#becaAUSE IT'S TRUE

[montanabohemian]

#y’all not got chain restaurants wherever you are? y’all not got prepackaged foods? y'all never eat a canned soup? #shocking how just bc those things are /available/ in the us doesn't mean that's what we all eat all the time

A lot of American cooking is really quite French and it has been for centuries and I used to not know that and everyone talked up French cooking so much and then I started actually looking into it and I was like. I. Cook like this. Everyone I know cooks like this. This is just butter. It’s butter, Michael. It’s butter. You were hyping up butter. I can already do this.

[donniesbabygirl28]

OMG BABE I GOT YOUUUU!!!

I think this one is cute I made it up of the spot for you🤭

I was thinking like matt dillon x reader we’re the reader are on the cast of the outsiders and during the filming of the movie bts they were flirty and stuff and kinda like touching each other (non sexual ofc😟) and towards the end of the movie he asks her out and that go out on a date and like some time later there in interviews they talk abt each other and it’s all cute and shit

Idk if you don’t like it ignore it if you do then cool!

-Tia🤍

OMG THIS IS JUST OML! I MADE MY SIS READ THIS REQUEST AND I WAS BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS AS SHE DID!

ITS JUST BEAUTIFUL!

You were more than thrilled when you found out you got the role for "The Outsiders"

You have been waiting for them to call you and you were so nervous.

You sat in your dressing room, as the staff did your makeup and hair.

Once they were finished, you went outside to meet everyone.

Tommy (Ponyboy) was so sweet to you and he made you feel very welcome.

When you met Matt. God, your heart just almost stopped. Same for him.

You talked to each other the most.

You did the first scene and you walked with pony , Johnny and Dallas.

Matt couldn't keep his eyes off of you. They had to do many retakes becaause he was so distracted.

"Jesus, Matt. Gotta crush on the lady? Get it together" Ralph said, nudging his shoulder.

He blushed harshly.

"N-no. I don't, hush and mind your own role" He said playfully

y'all did a few scenes at the drive in and he threw his arm over your shoulder as y'all sat in y'all's seats. (def was not scripted)

The last scene took many takes but you definitely got it down.

You cried as johnny's heart rate went flat, hugging Ponyboy and Dallas ran off.

"Dally!" You screamed as he ran out the hospital.

You looked at pony then at Johnny, making you cry more.

The scene cut and you wiped your "Tears" before Matt came back into the room.

"You did so good Y/n" He complimented, rubbing your shoulder gently.

"I honestly thought you were really sad." Tommy said.

You all laughed and filmed the last scene.

When it was over, Matt walked up to.

"Hey y/n. Do you think I could talk to you in private?" He asked, smiling nervously.

"Sure tthing, sweets." You smiled, taking him somewhere private.

"Whats up?" You asked, sorta scared.

"Well, um I was wondering if maybe you'd like to go out sometime. I uh really like you." He said, trying his best to hide his blush. He was scared he might have ruined a very special friendship.

You smiled brightly, kissing his cheek, before nodding and walking off.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

A month later, Matt was in an interview. The rest of the cast was backstage, watching him, waiting for their turn.

"So the fans wanna know if there is something going on between you two. They have suspected you looking at Y/n like you were in love, that true?" The interview host asked, the crowd going silent waiting for Matt to respond.

"Um" He chuckled, a pink tint on his cheeks as the crowd laughed.

You were as red as a stop sign as the rest of the cast teased you.

"Yeah actually, um. I asked her out when we were done with the movie and she said yes and here we are." He said as the audience went "aw" and some laughed as he tried to play it cool.

"What made you like her?" A fan screamed.

"Yes that's a good question what made you like her?" The host asked Matt.

He blushed some more and went on to tell everyone.

"Well you know, she was there for everyone and she was just very sweet and very very pretty and I don't know, it just made me feel somethin I guess." He said as the audience screamed at how cute his response was.

"Why don't we get Y/n out here, hm?" He said, calling someone to bring you to the stage

Matt hid his face in his jacket, intensely embarrassed.

You walked onto the stage and sat right next to him, wrapping your arm around him smiling brightly.

The audience squealed and hollered.

Matt smiled to himself.

"That's so cute you guys. Y/n, what made you fall in love with Matt?" The host said, asking you the same question as Matt.

"Well he was very kind and he just has the most amazing smile and he is really handsome and he just makes me really happy and I wouldn't pick anybody over my sunshine." You said, fixing his hair gently, moving it out of his face as he smiled and blushed.

The crowd screamed as the host ended the show off on a great note.

