#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk

[apollo-zero-one]

Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....

[sitaaronkepaar]

  Daily Rikara Ramblings

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKKKKK!!! NO KC CONTINUATION!!??? WHAT IN THE FUCKING FUCK!!*flips several tables*

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What? you thought i was kidding? grow up.🙄🙄🙄🙄

But why the fuck would you end Rikara on a cliffhanger and not show what happens next??! Just ….I don’t even know what to say except what the fuck. God, I hate this stupid disappointing show. Unlike Gauri, it doesn’t deserve the benefit of the doubt. I can’t believe I keep defending this shit time and again, and yet, it keeps disappointing me every.single.time. I’m a fucking idiot is2g. 😡😡😡😡

I guess I should just be glad Gauri got a new suit that’s 😡not a tent? Fuck this show. Ugh. (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

Lol @ these Kaali t-shirt wale. 😂😂😂😂😂

Hain? Richa ki shaadi Gauri k ghar se kyu ho rahi hai? Doesn’t she have her own home?🤔🤔🤔🤔

Lol @this extra as fuck fucker. Har jagah tadi se entry maarta hai, chahe phir apna ghar ho, ya kisi aur ka 😂 😂😂😂😂😂

Kunal’s looking kinda cute as a Sardaar😍😍😍

Hahaha BadassRi 💝💝💝💝

Awww Omkara ka khoon khaul uth raha hai.😏😏😏

Ugh, this kali t-shirt wala dude is so creepy. 😓😓😓

“o ji ek mint, gal karne do na”

Dilpreet, your Omkara is showing 😂😂😂😂😂

Wtf is Gauri’s mom though? Kisi se bhi paise bhi le legi?😐😐😐

Oh god, this Singh is king shit is annoying but funny lmaoo.  😂😂😂😂😂

Hahaha, Gauri Omkara ki class ke rahi hai. Lmaoo 😂😂😂

God, Omkara is such a bad liar, lmao. He’s gonna get caught soon 😂

Gauri’s face!!! 😂😂😂😂😂 She’s like yeh kaun mental piece hai??? 😂?

Awwww, shit! Gauri shut him down. Is bichare ko ek din me hi mehnat karni pad rahi hai. Aur kitne din chalayega yeh jhooth? He’s going to lose it in a week! Ab pata chala Gauri jo kitni mehnat karni padi to fool you?! Maybe now he’ll appreciate Chulbul more. Imao.

Omg imagine Rikara bonding over their Chulbul-Dilpreet lies and discussing how easy hard it was to fool each other 😂😂😂😂

Awww Richa bringing in the big guns aka Shankarji. Gauri be like shankarji ne last time jisko bheja tha uski wajah se hi toh life itni jhand ho gayi hai.

My god, rudra is such a fucking asshole. Go die in a ditch you sicko.😡😡😡

No, bhavya, don’t control yourself. Kick his ass.（╯°□°）╯︵( .o.) （╯°□°）╯︵( .o.)  （╯°□°）╯︵( .o.)

God, he’s giving me so much michmichi, I might reach into my laptop and strangle him myself. GO DIE YOU FUCKERRRRR!!!  😡🔫🔫🔫🔫

I’m ffwding. I can’t watch queen’s humiliation. 😭

Moving on to Omkara, who for once is not being an utter abomination.

“Kal ki tarah sofe pe so sakte hai?”

GAURI WTF!!! WHY WOULD YOU ALLOW AN UTTER STRANGER TO SPEND A NIGHT AT YOUR HOME??!! HE COULD BE A RAPIST OR A KILLER FOR GODSSAKE. OMG QUEENIE, I DID NOT EXPECT THIS DUMBFUCKERY FROM YOU!! 😧😧😧😧😧

Matlab maana queenie acche acchon ko pachad deti hai, but this is a bit much. What about basic common sense, Gauri?😒😒

