#because that shit's been eroding her from within for the longest time

[koorinohebi]

I feel like… from Bond 0 - Bond 2, it's them always at each other's throats. Like, in an "I'll kill you" "Go ahead, make my day" kind of relationship. With them mocking each other CONSTANTLY. Not gonna lie. I feel like Kiomi's been stabbed once or twice because she really does constantly mock him.

Bond 3 - Bond 4 is where they kind of have a steadier master x servant relationship. With Kiomi trusting Izo with more things, and Izo having little problems about following her command. Like, this is the time where when he thinks Kiomi's gonna use a command spell to make him retreat, she just reinforces him so he can make his kill. She also notices how good he is with the sword, and technically praises him for a good kill. She picks him for missions because he's efficient to bring along. She also asks his opinion on stuff he wants to do and what he doesn't, battle plans, etc. Like me and Gore were talking about a long while ago, I feel like this would throw him off because he's so used to being excluded from this. I mean, Kiomi is not going to take "do whatever you want" for an answer because the whole operation is riding on every decision she makes. And if she's bringing servants, she's getting their input no matter how useful, crude, stupid, or outright impossible it is. She'll make it work. She also calls him Saber because he seems to like it. And really, by doing that... she acknowledges him as a proper swordsman who is at par with other swordsmen, and not just a killer.

Bond 5 and above is the normal on this blog. Kiomi, with feelings. Aaaaaah of course, some things dont change. Where battle is concerned, they're always butting heads. Just because Izo has one stubborn master that INSISTS on fighting in the frontlines or fighting battles on her own terms. I think this is where they're actually pretty similar. Playing through Yamatai, he has the tendency to go off on his own to do his own thing which eventually benefits the team. He's not the type to do intricate strategies, so he goes with his gut. In Ryouma's Close Call. He also did something similar where he went over to Takechi's group... without any real explanation. I don't wanna accept the "because Takechi is there" reasoning because well, we've seen just how indignant he is about the people who betrayed him. (Subverted with Ryouma, because we all know how deeply he cares about this guy.) Going back. Kiomi also has the tendency to not tell her team things and go off on her own; making decisions which she hopes will benefit everyone in the long run... because she is also influenced by gut feeling. Like in my scenario for Close Call... she switches sides to investigate the Kinnoutou before going back to Chaldea when Takechi and the rest joins them. She also doesn't let Shinbei die, because servant. Lol, kidding. Mostly it's because she wants to use him before letting him have closure with Takechi. (In this regard, she and Takechi are the same xD) She can't. If there was a way to save Takasugi, she would too.

That's why she usually teams up with Nagayoshi during fights. Battlewise, she and Mori are on the same wavelength. After all, she's the master who literally has a collection of heads that Mori's brought her.

Anyway, one of my favorite things is... when Takechi puts a wedge in Kiomi and Izo's bond. Which actually happens at a level 5 and above. I love all the angst complexity it puts in their relationship as master and servant, as well as whatever feelings they are fostering at that point.

As my Takechi (Ruler) is corrupted by Amanojaku...

His resentments during his life, up until his death are greatly amplified. And he blames Izo for everything that had happened, so he's just here to make his life a living hell by slowly ruining what he has worked so hard to achieve... just like how his actions and his confession ruined the goals of the Tosa Kinnoutou. He's gonna gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss his way through this, and slowly chip away at their bond. As much as Takechi doesn't want to break his own master, because... he's actually quite loyal to his lord... having her betray Izo's trust so he comes crawling back to him like the loyal, disposable dog that he is... is the plan. A broken master is one more vessel for Amanojaku anyway, so that's one plan in the drawing board.

Takechi is observant and studies his master well. He picks out all of their good points, and uses it to his advantage. Picks up on their weakness and uses it to his advantage. So with Kiomi who is always quite good to her servants, it's easy for him to tell Izo that he's no one special. That there's no preferential treatment for him. Even when there actually is. And he purposefully lets Kiomi get a glimpse of his mental assault on Izo to get her to do what he wants. He is literally here to ruin people for the sake of his own goals. After all, he cant have his master distracted by silly matters of the heart. He also wants her to be more calculating, use everything she has at her disposal. He doesnt mind being used as a tool so long as the goal aligns. How very Chen Gong of you.

Lol. I dunno what this became. But that's my ramble for today.

A related pic for the story in the tags. :'3c

If I managed to hurt you all a little bit, you're welcome.