(I'm so sorry if it's bad, I wanted to improve it but I didn't want to do too much and make it worse, I hope you like it, I was really excited to write this. Thank you for the opportunity bae <3)

[skincareroutine]

what kind of rumors like petty ones or crazy serious ones like oh i heard u wear extensions is that true vs oh i heard ur ex best friend infected u with hiv becaause she had it and she pricked her thumb and put a drop of her blood in ur coffee when u werent looking is that true

omg the second one sounds gnarly. both i guess. don't you miss human connection

[lopez-richter-fangirl]

Almost word for word what I replied to Corey lmao 🤣🤣 I said "YES it's the Tin Can Dog Dads 😭😍 we love to see it"

😂😂 it’s becaause it’s so true!!!

[princesscatherinemiddleton]

harryandmeghansussex’s nothing but nice november challenge ↳ Christmas walk - are they going? What colour is Meghan in? Who are they walking with? [24/30]

are they going? - if this six week break is true (and I hope it is), they’ll be away over christmas so i’m guessing that they won’t be at sandringham for christmas this year. despite that, i’m still predicting because i’m a basic gal

details: club monaco coat || club monaco dress || j. crew boots || victoria beckham bag || verse fine jewellery necklace || tiffany and co. bracelet || birks earrings || rings from birks, solange, karen walker, and i+i || cornelia james gloves

reasoning: this club monaco ensemble she wore for her thanksgiving visit to the hubb was one of the best meghan looks of all time and it’s christmassy enough to bring back and wear for the big festive day. I chose her j crew boots becaause they are little and cute and relatively cheap, as well as her victoria beckham bag. meghan’s little hangbags suit her and this one goes with the look and the squareness is a bit different. meghan needs some properly black gloves, so I chose these cornelia james gloves (which kate wears a lot). as it’s not a formal engagement, as such, and as archie won’t be doing the walk, i chose meg’s a necklace, as well as rings with love and a heart. for her other jewellery, i chose simple items which went well with everything else but didn’t detract from the overall look

[seamripped]

Adventures in Cape Making Part 6/?

I realized yesterday morning that if I wanted pockets on my cape, was aiming for breastpockets that could fit my phone, then I would need to do those *before* hem stitching the sides together because they're sewn only to the blue.

So I traced my phone plus seam allowance out of blue from one of the scrap trapezoids. Then I zig zag stitched around them. Then I put on just the blue half of the cape and roughly pinned the pockets from there. This was smart because their rotation was not really expected however I should have marked which side would be the opening. Becaause, come sewing the first pocket, I realize on the last side that one of the sides needs to be open so I akwardly move all the fabric around so that I just hem that side to itself not to the rest of the fabric. This strategy works out fine. Until I go to try it on and discover lo and behold, the top of the pocket is closed and the bottom is open!

So in true r/usernamechecksout fashion I seam ripped the whole top edge, top stitched the bottom edge securely onto the cape, and hemmed the top edge to itself.

The second pocket worked out mostly much better because I knew all of what not to do. However I also ran out of black thread two sides in only to discover the only black thread I had left was a small spool of greyish black. I went for a dark purple instead because it's just on the pockets and hey why not.

Then went back to the craft store and bought: more black thread, silky this time though not pure silk bc it wasn't shiny, smaller spool, and more expensive ew. Also bought more studs because yes and magnetic snaps because I was still a little concerned about the pockets not closing on all sides and this is the most secure to least sewing ratio.

[automatismoateo]

Hijab is not just a scarf... Rant of a middle eastern woman via /r/atheism

Submitted January 30, 2021 at 04:19PM by Truthgo (Via reddit https://ift.tt/3oxAa5N) Hijab is not just a scarf... Rant of a middle eastern woman

1- hijab being a choice is a privilege.

Hijab culture is so toxic it's pretty much women one upping eachother on how invisible they could be because the more you cover up, the more browny points you get on being a "good muslim women".

This reaches it's top in the niqab whose women give up their enitre idnetity becasue it's a race to the bottom. How invisible can you be to avoid triggering men sexually.. well the face is an attractive part of the body.. cover that.

Instead of advocating that women live their life freely the hijab advocated that women live their lives trying to avoid triggering men sexually. For example you shouldn't speak softly to avoid triggering men with your voice. Another example there is a religious saying by the prophet that if a woman wore perfume and walked by a group of men and they smelled it, she is considered an adulterer cus she might trigger them with her perfume lol it's so effed up

2- the pressure on men to enforce it

Because of honor culture women are already not free to do what they want anyway, add to that the idea of hijab and you have a society where women's clothes is considered a reflection of how much of a man her husband is.