Omkara’s like wtf? Bathroom bahar hai and paani 2 hi ghante aata hai? Wtfffff. WHAT ABOUT MY BEAUTY ROUTINE GAURI? THESE BEAUTIFUL LOCKS DON’T TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES ON THEIR OWN!! MEHNAT KARNI PADTI HAI. I NEED AT LEAST 1 HOUR TO CONDITION MY HAIR. LIFE AIN’T FAIR, IT IS NOT! 😭😭😭😭😭

Gauri’s so serious lmaooo. She’s not giving him an inch. baahahhahhahahhahahah. Keep trying you fucker!!😂😂😂😂

Hahaha, she shot him down. Ofc tumhe yaad nahi karna chahti asshole.🙄 🙄🙄

Ugh, no his teary eyes kill me 😭😭😭

Fucker singh oberoi is back. Imma skip.🙄🙄🙄

Omg he took bribe in mithai ka dabba. She gon figure it out?😟😟😟

I thought Bhavya was just suspended? She’s actual me fired kya?

“Niche dekho.”

OH.NO.YOU.DIDN’T. GOD SOMEONE HOLD ME BACK IMMA KILL THIS FUCKER. DIE BITCH DIE!  ̿'̿’\̵͇̿̿\з=( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)=ε/̵͇̿̿/‘̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿   ̿ ̿̿'̿’\̵͇̿̿\з=( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)=ε/̵͇̿̿/'̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿   ̿  ̿'̿’\̵͇̿̿\з=( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)=ε/̵͇̿̿/'̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿    ̿'̿’\̵͇̿̿\з=( ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)=ε/̵͇̿̿/'̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿ ̿

HAHAHA, Yes BHAVYA TELL HIM OFF. ISKI NAUKRI KO KYA, ISKO HI LAAT MAAR DE.

I HATE RUDRA SO MUCH, YOU GUYS. HE’S EVEN WORSE THAN VOLDEMORT.😡😡😡😡

Voldemort never saw any love in his life, he was so fucked up, but Rudra doesn’t even have that excuse. He was raised by two loving brothers and his daadi. Spoilt brat is one thing, but this utter inhumane behaviour is something else. Gosh, He has no excuse to act like this. I’m raging so hard rn. 😡😡😡😡😡

Ugh, Thank God, Omkara is here. Imma stare at his beautiful face and try to calm down. 😅😅😅😅

“paani do ghante, macchar 24 ghante”

Lmaooo. Aur papad bel asshole.😂😂😂😂

Omg lol. I thought, Gauri said itna zyada khana, and her mom was like jo ghar me tha woh bana diya. Lmaoooo.

I was like wtf, mana ki guest hai but ek bande pe sara ration pani khatam karne ki zaroorat nahi hai Maa. 😂😂😂😂

You know what, I’m act😘ually loving this ott hasmukh dilpreet. Can he stay forever?😘😘

“humne aap se sorry kyunki KAL aapne humein gundon se bachaya”

But he just did that today? Like a couple of hours ago? Gosh, omkara k break up ne Gauri ko aisa sadma diya hai that she’s forgotten the concept of time.😰😰😰

For real though, what is this garbage writing? Ek toh koi continuation nahi hai upar se itne bade bloopers? Who okays this shit?🙄

Lol, stupidass hotstar started buffering at the wrong moment and OMG Omkara looks like such a cutie patootie!! No wonder I always want to kiss his stupid face 😭😭😭

“Ek nahi hazaar wajah hai Gauri, main saari zindagi tumhe sorry bolta rahun toh bhi kam padega”

At least he realizes the magnitude of his mistake. Chalo, I hate you a little less now. But you better make up to my queen in a spectacular way you ass. She deserves the sun, the moon, the stars, EVERYTHING. 💕💕💕

But I love how dismissive Gauri is of him lmao. Kuch zyada hi bhav deti thi usey, tabhi he took you for granted. Super sardarji ko ab pata chalega what it’s like to be a normal peasant dealing with the Queen. 😎😎😎

“oh ji waada hai, dulhan hum le jayenge”

