#because i've felt stuck since 2020. jdjdjjcixjHdkcjfjdjdkcjs

[bewby]

i literally am like so low energy it's terrifying like i'm so depressed and i am so excited when i randomly get these moments where i actually text people back and feel happy and motivated but i'm so tired of waiting for it and i wish i felt like this all the time or at least. felt neutral and not so . tired and lacking in energy. i want friends and i want love but i can't pursue any of that properly because i can't give people proper friendship bwcause i'm so exhausted all the time and i never have time either and when i have time i'm sleeping and exhausted and sad. it all sucks.

i know it's all my fault too and i still deserve love but it's hard for me to see myself that way. everyone just keeps on talking about how people like me who are doing terrible are still deswrving of love. and it's true i think that about everyone who's doing similarly to mw but i also can't blame people for getting really fucking tired of me cjjyhdjduxgjdhshshj🤣🤣🤣

i want to reconnect with my ex/bestfriend but i can't because i don't have the energy. i have so many people on here that i would love to text more and to build a strong friendship with but i have. no. energy. all i do is think about it and get so sad because i can't do anything about all these wishes. everything is getting harder for me to do. and i wish some random miracle would happen that would finally redirect my life into a better direction