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lilyimmsim · 3 months ago

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i'm sitting in my bedroom, doing girly things; screaming out the lyrics to "good luck, babe", scrolling pinterest, feeling happy, when suddenly i'm snapped out of it (i think i've escaped the male gaze / the male fantasies that haunt me / but i realise i'm waiting for their approval / i am acting cute / dancing in my room / and that's just it / i am acting / pretending i don't know they're watching me / which only adds to the fantasy)

#where's that margaret atwood quote #everything is a male fantasy #it's inescapable #what do you do with it?#i want to beg the men around me to give me their adoration their approval their love #not only that but i also want to pretend i don't care #i'm torn #i don't want to care #but that's part of it #that's part of the role they want from me #i was forced to sign a contract the second they announced i was a girl #an act / a performance for the rest of my life #i truly cannot escape #i have a boyfriend #but i must play a role for him too #who does he want me to be?#bc that's different to the role i play for teachers / co-workers / parents / friends / strangers / brother's friends / friend's brothers #do you want me to be flirty / kind / sexy / smart / desperate / funny / clueless / happy / unbothered / unaware / sad / yours?#“i want you to be yourself.” he says #i repeat my question #“i am whoever you would like me to be”#margaret atwood #poets #poetry #feminism

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