GOD, I STILL CAN’T GET OVER THE FACT THAT HE’S ACCEPTED THIS MARRIAGE. I’M LITERALLY PUKING RAINBOWS RN!!!😭😭😭

Like I low-key want Rikara remarriage in this track. I know hoga nahi, but god, this is more than enough.😊😊😊

Ugh, aagaya ye asshole to ruin my feels. I can literally feel my blood boiling whenever he’s on my screen.😤😤😤😤

My gawd, he looks creepy af. I need him to stop smirking or so help me god, he’ll be going home without a limb or two.🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️

Man, this guy has crossed all limits. All cause he can’t take no for an answer. Matlab problem kya hai iski? First, he insulted her, then he got drunk at her wedding and slut-shamed her, then he got her fired, and now he’s trapped her with him? Like this is legit how acid attackers are born? Just tell me what’s the difference? They attack physically, and he’s attacking her psychologically, making her life hell. How on earth does Gul think it’s good storytelling? This is a character assassination of the worst sort. Rudra literally went from an adorable, albeit unintentionally misogynistic idiot, to something sinister. Redemption toh I know will never happen, but I don’t even want to know how or why Bhayva will forgive him for this. This ship has sunk before it could even set sail. R.I.P RuVya.⚰️⚰️⚰️⚰️

“In short meri ghulam banke raho”

BHAVYA, GO MURDER HIM IN HIS SLEEP. I WILL HELP YOU. CUT THIS BITCH!!!  🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️ 🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️ 🗡️🗡️🗡️🗡️

I’m just glad Bhavya ain’t backing down. Attitude hi sahi, give something back to him *while we plan how to kill him in his sleep, hush*

“Ye awaz kaisi?”

Beeeech, yeh dhuan kaisa? Ghar pe aag lag gayi hai kaa?😥😥😥

Lmao. Jaldi bandh omkara. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Yeah Gauri, gooo. There’s a fire @ur home.😥😥😥

Omg, I’m so here for Omkara silently observing, nay, nihaaring Gauri 😭😭 😭 😭

I love how he literally has a physical reaction whenever she gets hurt.

“woh kahan kuch bolti hai, bas chup chaap sehti rehti hai sab kuch. Pata hai aaj tak maine sirf khuddari ka bare me suna tha toh mujhe  laga maine khuddari dekhi hain, main khuddari jaanta hu, lekin nahi, asli khuddari main aaj dekh raha hu”

Ughhhh yessss. Finally, you’re learning what a beautiful selfless soul your wife is 😭😭 😭 😭

Lol @Shivaay giving gyan to Omkara. Don’t throw away your notes Shivaay, same lecture Abhi rudy ko bhi dena hai.

“Wahi toh baat hain na Shivaay, mujhe abhi sirf uska dil nahi jeetna hain. Usey itni khushiyan deni hai, itni khushiyan, jiski woh haqdaar hai. Aaj tak maine sirf, sirf usey aasun hi diye hai lekin ab, ab main uski zindagi mein khushiyan hi khushiyan bharna chahta hun ”

OH MY GOD. BE STILL MY BEATING HEART.

WHAT? I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING. THERE’S A BRANCH, NAY, THERE’S AN ENTIRE TREE IN MY EYE. *sobs internally, externally, everything-ly* 😭😭 😭😭 😭 😭 😭😭 😭 😭

Lol, Kalyani Mills bakwas. Who the fuck cares.

Wow, Richa k sasural wale shakal se hi evil dikh rahe hai. 

