#bc that's different to the role i play for teachers / co-workers / parents / friends / strangers / brother's friends / friend's brothers
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i'm sitting in my bedroom, doing girly things; screaming out the lyrics to "good luck, babe", scrolling pinterest, feeling happy, when suddenly i'm snapped out of it (i think i've escaped the male gaze / the male fantasies that haunt me / but i realise i'm waiting for their approval / i am acting cute / dancing in my room / and that's just it / i am acting / pretending i don't know they're watching me / which only adds to the fantasy)
#where's that margaret atwood quote#everything is a male fantasy#it's inescapable#what do you do with it?#i want to beg the men around me to give me their adoration their approval their love#not only that but i also want to pretend i don't care#i'm torn#i don't want to care#but that's part of it#that's part of the role they want from me#i was forced to sign a contract the second they announced i was a girl#an act / a performance for the rest of my life#i truly cannot escape#i have a boyfriend#but i must play a role for him too#who does he want me to be?#bc that's different to the role i play for teachers / co-workers / parents / friends / strangers / brother's friends / friend's brothers#do you want me to be flirty / kind / sexy / smart / desperate / funny / clueless / happy / unbothered / unaware / sad / yours?#“i want you to be yourself.” he says#i repeat my question#“i am whoever you would like me to be”#margaret atwood#poets#poetry#feminism
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