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“The Ones We Love Hurt Us Most of All – The Story of My Life Spent With My Abusive & Mentally Ill Senior Mother & Drug Addict” by Lesley Patterson AKA Lady Opaque It’s ironic and incredibly depressing to think that those who are supposed to love us unconditionally, such as our family members, are so quick to flip the script on you just because things didn’t go their way. Hence, they throw a fit, and suddenly you’re the bad guy. Fuck man… So, my own mother turned on me and literally filed false police reports that caused a Detective to need to meet with my husband and me regarding supposed Debit Card Fraud charges. On top of that, she lied her ass off to get a Temporary Protection Order Against Domestic Violence. Despite telling us that it didn’t matter if we showed up to the Hearing for the Extended Protection Order, the Order has awfully affected us. It portrays my husband and me as abusers who get off on the abusive acts that she falsely stated we’ve committed. In all of its forms from physical to verbal to mental and emotional. Whatever my own mother could say and think up, she said because the Courts took her so seriously that we are a threat that they attached a Firearms Addendum to the Retraining Order. Neither my husband or I may own any firearms anymore for the whole period of a year while the Restraining Order is active and in effect. This is just because we weren’t able to get out to where she is as we don’t have our own car or a means of transportation right now to travel there. We all used to live out in the boonies in Fallon, NV., with the whole family, but the situation kept on getting worse and never let up or got any better, so I took the next logical step and did something about it. I was swift and decisive in my actions when I decided to speak with my mother on August 27th, 2019. “And why did she do this,” you may be asking. It’s quite simple, really. She’s played this game ever since the early 1980s when she claimed that I was molested by my father (of which I have no memories of having occurred ). She went the whole 9 yards with him, too. At the end of the ensuing Custody battle, my mom had everyone believing that my father was a pedophile and a deranged, evil man and drug addict. I, in fact, now actually do not think that I was ever even molested by my dad. I genuinely believe that my mom just wanted to get back at him for the issues they had in their relationship. She’s deranged, and it was quite convenient for her to lie so that she could be granted a TPO, which turned into the same thing that we were served with due to her lies, a Restraining Order Against Domestic Violence. Needless to say, I never had a relationship whatsoever with my father or with his side of the family due to my mother’s influence, and now I see why we were treated as the black sheep of the family and continuously scapegoated by family members. It’s because my mother is fucking lying, shameless and horrific bitch that no one, not even her own blood relatives, wants anything to do with. It was hard for me to understand that as a child and a young adult. I knew my mother was mentally ill and on drugs, but I never really saw all of the abuse and tactics for what they indeed were until I’d summoned up the strength and guts to finally leave her to her own devices. It’s all very simple to her. I’m sure; she wants to hurt my husband and me for no longer wishing to live with her after over 17+ years of living together with her constant drama, untreated mental illnesses, and everything else. It compounded with her incessant nit-picking and family fight, causing ways along with her daily wants, needs, and unreasonable and abusive demands. Her behavior and false allegations about and towards my own father drove him to literally insanity. The poor man went bat shit crazy and finally broke down, brought the lawnmower into the old family home, set an accelerated fire with the gasoline inside of it, and prepared to sit down and burn himself alive. I shit you not, this is 100% true! That’s what really happened to him as a result of what my mother had done, she had broken him and permanently damaged his reputation, and he felt there was no going back or moving forward left for him. I find that quite sad… Finally, I think he just wanted relief from the torture, the pain, and the relentless agony and angry depression that he suffered from. Supposedly my dad was Schizophrenic, but I’m not sure I buy that one anymore either. (Straight from the horse’s mouth, if you know what I mean…) My mother is a drug addict and a big drama Llama who enjoys picking and picking at you, slowly eroding your sanity and your calmness until she’s got everyone upset in one way or another. I hadn’t known this had happened, but my own mother tried to turn me against my very own daughter. She had manipulated me into believing that it was her who was the disruptive one and caused all of the household’s problems and fights, but the whole time it was her slithering snake ass. I even put my own daughter on probation and had gotten the law involved with police and everything due to my mother’s tricks and deceit. It wasn’t until very recently that my daughter confided in me how her own grandma used to beat the holy living shit out of her whenever my husband and I left her home with her. I feel terrible about it, and it’s something that I can’t apologize enough for having had happened to her. My mother is a hardcore pain pill addict and takes handfuls of opioids daily. (Not counting how often she runs out early due to her severe abuse and misuse of them.) She was supposed to love me and to want the best for me; to raise me to be someone who succeeds in life, but I got the short end of the stick and, lastly, blatant betrayal. I am honestly shocked that she filed false accusations against us, especially on me. Well, I was blown