#bc the thing is... i KNOW my feelings werent unrequited and he has never said he didnt feel that way for me

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do u have any random bits of dirk/jake/dirkjake meta u haven’t posted abt but would like to share.. I just love your thoughts on them lol

My honest answer to this question is that due to the nature of most stuff im working on i'm Never *Not* Thinking about them. Though most of these thoughts are disordered and a tad holistic, so calling it meta feels silly when im just pointing out text observations or something ill later fit into a story LOL

That being said, the latest detail I've been mulling over (and if you follow my rambletwitter this will not come as new information) is the manner in which jake will exaggerate aranea's hot-girl availability and interest in him entirely to spite dirk (Here, brain ghost dirk,) for ignoring him and his attempts at communicating for the first half of act 6. 

Jake knows being around aranea makes 'A' dirk jealous, jealous enough he won't shut up about it, and this kind of honest no-bullshit attention is the very same he's been fruitlessly looking for as the AR hogs all viable lines of communication and "real" dirk refuses to tip his hand. There's an ongoing theme there that i don't usually see explored, and its part of what makes their relationship blow up in the latter half of act 6: Dirk's emotional maze and steel mask of irony prevents him from being sincere and open with the people he loves (metaphorically and literally) even when they're standing right next to one another. You can talk at dirk without talking with dirk, the same way dirk can talk at you without focusing on you - bit of a bad habit, there- and this sort of mixed signal drives jake a little bit mad. He's not even sure dirk likes him half of the time, because it is not something that is stated between them. (And as i said before, the verbal affirmation part of the "believing" process is a big thing for jake - and generally fits right into his neurodivergent profile. 0 emotional permanence, if you don't say you like him he's going to doubt it with his pingpong brain.) So when he sees the opportunity to actually get dirk to react in a way that makes sense, he grabs it. Its a big "Oh? So now you can pay attention to little ol" me???? Now you care??"

(The jump in tone between these because dirk wont let go of stewing in bitterness while also trying to make jake embarass himself & jake throwing it right back at him that at least alien girl is talking to me! And yes she is ""hot""! "And most importantly maybe if you werent so difficult this would be US!!! . jpeg" is A Lot)

(I also posted these two, bc the way jake casually mentions his status with dirk and/or tries to get her to talk about Real Lore Shit instead of more winkwonk nonsense says more about his intentions than brain ghost dirk prompting him into thinking about porn by yapping about it)

In game dirk latches onto making them adventuring agendas and exercise programs and matching outfits and grinding for exp inside dungeons for 8 hours straight, nonstop, most of which probably spent rambling about the supposed intricacies of sburb's philosophical stances, but all of it is never *explicitly* about the nature of their romantic relationship, or affection, or any sort of emotional intimacy without a takebacksies of "i'm kidding, because I'm a stone cold cool dude." It's almost as though he's making their romance into subtext just for the sake of unproblematically acknowledging it as a Bromance instead, given he still thinks the AR forced jake's feelings, except… he's also desperately trying to engage with jake like this, expecting any attention to count as positive attention. Its a nonstop marathon to effectively monopolize being around jake without having to touch on the complicated / embarassing / necessary parts of dating someone. When jake finally loses interest in playing this extended brainpuzzle game of 0 honesty with dirk and his many extended dlc splinters, he goes to sit on the grass and huff and rant about it, but it's nothing we haven't actually seen before. Jake states many a time that he's not sure if dirk is really into him, with all the false positives. But he has no qualms about saying if he had to date someone, itd probably be dirk, or that he used to joke way back if dirk was a girl they'd be totally in love until he realized that didnt matter, all the while objectively classifying jane's hinted at feelings as "unrequited" or straight up saying "no, I'm not in love with aranea, what the fuck?" When brain ghost dirk gets it into his head that he really wants to get into her pants and does all the heavylifting to entirely shift the conversation about how much she is his perfect alien girl. Its just funny to see how jake picks up that this is just because dirk is jealous, and dirk being jealous means hes willing to truly engage in what looks like an irritated but honest way, and jake wants said attention so much hes going to milk it for what its worth. (But when given the chance, he couldn't give less of a shit for actually kissing aranea, and it is actually framed as something horrifically wrong, because it was never about her, it was about dirk.)

