#because I didn't want good skin to make me look even *more* femenine

[the-siphonophore]

Small rant:

One of the most frustrating things about being transmasc is the infantilization. I'm below 25yrs of age, and pre-everything. Everyone older than me talks down to me, half my peers do as well, I'm kind of tall but even so, everyone who's said something about it has said I'm like a kid or younger sibling to them. 90% of appearance compliments are that I'm "cute" even from all the folk that genuinely support me as trans. I'm everyone's sweet baby boy and tbh I'm sick of it. It's not that I think I'm big and scary, or super super charismatic, I'm just a guy and I want to be treated like one. It makes it hard to want to show my (very copious) delight and affection towards the world when it's met with an example of equivellent of "awww you have such a cute button nose!!"

[traditional-dancer-idv]

GENERAL HEADCANONS FOR THE TRADITIONAL DANCER

a follow up to my info dump at @bloody-trio , this time w bea! TW! mentions of drinking and alcohol abuse, depression, unhealthy coping mechanisms. let me know if a missed anything,, this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks I haven't read it in a while TT just unleashing it to the air

Bea's full name is Beatriz Esther Férnandez.

She really doesn't like her middle name, as well she doesn't have swcond last name. Only having her mothers.

Beatriz's father figure growing up was hee brother, her actusl dad having done the old going to get cigs and never coming back, he didn't want another child.

Her mother's name is Alejandra Fernandéz, not taking his father's as, y'know.

As i've mentioned before, she used to play the guitar as a teen, a family tradition before she picked up dancing.

Her title is the traditional dancer (WOW!) because of the center region chilean dance "Cueca" (PLS SEARCH UP VIDEOS OF IT IS SOSOS PRETTY).

She's from Santiago, Chile. The capital! Lived in the more rural area of it, tough.

Beatriz is 1, 78cm without heels, making her kinda insecure about her height (most women in Chile not being taller than 1,59) being made fun of by her peers when she was a teen. Turning to a more femenine look to compensate for that """masculine""" aspect of her appearence. Makeup becoming her comfort.

She has really long natural eyelashes, mascara only making them longer.

She's got eyebags, ever since leaving home she hasn't slept well most days, another thing she covers up with makeup.

She has scars on her palms from broken alcohol bottles she tried picking up.

She had severe depression and alcohol abuse when she started to feel the absence of her brother, shutting down for days on end and not taking care of herself.

She still suffers from some repercussions from the alcohol dependency, her hands being unsteady and having bad memory of things on this stage of her life. Dancing and getting better 'fixing' some of her worst symptoms like unstable moods and uncoordination of the steps.

After all that, she still can't help getting drunk when she's stressed, not having another coping mechanism sadly.

Her favorite wine is the Casillero del diablo, for it's bittersweetness.

She loves dresses, not having a lot currently apart from her formal "huasa pituca" and dancing dresses. Skins being limited to special ocassions (so wearing them feels more special she thinks.)

Makeup is LITERALLY her therapy, getting dolled up and looking pretty really cheers her up. She can looks like she was hit by a bus but she'll still manage to put on some lipstick, even with mascara and eyeshadow staining her face.

Beatriz loves her hair, feeling that it's one of the prettiest things about herself, she loves when her friends braid or brush through it, altough now that it's cut shorter she fears it might be more difficult (😞).

Her favorite flowers are roses and hydrangeas, red roses hold such a deep meaning to her and she just thinks they're neat. Hydrangeas are more for their looks than any strong feelings but she loves them regardless, especially the light blue ones.

She's AWFUL at baking, can't bake even if her life depended on it, ironic because she really loves sweets. Has been suffering ever since she entered the games because she can't eat her fave pastries.

It's funny because she's really good at cooking, her favourites are soups and broths. She'd eat chicken soup everyday if she was allowed.

She's un labeled, she plays both ways and just wants to be loved after everythings she's gone through and doesn't really care about fitting into a box when it comes to her sexuality.

She's a romantic at heart, is a terrible poet but she makes an effort TT. Her love language is physical touch, she's very clingy but even simple acts as holding her hand or brushinf a strand of hair behind her ear will get her gigfling like a school girl.

She's the master of flirting and pick-up lines if she set's her mind to it. (I remember one time on her old blog someone saying she flirted like a construction worker and I genuinly DIED.) Loves seeing everyone flustered up platonic or romantic.

Beatriz loves making things by hand!! Watch her make psper flowers or origami the second she gets her hand on a piece of paper when she's bored or her making her own accesories and pins for her hair.

Her hair is naturally straight, not pin straight but more that it shows. She uses cans as rollers at night and eats it up, she takes PRIDE in her curls made from canned peaches.

Her role in matches is kiter, her abilities mixing with her dancing. Tries her best to not let anyone behinf but feels as if it's necessary sometimes, you can't always save everyone but feels like an asshole when she can't get a full man or a 3-man (the sacrifice being her), unless you're an asshole, she won't hesitate to leave them in the rocket chair to secure a win.

She's not really strong, more speedy and agile than anything else. Her upper body just isn't used in her art as much as her legs.

Is really bad at expressing herself, she finds it hard to be direct most times unless she NEEDS to get the point across outside matches, inside she's a lot more strategic and tries really hard to be logical (wich sometimes doesn't work, she's a crybaby at heart).

She has generalized anxiety, another side effect from her drinking and depression.

Is realy trying to be better, sometimes feeling are just hard for her, she's just a girl inside all the bad things.