Lmao Gauri doing her bezaati 😂😂

Okay, why is she judging Gauri’s ghar? Like she isn’t even Richa’s relative? She’s just her friend. 🤔🤔🤔

God, this showoff, I can’t. She’s pissing me off so much. 😡😡😡😡😡

Richa ki shaadi Gauri k ghar se kyu hone wali hai though? Idgi. 🤔🤔🤔

Ugh, maan na maan main tera mehman.🙄🙄

God, she better not ask for dowry.😡😡😡

Omg she is  😡😡😡😡😡

Wtfffff 😡😡😡😡😡

THIS BITCHHHH 😡😡😡😡😡

Sare relatives k liye saree and gehne and kapde and 1kg ladoo. dafuq you think this is bitchhhhh? Shaadi tere bete ki hai ya tere saare relatives ki hai? My god this bhukkhad aurat. Koi jail bhejo isey. 😡😡😡😡😡

Yes, Gauri, why are you listening to this bitch? Call the police and send her ass to jail. 😡😡

I hope Gauri actually has a plan and isn’t just bowing down to society’s pressures.  

OMG, what if in typical bollywood fashion the baraat goes home on the wedding day and Rikara get married on the madap instead? Too much? han mujhe bhi laga.😂😂😂😂

[4evereclare]

Scattered thoughts on Degrassi Next Class Season 4

Is anyone even active in the DTC these days? 

It’s been a while for me so I thought I’d share my general thoughts from this current season.

Episode 1: Esme is a jerk. Wasn't a fan before, still not a fan now. She did have a point about the art project though. I wasn't following why her painting was more inappropriate than Zig's. But she trashed Saad and deliberately turned Zig's anger toward him for absolutely no reason. What a snake. Love the friendship btween Lola and Yael. Overall the episode was a gentle ease-in to the season, I guess.

Episode 2: Saad is really growing on me. The subtleties of the actor's delivery really draw me in and make me root for him. As far as Esme, Frankie, Shay...man it never ceases to amaze how many dumbass decisions these Degrassi kids make. Haha at least Shay came to her senses early. And how about our girl Lola - at this point she's the smartest chick in her group. Who saw that one coming?! I'm so glad she dropped the dumb girl act. She's badass now.

Episode 3: Lmao Miles got into Queens University for business and he's gone to like 4 classes throughout his high school career. Guess he'll be valedictorian a la Fiona Coyne? On a side note, Eric Osborne continues to be amazing - if you'd told me in season 13 that he would become one of the best actors on the show, I would've raised my eyebrows at you. But omg he is brilliant. My heart broke when he stepped back in English class on the abuse question. Also I already love that English teacher (Mr. Mitchell?). Goldi is so freaking hilarious. Her and Winston's friendship is adorable.

Episode 4: I love Goldi's prom theme! Am I the only one who wants to try those cool dessert dishes she and Winston were trying? The rest of the plot is so heavy because it's so relatable these days..

Episode 5: This episode is so insightful regarding the whole islamophobia issue, but I can't shake the feeling that there are a lot of missed nuances. I guess this is a valiant effort though. Saad's online communication with that possibly radical dude is a really good touch. Feels scary.

Episode 6: Craig Manning appearance?!  OMFGGGGG I died the entire scene. Olivia has the voice of a fucking angel and I can't deal. I love how you could see Jake Epstein viscerally reacting to her performance. Also, all the songs they write for Maya are gorgeous. Literally the opposite of the nails-on-a-chalkboard memory of the Jenna Middleton repertoire. Jess Tyler is great but I could never stand any of the Jenna songs. Yael's new look is way better than that Velma Dinkley-looking style she was rocking before tbh. She looks adorable now. But honestly she can"t expect Hunter to just immediately hop on board. It is what it is, and he's allowed to have a confused reaction, I think.

Episode 7: Esme truly is an asshole. She reminds me of an ex-friend of mine. Just because you're damaged doesn't give you the right to be manipulative and toxic ALL. The. Fucking. Time. I love Shay and Tiny but I actually thought they would keep Shay a virgin through grad. I have no problem with most of the characters having sex but she just seemed like one who would wait until college. Oh well.

Episode 8: Lol Hunter, you're prejudging someone for being dangerous when you almost shot up the damn school? (OT: but damn Spencer, you’re hot AF) Can Baaz go one episode without pissing me off when he opens his mouth? He's such a gnat. Tiny's promposal was so fun! I love that Lola and Frankie were part of it, but wasn't Jonah dancing alongside Frankie kind of odd??? They're not exactly on good terms. Triles is breaking my heart. I can see Tris is trying to do what he thinks is best for Miles. But fuckkkkk STOPPP. Their chemistry is still off the charts.

