’s hard for you to repress your emotions, as they’re too to intense to bottle them up. you absorb people’s feelings like a sponge, there’s no way that you won’t instantly understand their real emotions. overall, you tend to overreact a lot; you have cancer's sensitive energy on one side and 8th house’s mysterious, almost scary vibe. dealing with these emotional burnouts may be stressing to you, as you totally get caught up in them. even if it looks like you get to know other people often, you actually don’t let others know you. you’re the type of person to talk and socialize, especially after your saturn return, but you never reveal your deepest fears and thoughts to strangers. you only open up to people you’re sure you can trust. when you’re angry, you can literally go as far as using violence; you need to let out your emotions by screaming, swearing… anything that can make you feel better. when you don’t get rid of all your negative vibes when angry, you may tend to get physically sick; you could get stomachaches, or maybe even headaches. there’s a secret, sensitive side in you that needs passionate and romantic partners in love. yet, you can’t help but feel more attracted to the ones that may hurt you badly. you’re possibly quite sensitive to entities too, like ghosts, spirits...

your 9th house is in virgo. you have a practical approach to philosophy and your thoughts in general. that is, you’re able to grasp a lot of information that makes you think more on your identity. you’re interested in psychology, and that explains why you decided to get your chart read after all. you were a perfectionist at school, and you probably had amazing grades. you are very justice-driven, you like learning new stuff and being the #1 at pretty much everything you care about. yet, you could be quite bossy at times, as you could come off as a bit too arrogant but you're just very dedicated. the ruler of the 9th house is in the 10th house: you could attract people in your life that are foreign, or perhaps open-minded people that are able to speak more than one language or are bicultural. this placement also indicates that you'll most likely get to work abroad, or perhaps you'll come in contact with people from all over the world, therefore you may have to speak another language or deal with new cultures.

your 10th house is in libra, with also your sun, mercury and venus. you have an eye for aesthetics, and you want to have a reputation for looking classy and mannered. basically a lady, but that knows how to stand up for himself. in your ideal career you need something that makes you express your need for beauty, possibly even justice. you may have a passion for poetry and literature in general, or maybe you could be particularly skilled at fashion. you have a natural talent to match colours with undertones, body shapes, vibes etc., and you could make this particular ability of yours a job. you’re also a charismatic, strong-willed speaker, hence you could also do well as a lawyer, a politician, an activist etc. your ideal career involves arts and aesthetics. you could become an artist, a writer, a poet, an actress, an interior designer, a stylist… this type of things. also, your career and indipendence are most likely to boost your self-esteem. in addition, you may also be able to get very well-paid, you could even be in the spotlight or famous.

your 11th house is in scorpio. you are extremely picky with your friends. you have a few trust issues, probably caused by your karmic issues again, that make you secretive around your friends. you may close yourself in your shell, or maybe you actually know a lot of people, yet you only consider a few of them your friends. most of the time, you may also befriend people that try to take advantage of you. or perhaps, since there’s a possibility that you understand that, you could be the one who leads the group and acts quite bossy. this is something that gets naturally better with time; actually, your friends will be of great help for you to grow up. you may have big dreams for your future, yet you may feel intimidated as they’re very intense, and hence hard to make come true. you need to pay your karmic debts in order to finally feel comfortable with others and have the motivation to achieve your long-term goals.

your 12th house is in sagittarius, with also pluto sitting in this house. you’re particularly interested in religion and higher beliefs, hence meditation would be effective for you. yet, you need to get enough sleep, or you could not be able to fully embrace the spirituality of this placement. you may also be able to have prophetic dreams, or at least they have a strong moral beyond them. venus in this house indicates that you may daydream about the perfect romance. you have strong ideals, you're a very fair person and you expect a lot from people, but you may sometimes be let down from others because of these high standards of yours. you most probably prefer being alone in your free time. you may be introverted, and hence you're surely not the type to attend parties or clubs. you may also have spiritual hobbies, such as yoga, meditation, astrology, tarots, religion, etc.

