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[authenticallyemmie]

Excited to preview the @universalstandard x @daniebb3 collection, which includes this AMAZING shirt dress. Design, quality, and fit - this dress really has it all. Head to my link in bio for more photos and thoughts about the ⠀ #Tria4US collection. ⠀ ⠀ #UniversalStandard #NowYouCan #usxdb ⠀ ⠀ 📸 by @bluegrassbebe ⠀ http://emmie.me/2zVRRaj

[authenticallyemmie]

Anyone else in the routine of go-go-go without taking a moment for reflection? 👋🏼⠀ . This year has been a whirlwind. Quite turbulent, but in the end quite spectacular.⠀ . I'm scheduling some reflection time this weekend to try to process and be thankful for this year. If I don't schedule the time, it won't happen! If you're reading this or have taken the time out to like a post at sometime during the year, you'll be part of my gratitude session.⠀ .⠀ Dress is @melissamccarthyseven7, boots are old from @lanebryant. Photo by @bluegrassbebe, who proved to me that I can actually make a facial expression that isn't super smiley or mega resting bitch face 🤣 . What were you most thankful for in 2017? http://emmie.me/2ltlFBv

[authenticallyemmie]

You usually see me smiling, but the truth is that some days it's hard to smile. Some days, it feels like all the joy has been sucked out of me (Voldemort-style) and this leads to frustration because I logically know that I have much to be happy about. So much good has happened in the past year.⠀ .⠀ But, depression is an asshole and it sometimes creeps in. I've dealt with it since I was in my early teens, trying different medications and talking to therapists. I have had access to treatment and generally have managed it well for years. Most days are good days!⠀ .⠀ In addition to depression, there's also a layer of perfectionist tendencies that tend to show up. When they do, they produce a layer of anxiety that sits all nice and cozy on top of that depression like a suffocating blanket.⠀ .⠀ I was going through some exercises with regards to planning my business goals next year, and part of that involves reflection about this year. Yesterday, I was so weighed down by the first exercise: "List 10 cool + awesome things about yourself."⠀ .⠀ I came up with 3 things, and then put my pen down in frustration. I couldn't think of anything else. ⠀ .⠀ I could think of things I *could* have done or *should* have done, or things that would make me more awesome. But I couldn't acknowledge more than 3 nice things about me in that moment.⠀ .⠀ Then, I got mad at myself. Why can't I just be happy? Be satisfied? Sit in my joy? Not feel like I'm being braggy by saying good things about myself? I KNOW there are good things! Logically, I KNOW! But for whatever reason, I couldn't recognize them. This is part of how depression is for me.⠀ .⠀ Today is better. My mood has improved, and I feel like I can talk about this experience and try to learn from it. Today was a good day.⠀ .⠀ Smiles can be deceiving, especially on social media. So if you have bad days, or sometimes can't see the good because you want to be even better, you're not alone. 💗⠀ .⠀ Photo by @bluegrassbebe, wearing dress that was less than $25 from @amazonfashion. Link to it in bio. ⠀ http://emmie.me/2isyC0U

[authenticallyemmie]

So many comments about these shoes in yesterday's post!! They're embroidered block pumps from @eloquii - use code FRIENDS to get them for 50% off 😍⠀ Link in my bio. They're also available in navy velvet and emerald velvet. #xoq 📷 by @bluegrassbebe http://emmie.me/2yBQoBQ