#belated holiday pain for y'all

[fatexbound]

@thedetectiveofinaba​​ asked: "...Hanamura-kun. Do you think that what I said exactly one year ago is still causing the IT members to think that I'm... not stable?" Naoto usually wasn't too concerned on her temperament, but the specific day of the year reminded her of the few times she'd let the people she trusted at that time see how she could be without a filter on her temperament.

It still scared her to think she'd sounded so vile and extreme. Both the Fortune and Magician had been on the side of vengeance, but it still was a regret on her to let things get to that point to begin with.

(December 3rd moods ft. Yosuke, reply w/ your own pace!)

Unprompted | Always accepting

“What?” That query took him by surprise, making him stop his homework instantly. It was that time of the year again. December 3rd, the worst month of all of his life. The one who was most affected by this was Yu, of course, but he and Naoto... said and almost did some horrible things to an innocent person. Namatame may have kidnapped everyone under the pretense of ‘saving’ them, however, the reality was the complete opposite.

They could’ve died if it weren’t for their Persona powers who defeated their Shadows.

Based on the clues they had during the time of Nanako’s kidnapping, they were positive that he was the true culprit, and so Yosuke suggested that Yu throw him into the TV as the capital punishment for his crimes. Naoto called him pathetic and told him not to beg for his life. And yet... he was wrong. Both of them were wrong.

He couldn’t get over that. He was sick to his stomach thinking about it now. “I...” He sighed, “Look, what you said was pretty messed up. It was unlike you to be so... cruel. But that doesn’t make you unstable.” He looked at her in the eyes to make his message clear. “I mean, if anything, he... deserved to be punished somehow, right? But what I blurted out was even worse... and I apologized later, but... why did we both say those things? It wasn’t a nightmare... it was real, and I feel so horrible, even now.”

[baglady924]

I hope everybody had a nice fourth of July. Whether you celebrate Independence Day or not, I hope that Thursday, July 4, was a good day. Mine was...ehhhhh...s'alright. Like every other national holiday, I played a rousing game of "Fireworks or Firearms". (Remind me to tell y'all about the time that actually happened on 4th of July, when we were unable to distinguish the sound of the fireworks from the sounds of our neighbors getting shot.)

Also, Happy Belated Juneteenth! I love Juneteenth festivals but I haven't gone to one in years. Maybe if they held one indoors with air conditioning...and it wasn't too crowded...and I had someone to go with...

Something else I haven't done in a while is, unfortunately, go to work. I've been out for about a week. Mostly because of anxiety attacks, but also due to painful menstrual cramps. I've also had a few panic attack- things this week. I say it like that because my doctor now thinks that my panic attacks may actually be seizures...

I KNOW, RIGHT?! All of this time...

But now that that idea is in my head, it's got me second-guessing everything. I've been looking up symptoms, treatments, and personal stories from other people with seizures. Honestly, I'm not sure which I would rather have. From what I could tell from my research on Dr. Google, seizures are treatable. It's something tangible that the doctors can see. There also seems to be less of a stigma around it. You get hooked up to some machine and a doctor can provide proof of the diagnosis. People seem to more sympathic to that than to someone who says that they feel to depressed or anxious to get out of bed.

Do people call you lazy when you're having a seizure?