So, not only is the woman considered less because she doesn't cover up, her husband is also considered less of a man because he doesn't make her do it. Men are shamed for how their wives dress/behave and are called dayouth ديوث ie why do are you letting your wife showing her body to people ..This is because of a hadith by the prophet mentioning the dayouth word

3- Extreme slut shaming.

Women are called / "motabraja" which is a dergatory term for uncovered women or those who wear makeup/ whores / "naked meat" "cheap meat"/ the wood of hell fire if they take the hijab off. This is because of one "hadith" ( a saying by the prophet mohammed) where the prophet goes to the upper sky and sees women tortured because they were " dressing nakedly"

Women are constantly made to feel guilty over how they dress. To give you an example most women are made to feel guilty for wearing pants or jeans.. Even if she's covering every inch of her body she isn't wearing "proper hijab" becaause to be a good muslim women you should wear clothes that " don't show the size of your legs" why? well ofc to avoid triggering men sexually

4- victim blaming is the norm

Women are almost always blamed for their sexual assault, they weren't modest enough and did the ulitmate sin of triggering the guy sexually. This happens everywhere but here it's to the extreme. again "nromal clothes" like a wearing a t-shirt or showing your hair are considered immodest and provoking the attack

5- it's not oppressive because some freely wear it?

Some people will say some women freely wear hijab so it is not oppressive for me it's like saying some Chinese people freely like the CCP so there's no political oppression in China. You can freely wear it but taking it off requires you have to consider the backlash you will face from everyone around you and the physical danger you would be in if you spoke out against it. I was one of those ppl who freely wore at 11! But when I grew up found out that I can't freely not wear it.

6- it's only in the middle east that's oppressive?

Some people say it's only in the middle east.. Please watch Dina Tokio's video where she's reading hate comments of being called a whore and a porn star because she is showing her hair. This has happened with many Muslim hijabi youtubers who chose to take it off. So it's a problem with the Muslim community everywhere!

7- other religions have it too?

The difference between the Islamic rules and other religions is that people take them incredibly seriously and literally. Liberal Muslims are a minority. The laws of the most Muslim countries is mainly inspired by the religion or out right theocratic. In the west you can escape your religious family and live a normal life else where. In the Middle East you have to leave the whole country for that which of course not everyone can afford.

8- that's just culture?

Some ppl will say it's culture but this is not true it's a mix of both toxic religious ideals of what a good woman is like plus a toxic patriarchal culture. Women being considered adulterers for wearing perfume is a religious saying for example! How do you expect a culture inspired by that will be like?

9- so you want us to ban hijabs

Ofc not. I just hope western feminists will stop accepting it as freely as they have. It's incredibly naive to try to water down the experiences of millions of women who were programmed with the toxic religious mindset and just start promoting that it's a choice without questioning why the hijab exists in the first place. Western women don't know how good they have it just being able to Show Your Hair. Wear what they want. Wear cute dresses. Show some skin. It's sth I had to spend 25 years of my life trying to do.

.

[maximuswolf]

Hijab is not just a scarf... Rant of a middle eastern woman via /r/atheism

Hijab is not just a scarf... Rant of a middle eastern woman

1- hijab being a choice is a privilege.

Hijab culture is so toxic it's pretty much women one upping eachother on how invisible they could be because the more you cover up, the more browny points you get on being a "good muslim women".

This reaches it's top in the niqab whose women give up their enitre idnetity becasue it's a race to the bottom. How invisible can you be to avoid triggering men sexually.. well the face is an attractive part of the body.. cover that.

Instead of advocating that women live their life freely the hijab advocated that women live their lives trying to avoid triggering men sexually. For example you shouldn't speak softly to avoid triggering men with your voice. Another example there is a religious saying by the prophet that if a woman wore perfume and walked by a group of men and they smelled it, she is considered an adulterer cus she might trigger them with her perfume lol it's so effed up

2- the pressure on men to enforce it

Because of honor culture women are already not free to do what they want anyway, add to that the idea of hijab and you have a society where women's clothes is considered a reflection of how much of a man her husband is.

So, not only is the woman considered less because she doesn't cover up, her husband is also considered less of a man because he doesn't make her do it. Men are shamed for how their wives dress/behave and are called dayouth ديوث ie why do are you letting your wife showing her body to people ..This is because of a hadith by the prophet mentioning the dayouth word

3- Extreme slut shaming.