❤️ love life, soulmates

in love, you attract sagittarius, taurus, virgo, gemini and leo placements. your future spouse will most probably have virgo and leo placements, hence they’ll be very smart, patient and confident, but also very intelligent and a bit selfish. it may be love at first sight, and you may find them very attractive. you could meet them at work or most certainly abroad, there are many indicators in your chart of a foreign spouse. perhaps you could meet them during a vacation, or maybe in any kind of context where you need to speak another language. they may also be your soulmate, and you may dream of them often. your children are most likely going to have taurus placements, therefore they'll be very creative and affectionate, even though quite stubborn and materialistic.

👶🏻 family life

your mother is a very fiery, impulsive person, with a short-temper. she could have even been quite violent with you during your childhood, and she might have a few childish behaviours. deep down, she’s actually kind of insecure with her role as a mother. she may have aries, libra, scorpio or pisces placements in her chart. your father, on the other hand, is more submissive. he’s a peaceful person, even though he most probably has a passive-aggressive behaviour. you could actually have a better relationship with him rather than with your mother, or at least he understands your needs better. he may have libra, leo, virgo, gemini, aries or taurus placements in his chart. if you have siblings, they most probably have aries, pisces, cancer or aquarius placements in their chart. you may have an amazing relationship with them, you may understand each other very deeply and your bond could be quite emotional, even though you may argue from time to time.

📊 career

you could do well at a variety of jobs to be honest! with your gemini in the 6th house you could actually work in different fields before sticking to one career, hence you’re pretty experienced. I certainly see you being successful in your career, you will most likely work alone and you'll most likely be a boss. you're very hard-working, so I can see you having your own business for example. otherwise, you may also do well in an aesthetic field, or even more practical jobs like lawyer, judge, possibly also a therapist or psychologist. and again, you may work abroad, so maybe as a translator, as a teacher etc. you would also make a great singer, actress, writer, model, photographer... you'll basically get to communicate something in an artistic, creative way.

👚 fashion sense, style analysis

you’re very traditional about your clothes, maybe even basic. you’re the type to have lots of essential clothes in your wardrobe, e.g a white shirt, white t-shirt, jeans etc. you love wearing sophisticated, elegant fits. for example, you may be fond of wide leg jeans, or maybe flare trousers, boatneck sweaters, tiny jewellery… things like that, that are always a must have. you may fancy pastel colors, or even neutral shades like black, white, grey, beige etc. you’re also the type to follow fashion trends.

👁 past life, life purpose

in your past life, the focus was on yourself. maybe, you had troubles with self-esteem and identity in general. you had to work hard and finally understand who you were to fulfill your past life purpose. hence, this lifetime your focus will be on the bonds you create with others. even though at first you might feel almost scared to the idea of marriage, especially having mars in the 7th house, this lifetime you're here to develop this matter. after all, you may despise love for your troubled past. with your north node in the 7th house, you're naturally lucky in love. there's nothing to be afraid of, you only need to take small steps and open your heart to someone, putting your worries and insecurities aside.

🤔 major transits analysis / june 21st

last year was probably very rough for you. at least, you’re finally discovering the truth about who you are; you’re finally learning how to love yourself for who you are, without having to change. by the next year, you should be able to feel much more comfortable and confident. even though you may still face some hardships, don’t give up. you’ll come out of it as a stronger person. also, transit uranus in your 4th house is currently opposing your sun in the 10th house. there may be unfortunate and unpredictable events in your family environment, or maybe even regarding your physical house or privacy so beware of that.

🧿 manifest what you want, secret skills

with your water placements, you probably have a 6th sense. you’re able to manifest what you want if you subconsciously predict it, even though it may be hard. you’d have to get in touch with your higher self to do so, and hence I would suggest you to light up some candles and meditate for a bit before manifesting, in this way it will be way more effective. you may manifest something while daydreaming, for example. or perhaps, you can also try listening to your own affirmations while you sleep, as you won’t be consciously aware of that. it’s probably the most effective way.

and this is it! thank you again for booking a reading, hope it resonated with you :)