Episode 9: I know we're supposed to feel bad for Esme but I really don't. I have never felt one smidgen of understanding. The writers have vaguely told us she has a messed up past but all they've mostly shown us is how manipulative and selfish she is. Idgaf how messed up your past is, you don't get a free pass for being toxic. I feel like she triggers me in a way because of toxic friends from my past. Nice closure with Miles and his dad. And the sweet moment with him and Tris in Tristan’s room made me tear up. I have mixed feelings about Yael narc-ing on Saad. They didn't really show the extent of the texts with the radical dude so I'm not clear on how far they went to incriminating him. Lmao someone bring Esme some fake tears. Her eyes are always dry like the desert even when she's supposedly bawling.

Episode 10:

Lmao is Grace high? The way she laughs about how Zoe Rivas turned out to be Maya's cyberbully...ummmmm...? Haha not actually hilarious? But wow - reminds me how Zoe was such a bitch before. Grace and Maya are so cute together though. Also, Zoe's mom sending her birth certificate and passport and not showing up is so cold. But I always knew she was trash. She never came off as a sincere caring parent, more like a bitchy stage mom. I am sort of glad they ended Zoe’s story this way. Some of us don’t get a happily ever after with our shitty parents, so it’s good that they showed this as a scenario.

It was weird that  Yael was in charge of herding the graduates. Degrassi does some of the most nonsensical shit. And once again they hold grad the morning after prom. Does any school ever do this? It's been a while since I graduated but it all seems strange to me.

Also, do schools announce what university each graduate is attending? Isn't that shaming to people who aren't going to uni? And what the fuck is an honorary high school diploma? Did Tris graduate or are they just putting him through?

That montage at the end was perfect and made me bawl. I cannot believe the niners from season 11 are done! 😭

(I hate to say it but it sort of feels like my ties to the show are gone now. I’ll still watch though.)

[my-stupid-ass-ideas]

In Poland we have something like prom called Studiówka (it literally means 100 days, before final exam). We are like 19-20 years old. We have tradition to like go with an opposite gender to dance POLONEZ - the most important thing during prom. I was in photography school so there was like only 20% male students. However, in my class was like 25 women and 4 men. All of them not available for me. And every girl has like boyfriends or male friends who will dance with them. I didn’t.

Meanwhile, with my friend, we were waiting for an amazing film to go to the cinema, but we both were broke. And we also like to bet. So we come up with the idea of something stupid. If I will ask a guy for a prom, she would pay for the tickets.If I don’t, I would pay. My stupid bravery or my reasonable reputation. Once again, I was out of money, but the film première was coming soon.

SO after a while half of my class know about the bet. I was out of time and feeling pressure.But to be honest, I  was sure he would say NO, so we bet again, over his answer (we bet over food at the cinema). If he would say yes, I really would pay like 4 times more for his place there. So I really needed him to say no.

OKAY FINAL ASKING DAY.

I went to him, he was with his friends like 20 meters away from me, my bad decisions, and like 7 of my friends who were giggling making me even more nervous.

After I walk like 5 meters I saw his face, my panic button in my brain was ON. I turned back and came back to my friends red. Then I thought, if I was going to make bad decisions, then let’s make them really fucking epic.

So I went to him on a break, I recognise his back. I was alone, he wasn’t. He stood with 3 other people who looked at my face when I was going to him (and my free cinema in my head). They knew that I was going towards them, they saw my eyes looking at them in horror, but also in a panic smile. They saw that something unexpected would happen, I also knew, HE didn’t, yet.

But it was too late.

They stopped talking, waiting for my move. He was wearing his typical hipster dark green plaid shirt that was too loose and unbuttoned. His left hand was bent, the material in his elbow wrapped around his thin arm close to his skin, a skin that seemed not to be aware of his blood pressure jump in a couple of seconds.