Women are called / "motabraja" which is a dergatory term for uncovered women or those who wear makeup/ whores / "naked meat" "cheap meat"/ the wood of hell fire if they take the hijab off. This is because of one "hadith" ( a saying by the prophet mohammed) where the prophet goes to the upper sky and sees women tortured because they were " dressing nakedly"

Women are constantly made to feel guilty over how they dress. To give you an example most women are made to feel guilty for wearing pants or jeans.. Even if she's covering every inch of her body she isn't wearing "proper hijab" becaause to be a good muslim women you should wear clothes that " don't show the size of your legs" why? well ofc to avoid triggering men sexually

4- victim blaming is the norm

Women are almost always blamed for their sexual assault, they weren't modest enough and did the ulitmate sin of triggering the guy sexually. This happens everywhere but here it's to the extreme. again "nromal clothes" like a wearing a t-shirt or showing your hair are considered immodest and provoking the attack

5- it's not oppressive because some freely wear it?

Some people will say some women freely wear hijab so it is not oppressive for me it's like saying some Chinese people freely like the CCP so there's no political oppression in China. You can freely wear it but taking it off requires you have to consider the backlash you will face from everyone around you and the physical danger you would be in if you spoke out against it. I was one of those ppl who freely wore at 11! But when I grew up found out that I can't freely not wear it.

6- it's only in the middle east that's oppressive?

Some people say it's only in the middle east.. Please watch Dina Tokio's video where she's reading hate comments of being called a whore and a porn star because she is showing her hair. This has happened with many Muslim hijabi youtubers who chose to take it off. So it's a problem with the Muslim community everywhere!

7- other religions have it too?

The difference between the Islamic rules and other religions is that people take them incredibly seriously and literally. Liberal Muslims are a minority. The laws of the most Muslim countries is mainly inspired by the religion or out right theocratic. In the west you can escape your religious family and live a normal life else where. In the Middle East you have to leave the whole country for that which of course not everyone can afford.

8- that's just culture?

Some ppl will say it's culture but this is not true it's a mix of both toxic religious ideals of what a good woman is like plus a toxic patriarchal culture. Women being considered adulterers for wearing perfume is a religious saying for example! How do you expect a culture inspired by that will be like?

9- so you want us to ban hijabs

Ofc not. I just hope western feminists will stop accepting it as freely as they have. It's incredibly naive to try to water down the experiences of millions of women who were programmed with the toxic religious mindset and just start promoting that it's a choice without questioning why the hijab exists in the first place. Western women don't know how good they have it just being able to Show Your Hair. Wear what they want. Wear cute dresses. Show some skin. It's sth I had to spend 25 years of my life trying to do.

.

Submitted January 30, 2021 at 08:19AM by Truthgo via reddit https://ift.tt/3oxAa5N

[traumatictirade-blog]

😱 (( sidenote, i love your fantroll?? so much?? akjdaksjka ))

((aw!! thank you so much! im glad you like my absolutely garbage troll!! ))

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[journeythroughselflove-blog]

January Overview

31.01.2020

Hoo what a month! So many things happening in the world, makes my problems seem so superficial. Ok, let’s go!

I never managed to drink 3L of water a day! BUT I’m not disappointed because if I would have let it disappoint me I would have gave up and we don’t give up this time. The goal was to make a habit of drinking more water. I definitely drink more water but what I’m most proud of is that I’m looking for water everyday. I always have a little bottle with me when I go out, or a glass on my desk. Now, I get lazy sometimes and I don’t get up to fill it, even if I feel thirst but, hey, I’ll just bring two next time haha. The thing is, I got used to more water, I crave it more and it’s great!

I tracked my food (tho not the whole month, maybe he first two weeks) but enough to find interesting things. Apparently I rarely go over 2000 kcals a day, which is not great but not bad. That would be the only “good” thing. The worst thing I do is starve myself during the day (because I suck at time-management) and stuff my face in the evenings. That’s no goody-good becaause, feeling reaaaally hungry of course I overeat and then I feel like shite. I eat something sweet DAILY, I crave it like it’s fresh air. That’s something you need to quit cold-turkey tho, in order to let your taste-buds forget about it and not crave it, but I’m definitely not ready for that yet. I don’t eat many greens and vegetables and fruits, a pretty amount of carbs... basically, nutritional-wise, food is only slowing me down. I don’t give my body what it needs to feel better/work easier.