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anne ep 6 my thoughts while watching

ahh the beginnings lol bash first good impression but winnies parents ugh baby delphine so cute bash knitting?? yes easy to be with - easy way out gilbert caring so much about his outit josies mom helping her aww thats goals but focus on boys isnt so much cute what is that cake oh jk its perfect aw my baby anne caught feels for gil :( too bad he doesnt feel back what happened to the whole dance scene ok gil plus daffodils is so cute radish is spectacular hehe at least he waves to her but :(((( no winnieeee ruining everythinggggggg since when do you care??? hahahaha but she does galloped out of the pages of a novel splendid chin diana lending dresses aw so sweet cufflinks i dread that scene walking you home aw jerry could it be true? just very confusing feelings - omg i love the veil reference bennet and darcy hands touching!?!?!?!??!?! eyes were ruby observed gazing aww this is so beautiful crush but she never answered ugh matthew fixing his hair who is he trying to impress lmfao love the acting can never say it enough the radish lolol might as well call to the end likes to loves wowowo love out of a friendship good question romance spoils friendship she looks so pretty all the great stories about unrequited love the baby horse is so cute aw offer as a suitor - he has SM TO OFFER i love bash i love this whole fair scene oml cakes can be sensible? numbers as good omens cute wild horses couldnt stop me her awe at everything is so cute fortune teller >> totally fits annes vibe frauds are a big sad tho love how anne didn't pay her tho i want good answers annie lol aw frauds rip baby delly is so cute and i love the girls fangirling over her aw i iwish anne werent so oblivious AWW MY HEART IS IN PIECES NO ANNE MY BABY at least she wasnt led on for long tho shes really quite an exceptional person i love that i want a lynde relationship that shit is wholesome asf yee ms stacy thank you for winning this is for my girl awwwweeee awe she's back from college!!!! yay andrews the elder yay marilla won YES JERRY my boyyy billy tryna impress her lol utter domination aww lol but the other kids are like lmao what diana and jerry sneaking off aww thats so cute the gloves so iconic but i hope she doesn't get her heart broken someone deserves happiness here at least OMG THEY KISSED on the lips holy fuck i.did.not.expect.that go diana so forward my love dont shit on queens groundbreaking immunology research - the sorbonne good parents but still that was odd from nigel yay but theyre doing well rose such a nice last name im glad gil introduced his smile is so sweet winnie and anne meeting uh oh haha anne exposed fraud yeet ah i hope she doesnt miss the cake comp this bitch is like wha i wouldve settled for one me too girl awwwwww the baby 27:00 classmate and family friend false them arm in arm is so cute i want that but ahhhhh ostentatious my ass i hope so wins so bad oh no oh no oh no oh no yay gil for going after her yay the HEARTS IN THE BACKGROUND mary wouldve found that really funny i love how he said that to comfort her aww anne my baby is so sad aw matthew didn't win either... :((( im so sad now uhh aw i hope he doesnt get shit on thanks jack for the tips but dont shit on my child badge of honor i love that far from a prize winning day in every regard aw BUT DIANA AND JERRY kissing hand to kissing mouth so coute literally going to hell in a handbasket THATS JUST WHAT WE WERE DISCUSSING LMFAO but the liniment thing was funny hehe im not unlucky - most unusual  I LOVE THAT still not over diana kissing jerry oml but i hope her parents don't find out that ship was so good issa tethered balloon but thats so cool in the 1900s look down haha theyre about to get heart attacks was that charlie that idiot oh jk its not but prince edward island pretty hello world where they gonna land lol i love how happy they are in this scene square dancing aww moody thats who it was in that pic dancing winnie and gil no its supposed to be anne right??? who even is winnie sets of 6 that was in class the other day aw where gil tho diana and anne i love their friendship so much luv theyre all so happy aww gil in the middle rip annes heart aww no chemistry anymore what how did this happen josie and the beginning whats happen gil secret sweeheart? PRISSY THATS HER NAME josie sneaking out lol moody and ruby aww josie and billy aww this seems kinda sweet but he said pretty jk thats sorta materialistic they kissedddddd aw she feels uncomforatable stop him stop go girl ugh billy what a douche circassian circle what are these names lol aw josie so sad matthew and stacy her reasons tho so funny AND HE AGREED BC OF IT AHHAHA aww rumors are spreading rip josie but now everyone knows L i'd hate that matthews adorably awkward whats ANNE ABOUT TO DO YES GIRL billy what a dickwad aw theyre all turning on her now yes the feminism i love that aweeeeee anne my child whats she doing making her own paper? thats wild about whawt josie? for the whole town to read uhhh idk about that fuck it ended