My hand was getting closer to his elbow. I felt his warmth radiating from a distance. I had the impression that when I touch him I will burn my soft fingertips. His skin heat.

And then I felt him.

On my fingers.

PART TWO

I touched his elbow gently, and carefully like when dipping your fingertip to check if the steaming water in the bathtub isn’t too hot. It took me one little second, but I felt his soft and delicate flannel shirt blocking the heat of his body. When I pulled my hand away very slowly shocked by my actions something came to me.

It wasn’t his head, it was mine.

My hand skin, it steamed from the heat, my fingers trembled, I was on fire with adrenaline.

He froze, he didn’t expect it. My remnant of dignity, didn’t too. Then he turned his head in my direction. His eyes were the first to see me. At the height of my eyes. His clean, pale gray eyes stared at me. He was too close. And then I melted inside.

I pushed back a few centimeters and said:

“HelLoOo”

“Fuck, that was lame” I thought, smiling like an idiot with panic in my eyes. “You fucked up the first impression, congratulations”.

He didn’t know what was going on, but his eyes smiled at the sight of my panic and red face. I looked at his lower part of his face. In his left hand he was holding an apple into which he had just stuck his teeth. He didn’t breathe from shock. Unfortunately, I don’t either.

When he bit off a piece of a red juicy apple, a sweet juice dripped from one side of his beautiful neat and hipster beard.

“Hey can I have a question can we talk?“ I said in one breath, pointing to an empty space in the corridor. He murmured “Mhm” smiling and having still a fucking piece of apple in his hipster mouth.

While barely swallowing saliva, he wiped the sweet juice off his chin with his other hand, averting his eyes from my eyes. And then he gave me a quick look straight in the eyes as if he was shooting at them. His whole face was probably redder than mine. But I still couldn’t stand it, this pressure, those eyes, so I turned stiff and went to the place I indicated.

He followed me. I felt his eyesight on my neck penetrating me from bottom to top.I also felt the eyes of his friends, other people who saw it and my teacher who was leaving the room. As an introvert who has a problem with public speaking, I fucking congratulated myself in my thoughts. Every step I took i was watched and judged and commented behind my back and he followed me completely. With a wide smile I hit the panic of every inch of my body.

I turned and clung to the wall. He stopped and managed to do the same. His face was as red as an apple, he had already partly figured out a piece of hipster apple in his hipster face. But he has not swallowed yet. He slowly chews on afraid to make some fast move uncertainly, not knowing what will happen next. He was literally afraid, but his eyes were smiling.

“Quick question do you want to dance with me a polonaise yes/no" I said again in one breath. closely watching his reactions. He stopped chewing and look away, ashamed thinking. I waited a few seconds for his dislike. He chewed on the unfortunate apple and swallowed with relief. He raised his eyes and looked me in the eyes clean.

“Yes/no”, I said, wanting a quick response, so I could run to class.

"I’ll think about it and let you know later.” He said proudly with his eyes and mouth smiled.

“wHaT?” - I said, shocked, I did not expect that reaction. -“Wait, what?”

“I will write to you, okay?“ he asked not knowing my intentions.

“Mhm” I mumbled and ran to class.

Well, fuck.

PART 3.

“MAJAMAJAMAJAMAJAMAJAMAJAMAJAMA” I screamed to my best friend Maja and run to her. People in my class stopped talking. She just stared still at me with her beautiful big hazel eyes.

I didn’t answer, her eyes started to smile and she said:

“Are you serious?” I give her death stare still not answering.

“Did you do that?” - Her face smiled more and I started to smile with her.

“DID YOU DO THAT” She cannot stand it.

“YES, I DID OH MY GOD MAJA WHAT HAVE I DONE I’M SO EVIL AND STUPID” - I finally screamed with my hands on my head laughing.

Rest of his class come up intrigued and asked “ What” ’‘REALY?” "You serious???” "You are insane”

“YES” I smile and answered them, “I am serious”

“And also insane” I thought.