Walking. I walked my dog everyday (but I always do that anyway), I had a few days walking her for 2 hours and days that I walked her 20 mins. Not bad not great. No great improvement in this area. But I want to believe it is because of the weather? I mean, it’s either really cold and my hands are freezing, either raining and everything is wet and icky. I’m feeling optimistic tho, I catch myself thinking about squeezing more steps when I’m outside, My laziness wins over sometimes, and the plan doesn’t get over the thought phase, but sometimes I take the long route and it’s something! Also, I’m going to a party tonight and I’ll dance for the whole month haha

Ever since I discovered the  ‘We Only LOOK Thin’ podcast, I listen to it when I walk the dog or commute, I feel so assured that I’m on the right track, listening to their stories helped me realize that I’m doing something that’s working, and a really healthy approach to weight-loss. I need to get over the fact that I have to do it “all my life” from now on, and it shouldn’t sound scary. It’s a lifetime of good choices, a good habit-based life that can be sustained, not a “sad food”, unrealistic 4 hours intense gym and 6am jogging everyday type of life that definitely wouldn’t work for me. They say “only do a thing if you can keep up with it for your whole life” and that, for me, put everything in an easier to grasp light. I suggest you go listen to them, they’re “suuuuch an inspiraaation” haha (you’ll get it)

I managed to drop 1kg this month! This morning I was 87kg (191,8 lbs). I consider it a win 😁

Ok, now the soul part. Man, what a journey. I got answers to my questions. But how I did it’s the interesting thing. I was listening to Spirits podcast and this episode came up, “Tarot”. I got obsessed, just like that. I got in contact with it a few years back, a friend of a fried was into it and she “read” my cards once but I completely forgot about it. Untiiil now, I felt really drawn to it, like the Universe was trying to help me get answers, that’s how I see it now. For three days I started to research it and it felt more and more like the thing I needed. I was about to buy a pack when I met with a a friend, I told her randomly about my new found obsession and was baffled to find out that she too really liked tarot and surprise surprise, she has a pack for donation and she gave it to me. My brain exploded, during the research I found this superstition that your first pack should be gifted to you and look, yet another sign that I was on the right track. I started reading for myself, I get a bit overwhelmed sometimes, I use the explication books to help me read because I don’t know the meaning of the cards yet. I got answers to my problems using my soul’s voice. I will write a different post about this in detail in a few days. Short story, It helped me start creating again, wanting to put work now and then (don’t imagine hardcore working, 24/7, doing all the things I never did and being a bawse, let’s be realistic). I started working on a project that I wanted to do for almost 2 years. I’ve been putting it off for 2 years because I was afraid of learning, afraid of messing up. what? Baby steps take you further that being frozen in place, maybe even dripping backwards. 

I also bought a few crystals that I’m planning to learn how to use in my benefit, how to purify and energize and all that jazz.

Getting on this spiritual journey is an even better idea than the habits one haha. I didn’t even know how much I needed to connect with myself, my true self, that little girl I told you about. She’s there and I finally found a way to talk to her, and help her even more to come to surface. But I’m in the beginning, there’s so much I have to learn, to let myself talk to her. I tend to get so blocked on the bad surface still, but I’m slowly cracking it.

I turned off the notifications from the social media apps, I’m not checking them out, in order to remain in a healthy head-space. I still binge a lot a Youtube content but I tryyy so hard to at least watch while I’m getting other things done, and not just lay there and watch, forgetting about myself, my life and my goals. Still not very successful, but I’m getting there.

Meditation... I only meditated “for real” once. I can’t make myself do it, even if I want, I don’t have the power yet to stop everything and just sit still, not overthinking. I found a great app, Beatfulness, binaural sounds for different aspects of day to day life. I play a track each night till I fall asleep and I kinda counted that as meditation. 

Bonus: a few of the plants in my tiny window-garden

[notesonfilm1]

  Gabin as he is in La Marie du Port (right), and the much more youthful portrait the poster advertises (left). The image the poster sells harks back to his thirties films, perhaps hoping to appeal to his pre-war popularity and regain it. But it´s also an image that somewhat contradicts one of the film´s main themes, which is about inter-generational love. The film itself I´ve now seen twice and it gets better each time:

The film is based on the novel by Georges Simenon (see above) and tells the story of Henri Châtelard (Jean Gabin), a well-to-do owner of a restaurant and cinema in Cherbourg, the biggest town in the region, who accompanies his mistress Odile (Blanchette Brunoy) to her father´s funeral in the small village of Port-en-Bessin in Normandy, only to fall in love with her sister, Marie (Nicole Courcel).  There are several obstacles to the union of Châtelard and Marie: Marie is seeing a young local boy Marcel (Claude Romain), crazy in love with her and threatening suicide; she´s Odile´s sister; there´s a considerable difference in age (one of the things the poster for the film is trying to obscure); Marie doesn´t want to be a mistress like her sister, living the good life but shunned by ´respectable’ people — she wants a ring.

