#both are kinda just the 'ideal me' but with negatives/drawbacks bc thats how people work

[deadradiostar]

ok. ok. in my head i have located at least two overarching "personality types" that come into play when im creating self-inserts. sometimes they intermingle/mix but it depends on the setting which tends to domineer the character's overall personality. heres the notes on both.

type 1: so basically, im baby

really quiet and nervous for no discernable reason (usually anxiety or trauma)

really nice to anyone who doesnt knowledgeably want to cause harm to anyone

tries to educate rather than berate or argue

avoids conflict like the plague

easily manipulated

lonely all the time but afraid to draw attention to themself

scared of adults/teachers/authority figures/others’ parents and family

the “cute” kind of sad where they get emotional super easily

puts their needs last but in a really quiet way, rarely verbalizes discomfort

kind of self-deprecating but in a low-key way

making them mad is actually kind of scary, they threaten to actively kill or hurt others who hurt people they care about

friends/friendly with one or more main character

when applicable, more visibly autistic (stimming, infodumping, etc.) or mentions things in passing more often and is often shy about it

shy about sharing interests for fear of infodumping and/or boring others by repeating info they may already know or have heard (alternatively: afraid of talking too much and being annoying)

has a lot of trouble asking for help

struggles to take control in conversation

freaks out over mistakes, no matter how small

has breakdowns/meltdowns and blames themselves for everything bad because they think they “deserve” the blame

tends to bottle everything up under a false “okay” cover until it gets too much and they kind of explode (NOT a good combo when they have powers!)

type 2: fuck you, im goblin

also quiet, but more in a pissed off sort of way?

“don’t talk to me” sort of attitude

gets hostile at the drop of a hat and will not hesitate to argue

incredibly violent, usually depicted with a weapon or something similar

has a hard time articulating emotions through anything other than frustration and outright anger

doesnt really give a shit about authority, but is lowkey terrified of them

absolutely scared shitless of their family/parents/home life

has a very strong sense of right and wrong/set of morals

will literally kill an abuser, if not already having done so. usually not their abuser but anyone else’s is fair game

not easy to manipulate, can recognize and stand their ground against most manipulation tactics

sad, but in a way that they dont show it, because being visibly sad is vulnerability, and they dont like being vulnerable

“friendly”, but only toward certain people; tends to shut out people more often than they let them in

puts their needs last very visibly and will offer up their lives in perilous situations, “because it’s what i can give”

gets angry easily and is very vocal about it

when applicable, they arent open about disability; they think it makes them stupid/worthless/vulnerable and tend to hide it so they feel safer.