#ben & shi: dove-feather'd raven; wolvish-ravening lamb

[kylo-wrecked]

@itmeanspeace sent:// 

💀 (for Modern!Ben after they’ve reunited)

{ from this meme / accepting } 

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Fate didn't seem to mean for them to know each other beyond swollen mid-summer gardens and 'fairy lights' and the drapes they wore like cloaks and huddles under mahogany friezes in grand Hudson estates owned by the shadowy figures among his mother's friends. These intimate but brief encounters came to ghosts.

The necklace Ben gave Shiloh. When? Ben hardly remembers now. He recollects the musty childhood logic to go through Dad…

Yes, it's for a girl. Han laughed; tell me which when you're ready. 

Ben never told him it was for Shiloh. He was never ready. 

Coincidentally, he can't recall the abutting details surrounding the necklace. Was Chanukah around the same time as Christmas that year? Where along the river had they found themselves that season? Was Reagan there? For a time, he'd memorized Shiloh's smile, the back of her neck cold like the snow. Back when it snowed, and the snow was profound. 

In truth, Ben never knew Shiloh outside the parameters of the fool's paradise he'd made, and he was no Pygmalion. Ben himself was something sculpted and prayed into being by the regency. Empty. 

It's by chance they collide in Hell's Kitchen like two automotive bodies needing hard love. Chance beckons and it opens its utility coat, showing them the shiny things within reach. Ben's shiny thing is to know if the back of Shiloh's neck is cold, her hair on his face, his nose in her hair. What she’s thinking, and where she may go. (Where she'll be going; he'd felt her heart made up on the matter like the erratic pump of his own organ. 💀💀💀💀💀)

What things he'd know. What terrible things he'd know if Shiloh gave him even half a chance more.

[kylo-wrecked]

🖤 (Modern!verse. Dealer's choice on time/place!)

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attractiveness:

repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.

personality:

grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim/extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.

how likely they would have sex with them:

not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / I’m asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / (yes? yes) / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.

level of friendship:

never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend.

first impression of them (past):

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them / just the teeniest-eeniest crush from the littlest guy in town

current impression of them (present):

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them / where have they been?

From childhood crush to Please don't bite me.