At the beginning of the film Henri and Odile are driving to the funeral of Odile´s father. They get a puncture and arrive late. These first few scenes paint a powerful picture of small town life and mentality. The house is so small, mourners and well-wishers remain outside, on the street. Inside, Marie is feeding the family. Odile and Marie have three younger siblings, which now have to be distributed amongst the aunts and uncles to be brought up. We get a sense of a subsistence culture –whether the children can earn their keep is part of the discussion of how and to whom they will be distributed –and that  children will most likely be used as slave labour until they come of age. Odile has escaped this by becoming Châtelard´s mistress. But at a price. She doesn´t really love him, or at least no longer. She´s stuck in Cherbourg where she really want to be in Paris. And she´s being shunned by the village folk she grew up with. Carné well indicates the community´s opprobium towards her by the expression in some of the mourner´s faces as she arrives to her father´s house (below right), something that reminded me of the scene with the nuns at the hospital in Almodóvar´s  Live Flesh (below right) and how a series of expressions can not only evoke character but a whole structure of feeling.

Marie is hard-working, dour, conscientious, honest, and Châtelard is smitten from the first moment he sees her (below left), an image significantly rhymed the first time Marcel sees her with Châtelard: interestingly, one is on the inside looking out, the other outside looking in.

Carné surrounds himself and this production with some of the greatest talents the French cinema of the period had to offer: Jacques Prévert worked on the screenplay (Louis Chavance and Geroges Ribemont-Dessaignes are the writers credited); there is beautiful work by Herni Alekan as cinematographer, the legendary Alexandre Trauner is with Auguste Capelier credited for the production design. And the way Carne orchestrates the various elements they contribute tells you all the story you need to know and more, as you can see in the lovely image below, where Claude, in the image that follows the one above right, sees Châtelard and Marie, clearly in love because, as you can see below, in that busy café, surrounded by people, and with Marcel´s own father propped at the bar anticipating the scene to come, the light seems to envelop them alone, a couple, even if they themselves don´t yet know it.

One of the things that´s striking about the film is the presentation of a freewheeling, guilt-free, pragmatic and easy sex-life to almost all of its characters. Marie and Marcel are the exceptions: she too puritanical and serious, he over-excited and dangerously romantic. But they��re young and they will learn.

The clip above is preceded by a scene in which a party leaves Châtelard´s restaurant because their table has been handed over to the local football team who´ve just won a match. The party leave in a huff except for the young woman who goest to the cinema next door. Châtelard has gone there too to eat his lunch and get some peace and quiet. But before the newsreel is over, they´ve agreed to spend the night together. It´s a scene that luxuriates in the cinema itself,  letting us see it in wide shots, with the projector throwing a beam of light in the darkness, and the screen itself creating a glow in the space. Note the partial lighting of the characters, allowing us to see their expressions but evoking the covert by the surrounding darkness. Note too the adventurous (at sea) playful (the cat), the structured (army manouvres) the explosive (the guns going off), and the brief that´s indicated in the newsreel being shown but that is also commenting on the action we see.

Another scene that I also found unusual in its attitude to sex is the one where Châtelard and Marie, find Odile (Châtelard´s mistress and Marie´s sister) in bed with Marcel (Marie´s boyfriend).  Marie and Châtelard have had a fight, he goes to find Marcel and when he opens the door he sees Odile and Marcel in bed together. Instead of being angry he finds it a joke, laughs, and won´t hold it against them later. It´s a scene unimaginable in American cinema of the period.

What I also found intriguing about the scene is that we´re shown the action through a relay of close-ups that indicate each of the principals´reaction but tellingly we´re never shown a two-shot or a medium shot in which Odile and Marcel are in the frame together, as if the idea really is too incongruous.

When Marie descends the stairs it´s photographed so as to evoke a feeling of hopes plummeting. But it´s not what Châtelard suspects: ‘If you only knew how little I care  about Marcel, even if he is with someone else, and even if it´s with my sister’. When Marie admits that she had really come for him, that she hadn´t wanted to say it but it´s true, the camera pans to a little girl, dressed poorly, with a milk can on one hand and a loaf of bread under her other arm,  behind a barred and locked gate that casts shadows inside (Châtelard here calls his house a cage). On one level the little girl is there as a narrative device to demonstrate the intrusion of the public on a private and sentimental moment. On a more metaphoric level, it´s clearly a commentary on Marie herself. But what exactly? It´s a moment that´s given considerable weight. It comes just after Châtelard says ‘Oh, so it´s for me that you´ve come’, at which point Châtelard looks left, and a pan follows his gaze to show us the little girl. Does that mean that there will be another young woman after Marie? Is it meant to signify a younger Marie. And does it mean that her choosing to go with Châtelard will be a kind of prison? I´m not sure but it´s an image that raises these and more questions and thus lingers in the mind (see above).