away at first, but then my husband and my daughter told me that they couldn’t believe that I didn’t see that bullshit coming over a mile away. I felt a bit stupid, because the more I mulled it over privately, the more I knew that they were right. Then again, who would want to believe that their own mother could be so heartless as to use the law along with her tall tales and illegal perjury to harm them in such a retaliatory fashion? No one, that’s who and neither did I. I was thinking the other night, and before my mother had gotten myself and my daughter removed from her custody and put into foster care through DCFS back in 2001. She got in trouble for meth use, pain pill abuse, and charges of blatant Child Neglect at the time. I finally came down to the quite painful and heartbreaking realization that I was so much so not a priority to my own mother that she had us living in motels ever since we moved to the Reno, NV. area in 1997. In case you didn’t know this already when you live only in motels, you are legally considered homeless. My mother made me homeless in 1997 when we left my hometown of Sacramento, CA., to move here to Northern Nevada. Back then, also due to her use of methamphetamines, she had so recklessly not planned the move at all or what we’d do once we got to Reno. This inaction on her part caused us to lose the UHaul we’d used to move, and shortly after that, all of the belongings inside of it as well. Everything I’d ever had my whole entire short life at that point, was auctioned off by the company due to her non-payment. It resulted in that because instead of being an adult and doing the right thing and working with them on payments, she fucked up badly and decided it’d be better to try and hide the Uhaul van that we’d used and parked it in secrecy. She couldn’t even do that well enough because she was so drugged out, and the Uhaul company came and picked up their van within just a few days. I was upset about it for the longest time, about losing everything that I’d ever owned. There was a bag of crank in the Uhaul van, and when my mother did have the opportunity to get a few things out, she opted instead to find the meth. She sent me to school and didn’t allow me to come to get any of my stuff out of the van. I lost literally everything I’d ever loved and many important memories like family photos and keepsakes from passed on relatives. It still makes me literally sick to think about it. My mother is the kind of woman who attracts the biggest loser in town, and it always gets exceedingly violent and then ends terribly. The man she chose was a bigger addict than she was and an awful person. He’d beat her often, even right in front of my then-boyfriend now-husband and me. He then started beating me and attempted to choke me out once, but my husband stopped him from succeeding in his attempt. In retaliation, the man threw my baby kitten out of the second story motel window resulting in what was a white kitten with Grey spots appearing like he was brown. I only found this out because I was pregnant with my daughter and searching everywhere for me kitten whom I thought had escaped somehow from the house. Turns out, Animal Control was called to pick him up because he couldn’t move from the spot where he fell and was injured so severely that he appeared brown. This gave me great heartache as it means he was hurt so badly as to bleed a great deal, and when it dried, it caused him to appear brown in color. My main point of this blog post is that no human being deserves such treatment. No one deserves this kind of abuse, yet sadly it’s committed all over the world, every single day by horrible people who enjoy harming others. It’s terribly ironic that my mother has turned her tactics of abuse onto my husband and to this extent, especially when you consider that we were the ONLY ones who were ever there for her, and this is the thanks that we get? Intimidation, harassment, threats, attempted Criminal charges, and a Restraining Order? Neither my husband nor I have ever once been in trouble with the law, and yet somehow, they believe this cunt who has a pension for pulling these stunts on people to get back at them for decades??? Breaking away from abuse is always a scary endeavor. If you stayed, at least you’d have the surety of knowing how it’s likely going to turn out, but many people really fear change, especially big ones. It took a lot of thought and courage on my behalf to decide that myself and the other members of the family no longer should be treated so abusively and taken advantage of by my mother. I did get away, finally, after many years of relentless maltreatment. Things are starting to get better for us rather quickly now, too. I have a new job, and my husband can finally get the knee surgery that he’s needed for years. My main point here is that there is hope! There are loving, kind people in the world, and you shouldn’t ever give up and stay in an abusive situation because it’s never going to get any better, only much worse. Worse yet, you’ll waste all of the days, months, or years of finding yourself and actually living and enjoying life if you stay with your abuser. It can be done, you can leave, and things can start to improve, it just takes a leap of faith and a bit of work, but you never have to stay in those circumstances, it’s unhealthy and only leads to stress, sickness, and precious time wasted. Work on yourself instead, take the first step and tell yourself right now, make a promise to yourself, that if you’re ever being abused by anyone you love, you’ll leave. The name of the game is to “love thyself” and believe me, you ARE worthy of love, and you ARE worth it! By Lesley Michelle Patterson AKA Lady Opaque of www.WritingBeautifully.com https://www.facebook.com/The.Official.Author.Lady.Opaque https://www.writingbeautifully.com/blog

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