“And also I’m not the one paying for tickets” I laughed and smiled to Maja. She wasn’t angry or sad because she lost the bet. There was a true joy and pride on her face, and she was proud of my courage, or stupidity.

Probably both.

And I was proud of myself too.

Until one stupid girl said 'Prove it’

“Fuck” “How???”

And I answered ” lol sure"

Part 4.

“If he agrees he will be a complete idiot"

“Thanks, mum” I said, but to be honest I agreed with her.

Two weeks ago we had a final list and I signed up as a person without a couple, and it was already too late to change that. Also, I would need to pay for him, and like talk with him for whole night, which was absurd for my introvert, shy ass (Yes, I get the irony here).

And I really didn’t know him. Why he wouldn’t say 'No’ like a normal human being? What if he was an alcoholic?

I decided to write him (Yes, I found him weeks ago on Facebook, like a normal stalking woman, don’t judge me, like you have never done it before) next day saying, I change my mind.

Yes. That was a plan. And then I go to bed. And sleep, like I didn’t just ruin my reputation of being a reasonable human being.

Nice. Anna. Nice.

Part 5.

I came to school. There were people. "Well, nothing new, ” I thought. But I had this strange feeling that people were talking behind my back. “Well, another 5 months and I will never see them again” I wanted to comfort myself.

Did not work.

My panic mode was on and I run to the women’s bathroom. I looked in the mirror, seeing great depression coming out of my face, but covered with a panic smile. Nice.

I hear a door movement. A girl who was standing next to this boy yesterday was coming out of the cabin. She stood next to me, washing hands for eternity. She was beautiful, and I was like a shit.

Oh god, I won’t survive that day.

I went to class to talk to my girls and we all agreed that they will help me write a message to him, on the next break. because they saw that I am not good with people.

I was nervous. I left the room in the crowd. And then I saw socks.

HIS socks.

He stood in front of me blocking my way.

“FUUUUUUUUUUCK” I screamed in my head. Panic mode was on.

“Hi” I said extremely nice and calmly, even for me. Then I looked up and saw his beautiful eyes smiling at me.

“Fuckkkkk” I screamed in my head again.

“Can we talk?” he said quietly and pointed to the empty wall. He was nervous too, cute and all red.

And also kind, I notice that moment he had really kind and friendly face. But mostly adorable. Yes. Blushing and adorable. He was so uncomfortable I wanted to hug him and say "You don’t have to be nice to me, I’m the bitch who did it for the money, pretty naive hipster boy” But he was so adorable and smiling and shy so I just shut up my inside truth telling bitch.

I was just standing there trying not to look at his adorable face when I notice MY FUCKIN GROUP AND HIS FUCKING GROUP JUST RANDOMLY SITTING ANS STANDING LIKE *WAITIN FOR THE SHOW*

They never sit there.

NO ONE ever sits there.

I looked at their faces while my panic was rising.

I didn’t even listen to his excuse why he couldn’t come with me. I just remembered that he said his girlfriend would not agree (he didn’t have a girlfriend, I checked). But he was really nice to me. He was really trying to not hurt my feelings.

I just looked at all those faces staring at me, my friends pissing with laughter, his friends, my teachers with whom I was supposed to have lessons today. I wanted him to finish his speech, which I did not listen to anyway, I just wanted to be somewhere else, had it off my mind. My enemies, my friends were all there looking at my face. And I was just smiling with regret in my eyes.

If someone shot me at that moment, I would thank him.

When it was done, I came to sit next to my best friend, who just prepared to sit for me. She said nothing, I said nothing. I was just fucking tired.

And then the one girl said: “well, we had our proof”

And laughed at me.

Bitch.

But I was happy that it was over.

Summary:

Maja paid for tickets.

You may be thinking why him? Well, We choose him because he was a hipster with funny socks and beard.

After what I did many girls did the same, but they succeed.

It was a life time experience and do you think I regret it?

-HELL, NO!