Carné is clearly in love with cinema and the cinema setting allows him to express it to us. Gabin is filmed against cannisters in his office, we see the projection system, posters, the cinema itself and clips from several films. The cinema also affords a nice contrast to the life and world Marie comes from.

La Marie du Port has two scenes set in Châtelard´s cinema. The first is the easy pick-up I discussed earlier on. The second takes place amidst a screening of F.W Murnau´s Tabu. Châtelard speaks of getting old, of time passing. Odile is off to Paris. Marcel to the cruise ships to become a lady´s hairdresser. Maybe he too will go away, in that boat he´s been fixing in the village. Besides one isn´t alone when one travels he muses. Marie comments that he doesn´t have to be alone. But he replies that, as she can see in the film,  there are girls in every port, ones that don´t impose conditions: rings, marriage. This is an interesting rhyming scene with the first scene in the cinema: the newsreel, vs Murnau´s romantic and luscious Tabu; they´re alone instead of part of the crowd as in the earlier scene, and more importantly, Marie walks out on him. She´s not that kind of girl. And he will chase after her, offer her the keys to his business, and make jokes about how at the wedding he´ll tell the officals she´s his daughter doing her first communion.

Seeing  La Marie du port again I was struck by how queer it seems to me now and not just becaause Carné was gay and he met his long term partner Roland Lessaffre , the sailor next to Gabin above, on the film : Chatelard, unmarried in his fifties, the open relationship he´s established with Odile, the easy pickups in cinemas, the older/younger pairings and the switch the narrative delivers, the dream of escape to the big city, the dream to be a lady´s hairdresser, the homage to Murnau, the identification with the prostitutes and the lowlife, the handsome sailors, the hypersensitive youth who attempts suicide. It evokes a ´structure of feeling´´or a ´’gay sensibility´of another time without anything being mentioned. I read the book yesterday to see if it was just me projecting: it isn´t. The film follows the book quite closely and is a page turner, more ‘exciting’ than the film, but without the depth or any queer connotations. Claude Viau, Marie´s young lover, takes up less space in the novel whereas Carné gives him a whole set of recurring scenes, his own struggle and dream, plus the way he´s visualised. The other question is, if this is so glaring to me now, why did I not notice it upon first viewing in Bologna where the main topic of conversation seemed to be the discrepancy in ages between Chaterlard/Gabin and Marie/Nicole Courcel, understandable as it´s one of the film´s main themes  (in the novel he´s meant to be 37 to her ‘six months short of 18).

La Marie du port was shown as part of the Gabin mini-retrospective at Bologna and he´s glorious in it, understated but alive at every, and in every film he´s got a moment of expression that brings a character alive. The moment below is characteristic.  The scene is really about Marcel and his father (Julienne Carette, the poacher in Renoir´s Rules of the Game).  Gabin´s just responding. But look at how he responds; his expression evoking a whole lifetime experience of dealing and humouring drunks, completely relaxed and at ease, yet indicating a strength capable of dealing with every situation.: a man who knows how to handle himself.  It´s wonderful.

  As is the film. It´s a great film that hasn´t yet gotten it´s due, possibly because Carné and Gabin, separately and together, have so many other more famous masterpieces in their filmography. Don´t let that deter you.

José Arroyo

        La Marie du Port (Marcel Carné, France, 1950) Gabin as he is in La Marie du Port (right), and the much more youthful portrait the poster advertises (left).

[nnatasha]

i ordered a top on ebay 

the other day and

when it arrived

i cried. 

it wasn't that it was bad

nor was I particularly sad

but it smelt like a lost friend,

the kind you see after years 

and your heart doesn't pound 

when you laugh with them.

the kind that make you realise

you're not a child anymore

[pearsalad]

so should I ruin my own life orrrr have I already

[g4yr4t]

I had to call in sick for the firsst time since the summer and I made annie late to work because I didnt decide that I needed to call in until we were already on our way and I’m just like. debilitatingly guilty about that because I have some major issues about missing work/school/etc. that I’ve developed over the years and I already asked for the afternoon off so it’s horribly transparent and scheduling is soooosososo tight where I work.

but like I really need to make sure I can schedule and get an appointment for today because I’m almost out of meds and I need to get more refills and also talk to someone about getting a therapist and a med specialist there and I can’t guarantee that’ll happen unless I call in at 8 which would be impossible to do at work. I’m really fucked up from having to ration my meds even for a couple of days.

and I couldn’t fucking sleep last night. instead I had like five panic attacks and screamed and thrashed. speed racer is really congested which is not only bad in general (especially since we’re just barely making rent this month) but also makes it really hard to sleep in my room. annabell’s asthma is flaring up so she’s super sick and I’m really anxious about that. my guts are all fucked up because of the anxiety and just because my guts get fucked up at the drop of a hat, so I have really bad cramps from that. I was having dreams about killing myself and woke up panicking and wishing I could just die.

I wouldn’t have been able to teach ffectively today, and it’s better today than some other day because I only had four hours scheduled in the first place so it should be easier to fix and it would be worse to have to miss work some other time becaause I ran out of meds and it fucked me over. I know all of that is true but I still feel horrendously guilty and want to die.

[antibullyblogz-blog]

My Bully Story:

Hey Guys! anitbullyblogz here with another blog about bullying!

So, all of you out there who have read my first blog know, I myself had a bad experience with bullying in my past. I’m not afraid to share this, and I hope it will inspire anyone to share their experiences as well. Here in the world of antibullyblogz, anyone is welcome to share what goes on and if they need advice. I am here for everyone! Without further ado, let’s get into my story.

~Story Time Start~

In fifth grade I was... a pretty happy go lucky kid. I was one of the few kids who could make friends easily. But, that was at least what I thought I was. Yes, I was happy all the time, yes I was friendly, but no, I didn’t have as many friends as I thought after the bullying began. So, as we know bullying comes in all sorts of shapes and sizes, some versions being over the internet, others being over how someone looks, and others bully for absolutely no reasons at all other than to have fun. I think that none of those choices are how I was bullied. I wass bullied in a way that may not make sense to you, and it may not affect you like how it affects me. As I said before I was friendly and happy, but I am also emotional so I found it as an emotional sort of bullying that made me not want to go to school. But here is where the story actually begins. Lunch at my school had everyone split up into different classes for different tables. Sadly, I was in a class that had absolutely none of my true friends sitting at it, and I was surrounded by people who I coonsidered my friends. But, I was sadly mistaken. As soon as I sat next to this group of so-called friends, they moved away from me, down the line of the table. I just thought it was some sort of way to make room for other people to join, so I did the same thing. But, in turn they moved away. I’ll tell you now that I just went with it, thinking it was just a one-time thing. So, the next day I went to sit with the same group of people, but, once again they moved away. This time I asked them why. Their reply was: “Because no one likes you.” Well, that was what I remember it to be, it couldv’’ve been: “becaause you aren’t cool.” anyways, this continued say in and day out at school for many weeks. Eventually it finally seeped into my soul about what was going on, and that’s when I started not wanting to go to school. That was when I had to admit to my parents about what was going on. They were upset that I didn’t tell them before, but understood why I wouldn’t want to share. In turn, they started getting me meetings with the guidance counselor where we talked about what I was going through, and thought up ideas of how to make things better. In the end, Ithe ability to sit anywhere I wanted was given out, so I could sit with my actual friends and avoid this conflict which was resolved. 

~End Story Time~

So, I hope you read through this giant wall of text called a blog. And I hope that you have figured out the message oof the story. If you are being bullied don’t wait to tell anyone. If you are being bullied, tell an adult right away so you don’t go as far as I did as to skip school faking a sickness.

Once again,

I’m antibullyblogz, 

Peace Out!

[Don’t be afraid to share my posts!]

[idkitshiro]

9-20-2017 12:52 am Tuesday

theres alot on my mind that i wish i could capture and write down. alot of things i feel that i wish i could write about in full length and whole detail.  when given as much time as possible to think about things, my consscious streams endlessly, i exhaust my mentality and often and usually always consider the worst of routes possible, and try to speculate outcomes that are impossible to predict. infinite amount of possiblities. at some point you need to make a decision. no matter how much time u are given there is a point in which trying to hunt for as much extra information and detail produces very little gain. the margnial rate of return becomes smaller and smaller.  i need to be confident in myself. i want to be confident in my answers, and in all the knowledge i acquire , experiences i shared with others , memories i have made that no one else have seen. the hardship is when you are the only person who knows the truth, whether youre speaking about your actual emotions or childhood experiences, feelings u once had. there is so much that we do not know, and is impossible to be knowledgeable to understand everything, experience everything. its being able to decide confidently, out of your own faith , that you follow what you think is true. what is right in your eyes. i want to be able to rely and trust on my own knowledge, i want to be able to think for myself, lead my own life, so that i can help others do so themselves. i want to be able to accept the person i am. the image i give to others, and being able to love who i am. remembering who i am.  ive lost my way. ive doubted everything , everyone around me, becaause i was unable to believe in myself,unable to trust myself.  i want to trust myself. so that i do not have to think twice, about what is right or wrong. about who i am.